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I take a short, quick breath through my mouth after checking the time on my phone.
Thirty minutes before twelve midnight, but Lance is still not here. The food is already cold. I can’t warm up right away because I don’t know what time he will arrive. I sent him a lot of text messages but even one of them he didn’t reply or even asked what time he will be home. I closed my eyes again, but this time I bumped into the glass table. “Ouch...” I whispered. I massage both my temples in a circular motion using my middle and pointed finger. I’m very sleepy and my head hurts from trying to stop the sleepiness. “If you are sleepy, you should go to sleep in your room.” As I perceived his deep yet gentle voice simultaneously, I sensed Lance placing his jacket coat on my shoulder. When I stood up, I couldn’t help but smile even more, and now his face was close to mine. Even though it looks like he’s overworked again, it still can’t hide his good looks. He has always been handsome. He has attractive blue eyes. A towering height. His skin is creamy beige. Has pinkish and kissable lips, also he has a perfect jaw. Add to that, he is calm. “No, I waited for you, for this.” I pointed at the table with one of my hands. “The food just got cold. But I can heat. I didn’t know what time you would be home. That’s why I didn’t warm up right away.” I waited for his response, but he just kept looking into my eyes. I sensed Lance’s gaze on me, or perhaps due to my nervousness about the gift I was going to present to him. “You don’t need to reheat the food. I’m not hungry either.” His voice became icy, which made me even more nervous. “Is that so?” I almost stammered. “I have a present for you.” And in the interim I am holding the gift box, Lance spoke again, which stopped me for a moment. “I want to get a divorce, Celine.” I returned my full attention to Lance. “W-What are you talking about?” Lance placed the brown envelope he was holding on the table and requested, “Sign this so that I can process our divorce papers right away.” “No... why? Why now? Did I do something you didn’t like? Tell me what’s wrong with me and I’ll change it right away. Please, Lance, say you’re just telling a joke. I can’t, especially now–” “Celine, let’s not torture ourselves anymore. We both don’t love each other, so what’s the point if we continue this nonsense marriage–” “I love you!” I cut him off. “I’ve loved you for a long time, Lance. I learned to love you to where I want to build a family with you.” He was unable to speak immediately. He seemed surprised and did not expect what I told him. He cleared his throat before speaking again. “Your feelings for me cannot change my decision. My decision is complete and I want to divorce you.” “But, Lance...” I opened the gift box and showed him its contents. “I’m pregnant.” “Who is the father?” “What?” My voice is trembling. The tears I was holding back were falling out of my eyes one by one. “What kind of question is that? Of course you are the father of the child I’m carrying.” “This can’t be. I can’t have a child with you.” My eyes widened. It’s like a handful of ice was poured on me with the chill I feel from fear! I’m afraid of what my husband might say. No, that thing should not come from his mouth. “You need to abort that child.” He ruthlessly said, as if he did not think of how painful his words were to me and it’s like he didn’t hear what I said that he is the father of the child he wants to abort. I couldn’t think anymore except that I wanted to protect the child in my womb.CELINE POV-I looked over at Starr, just catching her eye. She was happily eating her buttered chicken, seeming to really enjoy it.My eyes welled up with tears again because of her situation, and I couldn’t help but blame myself for everything she was going through. The weight of guilt pressed down on me, knowing that my choices had led her to this difficult and painful experience.If only I had thought better then this wouldn’t have happened.“Celine,”I turned my gaze back to Bianca, waiting for her to continue.“I don’t care if you believe me or not but you have to trust me this time.”“And that’s the one thing, the only thing, I can’t just give you without a second thought,” I admitted, with utter honesty.“I understand, but in this situation, please consider it carefully. Okay, don’t trust me, but place your trust in your daughter.”I quietly listened to what she would say next, focusing all my attention on her words.“It’s been months since I first pointed out the exit from th
CELINE POV-I took a moment to process her words, and my initial reaction was a derisive chuckle.“You?” I asked under my breath, dripping with sarcasm. “Will help us escape? Do you even hear yourself, or have you conveniently forgotten what you did to me—to me and my child?”Since I was the only one in front of her, I saw her secretly glance in the direction of the person guarding us.Looking back at me, he abruptly seized what I had in my hands and stated firmly, “I am the one who will prepare Starr’s food. She doesn’t trust you, she even don’t want to see you, so don’t waste your time.”Her words cut deep because of their truth. Yet, her loud delivery wasn’t just to hammer that truth home; it felt like a mask for another, unacknowledged reason that eluded me.She turned and walked away from me, heading towards the stove.I barely closed the fridge before my eyes flicked to my daughter. She was looking at me with an innocent expression, but transferred her attention to Bianca, almo
CELINE POV-I reluctantly agreed to Lucian’s answer. It was better for Starr to be left out of this, to give her the best chance of avoiding harm. I needed to find a way to escape and ensure my daughter’s safety.Leaving Starr here is not an option. My priority is to ensure that, before Lucian tries to take me, either she is far away from this place, or Lance is aware of her existence and can protect her.The next day, he remained true to his word to me. When he left this house, Bianca came again with my daughter.“Starr!” I called happily and tearfully.I quickly matched her height and hugged her tightly, enough to make me feel how much I missed her.“Let me go!” Starr snapped at me.Even though I wanted to hug her longer, I preferred to break away from the hug than to make her angry at me more. As I released my daughter from the hug, I noticed she was tightly gripping the four fingers Bianca’s small hand could hold.“Sweetheart, I’m not a bad person. I won’t hurt your Mummy Bianc
CELINE POV-It’s been two long nights since I’ve been able to see, hug, and talk to Starr.Ever since I lost her again, I can’t bring myself to eat. I can’t even drink water. My mind is consumed by worry and I can’t find peace.Despite Bianca’s seemingly good care of Starr, my anxiety won’t ease until I see with my own eyes my child, long separated from me—the child Lance and I share, who is not in our custody.I’m sitting on the bed now, staring at the door waiting for Lucian to come. This is the first time I’ve ever waited and hoped so desperately for him to return quickly, so we can discuss Starr.It’s been dark outside for a few hours, I’m not sure what time it is exactly but he should be here by now.I got out of bed and looked out the window overlooking the vast ocean.“Hon.”Hearing that voice inside me I immediately felt angry. I didn’t let it surface, but swallowed the rage instead.The moment I turned to look at Lucian, I went straight to him.“It seems you missed me this t
CELINE POV-Slowly, I released Starr from my embrace, gazing at her face before pulling her back into a hug for a few precious seconds. Then, after a brief pause, I drew back, looked at her once more, and then embraced her again.I longed to truly see her, to embrace her with all my heart, but above all, I yearned to share my life with her – to belong with her, with Lance, and with her beloved siblings, Skye and Sunny, as one family. “Mummy...”I pulled away from the hug and looked at her, “Yes, sweetheart?”“When we go outside, will Mummy Bianca be there too?”I gave Bianca a quick glance. She was looking at me too, not smiling nor angry, she’s giving me a straight face look.I can’t trust her, not after finding out she and Lucian were in cahoots, deliberately hiding Starr from me, from us I refocused my attention on Starr. “Let’s sit on the bed for a moment,” I suggested, subtly redirecting the conversation."I didn’t want to lie to Starr, I couldn’t say I didn’t trust Bianca. Sh
CELINE POV-As I looked into my daughter’s blue eyes, ather face, memories came flooding back from when I was pregnant with my triplets, when I gave birth to them, and every day I spent with Skye and Sunny.A montage played in my head: the monthly celebrations during Skye and Sunny’s first year, their birthdays every year since, their first crawls and steps, their first bites of solid food, every holiday, every special day, my and Lance’s children’s first days at school, our move to Lance’s mansion promising never to leave him again, right up to Skye and Sunny’s recent birthday.. All the celebrations we celebrated, every day I spent with Skye and Sunny—all of these came to mind with Starr.With each step I took, my gaze locked on Starr’s blue eyes, a tear falling with every stride.As I stepped forward again, she continued to hold my gaze until I was standing right in front of her.Sitting across from her, trying to meet her gaze at her height, my tears receded. I followed her move