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2023-11-07 03:13:31This might have simply been the best day of my life. I was in high spirits after supper and Tory mentioned it. After carrying Rie's books, I dropped them at her desk and despite the little voice warning me, I snooped around a bit. Her desk is organized save for a few sticky notes and pens here and there. She has a slightly loopy handwriting that's adorable. I dropped the books on top of her desk when her deskmate came in and pretended to have dropped my pen.
Tory has been nagging me all through night preps to tell her what was making me this happy. I was so glad when the teacher on duty insisted on silence and personal studies until bedtime that way I could avoid her questioning glare.When the bell rang to go to the dorm area. I picked my diary and pen and rushed out before Tory could escape her conversation with Olive. Our dormitory area has several buildings which are divided according to school years to avoid incidences of bullying. I was assigned to one of the few dormitories with first and second years which I don't really mind because Rie is in the same dormitory.The dormitory is divided into cubicles which contain three double deckers therefore having six students in one cubicle. I sleep on one of the lower bunk in the first cubicle while Rie sleeps on one of lower bunks in the third cubicle. Suffice to say, I have no reason to wslk to cubicle three but I always find a reason to in order to see her before sleeping.Today I ran directly to my bed and with my umiform still on, got my pencil and diary out in order to pen down an entry. I am too excited that my thoughts are all mixed up but I must immortalize this day as the biggest step to my self actualization.Dear Diary,I know I have not updated you lately but it's partly because I've settling in my new school and also because my life has been boring with nothing noteworthy. I have missed letting you know how my life is going because you always listen and you never talk back, pun intended.I have very good news for you today. So when I joined school, I met this girl whom I have a very big crush on.Her name is Rie;I like how her name rolls of my tongue.She is the most gorgeous person I've ever met in my life, I know we adore Selena Gomez but I don't think she's a match to my Rie. She loves smilimg, she's so playful and her voice, it's so smooth and beautiful. There I go dreaming again.Today we had two encounters where she spole directly to me. As you can guess I was a stuttering mess despite how much I promised you that I'd be more confident. I hope she has noticed how I gape like a fish when she talks to me or the stars in my eyes when I look at her.You see, I'm worried because despite how stalker-ish I've been, I can't quite establish whether she's gay or not. People here are not too keen on sexuality and seem to skirt around the topic and talk about anything but that. In our traditions, sex is a topic that is something of an abomination especially at our age. But no, today's entry was supposed to be really happy so I won't bore you with our traditions and what not.This is the closest I've been to Rie and her personality is as beautiful as the rest of her. She was really nice to me and even thought I don't talk much because of how tongue tied I was. If only she knew what a blabber mouth I am! She is even more beautiful upclose it was breathtaking. I know I'm gushing but I can't help myself. I think I might be falling in love, for the very first time or, it's just a stupid crush and will end soon.I know I promised I would study hard and maintain my grades and I promise I'm still on track, wouldn't want to disappoint mommy and daddy. From tomorrow, I promise to fully concentrate in my classes.Oh my God! She just passed in the hallway on her way to the bathroom, I'm going to pretend to use the washroom just to see her. I'll update you constantly, I promise.Bye Diary.I quickly threw my diary under my pillow and rushed to our shared washrooms. She's nowhere in sight and I guess she might not have been headed to there. I guess I'll have to wait and see her tomorrow. I walk back to my cubicle dejected and join a conversation with one of my cube mates as she complains how she was harrased by one of the senior students. I hope that I never find myself in such a position because she looks really sad.I go about my night routine, a bit sad that I didn't get to see my crush before sleeping but remind myself of our interactions during the day. I get into my bed, feel for my diary under my pillow, say a silent prayer like mom taught me and I go to sleep looking forward to seeing my crush the next day.Related chapters
Forbidden Addiction Fifth.
It's on a Saturday, the day we've all looked forward to because we're all going to watch a movie. The week has been boring save for that day Rie spoke to me. We have been on the normal class routine but I have improved on my concentration. I managed to score a really good mark in a random test in geography which is to say a lot because I don't really like geography.Today, as opposed to all other days, we get to sleep in for an extra two hours which honestly feels like heaven because which teenager doesn't like good old sleep? After our morning routine, we attend morning hour preps to around 11a.m then do communal cleaning all over the school.Our class was allocated to clean one of the first year dormitories and I'm excited because Rie, a few other girls and me have the windows. I know there's nothing interesting about cleaning windows but a girl who has crush doesn't care what she has to do to get close to her, including cleaning a dozen windows."Hey, I'm on window duty with you." R
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I rub my eyes for the tenth time this lesson. I've been struggling to stay awake ever since our chemistry lesson started. I mean, who fixes a chemistry lesson in the afternoon anyway. All I know is they are discussing something about carbon and the textbook before me keeps swimming in and out of my vision.We have an evening assembly before our four O'clock tea which I'm not looking forward to because it entails a school run. I hate any sort of physical activity that involves using too much energy, sweating or panting but I know there's no way to escape this.Apparently the teacher feels the boredom too because he terminates the class prematurely and assigns some exercise to be done before the next class. I lay my head on my desk to take a nap before the four O'clock bell."You should try to sleep more during the night like a normal person,"Tory exclaims as she hooks her hand through mine. We're walking down the stairs, towards the assembly ground. No, we're actually squeezing through
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To be honest,I’m not even sure why I am crying.I have been bawling my eyes out for the last ten minutes.Tory has been rubbing my back,I guess she ran out of things to tell me after the first five minutes.She actually thought that I seriously injured my hand during the fall.“You should go take your tea.”I urge her because she might stay with me the whole time.“Are you sure?I don’t want to leave you alone.” The concern in her eyes makes me want to cry some more.“I’m okay.Besides,I don’t think I want to go anywhere right now so you should not miss your tea.”I’m sure my face is puffy from all that crying.The rest of my classmates are already coming back to class since they went earlier.“I had heard rumours about Lulu from the second years in the dormitory.I thought they were just that.”one of my classmates Amber says.Amber is very social and extroverted.She has friends even in the senior year.One of the perks of that is she gets to know everything even before it happens and also gets
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“That was impressive.I didn’t know you could run like that!” Rie says while leaning on Tory’s desk.“Uh..it’s nothing really.” I hank God once again for my skin colour because I am full blown blushing.I can feel my face get really warm and I shyly look inside my desk.“Come on.Don’t downplay it.It was great,the coach actually kept on referring to you throughout the game.I think some girls are jealous of you now.”She says while casually throwing her hand around my shoulders.I think she is very touchy.She gesticulates wildly and always her hands to emphasize her point.I really dislike it when people randomly touch me and often find myself cringing.But her touch feels really safe,I lean into her subtly and wish her arm stays there forever.“What about you?” I blurt out.I immediately realize what I said and pretend to be picking something up which makes her hand roll of my shoulder.“I totally am!That’s why I am buttering you up so you can give me a free training sesh.”She laughs softly.
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Alpha house did end up getting the special dinner because,get this,of my exemplary win and several others from my house.We are currently in the dining hall savouring our spaghetti,meat balls and salad.The food is in plenty and we are allowed to have seconds and thirds which everybody gets because we are teenage girls.“And this is for our race track champion!” Rie raises a spoonful of spaghetti in my honour which is imitated by everyone.I cover my face with both of my hands.This is the most attention I have gotten in my life and it doesn’t feel that bad.I realized that when I ran,my mind seems to go quiet.It is like every other thing doesn’t exist and somehow that power propels me forward.I cannot feel or hear anything until I am done and my overactive brain starts again bringing with it all my anxiety and insecurities.“Aaaaw,she is blushing.Another one for her!”Spoons are raised once more.I think Rie is enjoying watching me squirm.I enjoy the attention a little because this is the
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Rie just walked past me in the hallway.She was with some of her friends so I think she might not have seen me.I tried to make eye contact with her but she walked past without a glance.The thing is,this is not the first time it has happened this week.She has been avoiding me and only says hi when there are people around.I think our almost kiss is the reason for all this.I try not to think too much of it because it might the type of saving grace that I needed.Maybe her avoidance is good for both of us.I walk fast towards the washrooms before the bell rings to mark end of the break.The funny thing is,the washrooms are where everybody converges for gossip during breaks.We stand in queues sometimes waiting since it seems like the whole population needs to use them at that particular time.It’s also one of the reasons I avoid using them at that time but I could not this time because I feel to pressed to wait.I stand around waiting for my turn while internally cringing.“Have you heard abou
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'I had a childhood friend,we were really close.She joined our school way later than everyone else so she had to adapt having found every one already in session.Our school was in a somewhat remote area and therefore,it was hard to get transfer ins especially on the upper classes.Somehow,when she came,we clicked immediately.We were interested in the same things and since our seating positions were determined by our class performance,she was close to me on the top.We hit off and soon we became really close.She became like a part of me.We would share everything from clothes to literally eating food from the same bowl.We would attend functions together,go to church together and dance together.Basically,we were attached at the hip,you saw her and I was right behind and vice versa.When she joined our school,she had to move in with her aunt since her mother was away.She would talk to me about how much she missed her family and also how it was awkward to live with her aunt.I remember one pa
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I am currently listening to Liz going on and on about a book she read on evolution.She keeps scoffing and I think she might not like the theories so far.Somehow,I find my gaze falling on Rie who is furiously writing something.She is biting her lip in concentration and immediately my mind goes to that in the field when we almost kissed.My face flushes with warmth at the thought and I quickly turn back to Liz who continues her rant with no notice.I keep thinking of that moment because that’s where she started to avoid me.However,nothing about that indicated that she didn’t want it as much as she did.She kept laying on me minutes after our fall,with no attempt to get off.She knew and saw what was about to happen and even when I leaned in and gave her a chance to move,she didn’t.If anything,were it not for Tory and Olive,we would have probably kissed and would be at home having been expelled now.I keep racking my mind but I can’t find an explanation for her sudden cold treatment.Once Li
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Forbidden Addiction Fourteenth.
Tomorrow is when we take our mid-term break.This first half of the semester has been tumultuous not with me trying to balance everything.Studies and Rie on top of it all.This last week has been quite busy with out mid-term examinations.To be honest,I don’t understand why we have to take all these examinations just to show that we have been learning.I feel like our curriculum is not all rounded.We did our last paper before lunch and therefore we can relax and wait for the next day.We are going to focus majorly on cleaning to ensure we leave our classes and dormitories clean.I look forward to a few hours of no classes.I feel a little sad about going home tomorrow.I mean,I really miss my mother but at the same time that means that I will not see my friends for the next one week and you guessed right,my main reason is Rie.I have gotten so used to seeing her every day whether we are talking or not and this will be a very big change.It’s just a week but it feels like forever.The other da
Forbidden Addiction Thirteenth.
Dear Diary,Rie has been acting weird ever since I apologized to her.It’s not a bad weird but it’s different from how she was.She has been doing things that she didn’t do before and I don’t think she does them for anybody else.She now makes sure to get me during meal times,makes me sit beside her and that I eat my food.She also has been making sure to book me seats beside her during group discussions or any other group events.Weird still,she always comes to my bed every night to wish me a goodnight and if she finds me asleep,she makes sure to wake me up.I am not sure what prompted the change.I think that maybe she is trying to much with this friendship thing.Maybe she wants to show me that she doesn’t take whom I like.Or maybe she has what I call the crush syndrome.It’s where she was acting okay before knowing anything but the moment she realized I fancy her,she feels compelled to act some type of way even though she is not interested.It’s like she wants me to still have a crush on
Forbidden Addiction Twelfth.
I am currently listening to Liz going on and on about a book she read on evolution.She keeps scoffing and I think she might not like the theories so far.Somehow,I find my gaze falling on Rie who is furiously writing something.She is biting her lip in concentration and immediately my mind goes to that in the field when we almost kissed.My face flushes with warmth at the thought and I quickly turn back to Liz who continues her rant with no notice.I keep thinking of that moment because that’s where she started to avoid me.However,nothing about that indicated that she didn’t want it as much as she did.She kept laying on me minutes after our fall,with no attempt to get off.She knew and saw what was about to happen and even when I leaned in and gave her a chance to move,she didn’t.If anything,were it not for Tory and Olive,we would have probably kissed and would be at home having been expelled now.I keep racking my mind but I can’t find an explanation for her sudden cold treatment.Once Li
Forbidden Addiction Eleventh.
'I had a childhood friend,we were really close.She joined our school way later than everyone else so she had to adapt having found every one already in session.Our school was in a somewhat remote area and therefore,it was hard to get transfer ins especially on the upper classes.Somehow,when she came,we clicked immediately.We were interested in the same things and since our seating positions were determined by our class performance,she was close to me on the top.We hit off and soon we became really close.She became like a part of me.We would share everything from clothes to literally eating food from the same bowl.We would attend functions together,go to church together and dance together.Basically,we were attached at the hip,you saw her and I was right behind and vice versa.When she joined our school,she had to move in with her aunt since her mother was away.She would talk to me about how much she missed her family and also how it was awkward to live with her aunt.I remember one pa
Forbidden Addiction Tenth.
Rie just walked past me in the hallway.She was with some of her friends so I think she might not have seen me.I tried to make eye contact with her but she walked past without a glance.The thing is,this is not the first time it has happened this week.She has been avoiding me and only says hi when there are people around.I think our almost kiss is the reason for all this.I try not to think too much of it because it might the type of saving grace that I needed.Maybe her avoidance is good for both of us.I walk fast towards the washrooms before the bell rings to mark end of the break.The funny thing is,the washrooms are where everybody converges for gossip during breaks.We stand in queues sometimes waiting since it seems like the whole population needs to use them at that particular time.It’s also one of the reasons I avoid using them at that time but I could not this time because I feel to pressed to wait.I stand around waiting for my turn while internally cringing.“Have you heard abou
Forbidden Addiction Ninth.
Alpha house did end up getting the special dinner because,get this,of my exemplary win and several others from my house.We are currently in the dining hall savouring our spaghetti,meat balls and salad.The food is in plenty and we are allowed to have seconds and thirds which everybody gets because we are teenage girls.“And this is for our race track champion!” Rie raises a spoonful of spaghetti in my honour which is imitated by everyone.I cover my face with both of my hands.This is the most attention I have gotten in my life and it doesn’t feel that bad.I realized that when I ran,my mind seems to go quiet.It is like every other thing doesn’t exist and somehow that power propels me forward.I cannot feel or hear anything until I am done and my overactive brain starts again bringing with it all my anxiety and insecurities.“Aaaaw,she is blushing.Another one for her!”Spoons are raised once more.I think Rie is enjoying watching me squirm.I enjoy the attention a little because this is the
Forbidden Addiction Eighth.
“That was impressive.I didn’t know you could run like that!” Rie says while leaning on Tory’s desk.“Uh..it’s nothing really.” I hank God once again for my skin colour because I am full blown blushing.I can feel my face get really warm and I shyly look inside my desk.“Come on.Don’t downplay it.It was great,the coach actually kept on referring to you throughout the game.I think some girls are jealous of you now.”She says while casually throwing her hand around my shoulders.I think she is very touchy.She gesticulates wildly and always her hands to emphasize her point.I really dislike it when people randomly touch me and often find myself cringing.But her touch feels really safe,I lean into her subtly and wish her arm stays there forever.“What about you?” I blurt out.I immediately realize what I said and pretend to be picking something up which makes her hand roll of my shoulder.“I totally am!That’s why I am buttering you up so you can give me a free training sesh.”She laughs softly.
