Someone was holding my hand. I was certain that it was a man based on the details of the hand. Everything was vague. All I could see clearly was our hands intertwined with each other. The only thing I could remember was his ring.It was a vintage cross chain ring. There was a small version of a chain which I think serves as a design and it connects the two rings that the man was wearing. Bullets of sweats formed on mu forehead when I woke up, gasping for air. I sat on my bed. The ring kept on flashing in my mind like a lightning.Whose that ring is? Why am I dreaming about it? And above all... who is that man?I grabbed the glass of water beside me. I gulped down the half of it. My throat was dry.I ran my fingers through my hair as I shook my head. I do not want to think about my dream which I do not even know if they mean something or not.I checked the time in my phone. It was already four in the morning. I glanced at my mother who was sleeping peacefully beside me. I got off the
"I never expected Dr. De Guzman to do such horrible thing! My god! If Rael was late even a bit, that old man had probably succeed with what he wanted! He is a fucking pervert!" I could feel how angry Danica was on the other line.I received a call from her when I got out from the bathroom. Rael brought some of his clothes at iyon ang suot ko ngayon. I chose to stay in the room while talking to Danica. It seems to me that the people from the bar are already aware about what happened."How are you? Where are you now? Are you home? Do your parents know about what happened?"I heaved a deep sigh as I ran my fingers through my hair. I did not want my parents to know about this. I do not want them to be worried about me. I am sure that they will be very angry."I am fine, Danica. I-I am not home," I whispered."So, where are you, then?"I bit my lower lip. I do not want to tell her that I am with Rael. This woman has a wide imagination. I am sure she will assume ridiculous things."Uhm, I
I was about to close the door when a hand suddenly pushed it. My lips parted when I saw who it was. Rael was glaring at me.He pushed the door and I was left with no choice but to take a step back."Why are you even trying to get away from me?" His voice was low yet full of threat and danger. He had completely entered my room and his eyes were glaring at me with an icy coldness.I took few steps away from him. My heart was beating ridiculously fast inside my chest as I watched his darkened eyes."Y-You can't be here. Get out," I hissed through gritted teeth despite of my trembling voice.My knees wobbled miserably when he took large steps towards me."I won't tolerate this attitude of yours," he studied me with a critical squint as he stepped towards me. "W-What do you need?" My voice was filled with fear.My back suddenly hit the cabinet. He had successfully cornered me. His hands on the sides of my head, completely imprisoning me. He leaned down as he stared directly into my eyes.
I immediately went out of my room as I got the first aid kit. Rael was sitting on the sofa. His elbows were resting on his knees, head hanging low. It seems to me that he was in deep thoughts. When he felt my presence, he lifted his gaze at me and fixed his posture.Clearing my throat awkwardly, I went near him. I do not know what to say as I sat beside him. The ridiculously fast beating of my heart making me weak. I can feel his intense stare but I did not have the strength to look at him. I took a cotton and dropped a little bit amount of betadine. That is when I just glanced at him."Let me," I whispered, reaching his wounded lips. He leaned forward a bit. I can feel his warm breath fanning my cheek. I swallowed as I felt my hand trembled. I did not even recognize my own breathing pattern."I'm sorry..." My voice shook. My hand dropped on my thigh. He has already saved me so many times. I do not even remember that I did something in return to him. Even just a simple way, I did no
"Thank you," I whispered as I handed him his helmet. I saw my mother, sweeping our garden. She smiled at us.I turned my back on Rael and walked towards our gate. But I automatically closed my eyes in embarrassment when I heard what my mother said."Are you courting my daughter, Rael?" Mama asked in a sweet voice as though she was asking a simple question."Ma..." I could feel my cheeks burning when my eyes darted at Rael who was just watching me. He got off his motorcycle."I want to but your daughter does not," he answered politely. My eyes widened, lips parted. I wanted to say something to oppose him but I was too shocked to even move my lips."It is not going to be a problem for me if you will be my daughter's boyfriend," Mama said in a nonchalant voice. "Just be patient, dear. She is just being hard to get. You just have to show her a little bit more of fondness."I was completely swallowed my embarrassment that I just wanted to disappear."W-What are you talking about, Ma? That
Nathrelya...Who is Nathrelya? Why... why did that name flash in my mind...Why didn't I see my mother in those memories?I can already remember my older memories. In a province... But it just made me more confused. This is not my life before...This is not what I have lived before... A woman. I lived in a house with a woman... she is my mother. Her name is Cassandra. Her skin was as white as snow. She was a very beautiful woman. I am sure... she is my mother.But when I tried to remember some details, my brain throbbed painfully.My name is not Yula. But what am I here? Why do people from here call me Yula? How did I get here if this is not the life that I grew up with?"Yula! Come on! What are you still waiting for?" Nessa pulled my hand.That name suddenly became strange to my ears. It was as if all of this is just a borrowed time. I do not own this life. I stared at Nessa but eventually, I just shook my head. I walked towards the terminal of the jeepney with few plastic bags i
There was a hill... A hill with colorful flowers scattered around it. From afar, there were mountains. The sky was spread in front of my eyes. I couldn't helped but stare at it. A peaceful scenery is what I am seeing. The different hues of the sky gives me a tranquility feeling. I feel like... this place very special to me.I could also see a church... I am not sure if it was really a church. It could be a mansion or a hospital. It is hard to tell because it was completely ruined and very old. It seems that it was built a hundred years ago.Where is this? What place is this? Is this Conlabefio?When I glanced at the man beside me, I sucked in a deep breath.His hues could tell tales of sky and amber in first rays of dawn at the same time."If I would ever get married... I want it to be held here," I said, smiling at him.The gentle wind was caressing his dark brown hair. I wanted to run my fingers through it... I wanted to touch him.He gently cupped my face. I can't help but closed
As I stared at his hues, memories started to appear. The blue sky was dotted with white clouds that being carried slowly by the gentle wind. It was already almost dusk so that kids were outside, playing."Oh! You have a wound, Nathrelya." Sussie parted her lips as she examined the small wound in my arm."Your mother will get mad," Princess commented as if she was scared for me.I just smiled at them and they were suddenly stunned. "She will not see this.""Your cheeks are so red, Nathrelya. Why do you look so beautiful? I wish my hair was as as soft as yours." Princess caressed my hair."Tss! That is just makeup! Your mom is a prostitute, right? So it is normal for you to have makeup!"I glanced at Layla who was rolling her eyes at me."Huh? You already use makeup, Nathrelya? That is not allowed for kids like us! My sister said! We should only use makeup when we are in college! We are just in third grade!" Sussie said.I pouted, shaking my head. "No. My mother's makeup are hidden. And
"Thank you so much!" I smiled at the cashier and grabbed the brown paper bag. My water jug is empty so I bought a bottled water at a convenience store. I went for a jogging this morning. Ravaniel was still asleep when I left. He was sleeping soundly. Our plan was to job together but when I woke up, I noticed that he was so tired so I just let him sleep there and went on a jogging alone.I was wearing a white sport bra and biker shorts with my white shoes. I gulped my water down before I continued jogging. I decided to buy pasta for our kids. It is their favorite food but of course I do not let them eat it every single day because it is not healthy. I entered the restaurant.There were three people inside. It is too early that is why.I sat on one of the table as I waited for the pasta. I checked my phone. There was still no message or any call from Ravaniel. He was still probably sleeping.My eyes shifted at the door entrance. A man entered the restaurant. Like me, he was also wearin
I cried myself to sleep that night. I do not even know what time I fell asleep. I do not even know how long I have been crying. But all I know was my heart feels so heavy and painful when I woke up the next day."Ravaniel is still outside. I think he slept in his car..."I was shocked to hear my mother's words. But I remained cold. I did not let them see any emotion in me. Ravaniel and I are done. Whatever happened between us is a sin. It was a mistake that I should forget.He is married. He has a kid. I do not have the right to be in his life and I refuse to be part of his life. I do not want to settle for a married man. I am not that desperate.And I regret everything that had happened between us.I looked at the window of my room and there, I saw his car. I am not sure if how long he has been there but I heard that since last night, his car is already there but he never went out. He remained inside his car.I swallowed. What is he still doing there if he is not coming out?"Nathrel
Without bringing anything, I rode a bus. I could not be more grateful to Jenny because she lent me some money for my transportation. I did not have any money with me. I am still so broken for the death of my baby that I was not able to work. Until now, I do not know how to continue my life. All I know is that I need to see Ravaniel. I need him by my side. I need his soothing. I need his touch. I need his kiss. I need his embrace. I need all of him. I miss everything about him.When the bus had stopped, I immediately went out of it. I still have to ride a jeepny before I reach Conlabefio. I think it will take me almost an hour."Miss, can I ask you something?" A man suddenly went to me. He was wearing a black shirt and faded jeans."Yes? What is it?" I asked politely."I think I am lost. Do you know where the terminal of bus here?" He asked confusedly."Oh!" I nodded. "It is a bit far from here. You have to go straight that way and turn left.""Can you accompany me, if it is not too mu
We went to their mansion. I was shocked to see a lot of people. And then I realized...This is our engagement party...I bit my lip as I roamed my eyes around the surrounded, looking for Ravaniel. But I did not see him in the crowd. I promise myself that I will find a way to see him and talk to him. I will tell him everything. I am not sure if he will be here but I just so.People have been congratulating us. Ravnal was beside me, his arm around my waist the whole time. He never left my side. Of course. We were in public. A lot of people were here. He is thinking that I might tell anyone about him threatening me. But I am crazy to do that especially that I know that the bomb he planted in Ravaniel's car is still there. I am not stupid to put Ravaniel's life in danger.I do not know if I will be able to see Ravaniel here. But whatever happens, I will not let anything happen to Ravaniel.People were having fun when suddenly, we heard commotion. My heart pounded inside my chest when I sa
When I finished cooking, we started eating. I was watching Ravnal silently while we were eating. I could say that he acts... normal now. I do not know what is happening to him but I am certain that he is not in the right state of mind.Does he use drugs again? That is not impossible. He has done it before. He will do it again if he wants to even though he has been in a rehabilitation center.He volunteered to wash the dishes. He even told me to go back to the room and take a shower so I took that opportunity to look for my phone. I am not sure if it is in his pocket or what. But I tried to find it in the room. I moved quickly. I do not want him to see me rummaging through the cabinet. He will surely think that I am doing something and that is what I am avoiding to happen.But I failed. I did not see my phone. It must be in his pocket. Right. He is not stupid to just leave it here in the room.I closed my eyes tightly as I released a deep breath. Okay. Now, I should just take a shower.
Ravnal left home after our quick conversation. Somehow, he made me happy. I could feel the love of him but not in a romantic way, of course. I could feel his concern towards me. He knows that I am hurt and I need someone to talk to. I am glad that he visited me even at this late hour just to check on me. I could not be even more grateful.For the whole two months, I live my life alone. I have already found a good job that offers high salary. It was in a restaurant.My phone rang when I was preparing to go home. It was Ravnal."Hey," he greeted."Hello. Yes?""I am just wondering if you are free tonight?" he asked curiously.My brows knitted. "Uhm, yes, I am. Why? Is there any problem?""No. Today is our first anniversary. I want to surprise Rose so I thought of calling you to help me." He laughed.I smiled. "Oh. Yes. Of course. I will help you.""Thanks. I will just fetch you at the restaurant.""Okay. I will wait.""No. Actually, I am already here. Outside."My eyes widened. "Are you
I do not know if it is good for me to stay here at the Fronacios' mansion if Governor has feelings for me. But I need this job. What should I do?I am not really sure how to act infront of Governor Fronacio. I always catch him staring at me. And it scares me. What if people notice it also? What would they think? I know that it is not appropriate especially how Governor stares at me. It was full of... love. He always smiles whenever our eyes meet. I just swallowed and look away to avoid him.I know that the only thing I have to do is to leave this place but I just can't do that. This job is important to me. I need this job. I think I have to look for another job first before I resign.I was silently staring at the dark skies one evening when I felt a presence behind me.My heart filled with rage when I saw who it was.She smirked as she crossed her arms infront of my chest. "What are you looking at?" She hissed at me.I gritted my teeth. I can't believe this woman. She really has the g
"I hate you! How could you do this to me!" I sobbed painfully as I tried to push Ravaniel but his arms were tight around me. I doubt if he would ever let me go as his hug was so tight that I could not even move. There were already some people outside the elevator, wanting to enter but they were hesitant. Ravaniel seemed to be careless about the people watching us. He was still on his knees, hugging myself, burying his face on my stomach as he cried harder."Enough! I am breaking up with you! Let's stop this so you could freely do whatever you want in your life!""Baby, no..." He shook his head miserably as his hug tightened. "Do not do this to me. I will die...""Then fucking die! I do not care!" I yelled with so much hatred. I did not even feel any guilt after saying those words. I was blinded by my wrath, pain and all that I was feeling at the moment.I was pushing his head but he never moved. I could feel my shirt wet by his tears.Just a few moments, two security showed up. They a
"W-What..." My lips trembled. "What do you mean?" I gasped as I tried to decipher Rael's words.He smiled bitterly. "My brother had already ruined his life, baby..." His tears fell and my heart broke into million pieces.I pulled him closer to me and hugged him so tightly. He sobbed like a kid in my neck. He was whispering some words I could not even understand. I know that he was sad and angry about what his brother had done. Even I, myself, could not imagine that Ravnal had done such thing. I cooked for Ravaniel. He was not talking that much. I know that he still feels lost about Ravnal.I tried to entertain him so he could forget about his brother even for a while. I told him to relax but he just smiled at me and kissed my forehead.When I came back to the mansion, I keep myself busy with cleaning. I am very worried about Ravaniel but he assured me that he is going to be okay. I have been thinking if I could see Ravnal and talk to him. I also want to check how he has been this pas