Kit’s POV
“Can I get you a refill?”
Pouring water into the glasses of the young couple holding hands across from each other, I resist the urge to roll my eyes and force my face into a very practiced fake smile.
The instant I turn away from them, the smile slides off and I do roll my eyes toward the ceiling.
Making my way to the booth all the way in the back, I plop the water pitcher onto it and stretch my arms over my head.
“How’s the essay going?”
Cami pulls the pencil that she had been chewing on from her mouth and taps the notebook in front of her with a soft, dramatic sigh.
“It just feels so cliché, you know? Using the fact that I was a poor orphan to appeal to schools to accept me. Are you sure that is what I should be writing about?”
Reaching down, I turn her notebook towards me and scan the short paragraph.
“That’s what I’ve heard. And why not use it to your advantage? It’s the only advantage that you have.”
“It’s such a sad advantage to have.”
She sounds forlorn as she stares at the paper.
“Stop being so dramatic, Cami. You are going to need scholarships to get into college, so get to writing.”
“But Kit…I don’t even know what I want to go for…or if I want to go…maybe I could take a year off, work and save some money…”
“Stop it. You need to go to college now, or you will never go. One of us needs to get a real job one day.”
She eyes me under her thick, heavily painted eyelashes and I already know what she will be saying next.
Grabbing the water pitcher, I try to make my escape, but she grabs my wrist.
“Kit, maybe…maybe we should try and find a new pack. I’m eighteen now…I want to find my mate. And who knows, maybe you could find someone…”
“There is no one for me. And I don’t need a mate. Neither do you. I don’t want to talk about it.”
I can’t take her big, pitying eyes looking at me like that anymore, so I make my way to the diner’s kitchen to check on an order.
Sighing, I place the pitcher down harder than I meant to, causing it to sloosh water onto the counter.
Howard, the manager, narrows his eyes at me and I quickly grab a towel to wipe it up.
As I do, I look out of the large wall cutout to peer into the dining room when I hear the familiar ping that goes off when someone opens the entrance door.
My hand stops, my heart thudding hard against my chest as I stare at the two men walking into the diner.
No…why are they here?
It has been seven years since I walked out of the pack with nothing but a backpack and my little sister.
I never thought I would see anyone from that wretched place ever again.
Nor did I want to.
An older, larger Colin walks through the door first, scanning the dingy diner with a hesitant frown.
Hmm. He aged nicely. Very nice.
Probably still a complete jerk though.
When Colin steps aside, Jody enters.
Oh my gosh.
He is gorgeous.
His sandy-colored hair is slightly longer, with some wave to it. Even from this distance, I can make out those gorgeous blue eyes.
Look how broad his chest is now…and he is even taller…
Why is he making that odd expression?
He looks so tense…
Wait…I know that look…
Shit!
Throwing my towel onto the counter, I hurl myself around the wall towards Cami’s private booth.
No!
Cami is standing, her eyes locked onto Jody’s, mirroring his lustful, comletely transfixed gaze.
Oh no, not you too Cami!
My heart feels the same crippling pain from seven years ago.
I never wanted her to feel this.
Wringing my hands together nervously, I debate whether I should go to her, put my arm around her comfortingly for when her rejection comes, or just to yank her away from him before he can do it.
Before I can make up my mind, Jody is at her table.
I want to yell at him, tell him not to hurt her, to just go away and leave us alone!
But…he’s putting his arms around her…oh my god, he is…kissing her!
Feeling dumbstruck, I stare as they wrap their bodies around each other in a way that seems like they will never be able to untangle themselves.
It’s just like I imagined it would be when I found my mate…so that must mean…
He’s not rejecting her.
Why would he reject Cami?
She is stunning, inside and out.
Men want her.
My shoulders sagging, I glance over to see Colin grinning at his friend, pulling his phone out of his pocket and snapping a picture of them before looking down at his phone and typing away.
“Kit! What are you doing just standing there? Take table threes food out!”
Jumping at the harsh tone of my manager behind me, I glance at Cami and Jody one more time before walking past my manager who is now leaning against the wall, frowning at the pair.
“What is this? I didn’t know Cami had a boyfriend.”
It’s not hard to hear the disappointment in his voice.
Sometimes I think the only reason I was hired was because Howard liked the fact that my gorgeous sister comes every day and sits in her booth to do her homework.
Ignoring this, I grab the hot plates of food, barely noticing the burning on my fingertips, and move to the table to plop them down in a dreamlike state.
I always knew that Cami would have a gorgeous mate. I always knew that no one would dare reject her.
But did it have to be Jody?
Did he have to be from our old pack?
And why can’t anything ever go in my favor?
She got all the good looks, and all the luck.
“Howard, I am taking off.”
“What?” He finally looks away from Cami and Jody. “Your shift isn’t over.”
“I don’t feel well.”
“You look fine to me.”
“Well, I’m not.”
Untying my apron, I toss it at him and grab my purse off the hook before leaving out the back exit, digging my car keys out of my it with trembling hands, and diving inside my car.
I can still see Cami and Jody from my current position.
Shit, you would think they wouldn’t be able to breath and would have to pull apart at some point.
Dropping my head back against the seat, I drag my palms down my face.
It’s hard not to feal a teensy bit jealous.
But that’s not fair.
Cami would be happy for me.
And I am happy for her.
Seriously.
Kind of.
Ugh.
Banging my head against the steering wheel, I accidently hit the horn.
Fuck!
Lifting my head, I catch Cami’s eyes.
She looks radiant as she smiles, pointing at Jody in disbelief.
Now she grabs his hand and is pulling him toward the exit.
Kill me now…
Forcing what I hope is a convincing smile on my face, I begrudgingly get out of the car and lean against it while I watch Cami drag Jody, who can’t take his eyes off of her, to meet me.
“Kit! Kit, Jody is my mate! Can you believe it? Look how handsome he is.”
She stands on her toes to cradles his face with her hands, and he puts his hands on her waist to pull her against him in response.
Cami giggles as he lowers his lips to hers and they embrace again.
“This isn’t awkward at all.”
Colin is beside me with a sheepish grin as he jerks his head at the two who are now practically rolling around on the hood of my car.
“Not at all. It’s super fun watching your sister get groped on top of your car.”
Colin laughs and holds out his hand.
“I’m Colin.”
Is he for real?
“Yeah, I know.”
I don’t take his hand and he tilts his head questioningly at me.
“Do we know each other?”
I don’t know whether to be embarrassed or pissed off.
Definitely pissed off.
“We do. I was a part of your pack for eighteen years. As was my sister.”
I jerk my thumb at the two of them, Cami now passionately running her hands through Jody’s perfect hair.
Comprehension falls over Colin’s face and I wince.
“Oh! I remember! You were the girl who-”
He grimaces and trails off.
The girl who mated to and was publicly rejected by the Alpha’s son.
“Yeah, that’s me.”
Colin shifts his weight uncomfortably beside me and looks relieved when his phone pings inside of his pocket and he turns away to look at it.
“Jody! Wait a second…” Cami giggles gleefully as she shoves against his chest. He looks at her with so much affection that it makes another wave of pain wash over me, clutching the door to keep me upright.
Cami turns towards me, her lips swollen, but looking blissfully happy.
“Kit, isn’t this wild? Jody and Colin were only passing through on their way back from a Luna ceremony, and he said he sensed me when he drove by…”
Jody twirls her hair around his finger and starts to nibble on her neck.
I feel my world crumbling around me.
My entire life has been taking care of my little sister.
And now that she is grown, and has her mate to take care of her, what do I do?
How do I just let her go?
Because that is what is going to happen. She will go back to our old pack to be with her mate.
And I’ll…just stay here. All alone.
Jody whispers something in Cami’s ear and she swats him playfully in the chest, making him grin.
“That was Alpha Tate. He wants us to come home immediately.”
Jody raises his eyebrows and says something, but I don’t hear it over the loud ringing in my ears.
Alpha Tate.
Alpha Tate.
So, he is the Alpha now.
Good for him.
I guess.
Not that I care.
Throwing a hand onto the roof of my car to steady myself, my sweaty palms instantly make it slip so that I lose my balance and my body thuds painfully into the side of it.
Damn him.
Propping my elbow against the metal, I try to look as natural as possible, as if I just stand like this sometimes.
But judging by the pitying look that Colin is giving me, I don’t think I am fooling anyone.
“We can have your stuff shipped and I will buy you whatever you need. Whatever you want, it’s yours.”
“Kit will need her stuff too.”
“Whatever she needs.”
“Um…what are you talking about, Cami?”
“Jody says we don’t have time to go home and pack, so he will send someone to pack our stuff once we get back.”
“Why would I need my stuff?”
Cami raises her eyebrows at me.
“Because we are going back with Jody, of course.”
I shake my head.
“You are. I’m not.”
Cami frowns, gently pushing Jody off so that she can slide off the car and stands in front of me.
I avoid her gaze.
“Can you guys give us a minute?”
“Okay, but just a minute. Alpha Tate doesn’t like us to mess around.”
Colin moves away, but Jody hesitates, clearly not wanting to be away from his mate for any amount of time whatsoever.
Cami reaches behind her to squeeze his hand.
“Just a minute, I promise.”
He begrudgingly follows Colin.
Cami clutches my hands in hers and pulls them close.
I can see myself in her wide, dark eyes that look up at me pleadingly.
“Kit…I know this has got to be hard for you. And I know that the last place that you would ever want to go to would be High Peaks pack…but I can’t not be with Jody…but I also can’t be without you. I need my big sis. Please…please come with me. If it’s too hard for you, we will figure something out, but I need you with me. Please, please, please!”
Fuck me.
The things I do for my little sister.
Shaking my head, I sigh and roll my eyes.
Cami accurately takes this as a reluctant yes and squeals, jumping up and down and kissing my cheek.
“Thank you! You are the best sister ever!”
Then she turns and rushes back to her mate, who gladly takes her in his arms and spins her around.
This should be fun. Returning to the place that was nothing but miserable for me to watch my sister be happy with her hot mate that I used to daydream about being my mate.
Yeah. Totally fun.
Dream come true.
Kit’s POVIt takes everything in me not to bang my head against the window that my forehead is leaning against in the front seat of the luxury SUV that I have spent the last four miserable hours inside of. Four, painfully awkward hours of Cami and Jody groping each other in the backseat, making gross wet noises while sucking faces.Not helped by Colin, every once in a while, trying to initiate conversation to distract us from the make out session behind us.Unsuccessfully, I might add.Because I have nothing to talk to Colin Anderson about.I have nothing that I want to talk about with anyone from the stupid High Peaks pack.Damn them all.Scrunching up my nose, I resist the urge to cover my ears as I hear Jody murmur, “you’re so hot”, to my sister for the millionth time.This is hell.“Oh, thank god, we’re here.”Colin looks as relieved as I feel as he pulls into a long, circular driveway in front of the same packhouse that I used to spend hours a day cleaning.Fuck. Am I going to ha
Kit’s POV I should move. Right? Or maybe not. Maybe I should just stay right here and never move again. It feels weird to be lying on this plush, over-sized bed that is apparently mine for the unforeseeable future. Inside the very packhouse that I used to scrub the toilets of. Which would have been cool. Would have been a dream come true for me...seven years ago. But now…now as I lay here staring at the revolving ceiling fan above me, all I want is to get the hell out of here. To be magically transported back to my twin-sized bed in my tiny studio apartment. Away from the humiliation of my past. For crying out loud, I am living under the same roof as the man who fate literally wanted me to be with, was destined to be with, was made to be the other half of me, but he rejected me. He didn’t want me. Didn’t think that I was good enough for him. And now he’s single again. Actually, Colin didn’t say that Tate was single, just that Sarah was gone. But with Sarah gone… Oh, fuc
Alpha Tate’s POVLowering my eyes to look at Colin, who looks utterly bemused as he pulls his eyes away from the balcony, I give him a pointed look, then walk past him towards the packhouse.I don’t care what he says about her, she is strange, and always was strange.And there is no way that she turned hot in the seven years since I last saw her. I don’t believe him.She was frumpy. Pale. Greasy hair. Always scowling and looking miserable.I don’t need a frumpy, depressed mate.And I don’t need some freak who rolls around on the balcony…My lips twitch upward at the memory of her feet, toes pointed upward, rolling away, like being rolled up in a carpet.So freaking weird.Even if she does have that amazing scent…I rejected her.But she didn’t reject you.Minor detail.I can easily rectify that whenever I want.I’m an Alpha. I need to be with someone like Sarah…Damn it.The memory makes my hands curl into fists at my side.How could she leave me for a freaking human after I rejected m
Kit’s POVWhere did these clothes come from?Like, whose job is it to run to the mall and pick out clothes for random people?Shuffling through the closet full of brand-new, expensive clothes, tags still on, I can’t help but be impressed.These are so much better than my clothes.They can just throw my stuff in the dumpster after I’ve seen these.Smiling, I pull out a simple black sundress.Not sure there is a reason to dress up, but might as well, right?I’m pulling the straps over my shoulder when there is a knock on the door.I’m halfway across the room to answer it when I notice the towel still wrapped around my head.Yanking it off, I run my fingers through it as I pull open the door.“Hey.”“Hey, Colin.”Colin’s eyes dart down to take in my dress.“That looks nice.”“Thanks.”Still running my fingers through my damp hair, I step further into the room, he follows, closing the door behind him.“So…”I grin and shrug.“Yeah.”He returns the grin.“At least it was entertaining.”I l
Alpha Tate’s POVWatching Colin kissing her from the window of my office, I go through an assortment of emotions.Pushing the anger and resentment aside, I try to feel happy for him.He needs some action.I don’t care if it’s with her.Good for him.I try to turn away, but instead, I step closer to the window, my face nearly pressed against the glass as I try to see what she looks like, but Colin is blocking her from view.The only reason that I know it is her in the first place is because of her scent.It almost smells different though…almost…lighter. Oddly enough, happier.Is this because of Colin?He deepens the kiss, pulling her against his body.Fuck!My fist pounds the wall by the window without me realizing and I extract it from the large hole it created, glancing at the figures on the lawn to see if they heard the noise.Apparently, they didn’t.Maybe I need to get laid.There hasn’t been anyone since Sarah…and even when she was here…Sighing, I rub my forehead.Even when she
Alpha Tate’s POVSlamming my bedroom door shut, I slap my palm against it and hang my head.What was that?What the hell was that?I rejected her.I shouldn’t be feeling this way about her.She shouldn’t be so…so beautiful. Sexy. Soft. Enticing.So fucking desirable.Clutching my hand into a fist, I pound the door with it and push off it.Now that I know what her lips taste like, how her touch sets me on fire, I can’t not be with her again.We didn’t even fully explore each other yet.No.I will have her again.But once I have my fun, I will let her reject me back.Even if she is hot now, she still abandoned the pack all those years ago.She abandoned me.She’s too weak to be a Luna.A true Luna would have stayed, even with my rejection.She would have stayed for the pack.My stomach clenches as I remember that day, how hard I worked to hold in the pain from doing the unnatural act of rejecting my mate.How Sarah’s gentle strokes did nothing to soothe me.How my body had ached to go t
Alpha Tate’s POVFeeling smug, I grip my hair as I hurry down the main staircase.It’s nice to know that I can make Kit desire me, to throw herself at me.What isn’t nice, is her obstinance.I can’t have that.I have worked too hard to make this pack strong.Unbeatable.We don’t need another massacre like that one that took out my parents and so many other of my friends, family, and pack members.Yanking open the door to the training center, Colin instantly tries to catch my eye, dodging a high kick, and jogging over to me.“So?”His concerned look gets under my skin.She isn’t his to be concerned over.Feeling annoyed, I recall him asking permission to pursue her yesterday, insisting that I see her before giving it to him…and I refused.Now I will look like an even bigger ass, or a complete fool, if I go back on it.Or even worse than that…weak.“She’s on her way.”Colin looks relieved as he follows me toward the front of the center while I scan the room, watching everyone’s progress
Kit’s POVSniffing, I internally curse that arrogant son of a bitch.To hell with this place!I’m not staying.I don’t care what Cami says.I haven’t even seen her since we got here!She didn’t even care enough to text me since we got here, let alone check on how I’m dealing with being back in the place that I hate so much.Might as well accept the fact that I have lost her forever.That I am completely and utterly alone now.A tiny sob escapes and I cover my mouth with both my hands.No!I won’t give that jackass the satisfaction!“Kit, I’m so sorry…I don’t know what’s gotten into him.”“I do!” I cringe at how wobbly my voice sounds. “He is a complete jerk, always has been, and always will be! He hasn’t changed one bit!”I look over my shoulder at Colin, who opens his mouth, but then closes it in a thin smile and leans the side of his head against mine.“I’m sorry.”“Whatever.”I sniff again and grab my upper arms.“I’m leaving.”“What?”Colin pulls my shoulders back and steps in fro
Kit’s POV“This was a great idea! It’s so much fun! I’m glad that we are doing this.”Cami smiles at me over her shoulder as she jogs along the path winding through the woods, her high pony swinging behind her.“Yeah…so fun!”Two steps behind her, I frown as thoughts of Tate pop into my head, again. This time it’s how hot his grin was as he looked down at me just after he got me to climax for the second time this morning.My foot catches on a root and I trip, nearly face planting before clumsily righting myself again.Cami glances back.“What happened?”“Tripped. I’m fine.”Actually…“Cami, can we stop?”I slow to a walk and wipe the sweat off my forehead.Cami jogs in place as she spins around to look at me, clearly wanting to protest, but then nods and throws her arms into a stretch over her head.“Okay, so we will take a stretch break, then keep going? If we head back now, that’s only ten miles total.”Only ten miles?Sighing, I flop onto the grass and prop my back against a thick
Alpha Tate’s POV“Be safe out there and good luck. Are you sure you don’t want me to go with you?”Jody frowns at me as he shakes my hand.“No, you stay. Keep the pack alert and ready for another attack, just in case.”Jody nods solemnly.Turning to go, I hesitate and turn back toward him, glancing around to make sure no one is listening.“Kit is excused from training today. Cami as well. Perhaps she can keep Kit distracted while I am away?”Jody looks confused, but nods his consent.“Sure…” He tilts his head to study me curiously, opening his mouth to ask about something that I really don’t want to go into right now, so I cut him off.“Thanks. I’ll keep in contact.”Noticing the dismissal for what it is, Jody steps back and holds out his hand for Cami, who is standing a few feet away on the porch, and she hurries to attach herself to his side.With a final glance at the packhouse where I just left my mate, who finally seems to be open to giving me a true chance, I can’t help but to f
Kit’s POV“I don’t want to, I really don’t want to leave you, but I have to go…”Tate kisses my neck and gives me a squeeze as he rolls away from my side with a heavy sigh.Nodding silently, I admire how the muscles from his shoulders all the way down to his calves seem to flex tantalizingly as he strolls to his dresser to pull out clothes.Even after nearly an hour of nonstop, magical bliss, I feel like if he crawled back into bed, I’d already be down for another round…The mate bond is quite insatiable. His arms already inside his shirt, Tate turns to grin at me before he tugs it over his head and, much to my disappointment, covers his perfect torso with it.“Hopefully I won’t be gone long. Feel free to stay right there and wait for me if you want.”Sitting into an upright position, tucking the blanket around my chest, I start to grin back at him, then frown, the full reality of what he is leaving to do hits me.Rescue his kidnapped ex…because they thought she was my mate’s Luna.“
Kit’s POVOh god.The moment that Tate’s lips connect with mine, I know there’s no stopping this time.No.This time I am going to let myself feel, without any reservations, exactly what this mate bond is made of.Because if I am truly honest with myself, I want this. I want to feel this. To know this. Even if it is for the one time only.Running my palms up Tate’s muscular chest, I tug his shoulders so that he leans closer, gasping as his own hand slips around my waist, palm flat on the bare skin of my back. At the same time, he grabs under my thigh with the other to hook it around his hip and hoist me up onto the cold counter.He exhales my name before he pushes my lips apart with his tongue and pulls me tighter against him.His lips taste so good…they mold perfectly against my own…but now I want more than a goodbye kiss. I need more.Lowering my hands, I hook my fingers into his waistband and tug so that they slip off his hips and fall soundlessly to the floor, his thick rod spring
Kit’s POV“Good morning, beautiful.”Smiling as Colin kisses my cheek, I reach behind me to run my fingers through his hair, giving it an affectionate tug to guide his lips to my neck.His hand slips down my side to grip my hip under the blanket.Rolling onto my back in response, I spread my knees and wiggle against him.Colin chuckles and teases me with his fingers.“You didn’t get enough last night?”“I always want more.”His eyes flash lustfully as he slides on top of me, holding himself, his arm muscles bulging in a tantalizing way.I run my finger down his chest, his abs, and nearly to his morning wood when he says something that makes me pause.“From me, right?”“What?”“You always want more from me, right? Not from…someone else?”“Colin!”His words make me feel self-conscious and a bit hurt, especially after the amazing night we had last night, so I awkwardly cross my arms over my bare breasts.He grimaces and rolls so that he collapses beside me.“Sorry, didn’t mean to kill th
Colin’s POVI start to pull away from Kit, but she doesn’t seem ready to let go since she mumbles breathily, ‘not yet’ against my lips.Lifting higher on her toes, she grabs my hair and tugs me close again.As much as I want to embrace her, carry her upstairs to bed and forget all about tonight while I explore every inch of her body with my tongue, I have to take care of something first.I kiss her back, but after only a few seconds, I grab her hands from my hair, kiss her forehead reassuringly, then pull Kit against my side as I look at Tate.“I’ve done all I can for tonight. We are in need of more supplies, and soon, or we could be in big trouble if we have another attack. There’s about half a dozen staying in the healing center overnight.”Kit must notice the faint smear of blood on my cheek, she tries to wipe it off like I had hastily tried to in the mirror I passed in the hall on the way here, but it’s dried on.Her hand still on my cheek, she tilts my face towards hers and gives
Alpha Tate’s POVEyeing the piece of paper in Lacey’s hand, I finally take it from her, carefully unfolding it while Lacey holds her breath.“You can go, Lacey.”She doesn’t immediately go, and I can tell she is hunting for an invite to spend the night together, but I have other things, more pressing things, to tend to.“Thank you.”Spinning on her heels, she exits.Taking a deep breath, I inhale Kit’s comforting scent and read the note.We have your mate. If you want her back, surrender your pack to us by midnight tomorrow or she dies.Dropping the note onto the desk, I rub my temples.It would be almost laughable if it didn’t make a new worry grip my very soul.This, this right here is just another reason why I couldn’t ever be with Kit.Even though this pack is just a bunch of morons, had they not been, it could be Kit that they have right now instead of Sarah.But they got it wrong. They thought the woman who was acting as my Luna for years was my mate.They have no idea that my r
Thirty minutes later, I tug a blanket around my shoulders as I look out the window, unable to see anything in the dark but a few feet of lawn.“Anything?”Shaking my head, I step away and move to the chair across from Cami, where she has a thick blanket tucked around her and is holding a mug of tea, black lines from mascara on her cheeks.“But that’s bad! We haven’t heard anything! They could be…”“Stop. They are fine. Don’t get all worked up over nothing.”Cami looks uncertainly into the fireplace, and I pick up my own mug, but don’t drink it.It’s one thing to give advice, a totally other thing to follow that advice yourself.How could I not be worried?Obviously, something is wrong.Intrusive thoughts race one by one through my mind.“Kit.”I meet Cami’s eyes, her lips tremble.“What if we finally find happiness only to immediately lose it…just like we lost mom and dad.”“This is nothing like that. It’s fine. Don’t…don’t think like that.”Cami doesn’t look convinced as she turns ba
Alpha Tate’s POVGlancing darkly at the closet door rattling in a rhythmic pattern, I decide it’s time to call it a night.In the morning, I will let Kit reject me back.I was fooling myself to even think that she might ever want to be with me.There is no way to earn her love like she has for Colin, who never damaged her like I did.To hear the way that she explained how she truly feels about me…a resistant attraction that she despises, and how she not only adores, but loves and desires to be with Colin and only him…I cannot put her through that torment anymore.She deserves happiness. Even if it isn’t with me.And I don’t deserve my mate at all after what I have done to her.Slamming my bedroom door shut, I consider working out, getting all the frustration out.But that doesn’t seem enough.Maybe more alcohol?There isn’t enough in this giant house to make me forget how I feel about Kit.My eyes fall on my bed.Perhaps that is the distraction I need, but not Sarah.Never her.Not af