“Jane Wells! Where are you?”
I covered my ears with my hands. The old crone's screeching was enough to make me want to rip them from my head. Mildred Elliot's squalling voice grated on my nerves like nails against a blackboard. I’d told her so on more than one frustrated occasion. It had little impact on the old woman, other than reinforcing her viewpoint that I was a bit “odd in the head”. Mildred hadn't a clue what a blackboard was. They weren't invented yet. That came years later, around the turn of the nineteenth century, when a headmaster in Scotland named James Pilans got it into his head to frame a piece of slate for the school's use. The screeching old crone I was fervently dodging happened to be located in England in the year seventeen-forty-five.
I didn’t belong in that time or place. I was a covert transient from the twenty-first century. I’d traveled back in time for one purpose only. To change the future for the one I loved.
I was never very good at planning things out. I'm more of a grab the seat of my pants and go kind of girl. Patience has also never been one of my strongest virtues. Historically, this grab and go habit always worked for me. Somehow, I managed to achieve my goals. This time I wasn't so sure. Had I jumped the gun without adequate preparation?
I’d arrived outside the village of Colchester, England almost seven weeks earlier. The first thing I did was steal what had to be the scratchiest, most abrasive bodice, skirt, and gown in existence. I'm not a thief by nature. It's just that, since I'd jumped back in time without considering what I was going to wear I needed to do something. Jeans, a tee shirt, and a hoodie weren't the proper attire for someone trying to blend in. I spotted the apparel drying on a bush behind a little farm cottage not far from the cave where I’d teleported into the eighteenth century and grabbed what I could. As luck would have it, the owner and I were close in size. Over time, I managed to acquire a few more necessities for my needs.
“Jane!” the old crone screamed out so loud I was sure she was going to go hoarse, “Where are you, gal? The washing will not tend to itself!”
I held my breath as I waited for her to finish her bellowing.
“Fie… the wench will be the death of me,” she muttered.
I felt a little guilty about referring to Mildred Gould to an old crone, even if she did look the part with her piercing black eyes and hawk-like, wart infested nose. If she was in the twentieth century she could have easily gotten the part of the Wicked Witch of the West in the Wizard of Oz film. The makeup department wouldn't have had to do a thing, except paint her green. She’d shown me a bit of kindness and deserved a little more consideration and compassion from me. After all, there were no plastic surgeons around to help the poor woman out.
Mildred and her oversized husband, Carl, owned a busy little inn on the edge of town on the main road of travel. They were not a bad sort, as persons of the times went. They lived a life comfortable enough to keep them above the pits of poverty, but not sufficient enough for them to rub elbows with the upper class in any way other than catering to their needs on the occasions a lord or lady saw fit to patronize their little establishment. The innkeepers belonged to a branch of society destined to be labeled the ‘middle class.’
Mildred was good enough to take me in and give me a roof over my head, a uniform, and food. I was fed a decent portion of gruel in the morning to start my day. In the evening, I was provided with a sparse portion of hard crusted bread with the tiniest bit of butter, bland potatoes boiled in oxtail broth with an occasional piece of meat stuck to them, and weak ale. In exchange for these I worked, and worked, and worked some more. I was left with about two shillings at the end of the month, when all was said and done. I continually had to remind myself that in a time when generosity and kindness were not at optimum -with no governmental social services to fall back on- I was lucky to have stumbled upon the inn almost immediately after arriving. Talk about serendipity! As unprepared as I was for survival, I might have been forced to go into a workhouse.
So, why was I hiding from good old Mildred?
I'd stolen again.
I’d just finished hiding a crisp white falling band and a pair of beautifully embroidered mules amongst my other stolen goods and I needed time to compose myself.
I'd made good use of time, since teleporting from the future, to acclimate to their ways and culture. I spent every waking moment studying the language, style of dress, politics, mode of living, et cetera. Working at an inn located on a heavily traveled road gave me the opportunity to witness a variety of life. I saw travelers from varied social stations enter and stay in the humble place of food and rest.
I was grateful for the linguistic lessons I took to enhance my acting skills. I was able to pick up the dialect of both the tavern workers and the elite who occasionally passed through. Since I still hadn't worked out how I was going to pull off my mission, I needed to be prepared to pass as a person of whatever social standing proved beneficial for me to be successful. Feeling confident in the versatility of my linguistic skills, it was time to move on to the next stage of my mission. I had to do what I could to change the course of history for Duncan. This was my one and only chance. If I was unsuccessful, he would be doomed to a life he despised... a life that saddened him to the core... the life of a vampire.
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I first met Duncan Colliers at the neighborhood bar located just below my apartment in Queens. I hooked up with my friends, Doug, Chuck, and Linda, at Patty’s Pub every Thursday night for our ritual of a few drinks and a few games of billiards. It was ten thirty and I was leaning against the wall and casually rolling a cue stick between my palms while I waited for my turn at the table. I was in-between acting jobs, but my friends had to work the next day. We were just about to call it a night when I felt Duncan enter. His presence was so strong and commanding, there was no way I couldn't feel it. I don't know if everyone felt him; probably not, but since I'm a little bit psychic and extremely sensitive there was no getting his arrival past me.
Just as I knew there was something uniquely different about him, he recognized a difference in me. He said I stood out from the rest of the room and was like a beacon of light in the gloom of his existence. Who knew such a corny comment could send shivers of delight up and down my spine like it did? I watched him out of the corner of my eye while my friends and I finished the game and said our good-byes. I pretended to leave with my friends. After we parted ways, I waited in the foyer of my building until I was sure they wouldn’t see me before heading back into the bar. I brazenly sat on the stool next to him. I knew the bartender, Julie, so it was easy to find an excuse to justify my presence. He never let on, but I'm pretty sure he saw through my charade.
I didn't have to wait long before he struck up a conversation with me. We talked until Julie made last call. He asked me to meet him the following night. I agreed. The next night he asked me to meet him the night after that. I agreed again. Then the following night we agreed to get together the next night… and so on.
Never once did he mention he was a vampire.
Never once did I see signs of him being a vampire.
Never once would I have even considered he would be a vampire.
First of all, I didn't believe vampires really existed. Secondly, from what I'd read in books and seen in films, vampires were quite grotesque with long nails, red lips, and piercing yellow eyes. Duncan's hands were extremely well manicured, his lips were normal in color, his eyes were a delicious sea foam blue and his hair was the color of sun kissed wheat. He stood half a foot taller than my five-foot-five inches and moved with the grace, beauty, and self-confidence that radiated wealth and good breeding. Everything about him spoke of ‘rich kid from the right side of the European tracks’; nothing more.
We'd been together for a few months before I learned of his true nature. It wasn't as if he'd intended to show me. He confessed sometime later that he’d feared showing me his true self because he worried I'd walk away if he did. That was a natural fear. I'd probably feel the same if the situation was reversed. In fact, it was in a way. He may have been keeping his vampire identity a secret from me, but I was doing pretty much the same thing. Not that I was a vampire; because I wasn’t. I was a psychic, and a sensitive who dabbled in magic; real magic, not that of an illusionist. Could I have been called a witch? I wouldn't have called myself that. I practiced no rituals and belonged to no covens. I simply had abilities to feel and sense things. I occasionally saw and spoke to spirits -although the ability wasn't something I had a lot of control over- and I possessed a strong curiosity and interest in alchemy.
One night, after visiting my favorite occult bookstore, I was followed by a small group of freaky looking characters. There were five or six of them. From what I could tell, they were all boys, but I could be wrong. They wore their hair in a green, orange, and blue punk spike. I assumed it was some sort of gang symbol; like them all having the same tattoo or something. They sported leather studded jackets and body piercings of indescribable locations and amounts. This was in stark contrast to my designer jeans, navy wool pee-coat with a matching beret -that was pinned just right on my fashionably braided long, honey blonde hair-, pear studded earrings, and Movado watch. I was wearing green and tan pumps and carried a green and tan Liz Claiborne crossover bag to match. They actually had the audacity to taunt me for being weird because I'd bought a few things at a spooky occult store. Imagine that? I did my best to ignore them while I picked up my pace. Unfortunately, they were itching for a confrontation. Since I’d never considered myself a fighter or the least bit brave, I did the only thing I could think to do.
I ran.
Right into a dead-end alley.
Before I knew what was happening, I was on the ground with those punks ransacking my Liz Claiborne shoulder bag, pulling at the pockets of my pee-coat, and tossing the contents of my shopping bag back and forth between each other. In my struggles to be free and salvage what I could, I'd managed to obtain a few cuts and bruises. Unfortunately, due to poor blood coagulation, I bled a lot more than one would have expected wounds of that nature to bleed. Needless to say, even though my wounds weren't really bad, my type "A positive" blood was all over the place.
What happened next I can only say was so farfetched, had I not known better, I would have thought I was dreaming.
There was a loud swooshing sound. I heard it clearly above the cackling of the haughty attackers as they reveled in their torment of me. Either they didn't hear it or they just didn't care because they kept on doing their utmost best to rob me of all I had to offer; my dignity included. A loud anguished cry brought the entire scene to a standstill while everyone focused on the source. As my assailants slowly backed away from me, I witnessed a sight that burned so deep in my memory I'm sure I'll carry it with me forever. Two vampires stood over me. Their mouths dripped with the blood of several of my tormentors who now lay in a heap on the ground nearby.
It's strange what goes on in one's mind when facing death. I'd always been told my life would flash before my eyes chronologically. That didn't happen. Perhaps it was because in some crazy way I didn't think what happened to my attackers would happen to me or perhaps it was because I'd been misinformed. I couldn't say. There was certainly no walking down memory lane. Instead of reviewing my almost nineteen years of life, I studied the faces of my soon to be slaughterers. I stared deep into their eyes, while noticing the kaleidoscope glow that shot light from their pupils like one of those mini flashlights on key chains. I felt their rage permeate my surroundings. One vampire was male and one female, but both radiated equally angry power. Had I not seen them and only been privy to their energy, I would have been hard pressed to decipher gender.
Their faces were distorted. It wasn't just their anger causing it. Their bones were... how do I put it? Off. They looked animalistic. These were like the faces you’d expect to see on the silver screen. Exactly!
I looked beyond the distorted bone structure of the female and decided she was a beautiful woman when she was in human state. She must have felt my energy piercing through her vampire veil because she stopped advancing and stared at me, as if bewildered.
The male, on the other hand, kept on coming. I could smell his foul breath as he closed in on me. His halitosis was so horrific, I gasped for air. I cringed at the long, pointed nails on his hands when he reached to grab my shoulders. They resembled claws. Even while he was lifting me effortlessly to my feet, I couldn't help confirming that the nails matched the vampire stories as well. It was hard to tell how his lips compared -since they were dripping of blood and were overshadowed by elongated fang-like teeth at the moment-, but his eyes actually flashed some sort of red spark from them. It wasn’t quite like a strobe light, but more like a neon light gone bad.
As crazy as it sounds, I'd yet to fear for my life.
My feet were several inches off the ground when I heard, as well as felt, the swoosh of someone else arriving. It was an energy I recognized, but I couldn't place it in my chaotic state. I twisted my head as best I could to look for the familiar. Through the entire ordeal, I’d stayed relatively numb. Now, I was finally shocked! There, only feet away from me, stood Duncan... my Duncan... or a version of him, anyway. His face was not as distorted in the animalistic manner as my captors, but it certainly wasn't the handsome face I'd made love to over the last few months. Long canines projected from his beautiful set of brilliant white choppers. His normally rosy cheeks were sunken and hollow. His sea foam blue eyes were so dark they could have been mistaken for black.
I gasped -more with surprise than with fear- while I watched him tear the heads off my assailants with rapid speed and incredible ease. It brought to mind my brother's slaughter of my dolls when we were kids.
I fell to the ground along with my headless attacker and quickly pried myself from its lifeless vice grip. I stayed breathless and motionless while I watched Duncan look around with disgust before he scooped me into his arms. He half-ran, half-flew across roof tops to my apartment building, with me in his arms as if I weighed no more than a feather. He quickly found the doorway from the roof to the stair well and continued until he deposited me on my living room sofa. Without a word, or allowing time for me to gather my wits to comprehend the reality of what was happening, he disappeared.
For whatever reason –probably shock- I decided to play Scarlet O’Hara and deal with what happened another day. I immediately went to bed. Believe it or not, I slept like a baby that night. One would have never guessed I'd been through such an ordeal. It wasn't until the following morning, when I turned on the news and saw the report of the dead bodies of the punks who’d tried to mug me, that reality struck and I collapsed from the trauma of it all.
I came to my senses by evening and called Duncan’s cell phone. No answer. So, I tried his house phone. Again, no answer. This went on for days. Thinking me disgusted and frightened by his true identity, he’d gone into hiding. It took almost two weeks for him to resurface.I used this time of separation from my lover to study and research as much as I could about vampires. I ran across a statement that stuck in my head and just kept playing over and over. God makes and loves all things and all creatures. It’s man who decides what’s evil and what’s not. It was so true. Sure, the vampires that attacked me and my group of muggers were bad, but so were the muggers. There are good and bad in all species. I knew in my heart of hearts that Duncan was good. If the truth was to be known; even if he was bad, it was too late. I’d already fallen in love with him.I felt Dunca
Isabelle's warnings were significant, but not enough to change my mind; even if Duncan was able to change hers. It took some time before Duncan managed to convince Isabelle that our plan was a bad idea. By the time he did, I'd already learned enough to do it on my own, if need be.Once my mind was made up, I took the time to study enough on the sly until I was able to work a spell to teleport myself through time without risking Isabelle by using her as my anchor. When no one suspected what I was up to, I did just that.I'd cast a spell to travel back in time far enough in advance of the attack on Duncan to allow time to find him, meet him, gain his trust, and then return to the future with him before the fateful attack could take place. I was to return no later than the day before the attack. I hadn't the skills to elongate my visit. If we missed the opening of the portal of time, I wasn't sure I'd be able to work a new spell w
I thought of Duncan. I was actually going to meet him... or the him he was... is... The situation was complicated, even for me.Duncan. I wondered what he was doing in the future. Was he searching for me? Had he even noticed I was gone? One of the things I learned from Isabelle was that there is no such thing as linear time. Man fabricated it to support the reality he chose to experience when he was placed on the planet. Many creatures other than men -such as vampires- are aware of this to some extent and can in many ways bend time. This meant that, if a person knew the way to break the barriers that split the illusion of time into linear sectors, it was possible to go back and forth with only a matter of seconds being realized by those you left behind. Therefore, even though my reality was experiencing weeks of my absence from the twenty first century, those I left behind only experienced a few minutes of time; a da
The arrival of the earl’s groom brought his request back to the forefront. I had no choice but to comply with the summons. I smoothed my hair under my cap as best I could and wiped my hands in the folds of my apron. It may seem silly, but I was meeting Duncan’s father and my natural desire was to make a good impression. Why? I couldn’t say. It just was.My mind whirled as I followed the young man up the wooden stairs of the tavern to the Earl’s room at the end of the hall. I’d never been on this floor of the inn and couldn’t help feeding my curiosity a bit. The walls were covered with flocked paper and appeared smooth and well kept. As we progressed down the hall with its well tread-upon floorboards, I noticed the doors grew further and further apart; indicating that the rooms they led to were slightly larger and intended for their more important guests. This made sense since the n
The inn was surprisingly close to Duncan’s family estate. I soon found myself immersed in a deep copper tub filled with soothing lavender scented water, while the heat of the fireplace sent warm waves over my exposed flesh.I was in heaven.I’d learned from various covert conversations that the woman they mistook me for was Margaret-Jane Bush. I found this interesting since my given name was also Margaret–Jane and I’d shortened it to Jane. She’d shortened hers to Margaret.It was remarkable enough that we shared a name, but the fact that we looked the same topped the scales of uncanny.I found a small portrait of Lady Margaret and was amazed by the resemblance. It could have easily been me who’d sat for the artist. Not only did we look alike, but I soon discovered we wore the same size when Elizabeth helped me dress for dinner. I marveled over the fit of the yellow dress with orange underla
Having been a sufferer of acute claustrophobia for as long as I can remember, I find the black of night frighteningly confining. Since there were no night lights to ease my discomfort and it was far too dangerous -not to mention wasteful- to keep a candle going while sleeping, I had to force myself to acclimate to the darkness. I managed, but I certainly couldn’t claim to be comfortable in it. That was when I missed Duncan the most. He always made me feel so safe.The following morning didn’t bring me much comfort, other than the light of day.Duncan. My heart sank at the thought of him. I needed to know how he truly felt about me, but how? He was in the twenty-first century going through his day without any inkling that I’d ignored his wishes and traveled back in time.To the wrong time!Worst yet, I’d done it without the aid of Isabelle. Now that I’d learned more about the fin
I remembered all too well how tiring the transfer through time was. I’d also needed time to adjust. I led her to my bed and helped her get comfortable. Elizabeth hadn’t been notified of my return and she wouldn’t be looking for me until it was time to dress for dinner. This gave Isabelle a few hours of rest before we had to worry about her presence in my room.I moved around the room as quietly as I could so as not to disturb her. Even though I’d been the recipient of Isabelle’s surprise visit, I was still anxious to learn as much as I could about Margaret. After fingering through her meager belongings, I sat in one of the armless baroque chairs placed against the wall opposite the room’s entry. I took a moment to admire the remarkable comfort of the seating while stroking the thick floor to ceiling tapestry that hung on the wall. Its intricate wooded scene was breathtaking. I couldn’t r
My water was cold by the time we realized we’d better get me dressed and down to dinner before someone came looking for me. I shivered through my bath like a trooper and dressed as quickly as possible. It was of the utmost importance to keep Isabelle’s presence a secret. Elizabeth proved a valuable ally in this cause. Her admiration and reverence for Rosalie spilled onto Isabelle. There was nothing the lady’s maid wouldn’t do to guarantee my friend’s safety. Although grateful, I couldn’t help being a little jealous. I got the impression that if it came to a choice between saving Isabelle or me, I’d lose.With Isabelle tucked safely away under the watchful eye of Elizabeth, I went about my daily routine as Lady Margaret while I furthered my discoveries of the type of person she was. I learned that she’d been born into a magical family. When I learned her parents were kin to the faeries, b
It was a week since I’d convinced Duncan to speed up my recovery by giving me some of his blood. He’d hesitated for fear of Rosalie’s concern of my turning vampire would occur, but he eventually gave in. I really didn’t need his blood to heal. I was healing well without it, but I didn’t tell him that. When I had Duncan’s blood flowing through my veins all of my senses were heightened and my powers more acute. I needed all the advantage I could get for what I was about to do.I’d managed to connect with Elizabeth’s spirit. She wasn’t as easy to summon as Isabelle’s, but I eventually managed. My heart ached as she told me how Lady Margaret learned of her association with me and arranged to have her killed. She laughed at the irony of how she’d feared losing her life to her vampire brother instead of her human mistress. The danger of being in Rufus’ company was so blatantl
Isabelle stood next to me while we watched Lady Helen enter the tent and then flee back out of it shouting for help. Duncan cradled my limp body in his arms and rocked me back and forth. He was clearly at a loss of what to do.Rosalie rushed into the tent with Lady Helen close at her heels. She inspected my eyes and my breathing and announced I was still alive, but just barely. She rambled in outraged Spanish and Isabelle translated it to me. Apparently she was repremanding my almost dead body for being foolish enough to donate blood when the miscarriage took more than it should to begin with. She claimed I had barely enough blood flowing in my veins to support me after such an ordeal, let alone revive a vampire. I’m pretty sure she called me stupid, although Isabelle woundn’t own up to it if she did.I listened while they debated what to do. I was so close to death that if Duncan revived me with his blood the
I held tight while her dragon carried us swiftly back to her encampment. During the flight, she filled me in on what happened during my absence.Duncan went into a rage, declaring his regrets about allowing us to convince him to let me go into the cave in his stead. This information was of no surprise to me. Even so, I was sorry to hear it.Lady Margaret was brought before the coven and her powers were bound. She was then handed over to the Earl of Winter Spring to do with as he will. The fact that she’d tried to kill his only heir and caused him to become vampire didn’t sit well with the earl. Although it was a crime punishable by death, he sent her to the dungeon instead. A kind man by nature, he couldn’t bring himself to hang the girl he’d accepted as his ward and helped raise.I’d lost track of the time and learned they’d been looking for me for the better part of a month. Rosalie actually complemen
It was so quiet you could hear a pin drop on the grass twenty feet below. I was sure of it. This type of silence was abnormal and concerned me. I’d been locked in my room since Rufus discovered me at the cave, with only the information Elizabeth was able to share with me to tell me what was happening in the outside world. She’d yet to come to my room, so I waited impatiently.She was late.It was near noon before a strange serving woman brought my food to me. Since I was ravenous from not eating since the night before, combined with being pregnant with vampire child, I dove into my fare with very little thought as to why Elizabeth still hadn’t come to my room or why this strange serving woman was bringing me food.I failed to monitor my food intake and was soon feeling ill from gorging myself with a trencher made of fresh, crusty bread that was filled with perfectly seasoned mutton stew. I’d left nothing behi
I was angry.I was angry at Duncan because he hadn’t mated with me vampire style to assure I’d be considered his.I was angry at Rufus because he had mated with me so many times since he’d brought me from the cave to his estate that I’d lost count.I was angry with Elizabeth because she wandered in and out of the room to tend to my needs, yet didn’t believe she could help me escape.I was angry with Rosalie for not being strong enough to battle and win against a dozen vampire witches by remote.I was angry with Isabelle for dying.I was angry with myself for stupidly being the catalyst for all of this by going back in time.In short, I was just angry.On top of that, my entire body ached.I was never as grateful to have Duncan’s vampire blood in me as I was when Rufus bedded me with such fury that I wondered if I’d survive. I’m sure, my body having only re
I did my best to hide my nervousness as I walked into the mouth of the cave that felt more like the lion’s den. Elizabeth saw to it that I was dressed from head to toe in Margaret’s wardrobe. Her feet were slightly smaller than mine and the shoes pinched, but Rosalie was adamant that every article of clothing on my body have the vibration of the high priestess only. Vampires could smell and hear so much better than people. They had a sense of simply knowing that astounded the witches. Even with the precautions we were taking, there was still a good possibility one of them might discover the ruse for what it was.Capturing Lady Margaret was a relatively simple task. Duncan’s father simply sent her a request to meet in the family’s private library. Not realizing he was aware of her true nature, she walked right into the trap. Elizabeth confided that she worried what might happen, should Lady Margaret be exonerated by the coven, bu
I was blissfully displaying my gorgeous engagement ring to anyone with a pair of eyes willing to admire it when Isabelle finally raised the question of what to do about both Lady Margaret and Lord Rufus.According to vampire law, Lord Rufus was first to impregnate me and therefore was my official husband. Since it was rare for a vampire to find a mortal he or she wanted to mate with, this was a law that was supported and held sacred by every vampire on the planet. Every vampire except Duncan, that is. Duncan stayed away from other vampires as much as possible while integrating with mortals on a daily basis in an attempt to lessen his vampirism. Even so, just because he seldom associated with them, it was still necessary to abide by the laws put forth for vampires; which was why he’d agonized so heavily over what to do about me. My only saving grace was the fact that I’d aborted the child before Rufus learned of his actual success. He only had his
Duncan resembled a waxed doll when they laid him on the cot in the back of Rosalie’s enormous tent. I searched for signs of life. His chest showed signs of shallow breaths being taken. Shallow breaths meant he still had life. I’d take that for now.He needed to feed immediately and it had to be human blood. Knowing how he felt about drinking the blood of humans, I asked if there was another way to save him. There wasn’t.This was my fault. If I hadn’t come back into the past, Duncan would be safe in the future, as would Isabelle. My foolish, thoughtless actions caused the death of a dear friend, and possibly the death of the one true love of my life. It didn’t matter that he was no longer in love with me. Through him, I’d experienced a love I never thought possible and I would always remember that.I took a deep breath and looked around. Rosalie had put the word out f
I was excused to explore the camp while Rosalie sat with Helen and picked her brain of everything she knew about Margaret. It felt good to wander freely without fear of being abducted by crazy Vivian or now… Lord Rufus. I considered petitioning to be able to stay at the camp permanently once the danger for Duncan was removed. Since Duncan and I were no more and I was stuck in the past, it seemed like a great place to live out my days. I’d be able to interact with Isabelle as if she was flesh and not a semi-transparent apparition and I could continue my studies. It seemed like a plan.I stopped at the center market and chatted with the merchants selling their wares. Many of them came to the camp from nearby farms. Some were alive and traveled back and forth through dimensions, while others were in spirit and this was their home. I lost count of how many times I was warned not to leave the parameter of the encampment where Rosalie&rsqu