I'll be the one

I am restless. I stayed for hours sitting on the floor where he left me, before I came into my room just to cry again. I badly wanted to come into his room but that’s not the best decision to do. He probably doesn’t want to see me after saying all those words.

All I felt was shame. This relationship is a daydream and a nightmare at the same time. Funny how this relationship turned out like this and I am accountable. Even if I wanted to explain things, doing that will do no good. It will just prolong the pain because the end of the tunnel is still the end of the road.

He’s right. He did nothing but to love me and save me from all the agony of my life. He let himself get involved in my life for the sake of my mother’s wish, when in fact my mother is also one of the reasons why his family is dead. My father is his parent’s murderer, while the child is the one who broke him in the end.

That kiss may be unintentional, and even if I explain to him what happened aft