EiraFor several minutes we stared at each other, too lost to even say anything at all. There were many things going on in my head, things that i wanted to say, things that i wanted to speak of but i knew in that moment that it was best i remained quiet because whatever was going on now was serious and i needed to be guarded so i wouldn't make any mistake.I tried to speak but my mouth was too dry to form words. There were many things i wanted to say, many things that i needed to let out but in that moment, so much fear crept up in my chest that i couldn't even string a sentence together. Whatever was going on, I knew that I needed to let it out before it sucked me dry which was what I was trying to avoid at all cost but still, the fear that was holding me gripped me so much that I couldn't."Can't you all talk? Why do you keep staring at me?" I snapped.I was losing it and I knew it but still, I couldn't believe that I was here, at Sebastian's mercy. I wanted to be free, to go my own
EiraThree weeks later I stopped working at the restaurant ever since the incident between Jason and i. I could forgive many things but when it came to betrayal, that was the one thing I could never forgive. What Jason had done to me was something I knew I would never do to another person but in his own case, he didn't care and it pained me to know that he didn't give a damn about me. He was working for Sebastian, had been working for him for a while and the meeting was a perfect opportunity for him to sell me out to him."I'll get you for this Jason… I don't care how long it takes or when it will happen but I will surely get you for this." I vowed.It was a promise I kept to myself, a promise I was going to fulfill and he would never get away with what he had done. "Thinking about him again?" Diana asked.I sighed, knowing that there was nothing really I could get away from them. Earlier, i had told them everything that happened between me and Jason and they had been very angry, eve
EiraThe first thing I noticed and heard as soon as I woke up was Diana's voice alongside Gianna's, and from the tone of their voice, I could tell that they were worried. It showed in the way they walked and in the hesitant shuffling of their feets. They hadn't expected me to go unconscious just like this, and I knew they were wondering what really happened to me but in that moment, I couldn't even explain it because everything leading up to this very moment was not very clear to me.They laid me down on the long and comfortable couch where I felt even more relaxed. I had no idea what was going on and I hated not knowing anything because it drove me crazy. My head was in a blur, a testament to the fact that I had no idea of what had happened these past few minutes. It just felt like I had been dunked in water and it was now that it was getting kind of clearer that I was starting to understand everything that was going on. There were things I wanted to say, things I needed to be clear
EiraI just knew that she was about to say something, and I couldn't wait to hear everything she had to say. Already, there was a look on Diana's face that screamed traitor and even though she put up a fake expression on her face that told us that she didn't want to hear this, but still I knew that she was eager to hear whatever Gianna was about to say.As I sat with the girls in the living room, I couldn't help but smile as they animatedly discussed Diana's peculiar medical abilities. Gianna was in the middle of sharing the story when Diana ran into the kitchen to switch off the gas stove that was already hissing. Breakfast was ready but at that moment, my taste buds were sort of dead, and I didn't even want to eat anything. Even the smell of the food nauseated me to no end and I hated feeling this way because I knew that this was surely not me."You know, babe," Gianna started with a chuckle, "if Diana had stayed in school just a bit longer, she might have become a doctor for real!"
EiraThe more I vomited, the more I felt like I was about to throw out my guts. I had never felt this way before, and I hated feeling this way now when I knew that I was usually not like this. Something had gotten into me and I knew it, and I needed to find out what it was before it was too late."Are you alright, babe?" Gianna asked me."Of course she isn't alright, girl, look at her. She has even lost some color," Diana said to her immediately .I knew she was right and if I looked at myself in the mirror, I wouldn't like what I saw. I was getting tired by the minute and I hated feeling this way. Heck! I was a puking mess and I hated to think that there was something I had eaten or drank that was making me feel like this."That's it, we are going to the hospital," Diana pronounced.I rinsed my mouth with the running water from the sink and washed my face and in that moment, I felt better than how I was some minutes ago. I turned to face the girls and I wasn't surprised to see the su
EiraAn hour later, as I walked into the sterile, fluorescent-lit hospital room, my heart was pounding in my chest. Beside me were Gianna and Diana and looking at them, I knew that they had been there for me through thick and thin, and today was no different. Today, we were facing something I had been trying to avoid for hours now but there was possibly no way I could avoid it any longer, because I needed answers as much as they did to what exactly was going on with me.I was in the hot seat and ever since I had been experiencing those unusual symptoms, my mind couldn't help but jump to the worst-case scenario. I had to see a doctor, and my friends insisted on coming with me for support even though I knew that there was nothing I could do to stop them.Dr. Anderson, a middle-aged woman with a pleasant face entered the room, smiling brightly before she spoke. "Hello, Gianna. I see you have brought some friends along. That's wonderful. They can stay if it makes you feel more comfortable
EiraWe finally got home and just seeing the house had me bursting out in tears all over again. I couldn't believe that I was pregnant and I knew who was responsible. At that moment, I felt like a failure and a disappointment and I knew that if my mother could see me right now, she would be really devastated because this wasn't what she expected from me. Even though she was strict and very down to earth, she wouldn't expect me to end up pregnant and with someone I hated. As I slumped on the couch in the living room, I thought about everything that had happened and I knew the genesis of everything.Sebastian was responsible for this and in that moment, I knew I would rather die than to allow him know I was carrying his child. I had made a terrible mistake, and it pained me to know that there was nothing I could do to change the fact that I was pregnant. Aborting the baby was out of it because for one, I was far too gone and secondly, it would affect my wolf and the last thing I wanted
EiraPRESENT DAYThe following day, as the girls bustled around the living room, trying to tidy up and prepare for what was supposed to be a cheerful evening, I couldn't help but feel a storm of emotions raging within me. My unexpected pregnancy with Sebastian had left me in a state of constant turmoil. I sat there on the couch with tears welling up in my eyes, as the weight of the situation pressed down on me.They moved with purpose, rearranging furniture and setting the table, their laughter and chatter a stark contrast to the turmoil in my heart. How could I tell them? How could I explain that I couldn't stay here anymore and that the man who hated me was also the man responsible for the growing bump in my belly? Even though they already knew who was responsible for it, that didn't stop the fact that I was a failure and I had let them down more than anything else and I regretted my actions.As I absentmindedly rubbed my abdomen, feeling the life inside me, I made a decision in my
Eira I don't know how long I've been sedated but the next time I awoke, it was evening and I was back to Sebastian's room. I cringed at the bright lights and winced as I tried to open my eyes. I was unaware of how long I had been unconscious. "Do you think she's alright?" I heard a voice that I wasn't sure I was able to recognize,say. I was now aware that I wasn't the only one in the room. I was finally able to get myself to open my eyes and I almost panicked when I saw Sebastian, his father and his brothers standing over me. Laura stood at the side. I frowned and pressed my hand against my head. Sebastian looked down at me worriedly. "Are you alright?" He said and I nodded slowly because I wasn't sure that I had enough energy to talk yet. "You gave us a fright back there. Now what's this I hear about my grandson missing?" Hunter said calmly. I was surprised that he was speaking to me. I was expecting him to hate me. His brothers didn't hesitate to express how they felt about me
Eira I couldn't say that I was entirely ready to face the day. I wasn't sure I was. Thankfully Sebastian had moved my luggage into my room. Last night I had panicked and I had cried again and Sebastian had to spend the rest of the night assuring and consoling me until I drifted Into sleep once more. Now how was i to get over the anxiety that was clawing up at me. How was I supposed to face Sebastian's family? Especially when he was going to break the news to them that he had a son especially with a member of their rivaling pack. I didn't even think that I was going to see Sebastian's family. I didn't think I would be this nervous. I still felt really tense. I haven't even been able to eat anything all morning. I stared at the reflection in the mirror. The girl staring back at me seemed exhausted and terrified out of her mind. Any moment from now and she was going to spiral and have a panic attack. I felt the need to burst into tears but settled for breathing in and out to calm my r
Eira I didn’t know how long it must have been now. I felt groggy as my eyes flickered open and I met an unfamiliar white ceiling. When I tried to move, my muscles protested slightly, meaning that I must have been unconscious for a very long time. I held my hand over my head. The pounding seemed to have reduced, the thudding in my head could pass for almost non-existent. Something about how groggy I felt gave me an inkling that I had been sedated. I felt drowsy and almost tempted to go back to sleep. I forced myself to keep my eyes open, my eyes traveled along the expanse of the grand bedroom, I looked down at the massive king size bed that I was in. It was half the size of my bed back at the inn. My eyes traveled to the vanity mirror, to the couch and then to the mini bar. I spotted the little door which gave me an idea that it might be a walk in closet. My brows furrowed into a frown as I looked at my surroundings. Where the hell was I ? And why wasn't I out there looking for my s
Eira "You need to get it together, Eira. If you continue like this, you won't be able to make it to Sebastian." Laura chided as she stood at the doorway. It's been four days and I still haven't heard from Liam, from Sebastian. Two days since Laura arrived at the inn. She gathered some information that gave us a clue to where we Sebastian lived. And yet I couldn't even find it in me to take any action. With each day that passed by, I felt absolutely nothing but misery and pain. I bursted into another round of sobs. That's all I've been doing these days. I've been crying and letting my misery get the better of me. I've allowed myself to be shrouded in my self hate and regrets. I deserved every bit of what was happening to me. Maybe this was how Sebastian felt when I said those hurtful Words to him, perhaps karma was paying me back in my own coin and I couldn't do anything about it. "I don't know how to fix it Laura" I said, I whispered brokenly. I still laid in my bed lifeless. "You
Eira It had been days since I told Sebastian to leave. Since I've last seen him. Liam was no longer bubbly and full of sunshine. He was reserved, preferred to be with only his teddy bear and Maybe I imagined but there was a certain look in his eyes that he regarded me with. Maybe he was disappointed. I was disappointed in myself too. Somehow, all I managed to do was just end up making things worse than they already were. Liam didn't even come down for dinner today. There was this empty look in his eyes each time I saw him, it held a sort of similarity to the hollow feeling that I felt in my chest. Sometimes when Liam thought I couldn't hear him, he would cry in his bedroom. I would cry too because I knew all I ever did now was cause the two men that I loved so much, pain. Things were just beginning to get better. Sebastian was willing to make an effort and I ruined it, because that's all I ever do. Ruin things. Tonight is a painful reminder of how empty I'm feeling, I can barely thi
Eira The bed felt so warm and cozy. I stretched, feeling satisfied but at the same time tired. It took me a long minute to be able to register the grip Sebastian's arm had over my waist. We were both bare under the sheets. I wasn't able to move because he held me to himself in a iron clad grip. The thought of him not wanting me out of his sight, brought a very bright smile to my face. The corners of my lips lifted up in a wild smile and I couldn't stop admiring his sleeping face. I traced an idle hand over his face and intently admired him as we slept. We'd barely gotten enough sleep especially after our conversation yesterday night and by the time we had woken up again, we were more interested in one another's bodies than we were in having a conversation until we were tired and drifted into short sleep shortly. "You know it's rude to stare at people when you think they're not sleeping" he murmured sleepily, his voice was still heavy lidded with sleep. "How do you always end up ca
Eira I spent the rest of the day in my bedroom. The house eventually became quiet and I knew that Sebastian had taken his son on a walk like Liam usually requested. So apparently I was left alone with my thoughts and I was left alone with my misery. I spent all day crying and eventually I became exhausted and I fell asleep. By the time I awoke, hours had rolled by. It was evening already. I wondered how long I had been asleep. Maybe Liam would be looking for me all day, who knows. I decided that it was time that I stopped wallowing in my misery and I had a shower. So I did, the hot water was something I was certain I needed. I spent long hours in the shower, lost in thought and eventually I came out of the bathroom and dressed in another set of comfortable clothes. I left my hair, hanging past my shoulders, leaving it to air dry and then I headed down the stairs into the kitchen where Sebastian was preparing dinner. Him and Liam were having a conversation, bickering to each other
Eira I finally succeeded in falling into a restless sleep but by the time I woke up. I didn't feel any better. I only felt worse. The memories of our argument last night rushed through me and I couldn't seem to get it out of my head. Somehow, I ended up feeling even worse than before. I was almost tempted not to get out of bed but I also knew that I couldn't stay in here all day. If I did, Liam was going to come looking for me and he was going to ask me all sorts of questions. He was a child but he observed the most little details and you wouldn't even know. He was very inquisitive. Finally after long moments of deliberation, I finally decided that it would be a good idea to get out of bed. I quickly caught a glance of myself in the reflection in the mirror. I looked like a mess. I winced under my breath. I can't go outside looking like a mess, even though I was very tempted to. I settled for brushing my teeth and packing up my hair into a neater bun and then I headed down the sta
Eira It was a nice walk back to the inn. Sebastian held Liam against his chest. He had exhausted all his energy playing with the squirrels and in the flower Field. Comfortable silence passed between us. Strangely, the air between us was lighter. There was no tension between us as we headed home. We arrived home in between twenty to thirty minutes. Sebastian headed up with Liam upstairs to his room to settle him in bed. Maybe when Liam was hungry later, Sebastian would make him dinner. But for now, we agreed not to wake him. I decided it would be a better idea to head to the kitchen and make dinner.I started to bring out the ingredients from the fridge. Maybe today, I would bake a pie, just because I haven't in a long time and because I was in a good mood. It took me a while before I was ready to register the footsteps behind me and the corners of my lips tilted up into a smile when I felt Sebastian lean into me wrapping his arms against me as I poured flour into a bowl. I relaxed