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XLI: Don't Let Me Go
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2020-06-30 03:21:50Thick silence descended upon them like a curtain, blanketing the atmosphere with its eerie presence. Najmah pushed off the door frame and advanced towards him with hesitant steps, her mind muddled with the events of the last few hours, unable to comprehend what he had just uttered.
"What did you say?" she came to stand beside him, raising a hand to cradle his face but he inched away from her, leaving her hand hanging in the air.
"I want you to leave Najmah," he enunciated, looking at anywhere but her.
"What do you mean leave? Leave the room? Leave the house? Leave Istanbul?"
"Istanbul."
"What? Aslan, what is going on?
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