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Chapter 32

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JAKE

Two weeks had gone by in a flash, but the pain remained as if she had just left.

I had no idea how I was able to function, but somehow I did.

My Beta, Gavin, had my back on most days. I would not be able to run the pack if it were not for him. He took all the blows on my behalf and made sure no one from the pack had any idea that their Alpha was suffering, not even my Gamma.

Now I know how it feels to be alive but dead inside.

Some days were a little better, but most days were worse. And I didn’t think it could get worse than it is right now. I’ve just learned to live with it. Day by day. Night after night.

But the nights were unbearable.

Nights were filled with dreams of her turning into a nightmare. If she did not end up dead in my arms, she would run off with some faceless guy, mocking me for falling in love with her. The cycle seemed endless, crushing me more and more every day.

"Enough! We can’t have you destroy all the bags around here, man! There is nothing left for
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Mark Sabrina Tyler
Silly girl! Jake loves her and he would choose her even knowing they're mates. No way he didn't smell her in her house. That would have prevented this whole unnecessary fiasco.
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Sierra Kinney
I hate her so much right now for leaving. They have loved each other forever. She's so stupid.
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Angie
He said fated mates in his family are a curse.
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