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42- A Decision
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I have to make a decision.
Kill her
No, Mate her.
Killing her sounds better though.
But, taking her life for being my mate is too much. Mating her sounds better.
But, what about her unbearable presence?
Ugh!
Filled with extensive seething and no senses, I went home. My mind blank, nothing flashed in it and left me void as my step moved on their own to my room. I washed my face and looked at my reflection in the mirror.
You are a monster.
That's right, I am a monster, so let me show you what this cold-hea
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