Aslan didn't sleep a wink the night before after Najmah had woken him up, he sat behind the desk of his office rubbing at his temple tiredly. Bags were visible under his eyes and the mug of coffee he kept on his table wasn't helping matters, the caffeine wasn't strong enough to ward off the effects of the nightmare.
He shuddered as events of his nightmare kept replaying on his mind, he still remembered that dreadful night; the night that cost him the life of someone close to him, and almost cost him his sanity. It was a night he'd never forget.
"Sir? You have a meeting in five," his secretary knocked at the door of his office, interrupting his thoughts.
"Why didn't you tell me this earlier?" he grumbled, picking up the file on his desk. He straightened his tie, slipped on his suit which was hanging on the chair then walked out of the office with strides that demanded authority.
Every employee scrambled up from his seat greeting him, while he gave a curt nod as he passed them. He strolled into the boardroom, apologizing to the board members for his tardiness.
The meeting passed by in a blur with Aslan's mind still hung up on his nightmare. He knew without being told that he had to see his sponsor. There was no putting it out any longer even though he was going to come face to face with one of his nightmares, it was a sacrifice he had to make for the greater good of his health and sanity.
When the meeting ended, he went into his office and dialed the number of his sponsor, wishing he was doing anything but that.
"Can I come in today?" he queried, once the Dr had answered the call.
"Yeah, you can. Is everything okay?"
"No, I'll be there in a few." With a click, the phone went dead.
"Hold off all my calls and cancel my meetings for the day, reschedule them to the day after. If anyone asks after me, tell them I've gone out to take care of something," he addressed his secretary as he walked out of his office.
"Yes sir," she nodded, going through the diary, she knew not to object or ask about what he needed to take care of. She thought the deal with Kartal Industries was more important than anything right now, but she kept shut lest she lose her job. She bit the end of her pen in nervousness as she dialed the secretary of Asil Kartal.
"Hello," she cleared her voice. "I'm calling to tell you..."
"Oh, Thank God you called," the secretary sighed in relief. "Mr. Kartal wouldn't be able to make it to the meeting today, I'm apologizing on his behalf."
"That's okay, we can reschedule the meeting. I'll send you the details when I talk to Mr. Sadek," she hung up the call with a smile on her face as she began to reschedule Aslan's meetings.
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"So, this is your fourth day in Istanbul and I know how boring it gets, sitting in one place without moving out. I've thought of a remedy for that. We're going out today, a girl's outing. You and I," Lale rambled, interrupting Najmah who was busy reading.
"I'm totally fine with sitting at home," she shrugged, not taking her eyes off the book she was reading.
"Like seriously? I can't keep still at home, I'd feel suffocated," Lale shuddered at the thought of sitting at home all day and not being able to ransack a boutique or a mall, she'd die of boredom.
Najmah didn't reply her and continued reading, totally ignoring her presence. Didn't lale know that it was rude to interrupting a person reading? It's like one of life's fundamental rules.
Apparently, she didn't as she continued talking, oblivious to the fact that Najmah wasn't listening to her. "You and Aslan are totally perfect for each other. You both are antisocial and take joy in being alone, loners even."
"You're not listening to me are you?" she pouted, snatching the book away from Najmah.
"You really aren't gonna give up right?" Najmah threw her hands up in surrender.
Lale gave her a toothy grin, squealing like a five-year-old who was given a piece of candy.
"Fine," she huffed, rolling her eyes.
"There, that's the spirit," Lale cheered.
"But I have a condition."
"See I told you that you and Aslan are perfect for each other. You don't do things without laying down conditions."
Hearing Aslan's name for the second time, Najmah's mind travelled back to the events that transpired between them the night before. She hadn't seen him since he bolted out of bed and she kept on wondering about him. Even as she read, her mind still wandered back to him.
"Your condition?" Lale queried tapping her leg on the floor impatiently.
"I go out with my book."
"Wha...," she began but clamped her mouth shut. "Fine, you can come with it but you're not going to read it in public."
"I'll go get a veil," Najmah smiled in triumph before bouncing off the sofa.
"And by the way, I love your outfit. You look so chic." she stated, giving Najmah who was clad in a Bogota border print jumpsuit a once over.
"Thank you," she replied going up the stairs. She rummaged through her bag and picked a floral veil, zipped the bag up then wrapped it round her face.
She sauntered out of the room and found Lale outside waiting for her by the fountain. It was the first time she was stepping out of the mansion ever since she walked into the foyer. The day she came in, it was a little bit dark so she didn't notice the intricate details of the environment outside like the porch swing and the cottage by the right, surrounded by all kinds of flowers, like a mini garden and to the right of it, a greenhouse she couldn't wait to explore.
She got into Lale's electric blue lambo and Lale revved the car, bringing it back to life. They zoomed out of the house and unto the streets of Sultanahmet. Lale did her best pointing out the glorious buildings which stood out among the rest, giving Najmah a brief history.
"You should definitely see the Aya Sofya and oh yeah the Yerebatan Sarnıçı, the blue mosque also. Oh God! There are so many places I need to show you but not today, maybe next time. I'll be your essential tour guide in the great city of Istanbul," Lale bobbed her head up and down as she maneuvered through the traffic.
She drove to Istinye Park and parked the car in the underground parking lot. They got out of the car and went towards the Life Style Center section of the park which was an open-air town square housing a green central park and Fashion District.
As Lale was busy ransacking the isle of clothes in the fashion district, Najmah was busy reading.
"You promised not to read in public," Lale pouted, taking the book away from Najmah. "We're here to shop not to read."
"I don't want anything, I have all that I need," Najmah protested trying to get her book from Lale.
"Not when it comes to clothes. A girl can never say no to shopping."
"Well I can. Now gimme back my book."
"No, I won't. You're going to shop and act like a human being not a zombie," Lale gagged, placing the book in her flap bag.
"But I don't have any money," Najmah protested. She intentionally left her credit card at home not that she had a lot of money in her account, but she had enough to sustain her before her Abba sent her more.
"Who said you were paying for anything," Lale rolled her eyes. "It's my treat. Pick anything you want and I'll pay."
"But..."
"No buts Missy," she cut her off, placing her hands on her hips daring Najmah to challenge her.
"Okay fine," she huffed then stood up and started looking for something that would catch her attention. Fashion wasn't really her thing; she puts on whatever she feels comfortable with.
She wasn't comfortable with someone paying for her stuff so when her eyes fell on a black romper shirt, she picked it up and paired it with a red high waist skinny jeans she picked at random then met Lale at the cashier with a heap load of clothes.
"Did you shop for the whole of Istanbul?" she queried, her eyes widening.
"No," she shook her head. "They're all mine. Don't tell me that's all you got," she pointed at Najmah's hand.
"Yeah, I told you I don't like shopping."
"Well that's going to be remedied when next we hit the store. I'm so hungry right now that my brain can't function. With Aslan's credit card, you're going to have a mall-like wardrobe." She paid for their things then went to the Bazaar area after stuffing the bags in the boot of her car. They ate lunch then strolled through the green central park before going back home.
{••}
It was almost past midnight yet Najmah couldn't sleep so she went down to the media room with a jar of nutella and a teaspoon. She switched on the TV then browsed through the various movies she saw, pressing play on Ouija then settled back into the comfy sofa, giving it her uttermost attention.
Occasionally, she would dip the teaspoon into the jar and scoop a portion of the chocolate then lick it off. By the time the movie had ended, she had already eaten half of the jar. She switched off the TV then retraced her steps back to the room, praying that Aslan wasn't there as she pushed the door open.
Her face fell when she caught sight of him working on his laptop. He didn't raise his head to acknowledge her, rather he continued tapping away on the keyboard.
″Definitely unwanted,″ she thought as she kept the jar she was holding on the bedside table then build a wall between them again. She placed her head on the pillow and said her du'a, falling asleep almost immediately.
He rounded up his work at 2 a.m then closed his laptop and set it aside. He stared at the sleeping form of Najmah who had hugged a pillow, crushing the wall she built. She looked so angelic in her sleep, the low light in the room a shining contrast to her dark skin. Her lips were patted slightly and soft snores emanated from them.
The cap she used to cover her hair had slipped off, releasing her mass of African hair. As if hypnotized he ran his hand through her hair, making her turn a bit. He quickly retracted his hand and jumped off the bed, placing his hand on his face.
"What is wrong with me?" he mumbled into the air. He huffed then went back to bed, rearranging the pillow wall but somehow it crumpled again and they ended up snuggled into each other.
Fajr time came and the two woke up in each other’s arms, with their scents on each other’s body. Their eyes widened when realization dawned on them and Najmah quickly ran to the bathroom, smelling of strong oud musk. Sighing, she performed ablution then got ready to pray, knowing that the scent would linger for a while.
Aslan went into Muhan's room and performed ablution before going to the masjid with her magnolia scent still lingering on his body.
The next morning when they both collided in the kitchen, they acted as if what happened the other night hadn’t happen.
He poured the brewed tea into his cup and bolted out of the kitchen, with Najmah staring at his retreating form, unable to fathom what was really happening. Could it be that she was slowly getting used to being around him?
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The sun rays penetrated through the glass walls of the greenhouse, stimulating the plants growth. Najmah was busy transferring the blooming seedlings into various pots after asking Ferah for permission who was more than happy for she was far too busy to take care of it.After successfully transferring them to the pots, she arranged them in a corner then set to plant new seeds. Using her thumb and index finger, she pinched the top of a few leggy plants, for them to grow fuller and healthier before spraying pyrethrum around the greenhouse to ward off ants and aphids.Using the back of her mud covered hand, she wiped away the tiny sheen of sweat that rolled down her face then bent down to pick a broom and began to sweep the mess she made while transplanting.When she was done, she stepped back to admire her handiwork. Satisfied with it, she turned around to go back in and take a shower when she froze, letting out a scream.
Lale stared at her reflection in the mirror, scrunching up her face in distaste. Bags were visible under her eyes and her face looked pale due to exhaustion from lack of sleep."You shall sleep when everything is set," she said to her reflection as she added another layer of foundation to her face. When she was satisfied with her look, she donned her hijab then padded to Aslan & Najmah's room.Just like she predicted Najmah was sitting on bed with a spoon hanging on her mouth, staring intently at the book she was holding, a jar of Nutella kept to her side. She never could understand the girl's obsession with books and Nutella."Hello Missy, care to join me on an adventure into town?" she queried, startling Najmah who threw her book away.Although exhausted Lale fell into a fit of laughter, clutching her stomach and pointing at the sullen look on Najmah's face."You...look...look.
Blood pounded in her ears, her heart thudding in her chest. Her hands shook as she felt a tingle in her feet. Her vision became blurry and she gripped the edge of the basin, trying to steady her breathing. Each moment that passed, breathing became harder for her.She took long measured breaths, staring at her reflection through her blurred vision. She debated on whether to bolt out and run back home or stay and face her demons.If she stayed, she was likely to make a mess of herself. If she left, Lale would be really disappointed. Either way, there was a sure risk on both of her decisions, besides if she left, she had no idea how to get home."Najmah are you okay in there?" Aslan queried, knocking on the door of the bathroom.She couldn't give him a coherent answer due to her lack of breaths. Sensing something wrong, he ran into the bathroom and found her hunched over the basin."Hey
She stared out of the window, her eyes unfocused. She felt empty and out of sorts like she didn't belong. She wanted to go back home, but she couldn't voice out her thoughts. Try as she might, the words don't seem to come out.She felt suffocated and trapped, like she was shackled. The Sadeks have been really kind and welcoming to her, she couldn't go to Aslan's dad and demand to be returned home. The few weeks she had spent with them were the best she's ever had. With them, she felt like she was finally living; like her life had meaning again.After Fahad, she hadn't thought she would care about anyone again but then came Aslan, and now Najmah wondered if being friends with him was the best decision she made.She sighed, pushing her hand through her hair,feeling disoriented and robotic. She hadn't felt like that in ages, not even after the news of Fahad's betrayal was broken to her. She still couldn't understand why he di
"So how was the therapy?" Aslan asked, folding the sleeves of his shirt."It went well nothing new," she shrugged scrolling through her twitter feed.Aslan sighed, sitting at the edge of the bed. He had been trying to get her to open up since she came back from visiting the therapist, but all he got were vague answers."So when did you...umm...learn..." he stuttered, trying to find the right words to say. He couldn't think of any word to use, lest he offends her."That I was crazy?" she chuckled, locking her phone and facing him."You aren't crazy," he frowned, pinching the bridge of his nose. "You're schizoid and schizoid people are not crazy. Though temperamental at times but definitely not crazy.""Did you somehow earn a degree in psychology overnight?" she teased, throwing her feet off the bed. "You seem to know a lot about my disorder than I do, Dr Aslan."
She stared out into space, a spoon dangling in her mouth. Aslan observed her, wondering what she was thinking and how to get her to open up to him. A thought occurred in his head and he cleared his throat to gain her attention."Walk with me?" he queried, extending his arm towards her.She raised an eyebrow, trying to gauge his expression but it was neutral. She capped the Nutella jar she was holding and set it aside then swung her legs off the bed, placing her hand in his arm."Where are we going to?" she questioned, staring up at him."The garden," he replied, leading them out of the room.They walked out of the house in comfortable silence, wrapped up in their own world."Let's play a game," Aslan suggested, coming to a complete stop by the swing."What sort of game?" she queried, sitting down on the swing."20 questions?" he smiled, pl
A Week LaterNajmah added the last finishing touch to her makeup-free face then capped the tube of lip gloss, a slow smile dancing on her lips. She left the vanity table and went towards the full-length mirror standing by the side of the walk-in closet. It was an addition by Lale who in her opinion thinks that a lady's room without a full-length mirror to appreciate her features is like a bachelor's pad.Najmah hadn't seen the need for it as she rarely looked at herself in the mirror and the room wasn't hers to begin with but today was an exception. Aslan was taking her out for sightseeing, and she wanted to look her best.At 5'6, Najmah stood with doll-like features which were her most significant assets. Her body sat in between slender and curvy which was an advantage on her part as she's able to work any outfit she wore. Her shoulder length African hair which she had used a lot of years taking care of it with natural oi
He paced the length of his office, clutching his cellphone in his hand. His fists clenched and unclenched, the veins in his neck popping. Things were not going as planned, he had everything set out beforehand so why was it not going as planned?His hands balled into fists as he spoke in rapid Turkish, his voice rising to a pitch as his anger escalated. He slammed his fist onto the desk, muttering profanities in Turkish. He sighed loosening his tie a bit then pushed back the strands of hair that fell over his face, pondering over what to do to remedy the situation.He had two options, it was either to stay or call Lale in. The situation would've been more favorable if he stayed but he didn't want to spend another day in Istanbul so calling her in would be his only option.How do I approach her considering how much she hates these meetings?He picked his office phone and punched in a few numbers, waiti
•Te Quero Pa' Mi ?An hour later, Najmah found herself alone in an office again. What she had to wait for, she had no idea. The room was dimmed, illuminated only by an overhead lamp.She closed her eyes and vowed to never forget what that moment felt like. The heart flutters, the joy, the happiness, she was definitely going to remember every second of it.Najmah was right on the edge, standing on a thrilling and amazing precipice of happiness, where thoughts of a flawless and perfect evening that would lead to a happy union flickered through her mind.She felt like Dorothy, gazing down at Emerald city for the first time, like Wendy rising up in the air after tasting her first pinch of pixie dust, like Cinderella, stepping out of her carriage to meet her prince charming.That feeling, she would cherish and savor every moment of it, and when she found herself alone, she would remember
There are moments in life that define us, there are also moments that divide us into two different beings; who we were before an incident and who we are after.Whether happy moments or sad moments, they change our lives forever either for good or for bad or for worse.The same could be said for Najmah Haroun as she stared at herself in the full-length mirror, reminiscing over the past couple of weeks.Her life had changed for good the morning after her reconciliation with her husband. It was a whirlwind of family gatherings, dress fittings, cake tasting, event preparations and much more.If it came down to her, she would rather skip the festivities, sign the marriage certificate and just take off to Puerto Rico.Lale would probably kill her; she thought smiling. The fashion diva would not miss a chance to party and if Najmah were to deny her that, only Lord knew what would happen to
"Do you plan on staying in bed for the whole day?" Aslan questioned, twirling a strand of her hair with his finger."Mm-hmm," she nodded, inhaling his musky oudh scent. "I like it better here where I am.""As much as I'd like to stay here with you," he chuckled, untangling their legs. "At some point, we're going to have to get out of bed so why not do it now?""I'm not going anywhere," she pouted, wrapping her arms around his torso. "Neither are you.""Sevgilim," he kissed the corner of her lips, taking her hand into his. "I'd like very much to stay in bed with you, but we need to eat, I'll just order for room service and then I'll come back to you okay?""Fine but-"The shrill ringing of her phone interrupted her and she groaned, silencing it without checking who the caller was."Aren't you picking up?" Aslan's brows furrowed as he got down from the bed.
He lifted his head which he had burrowed into her hair and gazed at Lale who had barged into the room unannounced."Are you going to explain to me what's going on here? I was outside waiting for you, and here you are cuddled with the enemy," she huffed, crossing her arms over her chest. "We've missed our flight.""Lale," he called out in a hushed tone, pressing a finger to his lips. "I will meet you in the living room okay? I don't want her to wake up."She made a sign of not complying but seeing the look on his face, she turned around and left the room, banging the door loudly for effects.Najmah shifted in her sleep, burying her face in his neck. He sighed, not wanting to leave the bed even for a second but knowing Lale, she would burst right through the door again and wake Najmah up.Slowly but reluctantly, he slid his arms from under her then set her head on the pillow before liv
Najmah stood at the entrance of Bristol Palace Hotel taking deep breaths before ambling in, heading straight towards the receptionist, scrolling through her phone for a picture of Aslan."Hi," she smiled at the lady, showing the phone screen to her. "I was hoping you would help me with something, my husband's been staying here for a month now, and I don't know his room number.""Why don't you call him? There are lots of guests who...""Listen, lady," Najmah smiled sardonically, locking her phone screen. "This is really urgent, and I don't have any more time to waste, okay? So you're gonna check your computer right now and look up his room number or so help me God, I will cause a scene here.""I'm sorry ma'am, but I can't give out guest's information, it's against the hotel's policy.""Hotel policy? You either give me the information I asked, or I swear to God, I'm gonna scream so loud that
Najmah blinked, staring at the door of her room expectantly. She had no idea what she was expecting but deep down, Najmah knew it wasn't a what but a who but after how she treated him, he wouldn't be bursting through that door not then not ever.Was she foolish to take such a decision after coming to terms with her feelings for him? It was getting hard for her to make a decision.I hate you.I love you.I want you.I need you.I can't stand you.You complete me.She was still indecisive and direction-less without him. The night she had pushed him away, she had slept peacefully. The second night, she had a nervous breakdown and couldn't sleep. The third night was worse. Her indecisiveness had taken a toll on her, and she couldn't stop thinking about all the memories they had shared
Najmah tiptoed across the living room, hiding a package behind her back as she surveyed the area. Just as she placed her foot on the staircase, cheering victoriously for slipping in and out of the house undetected, she heard her mother call her."Waye ne ya zo ganinki?" (Who came to see you?) Hajiya Salma questioned crossly, folding her arms over her chest. Najmah swore in her head before turning around to face her mother.Hajiya Salma looked rather displeased as she stared at her youngest who looked more annoyed than guilty at being caught."Fahad ne," (It was Fahad.) she replied, sucking in a breath."Fahad?" Hajiya Salma gasped. "Najmah are you in your right senses? How dare he come to see you? You refuse to give your husband a listening ear yet you have the time to talk to your ex? Has he no shame? He dares to come to my house to speak to you knowing that you're still married?""
Walking around the hospital hallways, Najmah felt a bit nostalgic as memories of the last six years of her life in there came rushing back. She had just came out of her therapist's office, where she had terminated her therapy sessions for good.She knew it was a bit reckless on her part and a risk concerning her emotional instability, but it was a necessary risk she had to take. While her sessions had helped improve her condition, she knew that the fate of her recovery laid in her hands. She was able to fall in love with Aslan, that was a definite progress.While she thought she might no longer need her therapist, she had asked the woman to write a new prescription for her just in case of emergencies.Terminating her therapy sessions was a long time coming, and she could now address other issues with a clear mind now that it was off the plate.She had made up her mind to give him a second chance, after all
Aslan scrubbed a hand over his face after his Zuhr prayer, wiping away the tears on his face. He had cried his woes to Allah during his sujood and after his salah, he felt better.Since childhood, Anne had always thought them to put trust in Allah whenever they made du'a and to have faith that things would work out well and so he did, every day and every night for the last three months she had been away from him.He could still feel the pain, the agony and turmoil raging within him like wildfire; nothing he had done was able to calm the fire, and he knew that only she had the ability to do so and yet, she kept on denying both of them the solace they needed. And now, she was willing to give it to someone other than him; she was willing to find it somewhere else.He knew that she could be a handful sometimes when he annoyed her or when he said something that triggered her emotions but the look she gave him when he kissed her