Areena was sitting on the three-seater couch, sipping coffee alone in the early hours of the night. She hugged herself, even with the warm black turtleneck long-sleeve body-hug, soft cotton orange leggings and earmuffs the cold December breeze makes her shiver. She took another sip of her coffee then kept it on the center table looking at her phone screen.
9:50 pm.
Her eyes were glued on her phone, her lockscreen was a picture of her and a man, both smiling warmly at the camera. She sighed and kept the phone away, her gaze turning to the window, she stared at the street.
Snow falls silently and gently on the street like diamonds, each snowflakes shimmered in the moonlight, making a white blanket of snow covering the trees, ground, and houses, indeed a beautiful day to be with someone you love.
She heaved deeply and took another sip of the dark coffee she was holding and kept the steamy cup of coffee on the center table near her.
And gulping the bitter-sweet liquid down her throat, and closes her eyes. That's the exact feeling she's having right now, the nutty flavor forcing old memories to replay in her brain – sweet memories of her mother, memories of what happened three years ago.
Sweet good times. And some painful moments.
She opened her eyes to escape from them, as it fell on the wall clock seeing the time click 10:00 pm. She let out a deep sigh.
He's late already."Why would he keep staying late, not today at least." she whines out loud making the almost empty room echo.They were supposed to discuss their wedding plans tonight, but he is an hour late from work. Having missed out on celebrating and having a special time together on both Christmas and New year, she wanted today to be special so she cooked his favorite meals, making it a little romantic. She hoped he got back in time to eat it. He has been skipping dinner lately because of staying late and relying on junk food.
Moving into their new apartment is one of their goals but this house doesn't feel like home. After moving into this apartment for a month, they don't have a single nice memory together because of the busy schedule of their soon-to-be husband. The word husband makes her cheek redden. Hoping he'll be less busy and spend time with her like he used to do the previous years.
They are supposed to finish their wedding plans and get married within next month, but his busy schedule is stopping that from happening.
Get a stable job. Move into a new home. Get married. Have kids. Grow old together. That's always been her dream. Their dreams.
As long as she's together with him, let the whole world be against her, that's the least she'll care about. With the love of her life next to her, nothing can go wrong. As long as he loved her, that's the only thing she's ever dreamed of, this one only thing is enough for her.
Taking a deep breath and closing her eyes, she calmed herself, and pushed all these negative thoughts away.
His smiling face appeared in her eyes and she let out a little smile. Making the apple of the cheeks turn to the shade of red, contrasting with her pale skin. Just like a teenager thinking about her crush. Even in her twenties, Areena is madly in love with Edward, the love of her life.
"The only thing that matters is I love him. And I always do."
She whispered to herself, the corner of her lips turning up while she picked the cup of coffee she kept and took another sip, warming her up.
As an adult, she knows they have to come across obstacles in life sooner or later, but she felt lonely and craved his presence. Hoping for his company to settle, and continue living their days together like the lovely time they spend at high school and college.
Her eyes roamed around the room and falling on the boxes that were on the corner of the room, she got up and approached them.
She was entirely busy with her student's CA. Being a lecturer she was busy making sure she finished everything about school so she could be free for this special event. She totally forgot to unpack these boxes and some other boxes in the rooms too.
This was the box they kept all their old books and photo albums in. She bent down and opened the box, after going through some books she came across the big gray-covered album and picked it up.
When she opened the album, it fell on the page in the middle. She traced her fingers on a picture going back to the lovely scene they made at the beach.OooOOOooO
It was only the two of them on the beach on a sunny spring day where the sun is blaring hot, but the cold water breezes shove it away making it just a lovely beach day, the beautiful white sea sand was mixed with a different coloured shell.
A younger Areena, in her early twenties was running towards the water, the bright shining sun went through her cold skin giving her the feeling of excitement.
The birds were roaming around the clear blue sky making small sounds. She kept running enjoying herself, her long white hair cascaded down her back, her slim waist, and thin pair of legs, glows under the baring sun, the light breezes coming against her and playing with her hair, the fresh air felt warm making her inhale deeply, enjoying the earthy smell of salt sea water and warm sand.
With every step, she makes an imprint, showing her tiny little feet on the sea sand. The soft smooth sand under her feet was so hot that running through it felt like she was stepping on a burning grill, she stopped at the shallow edge of the beach.
She jumped in excitement when the water touched her bare feet, a light shiver passed through her body, where she felt it touched deep inside her soul and softness overcame her when the water covered her knee. Jumping more and playing with the water like a small child.
This is one of the best moments she has, alone with the love of her life. A broad smile spread across her face, turned around to face him, panting from the running and jumping.
"Oh, this feels great Ed, you have to try this"
Areena shouted so Ed could hear as she continued playing with the water with her feet.
"One sec, I'm trying to get this camera ready."
Ed replied, his attention fixed on the camera that he was holding, making it ready.
"What?" She asked, she couldn't hear him clearly because of the splashing waves behind her.
"No, pictures can wait." She complained running towards him to pull him in.
He snapped some pictures of her as she ran towards him. "See, all set now."
She jumped and threw herself on him, confirming. "You have to get in the water, it feels so good."
"Okay, lemme get some pictures of you first."
"No, nooo pics can wait." She pouted, flicking her long lashes looking cute. He bent and pecked her cheeks.
Knowing him well, she didn't further whine because he wouldn't back up but instead she proposed.
"Okay, only if you promise to stay with me forever."
Posing a little, when I saw him busy taking pictures of her. She holds her right hand with her left hand at the back, bending sideways.
"Promise, promise, that's a promise!!"
Ed squeals like a little boy, making her giggle, she posed more as he took the pictures.
"Okay, my turn."
She pushed him away from the standing camera to snap.
And took some of his back view while walking towards the ocean, as the light wind played with his hair and unbuttoned white shirt. Stroking his finger in his hair keeping them away from his face.
She admired the handsome guy in front of her while taking the pictures.
"Gosh, he's handsome."
She murmured with a smile, taking more of his pictures. After a trance of admiring and taking his pictures she ran to him throwing herself on him, hugging him tightly, something she enjoyed doing.
He hugged her back, spinning her around, her giggles echoing, before he kept letting her down. staring at each other's eyes.
"It's only you and me now."
He let out a relieved breath, and whispered into her ears, learning in and peaked her forehead, his gray eyes never left hers.
"Mhmm"
She answered while closing her eyes, feeling his breath fanning her.
OOoooOOThe sound of her phone's notification brought her back to reality. She stood up heading to where she left it last to open the text, hoping it's from Ed, taking the photo album with her.
"Hey love, eat dinner and go to bed without me, sorry I'll be late again."
She reread the message multiple times while gazing at the screen of her phone for what seemed like ages, with a slumped shoulder, and downward face. She toast the phone away lost in her thoughts again, and dropped onto the sofa she sat on earlier.
Cuddling into a ball, she hugs the album, never wanting to let go, calming her aching heart, suddenly feeling like ice cold water has been poured all over her, she rubs her shoulders for some warmth.
"I just want you to be here, is that a selfish wish that I can't get," she exclaimed her voice cracking, as she faced upwards "why can't this wish come true?"
She sniffled her eyes, never leaving the white ceiling, staring at it blankly, as hot fluid slid down to her ear. Hugging the album tightly. Feeling lonely.
"What are you doing now? What's more important than me? " She wimped.
"What!!?"Sniffing, she shakes the album she's holding with all her might. As if she's talking to him trying to make it answer her.
"What!!??"
"Why did you choose to keep tormenting me like this, Ed?"
She wimped again, her voice croaking. She sighs, hugging the album tightly, turning, she faces the cup of tea on the center table near her". A mild breeze swirls swiftly passing the earthy coffee flavor to her nostril.
Making her yearn to have that nostalgic feeling once again. Her mom's tasty brewed coffee. Their old house. Her Mom's bright smile...
Her heart aches the further she thinks about them.
Did she choose the wrong thing / the wrong person?
Is she on the wrong path?
It has only been 3 years now, yet she's having second thoughts.
Would this go on forever?
Would he keep having this busy life and keep on ignoring her? Did he not love her anymore?
Would this continue for the rest of their life? Choosing a job over her?
The evil thoughts she kept pushing away for the past days eventually backstab her mind. Making her head heavy and her heart stiff.
Amidst those bitter thoughts and teary-eyes, she falls under control of disturbing sleep, she doesn't know when she fell asleep, or how she slept.
Edward
Ed entered the sitting room, it was nearly midnight, Ari is now deeply asleep, tired of waiting for him, though he messaged her earlier to go to bed without him, he knows she can be stubborn sometimes.Seeing her on the sofa cuddle up like a bear, makes him stop in his tracks for a minute which seems like hours. The best sight he has come across in the past 12 hours, or more, his timid body softened entirely, feeling at home. She's home. Changing in his tracks, he went to pick her up.
His lips curved up revealing his left cheek dimple. Leaning in, he moved away the messy strands of hair on her forehead and placed a peck there. Ari can be stubborn sometimes, but only when it comes to him. He chuckled, heaving a sigh as he traced her chin with his finger, regretting not coming home early, she must be lonely, and he missed her too.
Other than him Ari is always a gentle, kind-hearted, sweet person. Knowing her stubbornness, she didn't eat dinner and was waiting for his return to eat it together.
He noticed tear lines, and her red puffy eyes made his heart cringed, feeling wronged. She didn't deserve all this. With his new company, things are getting out of hand lately and he has to tackle it. Knowing he is being spied on, he can't let him see any mistakes in the company, everything has to be perfect.
But everything comes with a price, Ari can't be the price, everything is for her in the first place, but he can't let her know about him. He doesn't want her to be distressed, that's why he wants to address this issue alone.
Keeping his coat and office bag on the sofa by his side, he picked her up, bridal style straight to the bedroom.
Being sleep deprived, he loosen his tie and lie down next to her, hugging her, never wanting to let go with that, they slept in each other's arms.
The sun rays peek from the glass window, falling on her face, the sun kisses lightly on her cheeks, the warmth waking her up.She forgot to pull the blinds. yesterday before she slept.Yesterday?When did she get back to the room? She didn't remember going to the room, did she sleepwalk?The hot breath falling gently on her shoulder, hands on her tummy, and with legs crossing hers, making it obvious.A smile curved from the side of her lips as snuggled in between his arms, coming face to face with him. He looks so charming even when he sleeps.Brushing his bangs away from his face, his sleek hair came in contact with her soft fingers making her whole body shivers. She traces his face with her eyes going from his brows, to his long white lashes, chiseled jaw, and thin peach lips.They stayed like that for some moment, he was deeply in his sleep without feeling her eyes staring at him. She came to her senses when her stomach rumbled, that was when she realized she went to sleep without
Areena opened her eyes slowly, blinking them several times to get a clearer view as the bright light blinded her, she shut them close and opened them again to get a clear view of her surroundings.White curtains, the patient monitor beeping, and the omniscient smell of antiseptic, where is she? What happened to her? Her whole body feels numb. She closed her eyes, heaving slowly."Ed, drive... Drive."Before she closed her mouth the window glass splattered all over the car as the truck crashed into their car, her left hand felt numb as she heard the sound of her rib cracking, while her head hit the truck that was half inside their car.Her mind went back to the horrible event that happened. She opened her eyes quickly wanting to escape from the pain and horror, panting like a wolf. The machine next to her started beeping louder than before.Ed? Where is Edward? What happened to him? Is he alive?Her heart beats fast, and her breathing seizes. Making the machine beeps even louder.A sli
Areena was in a deep black space, all she could see was darkness, she felt pain in every inch of her body, her heart feels like it's been stabbed with a dagger and the dagger keeps thrusting further into her heart making more pain and suddenly it makes a huge blast, bursting blood and pieces of flesh everywhere the blackness.Areena jerked from the nightmare that she was having in the middle of the day, sweat washed over her body. She was laying down on a bench, under a tree in their school backyard. The cold wind blows, making her regain consciousness, and starts to regain composure. And analyzing the place.Where is she? She twinkled her eyes sitting upright, heaving, and her head felt dizzy for a moment. she blinked and rubbed her eyes. Taking in the surroundings, the place looks familiar.This is the backyard of Elite High school, the favorite spot where she sits and eats her lunch every day. Alone.What in the world is she doing here? Her eyes traveled to her thighs and feet,
Areena walked to the gates, as she remembered some old memories of the school.Lonely, hurtful memories.She doesn't have any friends, so she is always seen alone, no one wants to interact with her. If they don't bully her or speak badly about her, they maintain their space.Knowing the situation well, she doesn't like to interact with them either. She gave them space, ate lunch in the garden, using the toilet during classes to avoid being in contact with them. And she never participates in any school activities that would make her stand out.She comes to school early every day, studies, and heads home as soon as her classmates and many students have been driven back home by their drivers.Everyone in the school had a personal driver, so the school Bus doesn't function anymore because nobody uses it.They closed by 3: pm. She walked down the quiet street, following the same route she used to follow seven years ago.The street near her school was quiet with few expensive cars passing b
EdwardIt was closing time, the students were out of their class chattering as they walked to the school gate.Edward, a seventeen-year-old, tall, with long legs, his white sun-kissed, walks calmly amidst them, hands in his pockets as he listens to his two friends bickering. "Ed, back me on this."Elliot, the shortest among the three, being 5'9ft, his white hair was in messy bangs, and his shirt was not tucked in, he nudged Ed with his elbow to grab his attention."Who do you think teaches better?""Hmm?" Ed asked to pretend he wasn't hearing their argument because he had no intention of answering.He huffed jumping on him. "Who teaches best Among English teachers or Biology teacher?" He chuckled "Don't tell me you've traveled into your dream world again?" Elliot huffed."Don't know, I read ahead of class so...""Yeah, yeah so, you can't tell." Elliot rolls his eyes, making a face."You're such a killjoy." He added while Ed was walking unbothered."Liot, leave Ed out of it, you kno
It rained during the night which makes the weather suitable for sleep, making both the mother and daughter overslept. Areena usually leaves home around 7: 00 to find a taxi to drop her at school. And by school by 7: 30 or before that."Reeena, wake up." Her mother called from the door."We'll be late."She added, before going to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. Areena always cooks them breakfast, being an early riser, she wakes up early, prepares them breakfast, and packs their lunch before she goes to school early. "What got into me?"She jolted out of bed. Check the time it is 7:30 already. She entered the bathroom fast, had a quick shower, and changed into her uniform in just a few minutes."Hurry, I packed your lunch."Her mother called, and she finally finished and came out of the room by 7:40. "Morning mom, I'll just eat at lunch."She greeted her mother, grabbing her lunch and putting it in her bag and she was about to go. "Morning, here, take this and eat in the taxi, I p
Areena"She's the one, she's the girl that poured hot Boba milk all over me."The girl confirmed pouting and wiggling her ponytail. They were some inches away from Areena and she would recognize the girl's voice."Hey, why did you bump into her?" A guy with black stripes in his messy hair asked, he had his shirt unbuttoned leaving his singlet showing, folded sleeves, and some tattoo around his neck.That was when she looked up at them. There were three boys and two girls, one of them being the Boba girl."Did you want to rub all your bad luck on her? Huh?"Another guy with folded trousers, sleeves, and long unkempt hair chirped in."I didn't know ... I'm sor-" Areena stammered, gathering all her strength to stay calm. Her mind goes back to the scary incident she once had. No, one is here too, she thought as her heart drums in its cage. "Don't you have eyes?"The guy continued cutting her off and taking some steps forward, making her step back.Another guy with a shaved side of the h
AreenaThe next day, Areena made sure she left home early, to avoid bumping into someone again. Nobody was inside the class when she entered as usual.She brought out the subject she missed yesterday and went through them, where she stopped from her revision last night.Her mother's teary eyes flashed in her brain.She wanted to keep it away from her mother since she was not called by the school authority. But when her mother saw her bandage fingers she didn't let her go unquestioned.She even threatened to call the principal and asked him herself. Being the drama queen she is, she could. So, Areena had no choice, and told her mother everything, not skipping the part about how Ed protected her.Her mother was pleased by his act and said she'll thank him whenever they met. Even when knowing they'll not. Areena chuckled at her mom's funny self.Time passed while she revised her books quietly as her classmates began to come. The more they came the more they talked about her and how Ed w
It was Saturday morning, and Areena woke up to the sound of her alarm clock buzzing near her ear.She hurried and switched it off."Uuggh." She groaned, rubbing her eyes."Can't I sleep the whole day?" She whined. She set the alarm at nine on weekends. But she wants to sleep more.She slept late reading an old Novel she used to read before. She read it more than ten times and still loves rereading it. She can't get enough."Forever Mine." She sighed, closing her eyes."I wish to be his forever." She mumbled and groggily sat up, rubbing her eyes, trying to shake off any sign of sleep. "Yooosh, it's a new day."She jumps out of bed, hoping to start her morning routine, but her tummy rumbles. Foods first. Work later! While making herself breakfast, she noticed that her mother had forgotten to take her ID card to the hospital. As Areena recalled, in her mother's hospital, each nurse must have one in order to have one before they enter the surgery room.And she bet her mother would d
AreenaIt was closing time, and she headed to the library, while the girls approached Ed to teach them the assignment. She left him surrounded by many classmates, mostly girls.But as expected no one dares to approach her with their assignments. And the glaring only gets worse. She expected all of these and sat calmly at the desk pretending she didn't see or hear them.Meagan didn't talk to her in class. So, she thought the best thing to do is to create a lesson book for Meagan. That'll help her with her studies and would save her from their classmates' hatred.She entered the library slowly, forcing her legs forward, her heart was pounding, and now that Ed was not there, she was scared of what the Bullies might do to her this time. Thank God, nobody approached her during lunch. But now is the right time to do anything they like. She wished Ed would finish with the girls soon and come to her savior–his mere presence is her salvation.No, to come to the library. She meets Ponytails
"Why must weekends have to end?"Areena huffed wrapping the warashi tapes upon her chest. After the incident, she decided to avoid being girly and anything cute. She used to wear baggy, dull colors and she never follows any alley again. She prefers to walk for hours than to follow the shortcut alley. Scared something like that might happen again.Her chest is rather busty, having a petite body. And thanks to these tapes they keep her moderate. And out of attention. The last time she wore a bra was definitely back in the day of the incident. Three years back.Her mother didn't question her or go against it wearing it, if it gave her strength again. She spent weeks in her room and never went to the doorstep. When it was time to resume school, she decided to go for a new look.She grabbed Foxy that was laying in her bed."I hope you find a space in your heart to forgive me Foxx." She sighs, hugging the plushie."I never did come back the next day, Fox, or any day after."A single tear
AreenaAreena opened her eyes slowly, her face facing the window as the sun kissed her face making it hard to adjust her eyes to her light. She sucked her head in Foxy tummy– her orange plushie with cat face."Morning Foxy." She inhaled the orange and sandalwood scent from Fluffy, the zesty citrus scent soothing her."It's gonna be a great weeeeeekend."She squealed, jerked her head up while sitting down on the bed then fell into the plushie again."The best days of the week are weekends!!"It's everyone's best, it is to her best too, not that she hates studies but because on weekends she has the day all to herself.No school. No unnecessary dressing up.Not scared of being late. No extra eyes gawking at her. No bullying. No disturbing lens. No binding herself in ropes and her mom got to returning from work soonest!She has available food– thanks to mom's hard work. And the mountain of books under her bed. She actually organized them neatly in the drawer under her bed because she
AreenaEd was sitting on the desk beside her eating his lunch quietly not minding her stealing glances at him from the edge of her eyes.She needs him to complete the sentence he was about to say, to give her the formula to solve this stupid equation. The assignment would be due later on during the day and now she ruined it the only chance of her getting it.She didn't expect to see Ed there and when she did, she thought she was daydreaming as she used to but when she actually saw it was him, it scared the hell out of her.She had to muster the courage and asked him to help her, because if she didn't ask for his help, the physics teacher would be the end of her.Again. She was out of words.She doesn't know how to start a conversation, afraid it won't go right and if she talks to him how she used to in her last life it'll be awkward, she can't even do it, letting out a deep sigh, she will earn a glance from him.Now, is her chance."Umm .... can you please ..." She started trailing w
AreenaAreena walked humming, knowing her mom was not at home, so she didn't have to bother. She hoped to finish dinner on time, so her mother wouldn't notice her being late.Yesterday she told her about staying for an hour more, for her punishment but it's almost 5 pm now, she'll be home by 5 pm and that's two additional hours.She walked, hitting a stone or two by the way, and living in her thoughts when she heard a hoarse voice calling from behind.The guy was driving in a black car, wearing black sunglasses and a black suit. She couldn't tell what he was saying but she read his lips and heard."Get inside the car, miss." The man in glasses ordered looking at her. Huh?What.Did she hear him well? Why would she do that? This is how people usually get kidnapped, right? Her heart pounded as she walked fast ignoring the man hoping he'll leave."Miss, my master, offered to drop you off." The man restated, in his calm voice.Oh, that's what he said. Nothing about him forcing her insid
AreenaThe next day, Areena made sure she left home early, to avoid bumping into someone again. Nobody was inside the class when she entered as usual.She brought out the subject she missed yesterday and went through them, where she stopped from her revision last night.Her mother's teary eyes flashed in her brain.She wanted to keep it away from her mother since she was not called by the school authority. But when her mother saw her bandage fingers she didn't let her go unquestioned.She even threatened to call the principal and asked him herself. Being the drama queen she is, she could. So, Areena had no choice, and told her mother everything, not skipping the part about how Ed protected her.Her mother was pleased by his act and said she'll thank him whenever they met. Even when knowing they'll not. Areena chuckled at her mom's funny self.Time passed while she revised her books quietly as her classmates began to come. The more they came the more they talked about her and how Ed w
Areena"She's the one, she's the girl that poured hot Boba milk all over me."The girl confirmed pouting and wiggling her ponytail. They were some inches away from Areena and she would recognize the girl's voice."Hey, why did you bump into her?" A guy with black stripes in his messy hair asked, he had his shirt unbuttoned leaving his singlet showing, folded sleeves, and some tattoo around his neck.That was when she looked up at them. There were three boys and two girls, one of them being the Boba girl."Did you want to rub all your bad luck on her? Huh?"Another guy with folded trousers, sleeves, and long unkempt hair chirped in."I didn't know ... I'm sor-" Areena stammered, gathering all her strength to stay calm. Her mind goes back to the scary incident she once had. No, one is here too, she thought as her heart drums in its cage. "Don't you have eyes?"The guy continued cutting her off and taking some steps forward, making her step back.Another guy with a shaved side of the h
It rained during the night which makes the weather suitable for sleep, making both the mother and daughter overslept. Areena usually leaves home around 7: 00 to find a taxi to drop her at school. And by school by 7: 30 or before that."Reeena, wake up." Her mother called from the door."We'll be late."She added, before going to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. Areena always cooks them breakfast, being an early riser, she wakes up early, prepares them breakfast, and packs their lunch before she goes to school early. "What got into me?"She jolted out of bed. Check the time it is 7:30 already. She entered the bathroom fast, had a quick shower, and changed into her uniform in just a few minutes."Hurry, I packed your lunch."Her mother called, and she finally finished and came out of the room by 7:40. "Morning mom, I'll just eat at lunch."She greeted her mother, grabbing her lunch and putting it in her bag and she was about to go. "Morning, here, take this and eat in the taxi, I p