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2025-02-06 18:01:37Jalin's POV
Finn asked a question that cut through the haze of my existence like a blade - sharp, incisive, and brutal. Why haven't I killed Lucian yet?
The answer lies in the shadows of my soul, where hatred and desire twist like poisoned vines. I could tell the world that sparing him is an act of torture. But that's a lie. A comforting lie, perhaps, but a lie nonetheless. The truth is simpler - and far more damning.
Lucian lives because I've chosen to let him live. Every breath he draws is a gift I've freely given, every moment of suffering a consequence of my indecision. I've kept him alive not out of compassion, but out of a twisted sense of control. To kill him would be to relinquish that control - to admit that he still holds power over me, even after all this time.
But the irony is suffocating. I despise him, yet I refuse to release him. The paradox of our relationship is a grotesque masterpiece of contradictions. I hate him because he's a Lycan -
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