Chapter 4

Drew

‘Since my outburst with my sister, I always come home to an empty house. Since mom and dad had decided to turn their business trip into a vacation and Clarissa moved to stay with her friend, I was left alone.

It's been over a week now, and Clarissa hasn’t returned my call or come back home. I’ve been going to her office to look at her from far since she refused to see me, since it’s my responsibility to take care of her as a big brother’. Her company is responsible for the design of our new tech. building. I asked my assistant to disguise the client and tell them she wants their designer, Clarissa, to be the one in charge of the designs because I want her to be the designer of our company.

We’ve tried convincing her to work at our company as our architect, but she refused, and mom was in support of allowing her to work wherever she wants.

Clarissa's point of view

'It's been over a week now that I talked to Drew last, though I'm worried about him, and I miss him so much, even more than I miss my mom.

It's like it's been forever since I last saw him. He did call and message me, send so many voice notes on W******p and WeChat, and visit me at work. I ignored all his attempts to contact me or start a conversation with me.

I have made up my mind to go back home this evening since our parents will be coming back a day after tomorrow’.

‘Later in the evening, I walked down the hall and turned to Drew's room to see, though I knew he wasn't around since I didn’t see his car downstairs. I walked back to my room to do my laundry and Drew’s to avoid my mom’s screaming, ‘Clarissa! Clarissa!! Clarissa!!! Why is your room untidy? You are a lady woman’ but I still love her; she’s all I have. I get so exhausted and famished, so I prepared some food, ate my full, and went back to my room to rest’.

Drew pov

Knock! Knock!! Knock!! “Rissa! Rissa!! Rissa!’’ sweetheart! Please open the door. I know you are in there, and I know you can hear me. Please, I'm sorry. Open the door. I know I should not have insulted you the way I did the other day. I’m deeply sorry. Please, I just want us to talk about all of this and not get mom and dad worried when they come back. Rissa, please open up. I’m very sorry’’ I know Clarissa can be stubborn at times. I’ve been banging on her door for almost an hour, but she wouldn’t bulge, Rissa. There’s no way I would have controlled myself if I hadn’t pushed you out. I paused for a minute, wanting her to understand that I had no sexual restraint and that I didn’t want to be the one to take her first time away. I want her to realize I didn’t push her away because she is a whore, but I want her to realize she needs a better man.

I want her to understand that it’s not proper to give in to our lust, but she refused to open the door to let me in or give a simple reply, no matter what I said. I’ve no choice but to get back to my room and think about another way to persuade her. I know my baby girl can be stubborn at times, so I went back there to sing her the song Sorry by Justib because I knew she was his biggest fan.

“You gotta go and get angry at all my honesty.

You know I try, but I don’t do too well with apologies.

I hope I don’t run out of time. Could someone call a referee?

I just need one more shot at forgiveness.

I know you know that I made those mistakes, maybe once or twice.

By once or twice, I mean maybe a couple of hundred times.

So let me, oh let me redeem, oh redeem, oh myself tonight.

I just need one more shot at second chances.

Yeah, is it too late now to say sorry?

Is it too late now to say sorry?

Yeah, I know that I let you down.

Is it too late to say sorry now? Etc

I finished the whole song, but my baby girl refused to see me, so I left for my room to get some rest.

Clarissa pov

‘’ I can hear Drew calling me, and I’m honestly not a bit interested in whatever he has to say. What does he think of himself, and what did he mean by saying he cannot control himself? Who is looking for his control? Can he see my love and desire for him, or is he pretending not to see it? I was lost in thought when I heard my sweet Drew singing sorry to me. I had the urge to run out to give him a hug but decided against it and pretended I did not hear, even though my face is as red as a tomato. I know I'm blushing, so I stay in my room all night, allowing my mind to do nothing but remember how Drew's hand felt on my body. My hand was wandering off to my crotch, imagining it was Drew's hand. I had the memory to run out to give him a hug but decided against it and pretend I did not hear, even though my face is as red as a tomato. I know I'm blushing, so I stay in my room all night, allowing my mind to do nothing but remember how Drew's hand felt on my body. My hand was wandering off to my crotch, imagining it was Drew's hand.

The memory of Drew's hard-on dick on my hand the past week sent a jolt of pleasure to my pussycat. Heat began to pull quickly between my legs. I used my fingers to rub my clitoral area more urgently, imagining it to be Drew's finger. I wanted to come, and I needed it fast. I remember how Drew's finger felt on my clitoral area.

A moan escaped between my lips. I put a finger in my vagina, but I can’t penetrate since I’m still a virgin.

I only allowed my mind to think of the good part with Drew, not his insult or how he threw me out of his room like a rag. I don’t know how I slept.

The following day was a Saturday, and I don’t have to go to work since it’s a weekend, and I honestly did not wish to see Drew around. And I also have to tell mom about getting my own apartment when she comes back from her vacation.

I need to give myself a break from Drew because I’m finding it so difficult to control myself around him, and I don’t know what I might do next time we are left alone.

I stepped into my bathroom to have a relaxing bath, but I couldn't help but wonder if I'm not attractive enough but am much prettier than all the girls he has been coming home with since I met him five years ago. I snapped out of my thoughts, had a relaxing bath, and put on well-reserved home wear. I have to ignore Drew as much as possible. I know it’s hard, but I've got to try my best.