I grin as my eyes take in my family's home. I have missed them. Fighting has kept me from visiting for far too long. I straighten my new civilian clothes and switch my bag to my other hand. I take a deep breath and head for the door.
I know my family is expecting me since it has already been announced I am a Gold Ranked Harvest Champion, but I didn't call. I needed time to process the last battle and come to terms with all the friends we lost. I stayed in my military-provided living quarters for a few days before transporting home to Gaimo. I refused calls from everyone and sat in silence like I always do after a difficult battle and funeral services. I needed it, but my mother and sister won't see it that way.
As I near the door I begin to hesitate. Do I ring the bell or do I use my code and walk in? I haven't lived here in years... But before I can decide, the front door slides open, and I am met with my sister's angry face.
"What the Kilkballs, Mo? Mom and I have been calling. You have been awarded the status of Gold Rank and have been retired for two days. Where have you been," she whines loudly and I smile at the irritation in her green eyes.
Father is probably chuckling at my expense right now. He was a warrior. He knows how hard battle is, but explaining that to my sister is impossible. She is a spoiled Gaimo daughter. While Father never went beyond Staff Sergeant he was still given a generous retirement package that provided for us all and then some. Eida has been sheltered and protected from hardships just like every other female who grew up in a privileged house. She probably thinks of my years in the service as some kind of trip.
"Eida, I apologize. I had to get some things in order before I could travel home. Forgive me," I say in a sheepish voice that normally appeases her.
She folds her slender arms and pouts for a few seconds before a smile breaks across her face. Her thin pupils widen a little and I know I am forgiven completely.
"Okay, Mo. Okay... I can't believe it! Gold status," she squeals before running back inside.
I laugh a little and follow her inside. Mother meets me just inside the main room with open arms and I drop my bag so I can hug her. Mother crushes my larger frame to her small body and her embrace instantly warms my soul. I feel as if a little piece of myself has returned with a simple hug and I smile. After a long moment, I pull back, and Mother releases me with a sniffle. When I look over her head my eyes lock onto my Father standing just behind her. He looks so proud with his scarred face and broad shoulders. Just like how I remember him.
His white eye used to frighten me as a child, but now I see it for what it is... a badge of honor that he refused to have healed. A piece of his battle that he chose to keep with him. He came back home to search for a mate the old-fashioned way with his face scarred. He didn't push away his past or hide from the pain. He stares at it in the mirror every day. I never asked him how he received his scar, but now I plan to. I plan to ask him as I show him what I brought home to remind myself of my time at war.
"Son," he says as he holds out his hand for me to grasp.
"Father," I respond as I grab it and he gives me a knowing look.
It's as if he is looking past my carefully placed mask to the beaten-down warrior just underneath.
"You worried your Mother," he says, and I look down into her yellowish-green eyes as I release his hand.
"I am sorry, Ibu," I say and she smiles as she hears the name I used to call her as a boy.
"It is okay my sweet boy. I have made your favorites. Let us eat and talk. You have much to tell us," Mother says and I nod before picking my bag back up from the floor.
Father's eye lands on the dirty bag, but he doesn't say anything. He probably knows the bag means the world to me.
"I have cooked every day. I knew you would come home soon," Mother says, and I genuinely feel guilty as I picture her hand-making my favorite dishes every day since my retirement.
"I am truly sorry, Ibu. I should have returned home," I say and she shakes her head before giving Father a loving smile.
"Your Father reminded me not to rush you. The great war isn't easy on anyone, but it is hardest on the males who fight in it," she says and I glance at Father to find him analyzing me.
I adjust my shoulders and my spine straightens as I imagine what he must be seeing as he looks me over. A sad male. Pitiful and hunched. The weight of my kills and the deaths of my comrades can easily be seen by a veteran like him.
"No one but your sister expected you home immediately, son. We just wished you had answered our calls," Father says as he places a warm hand on my shoulder.
I look into his seeing eye and support mixed with understanding beams back at me. There is no pity in his gaze. He isn't appalled by my weakness. He understands I needed time to process the news of going home... of being a champion. Because no matter how great the news is it was still an unexpected and abrupt adjustment. I went from seeing death and blood every other day to being free from it completely.
I look down at my bare wrist and he copies me. I know he must have felt naked without it, just like I am feeling now.
"Tonight. We will talk tonight," he whispers and I realize Mother is focused on putting her hot dishes on plates.
I nod. I need his understanding and guidance in this new chapter of my life.
*******
"I always expected you to ask, but you never did. Your sister asked the second she could talk, but not you. It's as if you knew the truth would one day be revealed to you" Father says as he leans forward.
He brings his hand to the deep gash that runs from his hairline to the middle of his cheek. The white unseeing eye doesn't move.
"My Commander was a Glortinon. He was tall and agile. When he was angry he glowed brighter than any sun I have ever seen. I respected him... During my sixth year in the service we were sent to a Muysock controlled moon. They had controlled the base there for two years. It had been an Allied base at one time, of course, and in a prime location for trade. The council knew we needed to retake control... Our group was seasoned. We were classified as elites just like you and your team. We were the right choice to go," Father says before he sighs and stands up.
He begins to pace the room, but I stay silent. I know when he told Eida about his scar, he didn't answer honestly, and he might not have told his mate the entire truth either. I might be the first person to hear my Father's story... My Father's inner turmoil that lives within him every day.
"From the second we arrived it was clear we would lose. That moon was overrun. They weren't using it as a trading hub as the allied army had. They had several battalions hidden there. They were preparing an attack. A big one... and we had interrupted those plans. Commander Jakat was pissed that our intel was wrong. He immediately began calling out. He connected with everyone to report what we were dealing with. The council was scrambling to free up warriors to send as backup, but we didn't have any time to spare waiting. They were on us. We had taken 47 battle-hardened warriors to fight over 500 Muysocks. We were doomed... I will never forget what Jakat said to us when he realized he couldn't save us. He was glowing so bright we couldn't make out his face, but his words were clear. He said, Kill as many of these rabid beasts as you can. Soak the ground with their blood for as long as you can. Leave as many scars as you can... It was an honor to fight with you all," Father says before he sits back down.
He looks me in the eyes, and for the first time ever, I see his real pain. I see his grief. I see all the same emotions I keep buried inside myself.
"They attacked us like savages and we fought back the same way. There was so much blood it felt like I was under rain on Peulo. Slice after slice. We were killing dozens for every one of us that went down... I don't know how much time passed. I don't know if it was an hour or a single minute, but when I noticed it was just me, Gahan, and Jakat left alive time seemed to just stop... Gahan was my best friend. He and I were fighting side by side. Jakat had made his way close to us during the fight... anyway when I saw that it was just us I got distracted. I let my guard down. I took a blade to the face and Gahan reacted. He left his back open and took out the male trying to kill me. Jakat jumped to protect Gahan's back and got his head sliced clean off. As Jakat fell reinforcements arrived. They flooded the Muysocks, but it was too late. Our Commander and our team were gone. I was half blind and bleeding. Gahan was fighting to keep me safe. In my eyes, we had lost. I had lost everyone who was ever truly important to me besides Gahan. When we were teleported to medical, the doctor said, "Don't worry, I will heal it all. I will make it like it never happened," and I snapped. I tried to kill him. I told him that the scars showed that it happened. My battle wounds showed that my teammates existed. I refused to let them heal me. I refused to erase our battle as if it never happened. That's why I walk around like I do. No matter how much anyone stares. I don't care. It is showing all the ones who have never seen battle what happens to us out there," Father says and a tear slides down my face as I recall the family of the fallen Vaal.
I had attended his service and talked about what had happened with his female relatives, but they couldn't really understand. They never would because warriors come back home looking whole. They don't realize that pieces of us are changed or gone forever.
"I am scared, Father. I am scarred on the inside, from the top of my head all the way down to my toes, and I am terrified. How can I live normally? How can I love and care for a fragile mate? How can I be anything but a warrior," I ask and he smiles at me.
"When you meet the right female your mind will shift from warrior to mate. Everything will fall away but her. You will still be protective and you will still see danger around every corner, but her love will soothe the pain inside of you. You will feel whole again even if you aren't," he says before his eyes drop to my bag.
"What scar did you bring home," he asks and I pick it up.
I slowly unzip the dirty bag and pull out the last item I added.
"Every battle buddy I have ever fought with... Who died beside me... I have something from every one of them. In the last battle, we lost four of our teammates, and it hurt. But it didn't hurt as bad as losing the kid I fought beside. He was in training, Father. His whole squad was. We might have killed Pilso and we might have been given Gold status..., but I didn't save him. He saved me in the end. I was wounded by a blaster and bleeding more than I realized. I went to aid him, but he ended up having to save me... His mom let me keep one of his blades. I will use it in the tournament. Because without him, I wouldn't even be in it," I manage to say before I completely break down.
I sob as my hand wraps tightly around the hilt. Father only places his hand on my shoulder. He doesn't try to soothe me or tell me things will get better. He lets me expel my pain. When my tears finally cease and I look up into his patient gaze. He smiles.
"Surviving the war is a blessing. Having the opportunity to mate and bring life into the universe is also a blessing... even when it feels like we should have been the ones to have died. Go to the Harvest and fight for every male who can't anymore. Fight for every friend you lost and then love your female as if she is the last one in existence. This war will eventually end. Our fallen brothers will be at peace so live for them. Don't hate yourself for surviving, my son," he says, and I nod.
My body aches as I begin to regain consciousness. I have no idea how long I have been asleep, but my joints aren't happy. I try to open my eyes but the bright colors in the room make me close them again almost instantly. I can hear someone else in the room with me, but my mind is groggy. I try to lift my arm to rub my face and wince. Everything is still as sore as it was on Earth. Either they haven't healed me yet or the entire thing was a lie. Suddenly, someone touches my arm, and my eyes fly open. When I am able to focus I see a dark blue alien man with red eyes and hair looking at me, and I instantly scream. "Who are you," I demand in Mandarin, and he backs away as if afraid of me with his hands in the air. I try to sit up, but my arm gives out on me. The male tries to approach me, but I yell again. I don't want him anywhere near me. He is too tall and too large. I have no way of defending myself in my weakened state. He stops in his tracks and once again puts his hands up as if
"The other humans should be here already," Baalee says as she presses the button to open the door. The door slides open immediately, and my eyes skim the room. The two small humans sitting in the room full of colorful people are easy to spot. Baalee leads us toward them, and as we approach, I hear a bit of their conversation. "The Peulos come from a watery planet and like to swim. They are blue or green in color. Kea's are all around you. We are the most colorful. We view everyone as family and hate conflict. Fighting in this war is hard for our people. That is why Keas hosts the Harvest. We are the most trusted," the green Kea is saying to the caucasian human and my mind soaks up the information greedily. "Oh, look. The other humans have all arrived. That was faster than usual," the purple Kea says as she sees us approaching them over the human girl's shoulder. All the heads at the table turn toward us at her announcement and I lift my chin a little. My back straightens even more
I silently glance around at the colorful walls as Liamee leads me to the room I am supposed to be staying in. The other girls will be in the same hall as me, and I pray they leave me alone for the evening. I have so much to think over. "Here is your room, Xiu," Liamee says as she comes to a halt. The door slides open and my lips tilt up as soon as I see the luxurious space. At least the room I will call home is nice and calming. "I see you like it," Liamee says as she looks over my expression. I smile at her and nod. "Well come in. Let me show you some of the things that might be different than Earth," Liamee says and I follow her inside the big room. She glides around pointing at things, but I only half listen. My eyes are making their own assessments as she talks. The linens are nice, the rug is expensive, the artwork is simple, and the touches of red make me happy. The sitting chairs look comfortable, but the bed looks overly plush and I know it will hurt my back by day t
I sip my tea silently as the other girls talk amongst themselves and laugh. I don't often partake in their social activities, but I have come to like my fellow Harvestees. They are all sweet and openly fond of each other. They aren't like the cutthroat businessmen my father was grooming me to shut down. We have been here on Kea for a week and I have studied every scrap of material Liamee has brought me. I have learned about each of the planets in the Allied forces and I have narrowed down which planets I could see myself potentially calling home. Now I just have to wait until the actual tournament begins. "Xiu, what do you think," Krystal asks and my eyes snap to her face. I didn't catch what Jia and her were talking about. I was too focused on fantasizing about my future. "I am sorry. I wasn't listening to the topic," I admit and Krystal sighs before pointing her finger at Jia. "Jia thinks we should ask for a larger tour of Kea. I said we shouldn't focus so much on Kea since the
"You still haven't found a place," Nole asks as he downs another shot of Cok alcohol. I shake my head. The tournament is six days away and I have yet to find a suitable home for my future mate. "Not knowing what species she will be is making me hesitant. I don't know what her preferences will be," I say before taking my first shot. The strong liquid scorches a path down my throat, but I keep my face blank. Cok liquor is strong and requires a strong stomach, but we have been drinking it for years. "Just pick something fancy, but easily defendable. I found a place two days after we were retired," Nole says with a slight slur and I notice his orange skin looks blotchy. He beat me to the bar so who knows how many shots he took before I arrived. But blotchy skin means he has reached his limit. "Slow down. You have had enough," I say to my friend, and he grunts but doesn't reach for another. "Are you more nervous than you are letting on? Drinking that much before I even arrive.
Liamee glances at me again, but I ignore her. I know she is trying to read past my carefully placed mask, but I won't let her. Ever since Liamee broke my trust I have stopped sharing my personal feelings with her. I am still nice and respectful, but I no longer share how I feel."I hope you like your dress. We tried to mimic each one of your home countries with the first dress. Day one is the only day you can wear separate colors. Tomorrow, you and the others will all be dressed in similar styles and colors. What do you think," Liamee asks as we walk toward the gathering hall that will be used for our introductions?I nod."My dress is lovely. The red color is perfect," I answer and she surprises me by grabbing my hand.When my eyes connect with her's my heart constricts. She looks like she is on the verge of tears and I know I have hurt her feelings yet again."Xiu, please. I am sorry. I wanted you to bond. I know I pushed too far, but aren't you even a little grateful? Zuri and Fiad
"They were nice," Fiadh says softly as we walk away from the table of Puelos. And my annoyance grows. I liked the blue women just as much as they did, but there is no point in getting invested in their culture. We have no hopes of ever living on Puelo since none of the competing males come from their planet. "They were," Krystal says and my composure snaps. "They don't have a competing male. Meeting with them was practically pointless," I say a little too forcefully, and Zuri's face tells me I went too far. "Nevertheless, they were nice," she says while looking at me with raised eyebrows. I immediately cave. Everything Liamee said before this all started has been playing in my head. I don't want to drive my only friends away. I just want this to go perfectly for all of us. I want each of us to end up with the best so we will be well taken care of. I nod and bow my head. "I apologize, Fiadh. They were pleasant," I say sincerely and Jia giggles before shooting Zuri a wink. "Co
As I walk into the large room I take in the new tables and atmosphere instantly. The colored tables have been removed, and elegant lights are now hanging from the ceiling giving the room a more romantic feel. Two long tables are now running the length of the ballroom, and the female side of the room is already filling up. I quickly find a spot against the wall and avert my eyes from the door. If, by chance, they seat us randomly, I don't want to risk sitting next to my gorgeous friends. While their words from lunch were wonderful it doesn't change the fact they could hinder my match. No one looks at me as I take my spot, and I realize no one looks as confident as they did during lunch. They actually look as nervous as I feel. Suddenly I spot Krystal heading my way. I try to hide, but it's too late. My bright-colored dress is like a draw. "What," Krystal demands after reaching my side and evaluating my face. I sigh. I know that I am about to hurt her feelings, but I have to
I sit down on the bench and close my eyes. Fighting a bronkark won't be easy, but I promised Xiu. I vowed to win for her, so I will do what I do best. I will move quickly and find openings with my sharp eyesight. I will win before he has the opportunity to land a fight-ending blow. He seems like a simple male. He will most likely start swinging instantly. I only have to dodge and peel apart his defense. I will ensure I get to choose the female I want and we will enjoy the rest of our lives together. "Tilk is good. You are better," Nole says and I open my eyes as my big orange friend takes up the rest of the bench beside me. "Do I look worried," I ask and he smirks. "You look like you are strategizing," Nole says and it's my turn to smirk. Nole and Burk are the brothers I never had. We might look different and our styles might be opposite, but they are my family. They are the people who mean the most to me... until Xiu and I mate that is. Not even my mother, father, or s
As the song ends, Moor gives me another easy grin and offers me his arm, but before I can take it, Modok appears beside him. "Xiu of Earth, I would be deeply honored if you allowed me to escort you back to your room," Modok says, and Moor seems to straighten his spine. He glances to the other side of the room before looking back at me and I realize he has decided I am not worth the trouble of fighting Modok. He has another female. Our dance together and conversation were nice, but I didn't win him over completely. I bow my head a little toward Moor before wrapping my arm around Modok's elbow. Modok covers my hand with his own and immediately walks away from Moor. "I'm glad he surrendered his claim to you. I would have destroyed him in the tournament," Modok says and the gravelly tone of his voice sends a satisfying chill down my spine. Modok just admitted that he would fight for me. Something no one has done for me not even my Father. Father always provided for me, not for my
"I am happy you have been cured... How many children would you like to have one day," I ask as I extend my arm and twirl her. Her elegant body spins beautifully, and when my arm brings her back in, I don't keep her at a respectful distance. I pull her in close, and when her chest meets mine, my world seems to stop. I hold her to me tight, but gentle as I look down into her dark eyes. She is an absolute wonder. Her flawless pale skin and perfect cupid bow have captivated me. Every curve on her body looks delicate and fragile, but there is a fire just behind her dark eyes that I want to dive into. I knew I liked how the females from Earth looked, but I never imagined one of them would call to me so strongly. I guess Nole was correct when he said our instincts would know who was meant to be our mates. "Xiu, a human from Earth," I whisper in absolute wonder. The song ends, and I know my time with her is up, but I plan on being the one to escort her back to her room, so parting wit
I twist my hands anxiously. It's just Fiadh, and I left. I might not get asked to dance this round which isn't a good sign. I have seen some males talking on the sideline with comrades. Maybe they are taking a breather and thinking over their first two dances. Maybe they have already narrowed down who they want to fight for. It makes sense number-wise that some of us wouldn't get asked... or does it mean they won't even waste a dance on someone they know they aren't interested in? Or maybe the partner they do want is already dancing. I can feel my chance of getting chosen by an honorable, and prestigious male slipping through my fingers. I draw in a shaky breath just as someone gives my shoulder a light tap. I turn around fully intending to see Fiadh, but the man standing behind me makes all my thoughts about failure disappear. The breath I was taking leaves my lungs and my cheeks begin to heat up. "Good evening. I am Lieutenant Modok from Gaimo. Would you honor me with a dance,"
"Any luck," Nole asks as he reaches my side. I glance at him for only a second. He is out of breath and it's clear he rushed back to my side to report on his experience with the Puelos. In between each song, we have a minute and thirty seconds to escort our old partner back to her group and choose another partner to dance with. The pace is rapid but it keeps the evening moving along without conflict. Many champions have complained over the years about how short our time is with each female, but the Keas have been strict. They know some females or males might be more desirable and they have to keep it fair amongst everyone. No one gets more or less time. It eliminates the threat of disagreements. "No. She wasn't the one. But the Keas seem to be a variable option," I reply and he nods. "The Puelos are too status driven. I will approach Shikaz next," he responds, and I peel my eyes off the group of returning humans. "I doubt you will have better results. At dinner, they seem
"Wow," Jia says quietly as the Keas efficiently change the large room from dining hall to dancing hall. "Very pretty," Fiadh whispers back and Krystal nods. I let my eyes travel over the line of champions, discreetly trying to see if anyone is looking at me in particular, and I am surprised to see a champion from Cok smiling at me. His gaze is practically fixed on me and I know he will be the first one to ask me to dance. "The rest of the evening is all about enjoying each other's company and getting to know one another on a more intimate level. Have fun," the male Kea says, and I watch the Cok champion as he cuts across the floor toward me. "Would you care to dance with me?" he asks as soon as he stops in front of me, and I nod slightly. I hear someone asking Zuri to dance as well, but I don't glance over. I need to focus on my opportunities at the moment. My friends will be just fine during this part of the tournament. He offers me his sand-colored arm and I drape my hand ov
I take another bite of food and discreetly look at the females across from me again. They seem to be less nervous now that most of the champions are busy eating, but the one in the white dress still looks a little too anxious for my liking. It's as if she is waiting to be attacked. The brown-skinned female who looks as if she is from Vaal instead of Earth, keeps glancing at her too. I swallow my bite of Makskin gult and reach for my drink. I have looked over all the females here and I have decided I like the look of the female humans. Each of them is uniquely beautiful. Plus they keep checking on one another just like my comrades and I do when we are in a difficult situation. That kind of behavior is something I can relate to. I also like the thought of mating a female from Kea. They are cordial and beautiful a hundred percent of the time. The Puelos and the Shikaz ladies are very beautiful also, but they might only care about my status. I will have to pick their behavior apart
As I walk into the large room I take in the new tables and atmosphere instantly. The colored tables have been removed, and elegant lights are now hanging from the ceiling giving the room a more romantic feel. Two long tables are now running the length of the ballroom, and the female side of the room is already filling up. I quickly find a spot against the wall and avert my eyes from the door. If, by chance, they seat us randomly, I don't want to risk sitting next to my gorgeous friends. While their words from lunch were wonderful it doesn't change the fact they could hinder my match. No one looks at me as I take my spot, and I realize no one looks as confident as they did during lunch. They actually look as nervous as I feel. Suddenly I spot Krystal heading my way. I try to hide, but it's too late. My bright-colored dress is like a draw. "What," Krystal demands after reaching my side and evaluating my face. I sigh. I know that I am about to hurt her feelings, but I have to
"They were nice," Fiadh says softly as we walk away from the table of Puelos. And my annoyance grows. I liked the blue women just as much as they did, but there is no point in getting invested in their culture. We have no hopes of ever living on Puelo since none of the competing males come from their planet. "They were," Krystal says and my composure snaps. "They don't have a competing male. Meeting with them was practically pointless," I say a little too forcefully, and Zuri's face tells me I went too far. "Nevertheless, they were nice," she says while looking at me with raised eyebrows. I immediately cave. Everything Liamee said before this all started has been playing in my head. I don't want to drive my only friends away. I just want this to go perfectly for all of us. I want each of us to end up with the best so we will be well taken care of. I nod and bow my head. "I apologize, Fiadh. They were pleasant," I say sincerely and Jia giggles before shooting Zuri a wink. "Co