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TOO CLOSE TO STOP

Author: RosyKosy
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56
NICHOLAS:

Who said we should follow our heart? How does one suggest following the stupidest and most confused part of the body?

I had been sorting my heart all night, not knowing where to find solace and refuge till I left the sleeping Rahul in his big bed.

Rahul is not wrong now; it is not going to end well. But I do not want to hurt him. If it could be easy to kiss memories to the abyss, I wouldn’t think twice about doing it for him.

I wish Rahul wouldn’t have memories of me. I want his ability to stay happy and stable without living in the memory of us.

The truth is, it is not just about Rahul; I am aching and withering. It is hard to let him go. He has made my life engaging these past months, and I dread to cut off ties.

But I must walk away for his sake and mine.

About following one’s heart, I refuse to agree to such nonsense. If it was the best guide, it means nothing but to follow Rahul and Greg. I could keep them both and maybe introduce a polygamous healthy relationship
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