I fisted my hands around his neck as his one hand was placed beside my head to balance his body weight above me and the second was holding my dress up enough for him to go inside.“F**K!” He cursed under his breath as I felt him groaning against my chest making my lips dry and heart beat quickened. “You are so big.” He rasped as I was wearing skin colored bra which wasn’t very attractive and somehow made me feel a little embarrassed. I know it didn’t make sense but every part of me at that time was making me feel insecure.He could always be suited with a girl like Areej who was straight from a fashion model magazine. I didn’t even stand against her as he must be feeling disappointed right now. But seeing me or I should say tasting could only be a part of lust in which he was drowned at that moment. Lust could attract anybody to anyone. Anyone who was available and for him I was the one available at this hour of the night. But thinking of him soon getting over with me after his lust w
There is always influence of other people around you that changes the environment and you have to change yourself according to that. People say that if you have strong mind and heart that could be stopped from floating around anywhere and anytime then the aura of the bad influence can never affect you. But I don’t think it’s true anymore because no matter how much strong you are you always have to bend yourself a little in order to adjust yourself to the surrounding. That’s why we always say choose a healthy environment and make friends with good and happy people so that even if you have to change yourself you should do that according to the healthy parameters of life.Why I am saying that all of a sudden because what happened last night made me believe that. I always had a strong will and mind because I had cousins who were involved in unhealthy activities but that never influenced me because I kept a decent distance between us or most probably, they didn’t have time and liking to ma
FARZAN’S POV:Nothing had been going fine and smooth since the moment she had entered my life but again my life was never smooth and fine. It always had ups and more significantly downs. People had a weird way to say I had everything as I got everything when I was born but they didn’t know how much I had strived to maintain this.I was born with the burden of all this to maintain since my father had to make some terrible mistakes so grandfather had to train me in a very young age. He wanted to turn me into a monster like I am today since the moment I was born but my mother was there. She did everything to raise me like a normal child as she was just like…her.Yes, she had a heart like her. She was sensitive like her even when she used to smile everything brightened around me just like her. I knew she never smiled in front of me as she used to be reserved in front of me but I had seen her with my father, my friends and other people as everything bloomed around her whenever she smiled a
AUTHOR’S POV:The room was filled with smoke as the fireplace was ignited with multiple photographs of familiar people burning inside as if someone was trying to remove the itching pain by burning their faces in the burning fireplace. As if that could ease the pain and give them peace.The door knocked but the man sitting in front of the fireplace didn’t budge his eyes from the burning photographs which were burning into ashes. The whole room was in dark as it was only the fire which was igniting the room. The closed curtains didn’t allow the moonlight to peek through them and enter the room which was giving the glimpse of a graveyard at that time as the silence was so dreadful that could make your spine shudder.“Sir…” The man entered the room with dripping blood from his right arm while there was black coal powdered on his face. His breathings were harsh and small while his eyes held the fear of turning just like the photos in few minutes.“Sir…” He tried to say something again with
“You can go and sleep.” His eyes were fixed on me while his words were mentioned for Suzi. I could see through my peripheral vision how she smirked and left in an attempt of hiding her smile while I stood there in front of him like culprit who was caught red handed.“I think you like to talk about me but…” He took a step forward while I tried my best to not step behind and run like a coward. “…but I would prefer you do it with me.” He said as his eyes scanned me deeply from head to toe as I couldn’t help but squirm under his scrutinized gaze as he always looked at me like he owned me. Owned every part of me the way he glanced shamelessly at me that with my clothes I felt naked underneath his heated gaze.“Dad…dad asked me to go with her. He didn’t want me to go alone.” I tried to explain and deliberately change the topic as he shook his head a little with an adorable tilt of his head. His hands were in the pockets of his pants while his vest was on but the coat wasn’t anywhere to be s
He didn’t talk for the rest of ride as I was grateful of the caller who called him in the car and kept him busy for the rest of the ride. I just wanted to buy the seeds and respective flowers for the garden and go back home…without talking to him as whenever he started to talk, I always just remember how much of a blunder I made last night with my tongue.The sight of him buying flowers with me was weird and heartwarming at the same time as he was in the mafia and I knew how much dark aura he had around him but the person surrounded by flowers could never radiate any type of dark energy and I wanted him to know that he could stop that darkness consuming him from inside if he wanted that but I thought he didn’t have any motivation for doing so.Do we have to pick flowers from the forest? I thought to myself as he entered the car when the guards opened that for him with a salute only for the car to get welcomed by the lane surrounded by tress from either side as I couldn’t see anything
It was also night when we started our journey back towards home. After picking up all the flowers and seeds I wanted we sat and had lunch during which he spent most of his time on phone much to my relief because I got to have a prolonged conversation with Saad. It turned out he was in high school and his school fees was paid by him who was busy in his phone with a frown which was a unique feature to the normal people but for him it was constant part of his life. Despite the time when he saw me the way that could make me feel my stomach fluttering in response.“What do you want?” The ride back was home was silent until he asked me the question.“What?” I looked at him with dumbfounded expressions as his eyes were set on the road with shades on them. It was injustice to the beautiful green eyes which had all the emotions hidden under that stone one.“To eat.” He looked down at me as he tilted his head towards the road to let me know we were on a food street which was guarded by food sta
FARZAN’S POV:She f**king lied to me. I was fuming with anger and if anyone else saw me like this he would definitely be shocked that the person who was the cause of it was still alive at that time as she must be busy cooking in the kitchen without caring what chaos she had been implicating on my life since her mere presence in it.I was on verge of killing someone and I still didn’t know what to do. That was it. She made me helpless in her case. I could kill her easily if she wasn’t…her.“S-Sir.” After a knock to which I didn’t answer my secretary came in as she had her hands trembling but she tried to hide it with her tight grip on the files. She was an almost fifty years old woman as she was working with for more than a decade. She knew when I was in a mood to talk or not and right now, I was definitely not but still she came in and try to worsen my mood.“Sir.” She tried to act professional with the clearing of her throat.I bestowed her with a glance which was enough to take th
BONUS CHAPTERI bit my lip as I glanced myself in the mirror for the tenth time. I was wearing an off white colord long dress with a deep D-shaped neckline showing a little bit of cleavage but it was enough for him. I was giving him a hard time since he had discharged from hospital. He was dying for me as I could see that in his eyes but I couldn’t let him do that because of the stiches he had.Now the stiches had been removed as he was recovering speedily since he had started going to work just after he got discharged. I just couldn’t hold him in the mansion for rest not for more than a week as everyone surprised by that as it was the longest time since he had stood away from work.“Oh My God! Look who is trying to seduce here.” I was startled as Areej entered the room as she could only do that when Farzan wasn’t here. She was also married as I glanced at her from top to bottom when I mused.“I am not the only one who is trying to seduce.” I said as I raised my eyebrow in mischief lo
EPILOGUEAYSHAM’S POV:There weren’t any regrets in my life as I never had to take any decisions. I never took decisions out of spite or in anger. It was the first time I took one in order to punish him and now I was regretting to my core that even my soul was bleeding. I didn’t know for how much time I was waiting outside in the cold corridor of the hospital because he came in front of me while the gun was hot. Everything happened so suddenly that mind couldn’t comprehend what had happened in just mere seconds that led my Farzan to go in that state.I had cried already like a well that now my eyes were painfully sore with redness in them as I could sense that the way the nurses and doctors passed by gazing at my state. I didn’t care less at that time.In these hours I had gone through every emotion hatred, rage, helplessness and love. I was overwhelmed by these as really for the first time wanted to kill that Bilal Hashmi but he was already dead. Yes, he was dead and he did that to h
AYSHAM’s POV:It felt like everything had ended at that time and the doom was about to come when I was trying to open my eyes despite the throbbing pain in my head. I managed to open my eyes like a slit to come forward with the darkness around me as only the small light coming from the small square shaped window at the corner of the room was coming inside to show me my shimmering dress. I was still in the bridal attire as I didn’t have the energy to change and then leave the place where I received pain and joy both in those recent months.“You are awake?” My breath hitched as I found the source of the voice very near to me. Squinting my eyes at the corner of the room I felt like someone was sitting and it was true when the tall figure rose to his full height and walked towards me revealing a face that I never saw in my entire life.“W-who are y-you?” I asked as I couldn’t even back forwards because I was already against the wall.“I am your husband’s karma. Bilal Chaudry.” He said as
AUTHOR’S POV:She entered the room shutting the door with a loud thud as her hands were moving fast in order to find something specific that could ruin and save her life at the same time.“Where the f**k I put that?” She threw the blanket away in frustration as in few seconds the ruin became destructed by her frustration as she knew she would clean it again but right now she wasn’t looking at her senses. As if she had to know what happened next? Whether they wanted her more or not? Her work was like that She had to remain alarmed all the time as there were so many eyes and ears around her that could wash away all the efforts, she had been doing for so many years. She was about to crouch down and look for the thing under the bed as she knew she left it here hurriedly knowing no one would come in the room as it was just used by her, when she heard the sound of footsteps so close to her. Her eyes became widened as her heart stopped beating as more steps entered the room which turned her
AYSHAM’S POV:It was a storm. It was raining heavily in broad daylight giving the expression of evening in the noon. It wasn’t like a rain you call lovely as it was the one which brings destruction. Shaking my head at my own thoughts I thought about the positive thing and that was my wedding which was happening in a normal and more realistic way.Taking in a shaky breath I went to stand in front of the mirror the final touch of my make-up was done and the make-up artists went away packing their stuff turning me into someone who was mesmerized by seeing herself in the mirror. Yes, I was really looking like a bride. Tears started filling in my eyes as no matter how much a girl negates her wedding deep down, she has a desired to be in a wedding dress. I never wanted a fancy wedding as I just wanted a good spouse but seeing myself right now in the mirror, I was feeling blessed to be here after all the pain I went through. I knew that life is never the same. There would be pain and joy side
FARZAN’S POV:“It’s confirmed then.” My deep voice echoed in the conference room as we were right now in our headquarters where we all do our dirty work. My men were listening to me intently as they were as worked up on the wake of these new rivals of us as I was. This time the other side was taking things to the personal level and even in that time I didn’t have to yell at my men because they were ahead in doing anything. Just like I didn’t want any harm to them they also wanted the same thing for me as that’s the best conclusion of earning someone’s honesty. Nowadays it doesn’t love which is need for success it’s just honesty and the degree of loyalty your men show to you and I was blessed with a high degree.“Yes sir. There is a traitor among us.” Imran said as they all agreed to him because many of our things were leaked already that made the enemy so close to us.“What’s the next step?” One of men asked as they were eager to know the plan which made me smirk. I really liked the c
AYSHAM’S POV: I was glad since the party was boring and also regrated the moment when I talked about Precious because after seeing off Mr. Alam we were heading towards the car. His fingers were intertwined with mine as his jaw was clenched showing how endurance he was showing at that time. He was actually going to imprint him in my mind just like the way he said as I suddenly remembered last night’s Farzan. He was gentle and a beast at the same time as I still feel how deeply he went. He was walking slow as compared to his normal gait just because I could match his steps but still, I had to run in a way because of his long legs as compared to mine. Soon we reached the car as he opened the car door for me making me look at him with eyes adored with make-up. “A-are we going home?” I asked as craned up my neck to look at him. “Yes, because my patience level is draining and I don’t want you to moan in front of anyone. Only I have the right to do so.” He said with his gritted teeth. “
AYSHAM’S POV:I was awestruck when I glanced at the dress. It was a silver gown embroidered with beads. There was emerald green jewelry with the gown as the sparkling stones were going perfectly with the dress along with the heels which were green in color.“Mr. Shah picked everything for you.” One of the maids informed me when I was in my room sending pictures to Suzi and Areej and earning their comments from them which weren’t decent as they all included Farzan in that.The Gala was tonight as after our breakfast he had to leave after a phone call but he didn’t forget to make out with me again against the door. It was evident he was forcing himself to go but still I had to push him into the lift so that he couldn’t eb late and people could say the behind the destruction of a man there is a woman.“You look exquisite in that.P.S If we were alone, you would have also looked exquisite in nothing.”The moment I opened the box there was a chit placed at the top of the dress with a red r
AYSHAM’S POV:The thing that made me squirm in my sleep was the warmth in which I kept sinking myself as I was about to drift to sleep again when I felt the bed beneath me vibrating. I groggily opened my eyes as I looked down to find a bare chest as I starred at it absentmindedly but soon realized who it could be when without looking up, I turned into beetroot. I was snuggling into his hard rock chest as the grey sheets were covering both of us.“Are you awake butterfly?” His deep masculine voice reverberated as I glanced up at him to look down at me with his eyes wide awake. It seemed like he was awake for long.“When did you wake up?” I asked as I had my palm rested on his chest while the other one was raising my half body upwards in order to let me look at him.“When you were cuddling with me like a teddy bear.” He smiled as his eyes darkened when he looked down at me making me glance at the same direction as his as blush crept up my cheeks when I abruptly covered my naked self wit