I shut my mouth. But not because I got intimidated by him. Of course, I have my plans. I don’t want to push through his patience when I’m wanting to get his trust.
Now, I’m trailing him from behind. Walking at the sand in front of the waves that’s crashing to the shore. I trail his steps silently. I’m like a kid trying to match my steps with his. I grinned because I find it funny how my foot is so small compared to his.
”Aww,” I bumped my head into a hard thing. When I lift my head it’s him that I saw.He raised his brows with a quirky smile. I did the same.”What now?” I pouted.He rolled his eyes handsomely and smirked. He grabbed me by the wrist in seconds and then I was already beside him. He slid his fingers into mine in one swift move, clasping our hands together.My heart thumped in chaos. I wasn’t able to say anything but to justI wish I could say that Mia’s reaction mattered. Because all the more, Mia’s reaction was not the first one I looked forward to after that kiss. All of his friends were cheering and teasing us. Meanwhile, our eyes were just stuck together. I can feel his warm breath as our faces were just inches away from each other. His eyes looked tired and soft as it fixed into my lips. My throat felt dry looking at him.What did I just do? That selfishness brought me into a crazy decision and now I feel worse. ”Aren’t we supposed to be the one being publicly affectionate? Guy, we are the once that are getting married, not the both of you!” I heard Molly’s teasing. That woke me up. I immediately shifted on my seat, allowing some space to happen. I can’t look at him after that foolish move of mine. I think I’m out of my mind! My eyes fixated on the woman who’s the reason for that foolishness. She looks c
The wedding will be in the next two days. That just means that we still have enough time to burden each other. As if I have a choice. I just tried to look at the bright side of this trip slash vacation. At least, I get to experience this once in a lifetime.The next morning I’m surprised that we did not have breakfast with his friends and colleagues. Instead, we rode a yacht and sailed through the sea and had an explicit breakfast. I can’t help but to gawk at the islands that we are passing by. As we go further, the sea becomes clearer and clearer.The sunshine is like a fertilizer for my dying physique. Gladly, I wore clothes that are perfect for this one so I’m getting enough nutrients that I need. Wearing a tied backless top paired with a white loose pants, I stood at the side deck watching the clear water. Is this why they say that the sea is a vitamin for the soul? Because it feels like it.&rdqu
I was alone, seated on the deck with the food on the table. I’m still in my wet clothes while the towel is wrapped on my body. I’m silent and a bit shaking because of the cold. This type of coldness is something that’s not because of the weather. It’s like inside my stomach, it makes me numb.”What more do you need ma’am?” the woman a while ago asked.I looked at the food on the table and pursed my lips. “W-where’s Elijah?” I asked.”Oh, he’s taking a dip on the other side of the deck ma’am.” she smiled.I nodded and smiled lightly. “I’ll just wait for him.” The woman then left. I had the time to space out and contemplate things. Instead of being afraid about what just happened to me. I was more afraid of Elijah's reaction a while ago. He’s hella mad. That’s why I feel like it’s
Later that afternoon, we came back to our villa. It was never the same again. I can’t look at him the same way again. For that short period of time that we are at the sea. It’s like a huge twitch of fate happened.I look at my phone while lazily lying down on the bed. I ran through Lulu’s messages. All of it is just about current updates regarding her ‘mission’ of finding my father.Lulu:I’m quite not sure about this. But according to my own investigation, your father was last seen at a port going to the east.My brows furrowed. Port?Lulu:And that’s just not it. It seems like he’s hopping from one place to another as if he’s running from something.Well he’s probably having the time of his life right? He had a lot of money to spend so it’s probably normal to act that way. But I’m a bit bothered, because one possibility is him getting caught by the authorities.But if that’s the case then why am I still out here? I ca
The day before the wedding, people grew in volume. Everyone becomes busy and some are just having fun. Like today, some of the guests who just arrived are enjoying the beach while the other ones are busy with gown fitting and such. Like us.”You look gorgeous ma’am, who’s your dermatologist?” the sheman designer said. It made me flustered. I look at myself standing at the full length mirror while wearing a nude infinity dress. Maybe this is their wedding’s theme. The sheman slightly touched the ends of my hair. ”I’ll style you tomorrow.” he smirked. He seems to be so fond of me, which made me so shy. ”That man’s hot. Your boyfriend?”He side eyed the man who’s casually waiting at the couch. I looked in his direction as well and saw him scowling in our direction. I immediately avoided his gaze, cleared my throat and shook my head. &rd
I silently sat at the table designated for us at the reception. Elijah seems a bit busy greeting the people that visits our table. It warmed my heart a bit seeing the bride and groom having fun in their reception, while I just enjoyed my solitude. At the middle of the speech of their friends, I felt Elijah’s hands on my palm above the table. My eyes quickly turned to him, a bit startled. I put my hand under the table then he held it again. ”Hmm?” Biting my lip I asked, because I thought he had something to say.His eyes were a bit sleepy as he looked at me. He shook his head lightly then smiled a little. I was about to retrieve my hand when he clasped our fingers to each other. I just bowed my head a bit then focused on the event for him to not notice that I got a bit affected. Some people still approach our table but I noticed that he’s quickly ending the conversation specially that I’m beside him.
I have thought for so long that anger and madness are slowly filling me. Even if I’m not sold to him, I would still believe that I would act the same. I would always stick to my words. All my life, I’ve been abused and exploited that I wasn’t aware of my own well being. Then one day, I woke up and thought that I want to get even. I never thought being bad would be this hard and confusing. Is it because I’m not actually that kind of person? Or is it because it’s him and he’s got a point? While we were both walking, I could feel his tensed shoulders. I can feel that he’s mad, or probably just annoyed with me. I don’t know what’s with me too, I shut my mouth and felt vexed. When we arrived at the stone formation, without a word he held my wrist and guided me to step onto it. I just did it without questioning him. I almost forgot the reason why we’re here. The rock formation
Lulu: Done with that Mr. Anderson. Check your email.I hid my phone as soon as I read that. I saw Elijah glanced at me and I pretended not to mind. We’re going back to Seattle. He's been driving for a couple of hours now. I also can’t remember how many times I had a nap. ”You can watch movies if you want. I’m sorry I’m a boring company.” he chuckled. I smiled lightly and shook my head. ”My chopper is not available since there’s no helipad in Long Beach. I’ll work on that next time.” I don’t know how many times I could be more amazed about his wealth. It’s like he’s just blurting out those things as if it’s nothing. In fact, a month ago I’m using my body to make a living. ”We’ll stop by to have lunch.” Then we stopped at one of the fast food restaurants on the road. I
”I can’t believe we’re back here again.” she said with wandering eyes, gracefully seated on the passenger seat.My lips protruded. I played with my lips as I stopped myself from pulling up the car and making out with her. God. How can she manage to be so goddamn beautiful without even trying? Is she purposely doing it to bewitch me more? Cause no need. I’m hell obsessed with her and even if she does nothing, I’m still gonna be head over heels with her. Gladly, we arrived at Long Beach without any delays. I mean, the sense of control that I had to possess. Phew~ “God. It’s been a while. I feel like so much has happened. This brings back the old days.” she spoke when she got out of the car.I encircled my arms to her waist because I’ve been dying to put my hands on her. Nothing, I just want to claim what’s mine. I just want her all the time.
”So you mean, you got back together without telling us?” Zoey asked me with her famous bitch face look. The three of us were left here after the ‘caught’ incident. Elijah greeted them and they were casual with each other. Well, Lulu is casual. Zoey’s a bit aloof and rugged in treating him. I gulped. Because I didn’t know the right answer. Half of it is true and half is not. ”See? You can’t answer.” she crossed her arms and rolled her eyes at me. Lulu is quick to butt in. “Let’s hear her first, Zoey.” ”What’s to hear if she had nothing to say?” I understand Zoey. I’m used to this kind of attitude of hers.“You’re right,” I started. I even heard Zoey say ‘See’ again. “I wasn’t able to tell you guys because things happened so fast. But no, we d-don’t ge
Because of Elijah’s little games, I can’t help but to feel awkward around Ms. Madrigal all day. It’s not that I have something against her, it’s just that I’m shy as we all have this little pretending thing that went on these past two days. We hadn’t talked about it since, so when the time of the day went, I started to step forward and background, whether I talk to her or not. I’m having second thoughts. ”Yes, Ms. Madrigal. That’s all you have for tomorrow.” I said as I reviewed her schedule. She nodded. “Great. That’s good to hear.” I smiled. Usually, after she acknowledges my review of her schedules, I would bid my goodbye already. But since I have these things going on inside my head, I stood on her side looking like a fool. When she sensed that, she glanced at me. My cheeks immediately flushed because of that.I bowed my head, feeling her intent
“Ah!” I screamed. Panting, I looked at my surroundings and saw that I’m in a car. Right. We’re on our way to buy some groceries.”What’s wrong? Everything’s okay?” Elijah curiously asked. Although I’m not sure with myself, I still nodded and smiled raw.Wait. Nothing bad happened to me these past few days. Why do my nightmares suddenly come back? ”Had a bad dream?” he asked. I didn’t answer and just concentrated on adjusting myself. I felt him eyeing me even when his eyes should be on the road. ”Eyes on the road, Elijah.” I said with a warning tone. ”I am asking you.” he answered with his more intimidating warning tone as well. I sighed heavily. The persistent Elijah as always. ”I’m used to it. Don’t worry.” I said. ”You’re used to it?”
Nothing happened. Elijah called a plumber who fixed the water pipes that night. He then went home late at night with his sulked face. We parted awkwardly and I overthought that whole night thinking I did something wrong. I didn’t do anything right? Not until he came inside the bathroom.“Ugh,” I groaned when I woke up. Sunday is supposed to be the day where I woke up with lots of sleep. But now, my head hurts because of thinking the whole night. Still can’t believe it. Am I just dreaming last night? No way.I checked my phone. No message from anybody. I went to the bathroom and looked at the new faucet. I sighed unconsciously. That is not a dream. I took a bath since it’s already late.I’m thinking of running some errands today, like doing grocery shopping because last night was just so embarrassing. For sure Elijah is not used to places like this. But I wasn’t able to think about
“E-Ej, I think, we still have a lot to talk about.” He nodded while his eyes re focused on the road. He’s driving and we’re both on our way to my apartment. Like what he said, he’s gonna take me home. The events are like whirlwind. Everything was just so fast and I can’t cope up with how things are going. It’s like I’m dreaming and I’m loosing some parts of that dream.“We’ll talk tomorrow. For now, you need to rest. I don’t want you depriving your sleep.” he uttered seriously. My lips parted as I look at him. I look at him with so much adoration. I can’t help but to feel so amuse and overwhelmed with what he just said. For a year, nobody told me that. I almost forgot the feeling of having someone to take care of you, to look after you. I fell into this pit of limitations and barriers, thinking that I don’t deserve all that. But here he is.
We stayed in that position for God knows how long. Him, holding my face while our forehead touched each other. My hands are on his chest and I’m just making the most out of the time. I feel at home. I feel like for the whole year I’ve deprived myself from the pain and aches, this is the only time I let myself down like this. At this moment, my pains are so sure; the reasons are clear, and I felt so free. In this world, there are these people that are home for you. Those people that are not just meant to stay for a short period of time but in the long term. And for that I think because those people are meant to give you lessons. You are meant to look for their purpose in your life. And I think his purpose is this. To make me feel safe, always. ”I-I… I don’t understand.” I said with a hoarse voice. ”You don’t have to. I just need your answer. Is one year enough? Or do I have to give you more?”
“I am not kidding, Elijah. I respect Ms. Madrigal as much as I respect your relationship. So please! Even if this doesn’t mean anything to you or you’re just trying to be casual to me, or whatever it is that’s inside your head, stop! Alright? “ I exclaimed. I just went all the way without actually thinking much of my words and just following what’s inside my mind.“How?” he asked.My brows shot up. “What?””How?” he asked again. “How can you say those words when your actions say otherwise?”I gulped and avoided his eyes. He knows.“You’re asking for me to go back but was that what you really wanted me to do?”I shut my eyes tight and shook my head. No, Emma. He’s just trying to get inside your head. You’re better than that. .“Elijah, please-”
That whole dinner is a pain in the ass. Who would stay sane when your ex is beside you while his recent girlfriend is on the other side. I was so doomed. He noticed that I’m gawking at his scent so much and that’s so embarrassing. What could he possibly think with those actions I gave him? He might think that I’m still crazy for him. I managed to hold myself until the second course of the menu. That conversation didn’t happen again, gladly. I tried to just focus on whatever it is that’s in front of me while I hear the small talks of the people around me. ”No, you’re allergic to that.” I heard Elijah.I pursed my lips. Even though my eyes are focused on the main dish that was served, my ears are fully indulged in the conversation of the two people on my right side. ”Oh, yeah. I forgot.” Ms. Madrigal laughed. I sniffed and used my fork to remove the vegetabl