I stared at him, refusing to react to his statement too. His words had reached a deeper part of my heart and the fear and guilt of the secret I was hiding from Genesis resurfaced almost immediately. But I didn’t say a word or make a visible reaction. He was really looking forward to hurting me with his words. Or he was either trying to figure a way to get information from me. What ever he was trying to do, I just didn’t care anymore and simply wanted him to leave.“Call my guards, Aiden,” I ordered, not once taking my eyes off him.“Jordan…” mom came closer to me, probably to tell me that I was not doing the right thing. But I didn’t have the time to listen to her and maybe she noticed and didn’t bother to continue.“Guards…”“Your guards?” father saw it as a joke and smirked at me. It was of course not a joke and just as quickly as his smirk came, footsteps followed behind me, lots of it. I looked away from him and told to the men that were supposed to be guarding my house.“How did
Days went by quickly and life became better for me and everyone else. I was beyond happy, I was exceptionally happy and I could not help the way things were turning out for me. My life with Jordan had turned into a Disney fairy tale where I had my happily ever after and there was nothing more to it. We spent our days loving each other till our hearts content. Jordan didn’t seem to ever want to stop, he was always all over me and I loved it. If he went out, it was always for a short period of time and when he did come back, I would be treated nothing more than a princess and he my prince, charming.Just like every other day, we spent our time at home, doing absolutely nothing but loving each other as husband and wife were supposed to have done. But this time, I was at my studio, finishing up some work when the door opened with a loud bang, almost making me lose focus. I whipped my head to the door, feeling rather angry at the mistake that could have been made. It was one of the very ar
My heart was aching so badly at the sight of her and so was my need for her growing so badly. I watched her walk around the room with so much restlessness, yet she was trying to hide the fact that she was restless and wary. And I was feeling the exact same thing.“My love,” I called out and gestured for her to come over to the bed. She turned to me and sighed, but slowly walked up to me. She got under the duvet and I pulled her closer to me, taking in the scent of her hair and body.“I will be back soon,” I tried to reassure her and myself as well, the thought of being so far from her didn’t seem good to me. I would rather remain beside her than miles away from her and that was what was required of me. How could the universe have been so unfair towards me? Was my fate really that bad? Did I do something horrendous in my other life to warrant such punishment? If my life was going to be this way, why make me feel this, why make my love her, why allow her into my life? It would have bee
The morning came so quickly. It looked like it was also against me and had risen quicker than it usually rose. Maybe, they also didn’t want me to spend time with her. My flight had been booked and I had to leave soon and early too. I had postponed by movement by two days because of the woman who was next to me and my mother was not getting pleased anymore, neither were the doctors. They had suggested that I went on with the procedures here in the state, but I had refused. I didn’t want suspicion or sudden news to break out about my current situation and knowing how small of a state it actually was, I could bump into someone I know or Genesis could find out somehow. But if I was reported to be away and out of the country for business, no one would want to poke their nose into my business and it would be better to hide that way.With a stifled yawn, I opened my eyes and turned to greet my wife a good morning, when I realized that she wasn’t there. I frowned, hating the thought of not se
Her voice sounded scared, like she was certain that I might not return and it scared me. But of course, I needed more of her love and without her request, I was going to return. “Yes, my love,” I responded with a smile. “Make sure you eat, sleep and don’t move out without guards. Do you hear? Also, stay away from Nate, my father and anything that has to do with them and that Tiana friend of yours,” I instructed, suddenly remembering all the things I wanted to warn her about. She smiled for a second and nodded her head. “Better don’t look at any women out there,” she chided and I chuckled. If only she knew how beautiful she was, she would understand that other women were simply garbage in my eyes. “If I do, go ahead and kill me,” I stamped my feet on the ground and turned a serious face like a soldier, making her chuckle. “Nice, comrade, I hold you by your word,” she responded and I chuckled. I took a deep breath immediately after, it was officially time to leave, to look for a lif
GENESISMy heart was beginning to ache again and my thoughts were running wide with more thoughts. I had not heard from Jordan for over a week and it was beginning to get me sick to the stomach. He had truly said that he would not be reachable before he left and even told me that he would not be available anymore but I had hoped that it won’t be so and even if he had to be unreachable, it would only be for a few days. I truly believed that it would not be so bad because we talked frequently the first few days and weeks he left. But not being able to reach him anymore was scaring the hell out of me. Sleep had started evading my eyes and my mind was always wondering where he was or what he was doing.I sighed seeing that the sun was up and got up from the bed weakly. The room was beginning to get lonely as the day went by and my heart was beginning to ache. Talking with him was better than not being able to hear from him at all and the three weeks he spoke off had elapse. Did something
I stared at my reflection with a gloom look on my face. Nothing seemed right, nothing seemed good, nothing seemed perfect, nothing seemed to be worth it anymore. All I could see was a girl who missed her husband and who is worried sick for him. How could he not be reachable? He might be sick? He might be dying, he might be in a hospital, he might need me. But there was a big possibility that he didn’t feel any of this. If he did, he wouldn’t have allowed me remain in the same depressed state I was in. My husband would have come to me, to hold me, to kiss me and whisper loving words in my ears where I would no longer be able to let go.But what if he can’t come to you?I swallowed loudly and felt a tightening feeling in my chest. My annoyance was gone in a swift mood and that question rang in my head as a miserable feeling settled on me. I was so worried about him, it felt like I would lose my mind anytime soon if I heard nothing.His cousins were not back yet, so I certainly could not
With a deep breath, then an exhale, I stepped out of the house. It was sunny, but the air was cold and I was grateful for the coat I was putting on. I wore a white gown that stopped above my knees and a pair of white heels and a black colored coat that was just as long as the gown I was putting on. My makeup was heavy but the shade I was putting on did well to hide this. Then I packed my hair into an updo and wore jewelries and a matching bag.Lots of guards were outside of course and a car was ready for me. Jasmine was right beside me, and she was doing her job. Listing the names of people who I had specially invited and names of the artists whose art would also be exhibited. I was partly listening to her as she spoke and partly thinking about my mother-in-law and my father-in-law who I had spoken to earlier. I was about to step into the car that had the doors wide and open for me when my eyes caught sight of something sparkling and shining. I stopped in my tracks and turned to the e
My phone rang again and I smiled as I picked up my husband call this time. “Miss me yet, wife,” he teased immediately and I groaned. “No, but the kids want you home.” “Too bad. My flight got delayed.” He sighed. “What?” I jerked up from where I sat. He chuckled. “Easy their wife. I just got to town and would be home soon,” he entered and I sighed. “Bye…” I ended the call abruptly, feeling angry at such expensive joke. I had everything ready already. After two hours, I was perfectly ready and had stepped out of the room and back down only to find out that I was a late host. Everyone was present. My parents, my sister, Tiana, Nate, Tiffany and her fiancée, Jordan’s cousins, their girlfriends, his mom, my p.a and Margaret. Yes her. she was a huge part of Jordan’s life for long and we could not let her to keep being a staff here so we freed her with a lot of money, a house, something to keep her going and a family. “I told you that she might be painting,” Julian’s loud mouth entere
FOUR YEARS AFTERI ran down the stairs, feeling completely exhausted and disheveled, not to add, disorganized and slightly angry. With my robe on, I decided to check if everything was set and ready. I couldn’t help it, it had to be perfect, it all had to be or I might lose it. Anna strolled into the house at that particular moment, and she stared at me with a wary look as I made my way to the kitchen.“Is everything alright?” she asked in her very sweet voice.“Go change and rest up,” I reprimanded. She had only just returned from college and shouldn’t be concerned by things like that, yet she was ever so humble and would in fact start on chores the moment she returns from college which was slight annoying. We made her go to college for a good reason, to better her life and not to turn out like a staff her entire life, yet she looked so dedicated to being one.“I would the moment you tell me what is wrong,” she followed behind me with dedication and became a nag that I didn’t want at
GENESISEven in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur
I could hear my baby crying in my ears. Screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give to me once she opens her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with families around her. I could not bare to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not what after I had done.I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant, I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time that our world was dark and I was about to lose my life, she came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memor
JORDANThe scream….The screams…The scream of my wife and the staff was what it took me to stop. Fear engulfed me and swallowed me whole, leaving every anger, betrayal and pain I felt earlier. I snapped my gaze back to the direction I had come from, knowing that her scream came from there.“No…” I screamed, seeing her rolling down the stairs. I could feel life leaving me at the sight of her. My legs started towards her as fast as I could just as everyone else. She came to a halt at the edge of the step and my heart died at her position. Then the blood.“Oh God! No…no…no….”“Get the car,” I screamed, feeling tears burn my eyes while I slowly placed her head on my thighs. She was bleeding and still fucking naked with just that robe.“Get the car,” I cried at the top of my lungs, fearing for the worse. I immediately checked for her pulse, praying, hoping, wishing that it would not come to that. I might as well die if it did.We rushed her to the hospital and the doctors immediately plac
GENESISI took a longer time in the bathroom this time around. The heat and steam of the shower had become my comfort and I was scared of leaving it. I would only return to our bedroom that had turned to a hunting ground for me. Each place and thing smelt of my husband and with the feel of him reminded me of the anger he had against me and the secret I had adamantly been keeping away from him.I missed him, each part of me missed him. It was almost like life was leaving me slowly and gently, yet I couldn’t stop it. Not that I couldn’t, I still didn’t know how to. I looked down on my tummy to notice the slight bump that showed the life growing inside of me. It was still so small and with my present choice of clothing, no one could notice. But how long? He deserved to know, I had to tell him and explain to him how it all happened. I had to before I completely ruin our marriage.I sighed heavily, feeling a familiar burn in my chest area while my hand ran in a circular motion around my s
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l