Eira
"This scent, it's very familiar," I murmured.Try as I may, I couldn't quite get the scent away from my head. It was very disturbing, calling my name like it wanted to tell me something. There was just something about it that screamed to me, telling me to come have a look and see what it really was.Could it be Sebastian? I questioned myself.Now that he had shown himself in this new life I was living, I couldn't put it past him not to try anything funny just to get my attention. He had done something like that before in my pack and I wouldn't be surprised if he tried the same thing here in this new world.He's as cunning and sly as anything and he has proven to be more harmful than good to me, I thought, sighing.I hated that I was having these thoughts about him when I should have driven him away from my mind. He was invading my privacy by being in my head and I hated it because it was strengthened by the familiar scent that was wafting into my room."Get out of my head, Sebastian!" I screamed.I didn't know what Gianna and Diana would make of me if they heard me screaming and saw me thrashing on the bed like a mad woman but at that moment, I didn't care. All I cared about was just to be away from all the thoughts I had about Sebastian. He was invading my mind and I didn't want any of that anymore.Just then, a thought popped into my head. Since he was a wolf from back home, he knew everything about me. He knew my in and outs and he could very well use my weakness against me. That was something I knew he could do and I was beyond convinced that he was behind the familiar scent. It just had to be him because anytime he was on to something, he would never let it go until he was finally done with it, and now that he was on to me, I knew that he was behind this. I just knew it.What I couldn't understand though was why I was thinking about him so much. I needed a breather and I needed to get my thoughts in order but every one of my thoughts was now aimed directly at him. The scent was getting stronger now and I knew that had to be the reason why my thoughts were all centered on him.Even though he was a sinfully drop dead handsome man, I made a silent promise to myself not to fall for his charms. I had seen the way he treated other women and I sure as hell wasn't going to fall for any of his games. After leaving the women, they became useless to themselves and the people who loved them and that wasn't what I wanted for myself. Never!Later on, I realized that the scent had subsided a little and now, I felt like stepping out. The air in the room became too stuffy and I needed some fresh air. I wasn't scared to step out in the middle of the night because I knew what I possessed but what I was scared of was Gianna and Diana finding out that I wasn't in the room or that I had stepped out. Surely, they would look at me oddly and wonder if I had my senses in order because my behavior would be very odd to them.Damn! I have to risk it, I thought, sighing as I climbed out of the bed.I quickly put on a black t-shirt over a black leggings before stepping out of my room. The living room was clear and there was no sign of either Gianna or Diana and I heaved a sigh of relief because I wasn't about to start explaining what I was doing in the living room at twelve midnight.Just as I was about to open the door that would lead me outside, into the cool night air, a voice stopped me and I didn't need to turn around to know that it was Gianna who spoke. I had noticed something about both of them ever since I began staying with them.Diana was a very heavy sleeper, nothing really woke her up and I i knew she could very well sleep through a hurricane or a tornado because once her head hit the pillow, it was goodbye till the next morning but for Gianna, the slightest sound woke her up and I wouldn't be surprised if it was my footsteps that had woken her up.The only time I knew she was a heavy sleeper was when she was down with some illness or the time she had gotten beaten up and had to stay on drugs to get better."Where are you going?" she asked, yawning as she switched on the light.I had to come up with something fast because I knew how smart she was. She could easily figure out things faster than anyone in the house and I knew it wouldn't take her long to figure out that I was hiding something, and that was one thing I had to avoid at all cost.On the other hand, I didn't want to look like a mad person, having to explain the scent and Sebastian and my pack and all the history that came with it. She would only see me as a psycho who needed help and the last thing I wanted was to be branded as one and get kicked out.If they kicked me out, I had nowhere to go and going back to my pack wasn't an option at all. Still, I couldn't think of something sensible to say and time was running out and I could tell that her patience was running thin. My thoughts were all scattered in haphazard ways and I hated it because I couldn't freely tell her who I really was without the fear of being branded as a freak and an outcast who wasn't loved at home.I hated that I couldn't express my feelings openly to her because of the fear of also putting her and Diana in trouble. If my parents even got word that this was where I was, I had no doubt that they would send a battalion of army wolves to get me out and in the process, they could be severely hurt. That was what I was trying to avoid and I knew that I just had to snuff my feelings in for their own good and mine too."Don't worry about it, you won't understand." I sighed.There was a confused look on her face and I knew she was finding it difficult to understand what was really going on. Who wouldn't actually? One minute, I was preparing to sneak out and the next minute, I told her that it didn't matter. She must have thought I was a psycho."Are you alright, baby girl? You know you can talk to me, right?" she said.I knew that she meant well for me but for her and Diana's sake, it was best that I snuffed out my feelings to protect them and everyone they loved."Oh… really, it's nothing. I thought I saw something from my window but it turns out that it was just a dry stick rattling on the window. Everything is fine." Then I smiled to alleviate her worries so that she would just drop it.My smile was as fake as the nails my mother wore on her fingers and the memory of that made me smile a bit."Are you sure?" Gianna stressed.I sighed yet again, walking up to her. I gave her hands a gentle squeeze, silently assuring her that everything was going to be alright. I didn't want her to worry because Diana would be worried about me too so it was best we settled the matter here."Yes, I am sure and if something is going on, I promise to tell you so we can talk about it together," I said.She smiled back and I heaved a sigh of relief. That was a sign that she had let go of the issue. I hugged her good night again even though it was technically morning before walking back to my room to sleep. As soon as my head hit the pillow, I was out like a light and the last thing I thought of just before sleep overtook me was Sebastian's gaze on me.***The next morning, I woke up to see that the girls were set for work. I dragged my body from the bed, wishing that I could go back to sleep. I felt particularly lazy that morning but I knew I had to get a grip on it before I succumbed to the laziness that was threatening to overtake me."Stay away from trouble, babe and please don't walk about aimlessly, okay?" Gianna chuckled, hugging me.Diana did the same and just before they stepped out, they informed me that they would be back at night because it was going to be a particularly busy day at the bar."I hope trouble doesn't come," I said before I sighed and slumped on the couch.The television was on but I was far from interested in anything they were showing. It was a waste of time to watch the news when the major problems facing the world hadn't been solved. About ten minutes later, there was a small knock on the door. I wasn't expecting anyone and looking through the peephole, I realized that it was the girls.They walked in as soon as I opened the door and I could tell that something had just come up for them to be back this soon."What's up?" I asked, settling back on the couch."We just found out that there's going to be another party this weekend. So we came to give you permission to raid our closet and look for something sexy to wear because you are definitely going," Diana said.I didn't know if I was ready to go for the party but something within me urged me to go and I knew it was my wolf talking to me and whenever she spoke, I always answered.Eira"So you're in then?" Diana grinned.I only said I was in because I wanted to see them happy and not sad and discouraged and also to avoid getting kicked out. Of course, I knew they couldn't do that but I had come to learn that human beings were unpredictable and your reaction and attitude told them a lot about you. I didn't want the girls to see me as a party pooper and I realized that it was much better that I accepted their invitation.As I thought about what I had just done — agreeing to a party I had no intention of going to — I felt sick to my stomach. It always happened to me especially when I did something I would normally not do and in that moment, I felt like throwing up. It was dreadful to say the least and I hated myself at that moment. The girls had done a lot for me and I didn't want to break the trust they had for me nor the love I had for them.They had taken me in when no one else bothered to, they had fed me, put clothes on my back and the least I could do for th
EiraAs soon as the owner of the restaurant offered me the job, I was dumbfounded for several minutes. I didn't even know what to say because the last thing I expected was for him to offer me a job only after watching me for about three minutes. There were many things that ran through my mind as soon as I heard his decision and even as I walked home now, I was still finding it hard to believe him.Did it mean I was really good? Did it mean that it was my wolf who helped me? All of these questions and more were burning in my mind as I walked home. The effects of the job if I decided to resume on Monday weighed heavily on my mind. For one, I knew that I wouldn't need to stay in the house regularly when I had a job. It was a very nice thing but still, doubt and uncertainty clouded my mind. What were the odds that if I began this job, I wouldn't run into trouble?I had noticed that anytime I began something, trouble seemed to be associated with it and the last thing I wanted was for me to
EiraI knew he was looking at me. I could feel his eyes on me but yet, I refused to stare at him. There were many thoughts within my head, many things I wanted to say and I knew that if my eyes connected to his, I would spill them all out because when it came to him, I had no filter. I knew he was staring directly at me and I knew I had to do everything possible to avoid his gaze even while I tried to have fun.I danced, shaking and moving my body to the fast beat of the music. It was a high tempo music, one that guaranteed to leave me breathless but I didn't care because this was what I needed. This drive was all I needed to keep me going. Sebastian didn't own me and I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing that he affected me so much."You are really on a roll. I never knew you to dance so much like this," Gianna said."Yeah, I guess today is my day to dance. There's so much fun here, and I never knew I could have so much fun." I grinned.The girls were really surprised about
EiraDrunkenly, I could feel Sebastian's hands and his touch all over my body but I couldn't stop it or him because I was enjoying every bit of it. Funny enough, when I thought that his touch would make my skin crawl, it did the opposite. It calmed me down, comforted me and in that moment, within his arms, I felt protected.There was no way I could explain it but being with him left me assured that everything was going to be alright. I leaned into him as he cupped my breasts and the side of my neck. Drunkenly, I laughed, pouring out all of my love into the laugh. I could feel Sebastian's beard tickle the side of my cheek and I giggled still in my drunken haze. In the dimness of the bar, he found my soaking wet panties and as soon as his fingers touched my dripping folds, I froze.That was the most intimate part of me, the part that no one ever knew and I was going to let him because I wanted this, needed his touch on me there."Come on, Eira, you and I know that this is what you want
EiraOn getting home, I wasn't surprised to see Diana and Gianna sleeping. It was still pretty early and every sane human being would still be in bed, well every sane human being except me. I was hungover from all the alcohol and every liquid substance I had taken the previous night and in that moment, I knew I had to do everything possible to flush out everything within my system.They were sleeping recklessly on the couch and I didn't bother to wake them up because I knew they were so tired from all the partying they had done. If there was one thing I knew about the girls, it was that when it was time to party, they gave it their all and when it was time to work, they were like beasts.Tiptoeing, I made my way towards my room, careful not to make a sound because I knew the girls needed all the sleep they could get before they went on their shift again. I knew in a few hours time, they would be back at work and deep down, I admired their work ethic and their ability to get things don
EiraI could feel that there was something wrong with me just by the way I was feeling. It just felt like I was floating, floating in an abyss of nothingness as I tried to understand what was happening. I could hear Diana calling out Gianna's name but still, I couldn't talk because it just seemed like I was out of everything that was going on. I felt immune to it all, felt like everything was very strange to me even as I tried to get my bearings together.I could feel Diana wrapping up the wounded part of my arm and in that moment, it felt so cool and comfortable, like I was cocooned into something soft. My whole body relaxed as soon as my arms were within whatever she used to wrap it and I felt more comfortable than I had ever been in my life.Just then, I felt something warm and heavy slide down my throat. All the while, my eyes were closed and I had no idea what was being poured in my mouth. All I knew was that as long as it was Diana, I was safe with her. Immediately, my eyes open
Eira"I have to rush, girls. I really don't want to be late," I said.There was still the look of shock on their faces after I told them that I had begun working. In their minds, they would probably be thinking that I was going to be dependent on them for as long as I stayed here. Even in my pack, I was never dependent on anyone. I did things on my own and by myself and the very idea of being dependent irritated me a lot because my mother had screamed at me times without number that no one would be coming to save me and that alone had taught me a lot.I walked out of the house, heading towards the main junction where I could get a taxi that would take me straight towards the restaurant. If I had wanted to trek, I could have easily done that but considering the fact that I was late, I knew that I couldn't risk that. I was still new in the job and the last thing I wanted was to be served a query. The owner didn't need to tell me but I knew that I was still under probation and until I
EiraIn as much as I tried to free myself from the harsh grip of the person that held me, I just couldn't. It just felt like I was held by a vice grip, a strong one at that which was tight and unyielding. I knew that I had to think fast before everything went to flames and even though I knew who was responsible for this, I just couldn't understand why they were so tough."Please, you need to let me go" I said.I was quite glad that my voice didn't come out as needy and whiny because that would have been the worst thing ever. I wasn't going to give Sebastian and his men the satisfaction of knowing that I needed to beg them to release me. I was proud — which was one thing my mother always told me I needed to cut off — and I was going to be proud for the rest of my life.I tried to free myself again but it just wasn't working. Whoever was holding me had a firm grip on my hand and he wasn't letting go. It was one thing to be strong but for your hands to be iron clad was another ball game
Eira I don't know how long I've been sedated but the next time I awoke, it was evening and I was back to Sebastian's room. I cringed at the bright lights and winced as I tried to open my eyes. I was unaware of how long I had been unconscious. "Do you think she's alright?" I heard a voice that I wasn't sure I was able to recognize,say. I was now aware that I wasn't the only one in the room. I was finally able to get myself to open my eyes and I almost panicked when I saw Sebastian, his father and his brothers standing over me. Laura stood at the side. I frowned and pressed my hand against my head. Sebastian looked down at me worriedly. "Are you alright?" He said and I nodded slowly because I wasn't sure that I had enough energy to talk yet. "You gave us a fright back there. Now what's this I hear about my grandson missing?" Hunter said calmly. I was surprised that he was speaking to me. I was expecting him to hate me. His brothers didn't hesitate to express how they felt about me
Eira I couldn't say that I was entirely ready to face the day. I wasn't sure I was. Thankfully Sebastian had moved my luggage into my room. Last night I had panicked and I had cried again and Sebastian had to spend the rest of the night assuring and consoling me until I drifted Into sleep once more. Now how was i to get over the anxiety that was clawing up at me. How was I supposed to face Sebastian's family? Especially when he was going to break the news to them that he had a son especially with a member of their rivaling pack. I didn't even think that I was going to see Sebastian's family. I didn't think I would be this nervous. I still felt really tense. I haven't even been able to eat anything all morning. I stared at the reflection in the mirror. The girl staring back at me seemed exhausted and terrified out of her mind. Any moment from now and she was going to spiral and have a panic attack. I felt the need to burst into tears but settled for breathing in and out to calm my r
Eira I didn’t know how long it must have been now. I felt groggy as my eyes flickered open and I met an unfamiliar white ceiling. When I tried to move, my muscles protested slightly, meaning that I must have been unconscious for a very long time. I held my hand over my head. The pounding seemed to have reduced, the thudding in my head could pass for almost non-existent. Something about how groggy I felt gave me an inkling that I had been sedated. I felt drowsy and almost tempted to go back to sleep. I forced myself to keep my eyes open, my eyes traveled along the expanse of the grand bedroom, I looked down at the massive king size bed that I was in. It was half the size of my bed back at the inn. My eyes traveled to the vanity mirror, to the couch and then to the mini bar. I spotted the little door which gave me an idea that it might be a walk in closet. My brows furrowed into a frown as I looked at my surroundings. Where the hell was I ? And why wasn't I out there looking for my s
Eira "You need to get it together, Eira. If you continue like this, you won't be able to make it to Sebastian." Laura chided as she stood at the doorway. It's been four days and I still haven't heard from Liam, from Sebastian. Two days since Laura arrived at the inn. She gathered some information that gave us a clue to where we Sebastian lived. And yet I couldn't even find it in me to take any action. With each day that passed by, I felt absolutely nothing but misery and pain. I bursted into another round of sobs. That's all I've been doing these days. I've been crying and letting my misery get the better of me. I've allowed myself to be shrouded in my self hate and regrets. I deserved every bit of what was happening to me. Maybe this was how Sebastian felt when I said those hurtful Words to him, perhaps karma was paying me back in my own coin and I couldn't do anything about it. "I don't know how to fix it Laura" I said, I whispered brokenly. I still laid in my bed lifeless. "You
Eira It had been days since I told Sebastian to leave. Since I've last seen him. Liam was no longer bubbly and full of sunshine. He was reserved, preferred to be with only his teddy bear and Maybe I imagined but there was a certain look in his eyes that he regarded me with. Maybe he was disappointed. I was disappointed in myself too. Somehow, all I managed to do was just end up making things worse than they already were. Liam didn't even come down for dinner today. There was this empty look in his eyes each time I saw him, it held a sort of similarity to the hollow feeling that I felt in my chest. Sometimes when Liam thought I couldn't hear him, he would cry in his bedroom. I would cry too because I knew all I ever did now was cause the two men that I loved so much, pain. Things were just beginning to get better. Sebastian was willing to make an effort and I ruined it, because that's all I ever do. Ruin things. Tonight is a painful reminder of how empty I'm feeling, I can barely thi
Eira The bed felt so warm and cozy. I stretched, feeling satisfied but at the same time tired. It took me a long minute to be able to register the grip Sebastian's arm had over my waist. We were both bare under the sheets. I wasn't able to move because he held me to himself in a iron clad grip. The thought of him not wanting me out of his sight, brought a very bright smile to my face. The corners of my lips lifted up in a wild smile and I couldn't stop admiring his sleeping face. I traced an idle hand over his face and intently admired him as we slept. We'd barely gotten enough sleep especially after our conversation yesterday night and by the time we had woken up again, we were more interested in one another's bodies than we were in having a conversation until we were tired and drifted into short sleep shortly. "You know it's rude to stare at people when you think they're not sleeping" he murmured sleepily, his voice was still heavy lidded with sleep. "How do you always end up ca
Eira I spent the rest of the day in my bedroom. The house eventually became quiet and I knew that Sebastian had taken his son on a walk like Liam usually requested. So apparently I was left alone with my thoughts and I was left alone with my misery. I spent all day crying and eventually I became exhausted and I fell asleep. By the time I awoke, hours had rolled by. It was evening already. I wondered how long I had been asleep. Maybe Liam would be looking for me all day, who knows. I decided that it was time that I stopped wallowing in my misery and I had a shower. So I did, the hot water was something I was certain I needed. I spent long hours in the shower, lost in thought and eventually I came out of the bathroom and dressed in another set of comfortable clothes. I left my hair, hanging past my shoulders, leaving it to air dry and then I headed down the stairs into the kitchen where Sebastian was preparing dinner. Him and Liam were having a conversation, bickering to each other
Eira I finally succeeded in falling into a restless sleep but by the time I woke up. I didn't feel any better. I only felt worse. The memories of our argument last night rushed through me and I couldn't seem to get it out of my head. Somehow, I ended up feeling even worse than before. I was almost tempted not to get out of bed but I also knew that I couldn't stay in here all day. If I did, Liam was going to come looking for me and he was going to ask me all sorts of questions. He was a child but he observed the most little details and you wouldn't even know. He was very inquisitive. Finally after long moments of deliberation, I finally decided that it would be a good idea to get out of bed. I quickly caught a glance of myself in the reflection in the mirror. I looked like a mess. I winced under my breath. I can't go outside looking like a mess, even though I was very tempted to. I settled for brushing my teeth and packing up my hair into a neater bun and then I headed down the sta
Eira It was a nice walk back to the inn. Sebastian held Liam against his chest. He had exhausted all his energy playing with the squirrels and in the flower Field. Comfortable silence passed between us. Strangely, the air between us was lighter. There was no tension between us as we headed home. We arrived home in between twenty to thirty minutes. Sebastian headed up with Liam upstairs to his room to settle him in bed. Maybe when Liam was hungry later, Sebastian would make him dinner. But for now, we agreed not to wake him. I decided it would be a better idea to head to the kitchen and make dinner.I started to bring out the ingredients from the fridge. Maybe today, I would bake a pie, just because I haven't in a long time and because I was in a good mood. It took me a while before I was ready to register the footsteps behind me and the corners of my lips tilted up into a smile when I felt Sebastian lean into me wrapping his arms against me as I poured flour into a bowl. I relaxed