EiraThese dreams were becoming more and more frequent now. Each left me more breathless than the other, and more startled than the other. My forehead broke out in sweat and as I placed my hand over my chest, I could feel my heart beating frantically so I took deep breaths to try to calm down my racing nerves. "Mommy, are you okay?" My head snapped over to the direction of the doorway and I looked at Liam who stood with his teddy bear clutched at his side. Even in the dim lighting of the room, it was impossible to miss the worry in his eyes as he glanced up at me. "I'm fine baby," I said, stretching my arms wide so he could climb into them. He hurried towards me without hesitation and I wrapped my arms around him almost immediately. "I could hear you tossing and turning from the next room," he said in a low murmur, still clutching at his teddy bear and holding on to me. His ability to hear for miles had heightened more than I had even expected. "Are you sure you're alright?" he
EiraThe eggs were delicious. The toast were crunchy and filled with cheese. This breakfast seemed more like a luxury fit alone for a king. I didn't want to grudgingly admit it. But Sebastian sure knew his way around the kitchen. He was a good cook. Not that I was going to admit it out to him anyway. I watched Liam gobble up his cereal, it seemed he enjoyed it and of course why wouldn't he? We've been surviving on bland cereal and milk for almost a week. It was a big break. Sebastian picked at his food, watching us eat. His lips tugged up in a smile as he watched Liam with interest and the smile on his face captured my attention, entranced me. My heart sped up in a frantic rhythm and I took in deep breaths to calm my racing nerves down. I wondered how he was always able to disrupt my emotions and make them conflicted. But at the back of my mind, I knew he did nothing, he didn't have to do anything to make me look twice, to make me almost want to damn the consequences, lean back
EiraHe looked taken aback with the picture frame in his hand. I was now very conscious of the way the towel clung to my body. His eyes darkened with undeniable heat as they landed on me and when his eyes held mine, my legs felt a bit unsteady, my throat parched and I was suddenly thirsty. For water or for him? I didn't know. Perhaps it was for both. The thud of the rain against my bedroom window suddenly became louder and I could think of nothing but him, standing In Front of me."I wanted to wander around the inn and I found my way up here," he said. I raised an eyebrow at him skeptically. With each moment that passed, I felt chilly, thirsty, and conscious. I hated how I was painfully aware of his presence, painfully aware of the way he was looking at me.Like he could gobble me up he had the chance to. I ignored the way my skin ignited with heat. I ignored the rampant racing of my heart and I tried to act nonchalant as I headed towards my double door wardrobe. "I told you that I
EiraI awoke with a frantic start. Rays of sunlight were already seeping in through the window. With each movement I made, my muscles protested and yet the corners of my lips stretched up into a smile as I turned to the other side. But my smile dropped immediately I faced the empty space next to me. My gaze frantically traveled across the expanse of the room and I could see that Sebastian was nowhere to be found.I really hated the way my heart plummeted with disappointment. I hated the feeling and I felt stupid because of it. I had made a stupid decision last night and the consequences of the irrational decision which I made last night were beginning to suffocate me. I struggled to get up from the bed to pick up my silk nightdress. After I was properly dressed and looking appropriate enough, I pulled my hair up into a messy bun and finally headed out of my room. I headed to Liam's room to check up on him but I froze when I heard the sound of his laughter coming from downstairs. My br
EiraSebastian froze for a moment, then he slowly turned back to regard the two of us with a look, and I could see the emotions in his eyes as he looked at Liam. I didn't know how to react to Liam's term for Sebastian. I couldn't even move. I guess I was in too much shock. "And I will keep making sure that you have enough," Sebastian said softly. I remained silent as I watched Liam play. I tried to ignore the stinging in my eye. "Liam, can you go and play in your room, please?” I said softly after a moment as I brought him down from the counter. "Sure thing, Mommy. Just don't tell daddy to go away again. I like him being here," he said and Sebastian and I exchanged glances as we froze momentarily. "Why? Are you scared?" I asked him as I crouched down to his height so that I could look him in the eye. It made him clutch his teddy bear nervously. "When he is around, I get to eat my favorite cereal, lots of candy and anything I want. He makes everything better when he's here, Mommy.
EiraI looked stared in surprise at Sebastian, filling up the doorway of the in with brown packages in his hands. After our last argument, I was almost certain that he would have been discouraged from coming back here. Liam didn't say much to me through out the rest of the day. I tried not to think too much about it but at the back of my head, I knew he was upset with me because he heard him tell his father not to come back. Dinner had been almost unbearable. Liam didn't really eat much and he was very quiet which was unlike him. I was almost tempted to beg him to talk to me but decided it would be more of a better option, if I had let him be. I bet talking to me was the last thing that he wanted to do. I was surprised at the burst of relief that flooded through me as I glanced at Sebastian who looked at me, the challenge to confront him was in his eyes. He was almost impossible to miss."You really didn't think I'd stay away, did you?" He said as he walked in, both hands filled with
EiraI froze, my hands still in the sink as Sebastian wrapped his arms around me. Sebastian had spent more time with Liam and when Liam had fallen asleep, he had put him to bed. "I thought I'd help you with the dishes" he whispered and pressed a gentle kiss to my shoulder.My eyes fluttered close for a moment, the spot where he had kissed tingled. "I'm almost done" I rasped, my breath escaping me. It was hard to say anything else. How could I? When he was standing so close to me. "About earlier" I finally said, turning around to face him, my eyes lingered on his lips for just a fraction of a second before returning to his eyes. I was becoming an excercise to focus. I couldn't seem to do that around him these days but then again, Sebastian knew how to make you focus on him without even as much as lifting a finger. "I wanted to know if you meant it?" I said as I looked at him. "If I meant what?"his gaze remained on me. "If you meant what you said about wanting to stay in Liam and
EiraI didn't know how best to process it. Process what he had just said. It was really happening. He really meant it when he promised me that he would stay this time. "Moving in?" I said, astonished. It was taking quite a long time to register what he had said. He looked at me expectantly, waiting for me to respond and somehow the words were stuck in my throat. I was unable to process any reasonable response. "Take your time. I don't want you to rush into making a decision because you feel obligated to but I would really appreciate it if you give me a chance to be there for you and Liam" he said. I remained silent, still processing all that he had just said. The walk with Liam was soothing, and yet my nerves were on edge. Sebastian request completely disconcerted me. Was I ready to really take that big step. Was I ready to allow him move in with us. Yes, I knew that I wanted him around. I also knew that I wanted him to stay but coming to terms with it, was one thing. Accepting it w
Eira I don't know how long I've been sedated but the next time I awoke, it was evening and I was back to Sebastian's room. I cringed at the bright lights and winced as I tried to open my eyes. I was unaware of how long I had been unconscious. "Do you think she's alright?" I heard a voice that I wasn't sure I was able to recognize,say. I was now aware that I wasn't the only one in the room. I was finally able to get myself to open my eyes and I almost panicked when I saw Sebastian, his father and his brothers standing over me. Laura stood at the side. I frowned and pressed my hand against my head. Sebastian looked down at me worriedly. "Are you alright?" He said and I nodded slowly because I wasn't sure that I had enough energy to talk yet. "You gave us a fright back there. Now what's this I hear about my grandson missing?" Hunter said calmly. I was surprised that he was speaking to me. I was expecting him to hate me. His brothers didn't hesitate to express how they felt about me
Eira I couldn't say that I was entirely ready to face the day. I wasn't sure I was. Thankfully Sebastian had moved my luggage into my room. Last night I had panicked and I had cried again and Sebastian had to spend the rest of the night assuring and consoling me until I drifted Into sleep once more. Now how was i to get over the anxiety that was clawing up at me. How was I supposed to face Sebastian's family? Especially when he was going to break the news to them that he had a son especially with a member of their rivaling pack. I didn't even think that I was going to see Sebastian's family. I didn't think I would be this nervous. I still felt really tense. I haven't even been able to eat anything all morning. I stared at the reflection in the mirror. The girl staring back at me seemed exhausted and terrified out of her mind. Any moment from now and she was going to spiral and have a panic attack. I felt the need to burst into tears but settled for breathing in and out to calm my r
Eira I didn’t know how long it must have been now. I felt groggy as my eyes flickered open and I met an unfamiliar white ceiling. When I tried to move, my muscles protested slightly, meaning that I must have been unconscious for a very long time. I held my hand over my head. The pounding seemed to have reduced, the thudding in my head could pass for almost non-existent. Something about how groggy I felt gave me an inkling that I had been sedated. I felt drowsy and almost tempted to go back to sleep. I forced myself to keep my eyes open, my eyes traveled along the expanse of the grand bedroom, I looked down at the massive king size bed that I was in. It was half the size of my bed back at the inn. My eyes traveled to the vanity mirror, to the couch and then to the mini bar. I spotted the little door which gave me an idea that it might be a walk in closet. My brows furrowed into a frown as I looked at my surroundings. Where the hell was I ? And why wasn't I out there looking for my s
Eira "You need to get it together, Eira. If you continue like this, you won't be able to make it to Sebastian." Laura chided as she stood at the doorway. It's been four days and I still haven't heard from Liam, from Sebastian. Two days since Laura arrived at the inn. She gathered some information that gave us a clue to where we Sebastian lived. And yet I couldn't even find it in me to take any action. With each day that passed by, I felt absolutely nothing but misery and pain. I bursted into another round of sobs. That's all I've been doing these days. I've been crying and letting my misery get the better of me. I've allowed myself to be shrouded in my self hate and regrets. I deserved every bit of what was happening to me. Maybe this was how Sebastian felt when I said those hurtful Words to him, perhaps karma was paying me back in my own coin and I couldn't do anything about it. "I don't know how to fix it Laura" I said, I whispered brokenly. I still laid in my bed lifeless. "You
Eira It had been days since I told Sebastian to leave. Since I've last seen him. Liam was no longer bubbly and full of sunshine. He was reserved, preferred to be with only his teddy bear and Maybe I imagined but there was a certain look in his eyes that he regarded me with. Maybe he was disappointed. I was disappointed in myself too. Somehow, all I managed to do was just end up making things worse than they already were. Liam didn't even come down for dinner today. There was this empty look in his eyes each time I saw him, it held a sort of similarity to the hollow feeling that I felt in my chest. Sometimes when Liam thought I couldn't hear him, he would cry in his bedroom. I would cry too because I knew all I ever did now was cause the two men that I loved so much, pain. Things were just beginning to get better. Sebastian was willing to make an effort and I ruined it, because that's all I ever do. Ruin things. Tonight is a painful reminder of how empty I'm feeling, I can barely thi
Eira The bed felt so warm and cozy. I stretched, feeling satisfied but at the same time tired. It took me a long minute to be able to register the grip Sebastian's arm had over my waist. We were both bare under the sheets. I wasn't able to move because he held me to himself in a iron clad grip. The thought of him not wanting me out of his sight, brought a very bright smile to my face. The corners of my lips lifted up in a wild smile and I couldn't stop admiring his sleeping face. I traced an idle hand over his face and intently admired him as we slept. We'd barely gotten enough sleep especially after our conversation yesterday night and by the time we had woken up again, we were more interested in one another's bodies than we were in having a conversation until we were tired and drifted into short sleep shortly. "You know it's rude to stare at people when you think they're not sleeping" he murmured sleepily, his voice was still heavy lidded with sleep. "How do you always end up ca
Eira I spent the rest of the day in my bedroom. The house eventually became quiet and I knew that Sebastian had taken his son on a walk like Liam usually requested. So apparently I was left alone with my thoughts and I was left alone with my misery. I spent all day crying and eventually I became exhausted and I fell asleep. By the time I awoke, hours had rolled by. It was evening already. I wondered how long I had been asleep. Maybe Liam would be looking for me all day, who knows. I decided that it was time that I stopped wallowing in my misery and I had a shower. So I did, the hot water was something I was certain I needed. I spent long hours in the shower, lost in thought and eventually I came out of the bathroom and dressed in another set of comfortable clothes. I left my hair, hanging past my shoulders, leaving it to air dry and then I headed down the stairs into the kitchen where Sebastian was preparing dinner. Him and Liam were having a conversation, bickering to each other
Eira I finally succeeded in falling into a restless sleep but by the time I woke up. I didn't feel any better. I only felt worse. The memories of our argument last night rushed through me and I couldn't seem to get it out of my head. Somehow, I ended up feeling even worse than before. I was almost tempted not to get out of bed but I also knew that I couldn't stay in here all day. If I did, Liam was going to come looking for me and he was going to ask me all sorts of questions. He was a child but he observed the most little details and you wouldn't even know. He was very inquisitive. Finally after long moments of deliberation, I finally decided that it would be a good idea to get out of bed. I quickly caught a glance of myself in the reflection in the mirror. I looked like a mess. I winced under my breath. I can't go outside looking like a mess, even though I was very tempted to. I settled for brushing my teeth and packing up my hair into a neater bun and then I headed down the sta
Eira It was a nice walk back to the inn. Sebastian held Liam against his chest. He had exhausted all his energy playing with the squirrels and in the flower Field. Comfortable silence passed between us. Strangely, the air between us was lighter. There was no tension between us as we headed home. We arrived home in between twenty to thirty minutes. Sebastian headed up with Liam upstairs to his room to settle him in bed. Maybe when Liam was hungry later, Sebastian would make him dinner. But for now, we agreed not to wake him. I decided it would be a better idea to head to the kitchen and make dinner.I started to bring out the ingredients from the fridge. Maybe today, I would bake a pie, just because I haven't in a long time and because I was in a good mood. It took me a while before I was ready to register the footsteps behind me and the corners of my lips tilted up into a smile when I felt Sebastian lean into me wrapping his arms against me as I poured flour into a bowl. I relaxed