Eira I could feel my breath becoming heavier. I was still conscious of Sebastian's tight grip on my arm. I was painfully aware of the attention we were drawing to ourselves as I found myself being the victim of Sebastian's intense glare. I wished the ground would open up and swallow me at this moment. "We can talk about this. We can go outside and I can explain everything to you" I said quietly as I looked up at him pleadingly. Somehow I hoped he would still be patient enough to be reasonable with me and maybe we could talk in private. Maybe we could sort things out and I could explain everything to him. Somehow, I really did hope that he'd make the decision to trust me. Where's my son Eira?" He said. Something in his tone told me there was a big chance that he was going to explode any minute from now. "I didn't come here with Graham. I didn't come here with anyone" I said. Somehow I could tell that he was having difficulty believing me. "I saw you talking to him just a few minute
Eira Sebastian frowned as he looked at me. We continued to sway gently to the music. Thankfully, people were focused on dancing, so the attention was taken away from us. I felt relieved. I inhaled deeply as his hand slid down my dress, making an unconscious contact with my skin. I smiled as I looked at him, I saw his eyes darken with hunger for me and it took almost everything in me not to lean in and simply just kiss him. At the back of my head. I knew we couldn't always have what we wanted. Somewhere, somehow, perhaps Graham was watching. And even if he wasn't, people were watching. They knew our packs were rivals. I felt the tears sting my eyes as we danced. He paused, noticing the tension in my shoulders. "What's wrong?" He said as he wiped away a tear from my face carefully. "Did I do something wrong?" He asked softly, looking at me worried. He held my face in-between his hands. "Why do you always ask that?" I said as I put my hand over his softly, looking up with affection
Eira I had no desire to get up from the bed. Laura had already taken Liam from a walk. He loves going on walks often now. I wanted to remain in bed. If I got off from this bed, it would mean me acknowledging everything that has happened so far. I felt selfish really. I tried to convince myself that I didn't want to have anything to do with Sebastian. But there's not an actual day that passes, that I don't miss him. With each day that passed, the way I thought about him I intensified. The thought of him brought tears to my eyes and made my heart crash and it was impossible to function properly without him. He had no desire to have anything to do with me from now on but I also knew that nothing was going to stop him from wanting to be with his son. He made a vow about not leaving Liam, about not leaving us. He was willing to love me again. He had been willing, had been working very hard to give us a fresh start and I ruined it with my own hands. I turned to the other side of the bed
Eira I watched Graham's countenance change in the space of a heart beat as I told him everything that happened in the city, and how Liam came to be about. I didn't miss the way disapproval flashed through his eyes as he listened. Laura intently listened too. Her eyes flashed with sympathy each time she met my gaze. And when I was finally done giving them details of what had happened so far. The room was shrouded in silence as they both stared at me. Their faces contorted in surprise. "So let me understand this. You have a thing with someone from the rival pack and the result of that Is Liam?" Graham questioned and I reluctantly nodded, confirming his answer. I was very painfully conscious of the disapproval in his eyes.i was very aware of the way he looked at me with judgment, my heart plummeted in my chest. It was the reason why I didn't even see the need to tell him anyway. "That was very careless of you Eira" he growled. "Stop it. Stop talking to her like she's a child. She's
Eira It took a day and a half before Liam and I were finally able to return back to the inn. I felt a bit of nostalgia and I can't really say it's in a good way. It's been hours since we returned to the inn and my heart plummeted in my chest in disappointment. I tried not to let it bother me as I tried to occupy myself with cleaning up the house. Strangely. The house was already clean and tidy, almost as if someone was staying here. I closed my eyes and I opened it. Somehow, surely I was over thinking things. I've got to be.Liam carried his teddy bear around often asking me offered if I needed help with the kitchen. From the way he played, it was very easy to tell that he was delighted being back at the inn. Being at Graham's has been a good change for him but I guess home will always be home. My chest burnt each time I thought about graham. I wondered if he was ever going to forgive me. Not that I was sorry or anything but you could say I was beginning to become weary of the tensio
Eira Dinner was delicious and yet it was extremely hard focusing my attention on anything else but him. We stayed in silence for a while. It was uncomfortable. My guilt had such a strong grip on me. It couldn't fully look him in the eye without remembering what happened at the party. Without remembering that I had hurt him. "I should leave you to it. I'll sleep on the couch" he said finally. I didn't know why my heart crashed with sudden disappointment when he said it. All I know is that I wanted him near. I retired up to my room. Hours passed and the whole house was blanketed In darkness and buried in silence. For some reason, everyone was asleep. I tossed and turned restlessly, unable to sleep. Untill the thoughts of Sebastian assaulted me, until it became really hard thinking about anything but him. Deciding that I've had enough of the torture, I grabbed my robe and decided that I will down to him. I went down the stairs quietly, the pads of my foot touching the ground lightly.
Eira My eyes fluttered open immediately. I don't know how long I've been asleep. I can't even remember the last time that I slept so well and for such long period of time. I stared at the clock. It was almost 12pm in the afternoon. My eyes widened in surprise and Iooked to the other side to find his side of the bed empty. I didn't know how to process what happened between us, but I knew it changed things between us in such a drastic way. I was scared as I picked up my silk nightgown from the floor. My hair was a mess and I felt slightly sore and yet I couldn't deny that yesterday night was a sensual dream. I looked at my disconcerted reflection in the mirror and even though I tried to ignore the panic that was welling up inside of me. It still did anyway, it clawed at me from the inside out. Maybe it would be better for me to take a shower before I got out of the room for Sebastian and my son. I decided it would be an option for me to shower. So I did, the water was warm, just the
Eira It was a nice walk back to the inn. Sebastian held Liam against his chest. He had exhausted all his energy playing with the squirrels and in the flower Field. Comfortable silence passed between us. Strangely, the air between us was lighter. There was no tension between us as we headed home. We arrived home in between twenty to thirty minutes. Sebastian headed up with Liam upstairs to his room to settle him in bed. Maybe when Liam was hungry later, Sebastian would make him dinner. But for now, we agreed not to wake him. I decided it would be a better idea to head to the kitchen and make dinner.I started to bring out the ingredients from the fridge. Maybe today, I would bake a pie, just because I haven't in a long time and because I was in a good mood. It took me a while before I was ready to register the footsteps behind me and the corners of my lips tilted up into a smile when I felt Sebastian lean into me wrapping his arms against me as I poured flour into a bowl. I relaxed
Eira I don't know how long I've been sedated but the next time I awoke, it was evening and I was back to Sebastian's room. I cringed at the bright lights and winced as I tried to open my eyes. I was unaware of how long I had been unconscious. "Do you think she's alright?" I heard a voice that I wasn't sure I was able to recognize,say. I was now aware that I wasn't the only one in the room. I was finally able to get myself to open my eyes and I almost panicked when I saw Sebastian, his father and his brothers standing over me. Laura stood at the side. I frowned and pressed my hand against my head. Sebastian looked down at me worriedly. "Are you alright?" He said and I nodded slowly because I wasn't sure that I had enough energy to talk yet. "You gave us a fright back there. Now what's this I hear about my grandson missing?" Hunter said calmly. I was surprised that he was speaking to me. I was expecting him to hate me. His brothers didn't hesitate to express how they felt about me
Eira I couldn't say that I was entirely ready to face the day. I wasn't sure I was. Thankfully Sebastian had moved my luggage into my room. Last night I had panicked and I had cried again and Sebastian had to spend the rest of the night assuring and consoling me until I drifted Into sleep once more. Now how was i to get over the anxiety that was clawing up at me. How was I supposed to face Sebastian's family? Especially when he was going to break the news to them that he had a son especially with a member of their rivaling pack. I didn't even think that I was going to see Sebastian's family. I didn't think I would be this nervous. I still felt really tense. I haven't even been able to eat anything all morning. I stared at the reflection in the mirror. The girl staring back at me seemed exhausted and terrified out of her mind. Any moment from now and she was going to spiral and have a panic attack. I felt the need to burst into tears but settled for breathing in and out to calm my r
Eira I didn’t know how long it must have been now. I felt groggy as my eyes flickered open and I met an unfamiliar white ceiling. When I tried to move, my muscles protested slightly, meaning that I must have been unconscious for a very long time. I held my hand over my head. The pounding seemed to have reduced, the thudding in my head could pass for almost non-existent. Something about how groggy I felt gave me an inkling that I had been sedated. I felt drowsy and almost tempted to go back to sleep. I forced myself to keep my eyes open, my eyes traveled along the expanse of the grand bedroom, I looked down at the massive king size bed that I was in. It was half the size of my bed back at the inn. My eyes traveled to the vanity mirror, to the couch and then to the mini bar. I spotted the little door which gave me an idea that it might be a walk in closet. My brows furrowed into a frown as I looked at my surroundings. Where the hell was I ? And why wasn't I out there looking for my s
Eira "You need to get it together, Eira. If you continue like this, you won't be able to make it to Sebastian." Laura chided as she stood at the doorway. It's been four days and I still haven't heard from Liam, from Sebastian. Two days since Laura arrived at the inn. She gathered some information that gave us a clue to where we Sebastian lived. And yet I couldn't even find it in me to take any action. With each day that passed by, I felt absolutely nothing but misery and pain. I bursted into another round of sobs. That's all I've been doing these days. I've been crying and letting my misery get the better of me. I've allowed myself to be shrouded in my self hate and regrets. I deserved every bit of what was happening to me. Maybe this was how Sebastian felt when I said those hurtful Words to him, perhaps karma was paying me back in my own coin and I couldn't do anything about it. "I don't know how to fix it Laura" I said, I whispered brokenly. I still laid in my bed lifeless. "You
Eira It had been days since I told Sebastian to leave. Since I've last seen him. Liam was no longer bubbly and full of sunshine. He was reserved, preferred to be with only his teddy bear and Maybe I imagined but there was a certain look in his eyes that he regarded me with. Maybe he was disappointed. I was disappointed in myself too. Somehow, all I managed to do was just end up making things worse than they already were. Liam didn't even come down for dinner today. There was this empty look in his eyes each time I saw him, it held a sort of similarity to the hollow feeling that I felt in my chest. Sometimes when Liam thought I couldn't hear him, he would cry in his bedroom. I would cry too because I knew all I ever did now was cause the two men that I loved so much, pain. Things were just beginning to get better. Sebastian was willing to make an effort and I ruined it, because that's all I ever do. Ruin things. Tonight is a painful reminder of how empty I'm feeling, I can barely thi
Eira The bed felt so warm and cozy. I stretched, feeling satisfied but at the same time tired. It took me a long minute to be able to register the grip Sebastian's arm had over my waist. We were both bare under the sheets. I wasn't able to move because he held me to himself in a iron clad grip. The thought of him not wanting me out of his sight, brought a very bright smile to my face. The corners of my lips lifted up in a wild smile and I couldn't stop admiring his sleeping face. I traced an idle hand over his face and intently admired him as we slept. We'd barely gotten enough sleep especially after our conversation yesterday night and by the time we had woken up again, we were more interested in one another's bodies than we were in having a conversation until we were tired and drifted into short sleep shortly. "You know it's rude to stare at people when you think they're not sleeping" he murmured sleepily, his voice was still heavy lidded with sleep. "How do you always end up ca
Eira I spent the rest of the day in my bedroom. The house eventually became quiet and I knew that Sebastian had taken his son on a walk like Liam usually requested. So apparently I was left alone with my thoughts and I was left alone with my misery. I spent all day crying and eventually I became exhausted and I fell asleep. By the time I awoke, hours had rolled by. It was evening already. I wondered how long I had been asleep. Maybe Liam would be looking for me all day, who knows. I decided that it was time that I stopped wallowing in my misery and I had a shower. So I did, the hot water was something I was certain I needed. I spent long hours in the shower, lost in thought and eventually I came out of the bathroom and dressed in another set of comfortable clothes. I left my hair, hanging past my shoulders, leaving it to air dry and then I headed down the stairs into the kitchen where Sebastian was preparing dinner. Him and Liam were having a conversation, bickering to each other
Eira I finally succeeded in falling into a restless sleep but by the time I woke up. I didn't feel any better. I only felt worse. The memories of our argument last night rushed through me and I couldn't seem to get it out of my head. Somehow, I ended up feeling even worse than before. I was almost tempted not to get out of bed but I also knew that I couldn't stay in here all day. If I did, Liam was going to come looking for me and he was going to ask me all sorts of questions. He was a child but he observed the most little details and you wouldn't even know. He was very inquisitive. Finally after long moments of deliberation, I finally decided that it would be a good idea to get out of bed. I quickly caught a glance of myself in the reflection in the mirror. I looked like a mess. I winced under my breath. I can't go outside looking like a mess, even though I was very tempted to. I settled for brushing my teeth and packing up my hair into a neater bun and then I headed down the sta
Eira It was a nice walk back to the inn. Sebastian held Liam against his chest. He had exhausted all his energy playing with the squirrels and in the flower Field. Comfortable silence passed between us. Strangely, the air between us was lighter. There was no tension between us as we headed home. We arrived home in between twenty to thirty minutes. Sebastian headed up with Liam upstairs to his room to settle him in bed. Maybe when Liam was hungry later, Sebastian would make him dinner. But for now, we agreed not to wake him. I decided it would be a better idea to head to the kitchen and make dinner.I started to bring out the ingredients from the fridge. Maybe today, I would bake a pie, just because I haven't in a long time and because I was in a good mood. It took me a while before I was ready to register the footsteps behind me and the corners of my lips tilted up into a smile when I felt Sebastian lean into me wrapping his arms against me as I poured flour into a bowl. I relaxed