Arawn Jensen: You have to be fucking kidding me!Jensen: I heard her calling you Parker, Parker!Jensen: How much of your brain have you fucked out for her already?Jensen: We can’t endanger our territory like this.Jensen: Kick her out! I’ll get you a new one.He is not wrong. I’m fucked up. But he should stop. Or I’ll definitely kill him. I knew that not kicking her out of my penthouse the night I found her in it would be problematic.But I couldn’t let her leave. Something in me was telling me that I had to have her, for my ego. Just for the night would surely be enough.I tried to convince myself that it was just some kind of stupid infatuation that I had because of my young age back then. Kind of a teenage crush if you want.But I knew what it really was. I couldn’t lose her again.
Nerthus I gulp down the last bit of pride in my body as I walk towards the reception in my torn dress.“Good morning, ma’am.”“Good morning,” I answer, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear that must have fallen out of my ponytail. “Can I ask you to get me a taxi?” She nods, smiling politely. “Sure.”“With a female driver, if possible.” I lay my hand on the cold granite of the counter, and she nods again, this time with her eyes full of pity.What a time to be alive. “Of course, ma’am.”“Thank you so much.”As the taxi arrives it is indeed a female driver, and I get in with a smile, reciting my address.We spend the ride in silence, but I sense her looking at me through the rearview mirror from time to time. She parks in front of my block, but I freeze as I’m about to get out.“Could I ask you for a big favor?”“Of course, my dear.”I smile, leaning my hand onto the leather seat. “Would you get into my building to see if there is anybody around… That could see me like this?”With
Nerthus Leaning against the cold wall of the elevator, I ponder over whether I should have a talk with him. This isn’t possible, and not a thing that I want to keep up with. Even if I don’t think that he would let go of me that easily, I will be damned if he gets my pride without a fight.After getting another good night from the night guard on the ground floor that can’t make up for the one I didn’t get from Arawn, I exit onto the busy street and hail another cab.I get into the cab with a deep sigh and even if I want to get home desperately, I give him the address of the club.Amber: I’m not going to do this anymore. You can’t treat me this way!By the time his answer reaches me, I’m already walking into the club, having my phone vibrating in my hand.Mr. Best-Fuck: As if anybody cares about what you want.Biting my lip, I stare at the text with a void gaze.
Nerthus As I open my eyes, I’m about to have a heart attack.“What the fuck?!” I shout as I jerk up, scooping away from Arawn who is standing at the end of my bed with a deadly expression.Holding my hand on my chest, I calm my breathing, while I wait for him to say something, but he doesn’t budge. “How long have you been standing there?”“What the fuck did you do last night?”I tilt my head at him, passing my hand through my hair. “Come on, my blowjob couldn’t have possibly been that bad for you to forget about it already!”He scoffs and grabs my ankle, dragging me back to him. “Don’t play with me, woman!”“I was at a club with Gigi. Didn’t you see my outfit? Did you like it?”My heart flips as I see his lips twitch, even if he fights it, his frown taking over again.“You used Dario
Nerthus Two days!Two fucking days have passed since hearing a beep from Arawn.I’m starting to question my sanity as I get impatient to hear from him after just two days.What the fuck is wrong with me?!I slowly start to relieve my best moments of getting off a drug I was absolutely hooked on.And how I hate it!Even though all I want to do is snuggle into my blankets and stay there, I follow my routine and give in to Gigi, letting him drag me into the gym.“And they say women are complicated.”I sigh as we stomp up the moving stairs of the stepper. “I don’t understand him, and now I am anxious about not being exciting enough. I never had that.”“Ugh! He is just being an asshole!” Gigi scoffs, “If he wasn’t as broadly built as the Hulk I would go kick his ass.”I laugh, tilting my head at him. “You are cute, thank you. But I guess he is simply preparing to sack me. Maybe he wanted to provoke me somehow, triggering a reaction that would lead him to get the last piece of me he is mis
Nerthus The moment I open my eyes back up, I wish I hadn’t.Every bone and muscle in my body is hurting, and I groan, fighting myself up to make myself a cup of tea.As I don’t find any helpful medicine by rummaging through my drawers, I give up and, wrapped in my blanket, I go to knock on Maria’s door.After fighting her off as a personal nurse, and I have to fight hard for that, I get back into my apartment. As soon as I have taken my medicine and get into my bed, I’m out like a light.***I wake as I feel the pleasurable buzzing as his hand caresses my leg.“Are you alright, babe?”Babe.I giggle as I look up at Arawn leaning over me and cuddle back in, closing my eyes. “I don’t feel well.”“I can see that.” He murmurs, as he lets his eyes roam over me.I chuckle, as I see him knit his eyebrows. “I’m cold,” I whisper. “Would you please cuddle with me for a bit?”My heart races and I can’t tell if it’s just the medication or the fact that I just asked him to cuddle with me.I prepa
Nerthus The gala dinner is by far the worst engagement I ever had.As I try hard not to faint due to my rising fever, I try to hold the pieces of my heart together that beats painfully in my chest at me being ignored by Arawn.But the highlight of it is surely reached as he leaves me standing like a moron to go talk to some blonde. She seems to be elated at him talking to her as I can tell from her annoying giggle. I sip my champagne as I keep myself from jumping her and tear out her badly done extensions.“Look what the cat brought for us to play with.”I shudder as I turn to look at Jensen but I’m surely feeling more confident to face him here than locked in a car.“That would make you what? A pet snake?”He laughs, and I roll my eyes, concentrating back on my angry company as I find him glaring at me.So, blondie isn’t that interesting.Jensen starts to talk again as I interrupt him, raising my hand. “Please, my head is killing me. I can’t take your annoying voice now.”“Oh, come
Nerthus I don’t know how long I have still been holding the phone to my ear, even if he hung up right after he had fired me.“No! I’m dissolving your contract. You aren’t worth all this trouble.”Not worth the trouble.“No, Arawn. You can’t do that. Please, I’ll-” I try to plead.Oh my God, I can’t get back working as an Escort. He disintegrated my entire client base. “You will what?” He growls, chuckling slightly. “See, that’s exactly the problem. I engaged you because I thought you were able to keep apart business and your silly feelings. But I seem to have thought wrong.”“This is not true. I told you that I was only doing my job. I-”“Well, not good enough.” He says before finally ending the call.And what a lovely way to end it all.Not good enough.Wow!As I finally get out of my paralyzed state, I move to sit down on the bar stool beside me, fearing that I might faint on the spot.Taking a deep breath, I dial Jenna’s number, my heart blooming as she picks up.“Hey, ho, butte
Thank you so much, my lovelies for reading, your amazing support and for your patience as I had to take several breaks to finish this one. I hope you loved Nerthus' and Arawn's love story and will be following me for the sequel. XoXo, Shelagh
Lenore Her high-pitched giggles sound like razor blades in my ears as my gaze is fixed on the huge diamond sparkling on her finger. “Well, you will surely understand, right?” Jason asks with a stupid grin as he shoves the hand of his new fiancée under my nose. “We weren’t compatible anyway.” I force up a smile, caressing my arms as I hug myself against the cold. “Of course, you are so cute together.” “Thank you so much,” Gina squeals in her fake happy voice, putting her hand on her chest. “It was so important for me that you would understand.” This scene is so telling. Also, because I’m standing in the open, freezing to death in my cute dress while the snowflakes fall on me, sticking to my hair and melting into my already freezing skin.My best friend and my ex-boyfriend, on the other hand, are standing beneath the roof of the entrance to his house, smiling at me like it’s about to be Christmas.And luckily it is. I gave the best days of my life to this man, my high-school love,
Danny “Is this thing on?” I clear my throat as I tap on the microphone, smiling uncomfortably. “Hey everyone.” The guests are staring up at me and I squirm on my feet as I push out a deep breath. I have never spoken in front of so many people and my throat feels raspy. “As my brother asked me to be his best man, I felt honored, but the first thing I asked him was, ‘Don’t you have any friends?’” A low chuckle goes through the crowd, and I wet my lips with my tongue. “Of course, I know that he has a lot of friends, but he wanted me as his brother to do it. And thank God, Bernie was not too offended about it to help me with the planning of the bachelor party.” “Hear, hear!” Bernard lifts his glass, cheering loudly, getting other guests to join him. I play with my notes, my nervousness increasing as I feel my throat close. “Well, the bachelor party was great. Sorry, Amber, but there were a lot of beautiful girls.” Amber laughs, the diamond pins holding up her hair sparkling in th
Arawn“This is not fair! You can’t treat me like this.” Amanda screams at the top of her lungs, making me close my eyes exhausted.“Well, why don’t you go ahead and sue me?”Her theatrical gasp must cost her so much air that I’m surprised she doesn’t faint.“I hate you!” She screams even louder. “I never want to see you ever again!”So dramatic.It has been quite a while and I still struggle to adjust to this ‘love topic’.All because of that woman.Fifteen years have passed since I asked Nerthus to be my wife, and claimed she just said yes because of her job.I might have her punished for this.But she made me pay severely anyway.“Well, what a shame that you are stuck with me, isn’t it, Amanda?”“I hate you! I hate you!”Groaning, I pinch the bridge of my nose. “You keep repeating yourself. We already figured it out that far, didn’t we, my love?”The shrill scream that she is used to producing during her tantrums risks bursting my eardrums.Well, my fucking fault for thinking I coul
NerthusMy birthday was more than memorable. Especially because after getting proposed to by the love of my life, I got to party my entry into a new life-year with my friends. I drank way too much, fearing I would have spoiled my chance of a tasty breakfast. “I’m out!” I hear Danny shout before the door slams close. Groaning, I fight myself out of bed, desperately needing a cup of coffee. As I reach the kitchen, a strange sensation rises in me. I notice that there is no staff around whatsoever. Not even the usual bodyguard is scurrying around my feet and I guess that Danny left with Goldie to go to the dog school, making the house awfully silent. I tie my morning gown tighter around my waist, concentrating on refilling the water tank of my coffee machine. My heart drops as I hear footsteps nearing, but I don’t turn around. Pressing the button to get the coffee to start flowing, I ignore my body shivering in anticipation as Arawn puts his hands on the counter, caging me in. “I
Nerthus - Six months later I take a sip of my coffee, hugging my denim jacket closer as I watch the children run around the statue of Alice in Wonderland. Thinking about how my life has changed in the last year, I nearly can’t believe my luck and I push down the urge to ask myself how I deserved this kind of life. So many things have happened in these six months and it is just crazy how I’m just living my days with a partner in crime, an adopted boy and a stolen dog. As they had liquidated my uncle’s and aunt’s assets, and as they couldn’t get hold of my cousin, I got nominated as their heir. First, I didn’t want to have nothing to do with it, but with Arawn’s and Danny’s support, I got to the house where I lived before I came to New York and we searched for something that I would want to keep before he arranged for the clean-up and the sale of the house. Naturally, I didn’t want to keep anything. But as we searched the house, Danny found a hidden safe where there were various docu
Nerthus It takes my lungs a few seconds to fill with enough air to push out a horrified scream. But it actually feels like it takes an eternity. Lizzy looks at us with a blank look before she sinks to the floor, collapsing in her own pool of blood. Arawn steps towards her with his gun still pointed and picks her gun up. “Are you alright?” he asks in our direction as he pushes the gun into the belt in the back of his pants. Danny nods, exhaling a deep breath, and I loop my arm around his, hugging him closer. “Let’s sit down. Shall we?” He slumps to the ground nearly immediately, tearing me with him. Nodding once again, he lets his shoulders slump and I turn my head to watch Arawn crouch down before me. Cupping my chin gently, he turns my head to inspect my face. “The ambulance is already on its way. I called Detective Ramirez. Are you feeling well enough to wait for them? Or shall I drive you to the ER?” “I’m fine,” I say, my voice nearly failing me as sobs rise in my throat.
Nerthus The first thing I feel as I wake up is the cold surface I’m lying on. Turning my head to the side, I wait for my sight to focus while I notice that I can’t move. I seem to be constricted by ropes that are tying me to the table and I suddenly feel like I can’t breathe. My clothes are missing, my body shaking as I’m only dressed in my lingerie and I dread the moment when we will find out why we are in this shitty situation. My panic is crushing my throat, my breathing getting heavy as I try to pull at the ropes constricting me on the shiny surface. Checking the room, I see Danny lying next to me. He is bound to a table as well but seems to be still knocked out, and for a moment, I’m glad as I couldn’t take his desperation which would be adding to my panic. The gas must have been inducted into the room on purpose to knock us out and I fight hard not to faint at the thought. I groan, turning my head to the other side as I hope it will reduce the pulsating pain in my skull.
Nerthus “Get him off me!” I scream pushing the dead body from me but failing miserably. Danny scurries around him a few times before he decides on what to do and how to get hold of the body the best way. With a groan, he pushes him off me, making me take a deep breath. “Oh, my God.” He remains standing, staring at the dead man with a void look while I drag myself over the ground to get to the gun he had kicked out of my hand. “Are you alright?” I ask as I sit up with a pained groan, and Danny nods. Laying the gun into my lap, I massage my hand as I take another deep breath. “I think he might broke my hand too.” Sighing, I look up while I let my shoulders slump. I watch Danny while my desperation still streams through me, and I can’t seem to be able to push it down. I know exactly that there is more where he came from. Danny has his gaze still directed to the dead man, his look is flowing into the void, and I gulp as I think about how I must get him out of this dark place as s