ADRIANA’S POVI was everything that explained scared right now. It was like Xander turned into a monster right before my eyes. I knew he wasn’t a saint before and he said the most atrocious things sometimes, like when he said he wanted my fear. The fear I had felt then didn’t hold a candle to what I was feeling now.My tear ducts have dried out, I was stuck in a desert with no water and the scorching sun, my eyes were burning with the need to shed tears, to cry and scream. But I couldn’t do any of that, fighting my way out of his hold was even more impossible than me trying to force myself to form tears.“Xander please,” I didn’t know what I was begging him for, or wait, I did know. He said he was going to punish me for trying to run. The last time I did something he didn’t agree with, he locked me up and I almost died.I didn’t want to be closed in again, it only reminds me of the last time and my chest grows tight, my lungs close in around me until I’m gasping for air. Seeing I was
ADRIANA’S POV“Xander please,” my brain hasn’t fully registered the image in front of me but my mouth, which was way ahead, was already thinking of a way out. I was just hoping it would work. Though from past experience, I could tell pleading and begging doesn’t touch the man’s heart. That was assuming he had one to begin with.“No, listen sweetheart.” He let go of my arm, then moved to my back and pulled my hair off my shoulder. He leaned down and I felt his hot breath on my shoulder. I shuddered in both fear and disgust. “You have to understand the gravity of what you have done.” My body stiffened when he kissed me there.I hated that I felt warm, I didn’t even know where that came from. I felt disgusted, I was disgusted but it seemed that my body was thinking of a different thing.“Please, none of this is his fault.” I pleaded desperately, even though I knew what I was saying was unimportant to him. “I promise I’ll not try it again, I promise.” I cried, tears streaming down my face
ALPHA XANDER’S POVHearing her cries burned my soul, more because her tears were for that…that good for nothing warrior. That good for nothing man I craved to kill. My claws yearned for his blood, my canines hungry to tear through his flesh. But I gave her my word, I wouldn’t do anything to him…not yet at least.Adriana follows behind me, silently sniffling once in a while. The sick part of me wanted to tell her to swallow it, the sound grated on my nerves knowing it was all for him. That damned bastard. I really wanted to kill him so bad.“Have you eaten?” I asked out of the blue. The words made it past my lips before I could even think through it. We were standing outside the door to my room.Adriana doesn’t say anything for five minutes before she slowly nods her head. I hummed then opened the door to my room. I felt when her heart beat increased, it was beating at an unsteady rate. I could smell her nervousness, heck I was sure the people outside could smell it too.I tried to hol
ALPHA XANDER’S POVI curse my damn luck for always putting me in shitty situations. Before I could think or act on the devilish thoughts that were running through my mind, I turned away from the half-naked woman standing in the middle of my room like it was the most normal thing in the world. Fucking hell.Did she not realize how she was fucking sin on legs, with a freaking pulse that just the rhythm was enough to drive a man mad?I’ve never felt like this for anyone before, nothing so extreme that I could almost feel my body trembling, shaking just from the effort it was taking me to keep myself from storming over to her.“Why the hell are you naked?!” I growl out, still watching the opposite end of the room. Where I thankfully couldn’t get a view of her. When she doesn’t answer, I start to turn but immediately turn back when I remembered the image that I would find. “Answer me!” I command, using alpha dominance. I was not above doing that to get what I want, especially not right now
ADRIANA’S POVXander looks doubtful for a second and I try hard to control my heart rate. I know he can hear it and he is watching, analyzing every single move that I make and trying to gauge my reactions. He wants to know if I’m lying. I sounded too pliant to my own ears too, and though deep down, the thought of him touching me made me want to tear my skin off. I couldn’t hide the fact that I wasn’t lying. I would agree to let him do whatever he wanted. But only on my terms.He doesn’t know it yet.I didn’t know where these thoughts were coming from, but I was liking the direction it was heading.I averted my gaze from his, his eyes were too intense, too probing. It felt like he was stripping me, but instead of my clothes, he was stripping me from my soul, searching through my thoughts, my memories, my very being. It was an unsettling thought.It reminded me of a paragraph I read from one of the lycan books I’d found back at my old pack. The title of the book was, ‘the original lycan
ALPHA XANDER’S POV“You should start talking, I’m busy.” I say to the man sitting opposite me. His mouth is clamped shut like it has been since I came down here two hours ago.If I didn’t need something to distract me with, I would have already killed the damn fool already.“Wedding jitters?” Donovan asks from behind me. I turn toward him and glare, he laughs, raising his hands up in surrender. “Just asking, damn. Chill out man.” He rushes the words out, while I barely contain my rage.It wasn’t wedding jitters, I’m just fucking seconds away from calling it off. Not because I didn’t want to be with Adriana, heck, she was my mate, I would rather be up there with her than here trying to get that piece of shit to talk. Marriage is a different thing and I know damn well I’m not ready for that.I ignore the voice in my head telling me I had three hundred years to prepare. I’ve come close to getting married a lot of times in those three centuries, I never went through with it because none o
ADRIANA’S POV“You look pretty,” Daciana says from behind me. I don’t turn to acknowledge her. I know it’s rude but I can’t really fake a smile and pretend everything is going to be fine when I know it won’t. Not after I get married to Xander in a few hours. A few very short hours.I thought he would call it off, it was stupid and even naïve of me to believe he was going to change his mind before the week ran out. I didn’t fully believe he would go through with it even when the decorators started coming in, when I saw the house being transformed three days ago.Surely, he couldn’t marry a weak werewolf. He doesn’t know my secret and I’m surprised he hasn’t asked why I don’t shift or heal fast, it’s like he doesn’t care much. Still, I know I’m far below his level to be considered his equal, which is what I would be after we exchange vows.He hasn’t confirmed if he would make me his luna yet and I’m praying he doesn’t. He could as well put a noose around my neck and tag me a prisoner wi
ADRIANA’S POVMy anxiety picked with every second that ticked, leading to the impending doom, also my wedding. Daciana hasn’t come back since she left which I wasn’t very happy about because it meant I was left with my thoughts. That was trouble for me as my mind was always running with ideas of how to get out of here, or words of discouragement. Every single terrible thing I’ve heard from my brothers and father came back to me.Lately, I’ve been thinking of my mother, the kind of person she was. How she might have been before she died. It was not confirmed that she died but I liked to believe that, as that is the only excuse I have for why she left me with my father. When I was younger and had the hope that she would one day come back and take me with her, I believed Alpha Jameson–I ceased calling him my father, threatened her and forced her to let me stay with him. Not because he wanted me, obviously, but out of spite. That was something he would easily do.When I got tired of the d