Whatever that kiss may mean, it was nothing. I expected worse actually. Sure, he makes me a bit nervous every time he’s around but maybe that’s just because I’m intimidated and my reflexes as well because of past experiences.
”Are you going now?” I asked when he stood up after eating the breakfast that I prepared.He looked down on me and it seems like the amusement on his face will be forever embedded when he’s talking to me.”Yes. I have an early meeting.””Uh, alright.” I pursed my lips.I stood as well and started to fix the plates. Deep inside, I am rejoicing. I’ve been waiting for him to leave. I busied myself in the kitchen and like usual, I felt his presence on my back, I didn’t react and just continued washing the plates.”You don’t always have to wash the plates. I can make my house help do that.”My mThe days passed just like that. With the same routine and the same act of pretending and going undercover. Sometimes I would talk to Lulu, when she’s not busy. I ask for updates and sometimes, I just want to have someone to talk to. Meanwhile, Elijah is still the same. What’s between us stays the way it is. And that’s unusual for someone who just paid millions for a fuck buddy. Lulu is right. But as I've said, that is more favorable than me. I’ll just focus on what I must be doing while he’s still preoccupied. ”I’m still in the process of looking for him. I went into your house but it seems like nobody lives there.” Lulu said, one time when I called her. ”Of course.” He might have left by now. ”You think he moved out?” ”That’s what I thought too.” That’s how far I’ve known. With the phone I have there’s on
Whatever it is that he said. I tried not to dwell much on it. I don’t want to lose when I’m not even starting yet. ”How was your day?” I looked at him when he suddenly opened a topic in the middle of supper. I don’t know why he’s suddenly been friendly to me these past few days, but maybe also because I’m casual to him? I don’t know. I’ll just fake it till I make it.“Fine. How about you?”He didn’t answer me, he just had this slight smile on his lips. I shrugged and continued eating. ”I’ll be leaving for the countryside this weekend. There’s a business matter I need to attend to.” I listened to him. Though I didn’t know why he’s suddenly saying this to me I just nodded. ‘That’s fine then. No presence of you for days.’&rd
Going back to the car, I almost felt the raging fire that’s building in him. I slowly removed my fingers in his hands and that made him look at me. I glance at him and his hardened expression. Damn, he’s mad. He made some gestures with his hands, and with that Ros immediately handed him the key. I stood there watching them. He’s gonna drive?”Get inside.” he said coldly. I shrugged and walked into the other side of the car. Sibal opened the shotgun seat for me. I almost looked at him begging eyes. Seriously, I don’t want to be left with this man! I wore my seat belt silently and glanced at him once again. His hardened expression is still the same. I cursed myself inside my head. I know I’m trying to be hard-headed but I admit this is the wrong timing to do that. ”I’m sorry. I just wanted to g
We stayed in this one villa along the Long Beach area. It’s one of the places near the beach. I was entranced by seeing the beach for the very first time. A beach that I only see on television is now here in front of me. ”You should rest first. We’ll meet my colleagues later.” he said, still salty.I pursed my lips to stop my little smirk. He reached for the knob of the room. ”Where are you going?” ”In my room, beside yours.” I was a little startled. We were both quiet waiting for something to say, but no words came out from the both of us. ”I’ll go now.” I nodded lightly. As soon as he left, I spaced out thinking about things. Right, I thought we’ll sleep in the same room. It’s not that I assumed but it’s because it’s what I’m used to. You don’t expect those people to get a separate room for th
He’s an orphan? That’s like having a glimpse of his life. That information can’t be found in any articles on the internet or in any tabloids and such.”You alright?” Elijah asked me.I just nodded as an answer. I don’t know why I’m suddenly awkward around him. We’re not in the group cottage, where the foods are served for early dinner. I didn’t talk much after that lying incident of mine cause I realized that I will just bury my own foot by doing that. All I should focus on is we’re here because Molly and Hugh are getting married.”Do you want this?” Elijah offered a dish.I didn’t look into his eyes. I just nodded again. I can feel his gaze on me. Maybe he’s curious by my sudden quietness.”Do you want more of this?” he asked again after min
I shut my mouth. But not because I got intimidated by him. Of course, I have my plans. I don’t want to push through his patience when I’m wanting to get his trust. Now, I’m trailing him from behind. Walking at the sand in front of the waves that’s crashing to the shore. I trail his steps silently. I’m like a kid trying to match my steps with his. I grinned because I find it funny how my foot is so small compared to his. ”Aww,” I bumped my head into a hard thing. When I lift my head it’s him that I saw. He raised his brows with a quirky smile. I did the same. ”What now?” I pouted. He rolled his eyes handsomely and smirked. He grabbed me by the wrist in seconds and then I was already beside him. He slid his fingers into mine in one swift move, clasping our hands together. My heart thumped in chaos. I wasn’t able to say anything but to just
I wish I could say that Mia’s reaction mattered. Because all the more, Mia’s reaction was not the first one I looked forward to after that kiss. All of his friends were cheering and teasing us. Meanwhile, our eyes were just stuck together. I can feel his warm breath as our faces were just inches away from each other. His eyes looked tired and soft as it fixed into my lips. My throat felt dry looking at him.What did I just do? That selfishness brought me into a crazy decision and now I feel worse. ”Aren’t we supposed to be the one being publicly affectionate? Guy, we are the once that are getting married, not the both of you!” I heard Molly’s teasing. That woke me up. I immediately shifted on my seat, allowing some space to happen. I can’t look at him after that foolish move of mine. I think I’m out of my mind! My eyes fixated on the woman who’s the reason for that foolishness. She looks c
The wedding will be in the next two days. That just means that we still have enough time to burden each other. As if I have a choice. I just tried to look at the bright side of this trip slash vacation. At least, I get to experience this once in a lifetime.The next morning I’m surprised that we did not have breakfast with his friends and colleagues. Instead, we rode a yacht and sailed through the sea and had an explicit breakfast. I can’t help but to gawk at the islands that we are passing by. As we go further, the sea becomes clearer and clearer.The sunshine is like a fertilizer for my dying physique. Gladly, I wore clothes that are perfect for this one so I’m getting enough nutrients that I need. Wearing a tied backless top paired with a white loose pants, I stood at the side deck watching the clear water. Is this why they say that the sea is a vitamin for the soul? Because it feels like it.&rdqu
”I can’t believe we’re back here again.” she said with wandering eyes, gracefully seated on the passenger seat.My lips protruded. I played with my lips as I stopped myself from pulling up the car and making out with her. God. How can she manage to be so goddamn beautiful without even trying? Is she purposely doing it to bewitch me more? Cause no need. I’m hell obsessed with her and even if she does nothing, I’m still gonna be head over heels with her. Gladly, we arrived at Long Beach without any delays. I mean, the sense of control that I had to possess. Phew~ “God. It’s been a while. I feel like so much has happened. This brings back the old days.” she spoke when she got out of the car.I encircled my arms to her waist because I’ve been dying to put my hands on her. Nothing, I just want to claim what’s mine. I just want her all the time.
”So you mean, you got back together without telling us?” Zoey asked me with her famous bitch face look. The three of us were left here after the ‘caught’ incident. Elijah greeted them and they were casual with each other. Well, Lulu is casual. Zoey’s a bit aloof and rugged in treating him. I gulped. Because I didn’t know the right answer. Half of it is true and half is not. ”See? You can’t answer.” she crossed her arms and rolled her eyes at me. Lulu is quick to butt in. “Let’s hear her first, Zoey.” ”What’s to hear if she had nothing to say?” I understand Zoey. I’m used to this kind of attitude of hers.“You’re right,” I started. I even heard Zoey say ‘See’ again. “I wasn’t able to tell you guys because things happened so fast. But no, we d-don’t ge
Because of Elijah’s little games, I can’t help but to feel awkward around Ms. Madrigal all day. It’s not that I have something against her, it’s just that I’m shy as we all have this little pretending thing that went on these past two days. We hadn’t talked about it since, so when the time of the day went, I started to step forward and background, whether I talk to her or not. I’m having second thoughts. ”Yes, Ms. Madrigal. That’s all you have for tomorrow.” I said as I reviewed her schedule. She nodded. “Great. That’s good to hear.” I smiled. Usually, after she acknowledges my review of her schedules, I would bid my goodbye already. But since I have these things going on inside my head, I stood on her side looking like a fool. When she sensed that, she glanced at me. My cheeks immediately flushed because of that.I bowed my head, feeling her intent
“Ah!” I screamed. Panting, I looked at my surroundings and saw that I’m in a car. Right. We’re on our way to buy some groceries.”What’s wrong? Everything’s okay?” Elijah curiously asked. Although I’m not sure with myself, I still nodded and smiled raw.Wait. Nothing bad happened to me these past few days. Why do my nightmares suddenly come back? ”Had a bad dream?” he asked. I didn’t answer and just concentrated on adjusting myself. I felt him eyeing me even when his eyes should be on the road. ”Eyes on the road, Elijah.” I said with a warning tone. ”I am asking you.” he answered with his more intimidating warning tone as well. I sighed heavily. The persistent Elijah as always. ”I’m used to it. Don’t worry.” I said. ”You’re used to it?”
Nothing happened. Elijah called a plumber who fixed the water pipes that night. He then went home late at night with his sulked face. We parted awkwardly and I overthought that whole night thinking I did something wrong. I didn’t do anything right? Not until he came inside the bathroom.“Ugh,” I groaned when I woke up. Sunday is supposed to be the day where I woke up with lots of sleep. But now, my head hurts because of thinking the whole night. Still can’t believe it. Am I just dreaming last night? No way.I checked my phone. No message from anybody. I went to the bathroom and looked at the new faucet. I sighed unconsciously. That is not a dream. I took a bath since it’s already late.I’m thinking of running some errands today, like doing grocery shopping because last night was just so embarrassing. For sure Elijah is not used to places like this. But I wasn’t able to think about
“E-Ej, I think, we still have a lot to talk about.” He nodded while his eyes re focused on the road. He’s driving and we’re both on our way to my apartment. Like what he said, he’s gonna take me home. The events are like whirlwind. Everything was just so fast and I can’t cope up with how things are going. It’s like I’m dreaming and I’m loosing some parts of that dream.“We’ll talk tomorrow. For now, you need to rest. I don’t want you depriving your sleep.” he uttered seriously. My lips parted as I look at him. I look at him with so much adoration. I can’t help but to feel so amuse and overwhelmed with what he just said. For a year, nobody told me that. I almost forgot the feeling of having someone to take care of you, to look after you. I fell into this pit of limitations and barriers, thinking that I don’t deserve all that. But here he is.
We stayed in that position for God knows how long. Him, holding my face while our forehead touched each other. My hands are on his chest and I’m just making the most out of the time. I feel at home. I feel like for the whole year I’ve deprived myself from the pain and aches, this is the only time I let myself down like this. At this moment, my pains are so sure; the reasons are clear, and I felt so free. In this world, there are these people that are home for you. Those people that are not just meant to stay for a short period of time but in the long term. And for that I think because those people are meant to give you lessons. You are meant to look for their purpose in your life. And I think his purpose is this. To make me feel safe, always. ”I-I… I don’t understand.” I said with a hoarse voice. ”You don’t have to. I just need your answer. Is one year enough? Or do I have to give you more?”
“I am not kidding, Elijah. I respect Ms. Madrigal as much as I respect your relationship. So please! Even if this doesn’t mean anything to you or you’re just trying to be casual to me, or whatever it is that’s inside your head, stop! Alright? “ I exclaimed. I just went all the way without actually thinking much of my words and just following what’s inside my mind.“How?” he asked.My brows shot up. “What?””How?” he asked again. “How can you say those words when your actions say otherwise?”I gulped and avoided his eyes. He knows.“You’re asking for me to go back but was that what you really wanted me to do?”I shut my eyes tight and shook my head. No, Emma. He’s just trying to get inside your head. You’re better than that. .“Elijah, please-”
That whole dinner is a pain in the ass. Who would stay sane when your ex is beside you while his recent girlfriend is on the other side. I was so doomed. He noticed that I’m gawking at his scent so much and that’s so embarrassing. What could he possibly think with those actions I gave him? He might think that I’m still crazy for him. I managed to hold myself until the second course of the menu. That conversation didn’t happen again, gladly. I tried to just focus on whatever it is that’s in front of me while I hear the small talks of the people around me. ”No, you’re allergic to that.” I heard Elijah.I pursed my lips. Even though my eyes are focused on the main dish that was served, my ears are fully indulged in the conversation of the two people on my right side. ”Oh, yeah. I forgot.” Ms. Madrigal laughed. I sniffed and used my fork to remove the vegetabl