He practically dragged me out of the hotel, he didn’t even give me a chance to dry my hair. Liam acted as if time was of the essence. I should have asked him what the hurry was, but I just wasn’t in the mood. He was acting like a man on a mission, I hadn’t realized that he could be so cruel, until we got to the pharmacy. The compassionate guy had left the moment I’d told him what was on my mind. The thing that he’d been begging me to do ever since we went to the Prom. Then, we went to the pharmacy and bought a test. I say, ‘we’, because the man was picking up all different types as if he was buying candy or something. As we got to the counter the cashier dashed her eyes at him, at them, and finally me, the one who would be peeing on the sticks.“How much?” he blurted out as he took out his wallet, ready to pay. “Errh,” she said while blowing gum up in the air and playing with her loose strand of dark hair. “You only need one. They’re ninety-nine percent reliable. You really don’t nee
I didn’t understand why she came to help me, I should have said something, told her how grateful I was, but I was so confused about the trail of events. I kept looking out. Expecting that any minute Liam would come back for me. I checked my phone.Nothing.I couldn’t believe that he’d left me like that, but as time went on, I stopped thinking about him and started worrying about myself. About my future. It was clear that Liam didn’t want to be a part of it. Not anymore. Now that he knew the consequences of us being careless. I kept racking my brain, trying to understand. I should have asked how come she wasn’t working at the pharmacy or some kind of conversation, but I was exhausted. I kept expecting Liam to tell the driver to come back. That he’d made a mistake and he didn’t mean it. The reality of being out there for nearly thirty minutes and him not turning back and coming to see that I was okay started to hit home. “I hate him!”She said, “So, you should. God, he’s a jerk. Hey,
We sat in the car in silence. Rita from time-to-time would look at me and smile. I would do the same with her. The only noise was her GPS directing the way. Only twenty minutes until we arrived at my house and it felt like a lifetime just clutching ahold of my backpack and wondering if going home was the best solution. I picked up my cell which was turned off and debated whether to put it on. I threw it in my bag and then looked out of the window. I just wanted to think about something else rather than my situation. Anything was better than that. “Rita,” I whispered, but she didn’t hear me so I said it louder. “Rita, do you think that you’ll get over it eventually?”She didn’t need me to elaborate. She knew exactly what I meant by that statement. “I’m healing slowly. Being at home. Working in the pharmacy, even if it’s not the most thrilling job in the world has helped.”I nodded. “And your friends, do you think that you’ll get them back?”She shook her head. “I found out that they w
I grabbed some tissue and started clearing up the remains of my piss. I flushed the toilet and did everything robotic like about my trip to the bathroom, but, this wasn’t a quick urinating session. I’d done it with a purpose and now that it had gone, I found myself feeling emotional one minute and crying like a baby. Like the one inside of me. And the next, I found myself taking deep breaths, trying to clean up with tissue any piss that had splattered onto the floor. The instructions had said that I needed to run the stick under the pee for a couple of seconds. I hadn’t peed in so long that I hadn’t counted it right. I’d tried counting a second or two and then it’d been three, or maybe it was four? Again the doorbell was going, but this time not just the doorbell. I could hear him yelling outside. The one that’d dumped me like a piece of trash on the curb. He wasn’t going to go away. I needed this time for myself just so that I knew what to do next. I stopped crying, and once again,
I didn’t know how long I sat by the door, but from the moment the doorbell rang, I didn’t hesitate in jumping up and opening it. “Chanel!”She smiled as she hugged me. “Sorry, I shouldn’t have left you like that at the Prom. I never knew. Why didn’t you tell me?”“Because I didn’t want to ruin Prom for you.”She pulled back and said, “You kidding me? You didn’t want to ruin Prom for me.”I nodded as I ushered her into the house and then closed the door behind her. “You’ve been sitting here in the dark. Adele, why are you doing this alone?”I couldn’t tell her that I did part of it with a complete stranger. She wouldn’t understand, part of me wondered if I knew what was going on right then. Everything seemed to be out of my hands, and the craziness seemed to be taking it over because I felt as if I was someone different. A person that I’d never been faced with was coming out of me, and I didn’t like it. Not one bit. “And your mom, does she know?”I shook my head and then laughed nerv
Mom could have taken around twenty minutes to come home. It could have been longer. The moment she came through the door and she saw Chanel and I on the sofa, she ran to me. “Adele, what’s wrong? You sounded weird on the phone and then Liam’s acting strange too.”I didn't want to tell her or dramatize the situation, but I’d been repeating how this whole thing was going to go. The moment she walked through the door and into my arms, I lost courage to do it. Literally. I’d been visualizing how the talk was going to go and every single time that I replayed it in my head, it ended up badly. That was when I noticed it, as she cupped my face with her hand. A ring. An engagement ring.I took her fingers from my face, as the rough edges stroked it. “Mom is this what I think it is?”She nodded, but then hesitated as she said, “Yes, Henry proposed last night. He cooked dinner and I had no idea.”“But you haven’t even been going out that long. How could you?”She shook her head. “I thought
I couldn’t fucking believe my life right now. Everything seemed to go from bad to worse in a flash and I knew that it was my fault. I couldn’t fucking deny it. I should have banged down the door and told Adele to let me in, instead of running away like a chicken. The thing that I was good at doing all the fucking time. I took a deep breath thinking about the fact that I let Chanel do my dirty work. A ride on the bike. A sip of Dad’s beer in the fridge didn’t get rid of the nerves. And the last thing I wanted to do was talk to Dwayne. I knew what he would say about it. That I was an idiot and had a way of taking everything for fucking granted. I knew that, I just didn’t feel like being told the obvious. Not today. Not the way that I was feeling. “What the fuck?” Dwayne spat out as I was just about to hop on my bike. I gathered that Dad was with Laurie, which was the best thing, because then I would stand up like a man and tell them all the truth at the same time.I wasn’t really in
I made up my mind, which didn’t mean that things were going to be easy.I rode my bike over to Adele’s place. I thought about what to tell her the whole ride. If the way hadn't been so well lit by street lights, with few cars on the road, I might have crashed because I was so fucking distracted. A small corner of my mind even thought it would be a relief, because it would be some escape out of the situation.But I’m not escaping anymore. I can't keep being a fucking coward. I’m going to face this head on, and I need to get Adele to listen to me.I knew it wouldn’t be easy. She’d been really mad at me, and I couldn’t even blame her.Not too long later, I stood at Adele’s door. I didn’t knock, or ring the bell right away, because I was frozen on her doorstep. I’d arrived, but fuck it, I still didn’t know what I was going to say to her! I turned away from her door and paced down the short driveway, looking up and down the street. I wasn’t leaving, just…taking deep breaths to calm myself
I sat down with my friend in her room, helping her do up her make-up. We had friends and family running around, helping get ready for the wedding.“This brings back memories,” Chanel said, her eyes twinkling at me.I sighed. “I remember. My wedding that I ended up sharing with my mom. Honestly, I don’t know if I’m jealous of you or not because I didn’t exactly mind how things turned out that day…”Chanel had been there for me, but she’d been too busy to stick with me the entire time, and I’d had Mom there to help me out. Chanel’s mom was around, but she was acting more as a supervisor than anything.“Mom!”I looked up at my baby’s call and gasped. “Oh, honey, you look so pretty!”“Pretty,” Chanel said, sounding just as awed as I did.“Thanks for inviting me to your wedding, Aunt Chanel,” Harmony said, before running away to join the other kids, not waiting for a reply.Chanel sighed. “Adele, your kid is such a sweetheart. And she’s already so big! When Dwayne and I have our kids, they
“How the hell are we supposed to find a parking spot here?” I grumbled.“Watch your mouth,” Adele reprimanded lightly.I rolled my eyes, but looked in the rearview mirror at Harmony, in the backseat and held down by a seatbelt. She looked to be paying full attention to her juice box, though.“Shouldn’t we have waited to get here before giving her anything to drink?” I asked, still looking for a space to park.“It’s fine. I figured we could find a bathroom before we go in or something.”I just hummed. A moment later, I finally found somewhere to park the car, and it wasn’t too far away from the stadium. I pulled into space, and the three of us got out of the car.“Give me your hand, honey,” Adele said, holding her hand out to Harmony.Our little girl pouted. “Mom, I think I’m old enough now that we can go around without you holding my hand.”I sighed and rolled my eyes, seeing Adele pout as well. Three years had gone by, and Harmony was seven years old now. She also seemed to be going
I sat on the couch, holding Harmony in my arms. I felt a little bad for taking so long, but when we’d woken up and started getting ready for Liam’s departure, I figured it had been about time to let our little girl know that her dad would be going away for a while.She hadn't cried, but she was being pouty about it, and not speaking. I knew, sometime after he left, she’d come to me and cry, and when she did, I would cry with her. Sometimes, things just seemed to hit her late, and when they did, they hit hard. It reminded me a little of myself at times.Liam brought down the last of his suitcases and set it at the base of the stairs, then glanced over at us. He arched an eyebrow at me, but all I could do was sigh.“Harmony?” I said slowly, pulling her away from my chest so I could look at her face. She kept her head ducked down, but I tilted it up by the chin, and she finally met my eyes. “I know you’re sad that Daddy is going away, but he has to leave soon, so why don’t you say goodby
I was seated in my bedroom, on top of the bed with my laptop on in front of me. It was about time for me to go to school, and I was doing last minute checks to be sure I didn't forget something before I had to leave. I would be leaving for the city tomorrow morning, taking a few things with me to my new apartment that was closer to the school and my job. I would be coming back when I had to time off, but it killed me that I had to move away from my wife and daughter like I knew it bothered Adele.Shit, we hadn't even explained it to Harmony right that I wouldn’t be around all the time anymore. There were phone calls and video calls, but it was hardly the same.“Are you done?”I looked up to see Adele just walking out of the bathroom with a bathrobe around her and a towel around her neck as she wiped at her hair.“I can do whatever’s left once I get there,” I said, closing the laptop and setting it aside without taking my eyes off her.“I’m going to miss you when you leave,” she said w
It was getting closer and closer to the fall, and with it, nearer to the time Liam had to go off to law school. As summer was winding down, Liam had to get a bunch of stuff in order before he could leave. The one thing I hated most, though, was when he was looking for a place to stay. I knew he wasn’t leaving me, but I still hated that he had to move out of the house.I woke up one day, too anxious to sleep longer, and both Liam and Harmony came down to find me on the couch, and breakfast nowhere in sight.“I’m so sorry, honey,” I said, referring to both of them, but looking at my pouting daughter. “I haven’t cooked anything, but we still have cereal would you like that?”Immediately, she perked up. “Yay, cereal!”She shot toward the kitchen, and Liam grinned at me. I didn’t usually like her having cereal, so I tried to lessen how many times in a week she could have any, and she’d already had it twice. She preferred the extremely sweet types, and the sugar rush always had her bouncing
We had a late night, but I still woke up early. My body was too used to getting up at a certain time in the morning every day, I was up before the alarm even rang, and I reached over to shut it off before it got too annoying. Then, I turned to the woman sleeping in my arms.I hadn't moved yet, and already I could feel the aches all over my body that pretty much meant we’d had a really fun night last night. After how that disastrous dinner had been, and then the day of circling each other while I thought of how best to cure Adele of her disappointment, I couldn’t have asked for a better end to our long streak of no sex.There was still school, and I sighed as I wondered how I was going to work both that and my job into my family life. If Harmony did start going to school at the same time…it would be so much more convenient for everybody.After leaving a peck on her forehead, I slid out of Adele’s arms and went to the bathroom. The area around my upper arms and back stung from all the s
It had been a whole day since the dinner fiasco. I’d stopped crying a while back, but I was still pretty bummed out about it. Liam noticed, and he’d left me alone since then. I hated that he had, though, because he didn’t even come to the bedroom to sleep last night. I must have cried myself to sleep, and when I woke, I found him sleeping on the couch in the same outfit from yesterday with his jacket thrown over him.Since he’d ignored me first, I’d done the same to him throughout most of the day. We didn’t eat the food from yesterday, but at least I’d left it all covered, so all it needed was some warming. In fact, last night’s dinner was pretty much all we had throughout the day; I warmed separate portions for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. We ate separately and stayed in different rooms of the house.I hated how it felt like we were in a fight when the reason I was in such a mood wasn’t even because of him.Is he just going to let things stay like this? I mused to myself as I lay in
It was evening already. Adele had spent most of the afternoon cooking, and I could smell all sorts of amazing scents wafting from the kitchen. I’d kept my ass on the couch and my focus on the TV, though, so I wouldn’t bother her. I could have helped, but… I was feeling a little lazy. And I was kind of uneasy over what Adele planned to do. So I left her alone. She wouldn’t give me a plate before our guests were present, but my mouth was practically watering, and my stomach kept growling in hunger.To hurry things along, I got up to head for the kitchen, and see if she at least needed help with something.“Is there anything I can do to help?” I asked while leaning against the door. Hoping that her answer would be no.She glanced at me over her shoulder, paused with her arms raised where she was reaching for plates from the cupboard. I walked across the room and reached for the same plates, glancing down at her. She was just standing there, staring at me with wide eyes.“How many do you
My mom and Liam’s dad were going to spend the day with Harmony; Liam’s birth mother was even going to join them in spoiling her, and then she was going to spend the night over with them. She was four-years-old already and didn’t exactly mind the attention, taking after her dad in one more thing, among others, including her pretty looks.She should be starting school soon…and the idea of it scared me, the fact that she's grown up so fast.Where did the time go?It was something I had to talk to Liam about at some point. For the moment, she was still going to daycare, but it would probably be better to get her into kindergarten already instead of waiting too long, or she’d end up older than the other kids in her class.I was pretty much a stay at home mom, even though I’d gone through college and gotten my degree. It wasn’t something I couldn’t put to use while staying at home, anyway. Considering how far the world had advanced already, it wouldn’t be so difficult to get a job online wi