I stood infront of the full length mirror and turned to my side to see if there was any baby bump.At eleven weeks pregnant, there wasn't any noticable change on my belly.Pressing my palm flat against my lower abdomen, I bit my lower lip and stared at my reflection.There might not be a change on my belly, but my body is getting thinner and thinner by the day.After seeing Karl in April's office about two weeks ago, I haven't been able to eat, sleep or function well.After that day in the office, Karl hasn't stayed away. I had discussed with Edmond and he had introduced me with a divorce attorney he knew.With the help of the divorce attorney, I'd sent Karl divorce papers but he showed up at April's apartment and returned the papers, saying he will never sign them and I should stop putting both of us in misery.Karl had ripped the papers right there as he looked me in the eyes. After that day, he is every where.April had been taking me to her work place and guess who's there to vis
I rubbed my eyes with the back of my hands.Exhausted would be an understatement to how I was feeling. It was as if my body was breaking down on me.I rolled put of bed with a sigh and walked out of Lucy's room.My legs felt like jelly and my joints were hurting with every step I took.I walked in to the kitchen and went to grab some water only to have the scent of a heavy coffee assault my nose.My stomach immediately made a flip and I pressed my palm flat against my mouth and rushed towards the bathroom.My head hovered over the toilet bowl as I gaged and let out a harsh noice from my throat. Because I haven't been eating well and my stomach is empty, all that came out was acidic bile burning it's way up my throat.I spat out the last of my freaking stomach before slamming the toilet shut and flushing it.I stumbled over to the sink and picked up my tooth brush. After putting a generous amount of paste on the brush, I slowly brushed my teeth.I'm starting to grow tired of this proc
Karl Thompson...I stared down at the paper on my desk with out actually reading what it said.I've been staring at the letters and numbers for about ten minutes but none of them really made any sense to me.All my mind would let me think about was my wife, who was trying so hard to divorce me, to leave me.I ran my hands through my hair before leaning back on my seat with a sigh.I closed my eyes and tried to force my mind away from Lucy but it just wasn't working.I keep seeing images of her at home, cooking in the kitchen, sitting infront of the TV watching a movie, laying in bed next to me...I miss her presence in my life. I miss how she would blush at the littlest things I did for her. Because now, all the things that used to grace a soft blush against her cheeks, would being tears to her eyes.It felt like she was shutting down on me, like she's protecting her heart in a maximum security.While I know I was the one to install all the doubt in her mind,
I pressed my back against the side of a random car with my head hung low between my shoulders.My brother Zeus sat next to me with his arms draped over his bent knees and his head leaned back against the car.I was very grateful he dragged me out of the room before I completely broke down.After ten or more minutes of helplessly sobbing, beating my chest and crying out loud, I was finally able to calm down as my body grew tired. "You okay?" Zeus asked and I glanced over at him before shaking my head.Am I okay?Of course not.I just learned the most amazing and heartbreaking news all at once. How was I able to process it.'i will not being a life in tl this world, only for you to hate it...''I'll get rid of it...'Lucy's words kept playing in my head, over and over again.How could I have messed up this much?"Thanks for dragging me out her before I broke down infront of her."My brother glance at me before he sighed."Not the main reason why i brought you here but... Sure."I turne
Lucy Chaw...I let out a soft groan as I rolled to my back. Rubbing the heel of my hand against my left eye, I slowly sat up.I dropped my hand on my lap and squinted open my eyes. One look at my surrounding, and I immediately remembered what had happened and that I ended up in the hospital.I squeezed my eyes shut when the memory of the previous night invaded my mind.Karl knows about that I'm pregnant. He knows. And his reaction...Damn it, it was a disaster, wasn't it? A complete shit show.And the threat I pulled...I sighed as I ran my hand down my face and tried to clear my head.The door of the room slid open and my eyes followed to look at my mom staring at me.She had a wrinkle between her eyes and looked so worried. As soon as she walked closer to me, my emotions got the best of me and I bursted out in tear.Mom quickly rushed over to me and wrapped her arms around my shaking figure."I'm hear, sweety." She whispered as she ran her hand down my hair.I closed my eyes and whi
April frantically moved around the stage as she looked at each of the models, flat-ing out any wrinkles on the hoody dresses each of the tall models were wearing.They all stood in the order they would be walking down the run way but April had already changed their positions multiple times, saying one color was too bright to follow after the first or too dole to lean the right ones.She kept walking up and down the main stage, looking at her hoody dresses from an audience perspective and then telling then to switch lines again."Calm down, April. Everything is perfect. You need to stop stressing." I commented when I saw how much her stress was causing the other employees stress.April glared at me before she turned her eyes back to her models."Something looks off about the dresses." She mumbled.I walked over to her with a sigh and draped my right arm over her shoulders."There is nothing wrong with the colors, all the girls look beautiful and this is going to be a successful show. Y
I tugged at my collar for the third time in a row. My eyes jumped from one entrance to the other, constantly checking the people walking in.I glanced over to April to see that she was calmly talking to one of the assistants. In a span of an hour, it seems April and I have completely changed shoes. While she looked more collected than she did a few hours ago, I'm a mess.I have no idea why I am feeling this way. All I know is that I'm extremely nervous.Am I looking forward to seeing him? Why would I be?I mean, I've spent the last two weeks doing my absolute best to avoid him at all cost. Even though he didn't make it easy for me, I was able to use April as an excuse and not have an adult conversation with Karl.One thing April had said to me had really stuck with me. She'd asked me if I really could and want to hide my baby from Karl. She'd asked if I would want to keep Karl from my baby. She had the wheels in my head turning that night and for the may nights that followed after. I
I sat next to Karl and waited for the show to start. He was sitting to my left and Zeus was sitting to my right with Alice. The rest of the seats at the very front that were preserved for the Thompsons were still empty. It was obvious that none of them were going to come, even Kaily. I wondered if I was the reason why the youngest Thompson didn't show up to support her big sister. It made me feel even more shittier that I was already feeling.My shoulders are tense and my eyes are a bit sore. I pressed my palms flat against each other and looked down at my lap. I focused on my breathing and tried to ignore the presses of the hunk of a man next to me. Karl slowly reached for my hand, slipping his left hand in between my pressed palms and intertwined his fingers with my own.I sucked in a huge breath and glanced at him. Karl was staring at me with a soft smile that actually reached his eyes. A small smile stretched against my lips as I stared at him.Karl and I had spent almost thirty
Lucy Chaw... You know how the say the groom shouldn't see the bride in her wedding dress or else bad things will happen on your wedding day? Well I used to think that it was just a silly superstition. It's not. Preparing for the second wedding had taken a bit longer than we thought. It took me a few weeks to make the dress with the help of my two sister-in-laws and the over all preparation had taken a few more weeks which meant that April, June and I had to alter the dress around the waist all over again. But after much time of preparation, we are finally ready to renew our vows. Karl and I never had vows on our wedding because, it was never a marriage of Love. But now, we want to do it the right way, say what we want to say, read our vows to each other in front of our friends and families. Finally, at thirty- six month pregnant, I was finally ready to marry my husband again. But... but... After April helped me in to my dress and we were a few minutes short from walking down th
Karl Thompson..."I'm almost there. Traffic jam is not a joke today." April's frustrated voice came from the other side of the phone."Alright, take your time and drive safe." I warned before hanging up the phone."Is she here yet?" June asked, catching my attention.I looked at my younger sister sitting front across me in my office and I shook my head."She's stuck in traffic." I commented and watched as June leaned back on her seat with a sigh."I'm kind of nervous." She said after a few seconds of silence.Looking down at the document on top of my desk, I nodded my head.I understood her nerves. April had been wanting to be apart of the Thompsons Fashion since she was a little girl. Her ambition had grown even more when June started working here.I still don't know what my two sisters talked about or when and how they made up but ever since they did made up, the two have been attached to each others hips.Their sisterhood has grown so much that April invites June out for
Karl pulled me over to the room across from our girls room and opened the door.If breathtaking was the last room, then this one almost caused me to pass out."Happy birthday, wife." Karl whispered in to my ear as he stepped behind me and gently pushed me further into the room.There are shelves filled with large, different colored fabrics, a few mannequins stood here and there, a large pale pink table stood in the center of the room.The walls are graced with beautiful arts and designed wall papers. There are empty picture frames hanging on the walls."There are empty so you can feel them with anything you want." Karl commented from behind me as he let go of my hips and let me wonder further into the room.I stepped closer to the shelves holding the fabrics and I couldn't help but reach out and pinch them between my thumb and forefinger just to see if they were actually here.The fabrics felt expensive in my fingers, so beautiful and elegant.I looked across from the shelve to see a
I looked around the backyard as our friends and family sang me a happy birthday.The beautiful birthday decoration stood behind me and my birthday cake stood in front.I pressed my palms flat against each other in front of me and listened. My cheeks were already hurting from having to smile too much but I couldn't stop my lips from stretching.I looked at the faces of my friends and families, each of them having a smile in their faces and I couldn't believe the fact that they were all here for me.I leaned closer to the cake once they finished singing me a happy birthday and took a deep breath to blow out the candles. I made sure to close my eyes and make a wish before the last candle was out.I glanced at Karl, who winked at me, quite literally winked at me, forcing heat to burn my cheeks.Soon enough, the cake was cut and pieces were making their ways out to our guests. Karl took my hand and led me to a chair. I let out a groan as soon as I dropped myself in the chair because I did
I took a deep breath as Zeus finished his final touch and stepped back to take a look at his work."Do I look better?" I asked.Zeus chuckled before he offered me his hand and helped me up. I stepped towards the mirror and looked at my reflection. Zeus gave me a soft smile as he placed his hands on my shoulders."You look beautiful, Lucy." He commented. "I mean... I wan the one who did your make up, so it's only natural that you look your best."I playfully glared at Zeus through the mirror before a smile made its way to my lips."Thank you." I whispered. "You really are a life saver."Zeus nodded his head. He really was a life saver. In the last ten minutes, he was able to remove all the runny and ruined make up off of my face and do a soft natural look, all while trying to calm me down."Don't worry about it. I got you." He patted my shoulder before he started collecting the brushes from the sink."Still. I'm really grateful. And I'm sorry I made a scene out there."Zeus stopped col
Lucy Chaw...I stared at my reflection with uncertainty. Placing both of my hands on my large baby bump, I looked down at my long, pale pink dress through the full length mirror. Instead of feeling happy and excited, I feel scared.I don't know why but it all felt fake. Like if I close my eyes for too long then it would all disappear and turn in to a far memory I could barely reach.The long dress Karl bought for me is beautiful and looks way too expensive. The pale pink fabric is decorated with small dusted golden glitter form the top to bottom. This morning, after Karl and I had breakfast alone because he said the cousin twins had an "Errand" to run, a group of stylists and make up artists had invaded the house and kept me locked up in our bedroom, pulling at my hair, stabbing at my face...Okay, fine. I may be over reacting.There were actually only three women that came at Karl's request. One woman to style my hair, one woman to deal with my make up and a third wo
The entire family clapped their hands as soon as the youngest Thompson walked up to the stage and got her medical degree.The loud noice, claps and cheers caught Kaily's attention and she waved over to us with a shy smile in her face.From the moment she walked up on the stage to the moment she walked down, each of us showed our support.Lucy stood beside me, happily clapping her hands for my baby sister. It really surprised me when I saw the two walking into the sitting room together the night of Kaily's surprise party. But what shocked me more was the fact that those two have gotten closer to each other to the point that the two, including April were making plans to have a sleepover at April's old apartment.All of us sat down after Kaily was off the stage and I couldn't help but look around me.Every single Thompson was here including our grandmother Candis. Although, I was a bit surprised when she warmly greeted Lucy when we all met our front before we walked in.Lucy looked just
Karl Thompson...I looked down at the package Stuart just gave me as I was walking up to the front door of our house.It's addressed to my wife but since Stuart and Ethan were both aware about the stress we're dealing with thanks to Garzei Chaw, they had decided that they didn't want to stress her out. So, they waited for me to come home to give me the package.I walked through the long hall and then up the stairs to make my way to our shared bed room. But before I could reach out room, my eyes traveled over to the rest of the bedrooms and empty rooms on our floor.I glanced at our bed room door before walking past it. I silenced my footsteps and walked over to the next room which was the same room Lucy was staying at when she first came back home. I reached out for the door knob and twisted it open Seeing this room reminded me of that horrible night. Looking side way at the door, it almost made me feel like I need to rip it out. It made me feel like I need to rip out
Lucy Chaw...I sat at the back of the car with Ethan in the drivers seat.I scrolled through my phone, absently looking at the screen as I kept recalling the session I just had with Dr. Goodman.We didn't talk about anything different from the last session, although I did mention the shock of a life time when Karl and I found out that we were having twins. Dr. Goodman had congratulated me before she started analyzing me again. She had asked me questions I wasn't able to give answers to, like, why I was so freaked out when I realized that the baby was not just a baby but babies.I had tried to sum it up to hormones and move on but the look Dr. Goodman gave me made me really uncomfortable. It was as if she was telling me that most families with backgrounds like Karl and I wouldn't be upset if we have two or three kids come at us at once. So, why had I been so freaken upset.I sighed as I leaned my head back and closed my eyes.I had a pretty fun morning. Spending time w