ALPHA XANDER’S POV“Let me help you,” I lowered my voice, willing it to come out soft. The fear that flashes through my mate’s eyes hurts more than the daggers that bitch had piercing every part of my body. The worst part is I know I deserve it, I’ve been an asshole to her. I let my ego and pride blind me so much that I almost killed her. I wouldn’t have been able to forgive myself had anything happened to her.There were a lot of things I could have done differently from the first time I met her, just looking at her, you could see the white in her, the pure innocence. That was probably what drove the darkness in me mad. A gift so pure was given to us, and the first reaction we had to that was to ruin it. Because that is what I do, I ruin things. We are fucked up and didn’t know how to treat something precious the right way.I’d just planned to keep her on the side, before I found out she was my mate. She wasn't going to be luna, she would have been part of my harem and that would be
ALPHA XANDER’S POV“Why are you even bothered?” I asked Donovan. He has been pestering me to tell him where I was all through yesterday, not that there was a problem telling him but I just didn’t think it was worth it.“Because I want to know just how pussy hooked you are.” He gripped his chin with two fingers like he was deep in thought. “Except. You haven’t even gotten any pussy yet.” He let out a loud dry laugh that grated on my ears. I still refused to give him the benefit of getting a reaction out of me. He knows well enough that I would throw his ass out when he annoyed me well enough.“You don’t just disappear for hours when the pack needs you, that’s not how an alpha acts.” I groaned loudly. “Do you just never give up?” I kept the pen that was in my hand and gave him a blank look. We could keep doing this for hours and it wouldn’t bother him, but I had work to do.“I’m just asking, Xander. You could say, I’m even worried about you, and the pack.” He was speaking slowly, like h
ADRIANA’S POVAfter Xander left, it took me about five minutes to actually comprehend what the hell happened. I expected him to be hostile as usual, or maybe command me and do worse things that he hasn’t gotten to do before he decided to lock me away. I was still waiting for it, even after he left the room. He never came back though. That didn't make me feel any safer than when he was in the room, I didn't think I'd ever feel that again in his presence. Then i couldn't close the door, it was a war between two parts of me that were both scared.Closing the door made me feel like I would be locked back in again, I was scared of leaving the door open too because it gave both him and Donovan easy access to it. The fear I had for the latter was more than that of the former.As promised, the maids brought in a food cart that had different foods. My stomach churned just from the aroma, I was salivating by the time the roast beef was kept in front of me. Since they thought I couldn’t walk, th
ALPHA XANDER’S POV“You know, you can just tell me and save yourself the trouble because I’m going to figure it out anyways.” Donovan simply doesn’t know when to let things go and give up. I’ve realized that in the past two hours. We would be talking about the pack when out of the blue he would bring the topic of the witch back up. I’ve tried everything possible to get him to let it go, but he pretends to be deaf. Maybe I should throw him out of my office to have a moment of peace.“I won’t, just fucking give up.” I growled out in annoyance. I was feeling aggravated after being here for so long and not knowing how Adriana is doing. Daciana went up to see her a few minutes ago, I was informed. It is one of the reasons I’m still entertaining Donovan’s nosiness. Him being here and trying to know something that was none of his business kept him away from her and until I am sure she is safe around him, I wouldn’t want him anywhere near her.“No need to get all angry. I’m only trying to hel
ALPHA XANDER’S POVI didn’t understand why everyone was interested in where I was. I knew Daciana must have been worried but after seeing I was obviously fine, I never expected her to bring it up, and she has been busy with Adriana. I guess, I was kind of hoping she would let it go because I didn’t want to talk about it.“Just because I didn’t ask then didn’t mean it wasn’t on my mind.” Daciana rolled her eyes, looking like she had just read my thoughts. Wolves didn’t read minds and it was rare but a few lycans can. Daciana sometimes does, only when you let her in though and since we are related, she feels it is okay to just get into my head when she feels like it.“Stop getting into my head.” she hissed when I pushed her out forcefully. I’ve been keeping the mental barriers up so she won’t get the access to do it. It must have slipped my mind.“You’re no fun.” She said, shooting me the stink eye. I ignore her and look away, gathering the things I am supposed to be looking through and
ADRIANA'S POVI usually wasn’t so perceptive, especially when it came to telling when I’m in danger, I guess it is why I landed in more trouble than everyone else in this world. Not to mention how I have the longest streak of bad luck in the entire universe. I should have listened to the voice in my head that told me how much of a bad idea wearing this nightie was. Dacia said it was the only thing she could find that would fit me.My jeans are so much better than this. I’d tried closing my door after she left since we had dinner together but then I started feeling sick and I had to open the door. I barely even made it to the door on my feet. I felt like I was falling, my chest felt tight and the walls were closing in around me. It was a terrible feeling and I hope to never experience it again.If that wasn’t sign enough, I should have gone to change after I saw Xander standing by the doorway. I have heard of the boogeyman from tales that Carlson forced me to listen to, just to terrori
ADRIANA’S POVI regret not going for any training all my life, for not fighting my father too hard on it. I had mostly just nodded and went along with whatever he said, because I felt like I didn’t have a choice. He made me feel like I didn’t have a choice when it came to anything. I had one duty and that was to follow his every command.The sound of my feet rivals the sounds of Xander’s paws hitting the hard concrete floor of the pack training ground. I realized it was after that I almost ran into a training ring. Safe to say, I have been on high alert since then. It is what is keeping from being caught, or the reason he hasn’t caught me yet. For the most part, he has to be having fun with this and I couldn’t deny there is a part of me that is relishing this.Not running with him per se, after his threat. I am actually scared of what he meant by that comment. Just being stuck in a wheelchair for a day was bad, I didn’t want to be there for long. A part of me thought he meant to do s
ALPHA XANDER’S POV “Why is she not awake?” I growled at the doctor who was still checking out Adriana. I didn’t think she would appreciate being taken back to the hospital so I had the doctor sent over. It was unfortunately not the same woman that treated her at the hospital. She lived out of town and wouldn’t be here until morning. I was left with this fumbling, incompetent man treating my mate. I’ve growled at him in warning more than five times since he got here ten minutes ago. I didn’t have time to change her and since she had a few scratches on her back that weren’t healing like they would have if she had a wolf, I had no choice but to leave her in the stupid clothes. The single glare I shot after he got here told him not to look beyond where he wasn’t treating. That at least he has abided by. It was the only thing he has done right since he got here. “I don’t know alpha. Maybe she just needs to sleep, she seems tired.” He stuttered through the words like a total weak ass. I s
ALPHA XANDER’S POV “How do you know?” I’m not sure that is the right thing to ask but the question comes out either way. “I saw him,” he swallows. The tears fell this time, full of guilt. I know I’m a heartless monster but I still reach out and pat his shoulder in what I hope is a comforting touch. “I used to have trouble sleeping so I usually sneak into her room and sleep on her bed, she leaves the door open for me but he didn’t like that, he said I wasn’t man enough,” he frowns, his eyes hardening. He was just four, Jameson is a sick bastard and he deserves to die a slow and painful death. I vow to deliver that to him, in whatever hell he is hiding. “He had a pillow over her head and he didn’t stop until he was sure she was dead, I was too shocked to move. I ran to my room after, scared he would do the same to me and I never told anyone. I don’t know how he found out but he punished me and threatened to do the same to me if I said anything about it.” His throat bobs as he swallo
ALPHA XANDER’S POV“I know where he is,” Carlson says out of the blue. He has been quiet for about five minutes and I was reveling in it but that gives me a pause. I look up at him, his eyes are fixed on the ceiling like he is seeing a prophesy or some shit up there.“What?” I ask, because I can’t be sure what he said is right. If he knew where his father was all this while, why is he just telling me? I sit up and push the papers that are littered on my desk out of the way.“Jameson,
ALPHA XANDER’S POVDonovan suggested we cremate Adriana’s body, the look I gave him made him never mention that again.It has been three weeks, five days, three hours, twenty-one minutes and five seconds since I watched Dreaya slit her throat, and like I have been doing since it happened, I replayed every part of it. Every excruciating second of it. I try to analyze all that has happened, think of what I could have done to make the end happen differently. Burning Dreaya’s body was very easy but I made sure I left a mark.In whatever dumpster her ashes remain,
ALPHA XANDER’S POVMy entire world stops when she pushes the dagger deeper, a small raspy sound leaves my mate’s throat. That is the only thing I can hear is the drip of Adriana’s blood, I can hear every single gurgle from her throat.I try to force my legs to move but it feels like I’m rooted to the spot. No! This can’t fucking happen!Unlike the first time, I feel our connection sever. It is like my heart is being ripped from my chest, painfully slow, every vein being cut at an extremely slow pace. This seriously can’t be!“No.” I go to scream but it comes out in a small moan.Dreaya stands back and twirls the bloody dagger in her hand, she holds it to her face then brings it to her lips and juts her tongue out. I don’t feel disgust at her licking her daughter’s blood right off it. I’m in too much shock to do anything except stand there and watch all of this crazy shit. A part of me is praying this is just some type of messed up hallucination and I will snap out of it.I will give e
ADRIANA’S POVI’ve thought I felt what an out of body experience is before, but what I’m feeling now, I realize, is exactly what it means to have an out of body experience. I’m here, I hear things, I see things but I feel absent. In my body. I know this isn’t just my wolf taking control and pushing me back, it is more than just that.“What did you want to say again?” Xander asks, sounding bored.The woman—my mother—it feels weird calling her that because I didn’t feel any of the things I thought I would feel if I saw her. No joy, not even disappointment or anger. I just feel numb, and she could as well be anyone at this point. She hasn’t turned or spared me a glance since she came and that is probably adding to how I feel about her presence.I’d known it was her the moment I caught sight of the long blond almost whitish hair, so much like mine, and her eyes, I have a feeling they are the same color. Even our statures are quite similar. It is like I got all my genes from her and not Ja
ALPHA XANDER’S POVThe hairs on the back of my neck stand at attention, I don’t turn immediately. Letting the shock wear off my face first.My first instinct had been to get my mate out of there, then on second thought I didn’t move, knowing she was playing a game I have no idea how to. If she gets an inkling of my affections towards her daughter, this will just be a million times worse. I already have a lot to lose as it is. Any more and I would be left with nothing.“Hello Xander,” her slightly raspy voice says. This time I spin and face her, my eyes flicker to the bed, where Adriana is sitting still like a sculpture or something inanimate. I make sure the look is as brief as humanly possible, a blink is slower than that.Beside the bed, standing in her full glory is the woman I had hoped I wouldn’t have to face since the last time we tried to kill each other, a century ago.I feel the darkness that has been hibernating in me all these months, probably even years, the main reason wh
ALPHA XANDER’S POVThe most unlikely place for me to think is when I’m in between Adriana’s legs, or on the verge of cumming from how good she was riding me. If I wasn’t so sure about her being innocent, I would have been worried about how she knew how to do that.Wolves and lycans know the natural instinct of mating and since she is more wolf than human now, it makes sense that she would want to mate, completing the mate bond on another different level. If I was thinking straight, I would have stopped her knowing what would come after this. She would want to mark me and it won’t stop that way, her wolf, now linked to me and feeling my lycan aura would want to shift. That would be disastrous seeing the state the manor is in. The first shift is always horrendous.I’m lost in the sweet world of ecstasy that only involves my mate and me, and the pleasure and high we’re chasing.Everything goes well and I try to soothe her while she transitions into her true self and submit to her natural
ADRIANA’S POVI can admit one thing, I’d thought of taking control from Xander just to see how he would react, and because I was thinking with the throbbing between my thighs and not my brain.What I can’t agree with is what I did after, or what my body did. I’m feeling more confused than ever now.Xander’s eyes are widened into slits as he looks up from beneath me, the fire in his eyes makes my insides burn and they travel down my body and finally settle where I need him most. I’m sitting right above his crotch and I feel his excitement, it takes a lot of effort for me to not further move down and just end this torture.“Fuck,” He groans throwing his head back, he closes his eyes for the briefest of seconds. “You look beautiful on top baby, that is where you belong, above everyone else.” He says in a deep sexy drawl, I feel the need to clench my thighs but it is impossible because of the way i’m sitting. Xander places his hands behind his head, making his muscles flex and. He adjusts
ALPHA XANDER’S POVI almost decline his offer, then I stop when something comes to my mind.“You can help with something, but first, I need to make sure I can trust you.” Telling him is not the best thing, but it is not like it is something we don’t know. He knows I don’t trust him, not even a little bit, and the feeling is mutual. I’ve just grown a little liking toward him after interacting with him.“What do you want?” he looks a bit cautious asking that, as he should.“For you to answer a few questions for me too.” I haul his words back at him. The sides of his lips tip up in an almost smile.“Do I have to sit through a lie detector test?” he asks, it sounds like a joke but there is a hint of seriousness to it.“I have more effective ways of getting the truth out of people.” I smirk and point to the door. “Feel free to make yourself at home. Ring a maid or something if you need anything.” I’m going to see Adriana and hopefully try to work through her wolf issues with her.“Yeah sur