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2021-02-25 04:39:52Meg nodded and took a deep breath. Worry that something might happen to Charlie was a constant state of mind for her now, with these spikes in panic each time something else presented itself as evidence that he might not be all right, and her heart would be happy when there was no more reason to suspect the worst. “Was he awake when you left?”
“He was,” Jonathan confirmed, stepping up to lean against the wet railing beside her. There was no sense in attempting to stay dry at this point, and Meg had given up hours ago, though she did have a shawl wrapped around her shoulders. “He asked about you. He wanted to know if you were planning to go to the hospital with him, and I said I’d ask.”
She swallowed a lump in her throat. “He didn’t even know who I was when he awoke this morning. I had to remind him. Again.”
“I know,” Jonathan said, adjusting his hat. “I believe his memory loss is due t
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