I could feel her withdrawing. Her aura was stronger but we’d still lost a child the previous night. It didn’t matter how far along she’d been, she’d still been pregnant and I’d still been blind to it. I should’ve noticed sooner that she wasn’t okay and done something about it.“Adara,” I said but she kept walking out of the room.I had done it, I had broken her. She had said that last part with no emotion. She had tried and I had kicked her down every time. She was finally defeated and had given in. I didn’t want her to feel like this, I didn’t want to feel like this.I went downstairs where she was busy getting bottles ready for the twins, and making coffee. I went to stand behind her and she moved away from me. I pulled her back towards me and I hugged her. She started crying again. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry for hurting you,” I said as her shoulders shook against me.“Then why are you? You wouldn’t have done what you did last night if you felt nothing,” she said as she looked at me. I l
Two weeks went by and Adara contacted references on the applicants’ resumes and made notes as she spoke to former employers. She threw out more than she kept and we were left with three. She’d done it all on her own, never once asking for my help or opinion.“Do you want to be here when I interview the nannies?” Adara asked me one morning as I came downstairs, ready to go to work. It was the first time in nine days that she’d spoken to me. I had just gotten used to her silence.“I said you could choose the nanny,” I said to her as I took my keys from the bowl. I could taste her disappointment in the air around me and I turned to look at her.“Oh wow, if that’s how interested you are…” she said and broke off mid-sentence.“Adara, do you want me to be here or not?” I asked her. I wanted her to need me, just once.“Whatever, the interviews start at three, be here, don’t be here, you’ll do whatever you want anyway,” she said and walked away from me. She didn’t seem to miss me at all and I
James didn’t blink and I sighed. I took a deep breath because he was going to have some choice words for me after I told him everything.“Okay. It’s just a matter of time before Vincent makes his move. He messed up everything I had built up with her in one message, then had me arrested, then that bogus tribunal where we all almost died. If she’s not in my life, he won’t focus on her and he won’t hurt her,” I said to James.“I get where you’re coming from, but did you tell her that so that she at least knows it’s not her that you hate, because she thinks you despise her.”I shook my head. “I don’t despise her.”“She tried to give it time, kept doing everything for you, being there, hoping you’d see the light and forgive her,” James said.“She’s stopped doing anything for me,” I said and he smiled again.“Yeah, that one’s on me. I told her to stop being nice to you because you’re being an asshole and now you tell me that you’re not even mad at her? How are you going to make it right wit
I parked my car in the garage and with a sigh headed inside the house. Adara planned to hold the interviews in the drawing room that she’d redecorated. It felt almost like a lifetime ago but I could still smell James and Shoran’s blood in that room.It held so many memories and even with the new flooring, furniture and bureaus in there, I couldn’t seem not to remember what had happened in there. I’d never forget that image of them both, covered in blood, lying on the floor.I walked into the room and Adara looked up briefly. Vases with fresh flowers now adorned side tables and I could see that she’d put effort into the room. Despite the room’s history, it looked inviting.“I didn’t think you would come,” she said to me.“Well, here I am,” I said and then I regretted it. It sounded very uncaring.She only nodded and walked back to the kitchen and I heard the doorbell. The first woman was here. I turned my emotions back on so I could really get a feel for these women that would look aft
“Hi, please sit down,” I said as I walked to where Adara sat on the couch and sat down next to her.“This is Madison and this is my husband, Kiran,” Adara introduced us. The girl was shy and barely looked at me, younger than us and she had probably just finished school.“Please tell us more about yourself,” Adara said to her. She wasn’t friendly but not rude either, just sort of neutral.“I’m busy doing my degree in child psychology and I really love children. I think children should learn as they play, different types of stimulation for different age brackets are very important. They should know they’re special and loved…” She continued talking but I wasn’t listening anymore.Her aura was very peculiar, this girl was shy but not by nature, she seemed confident enough when talking about what she wanted from life and her eyes lit up when she talked about children, all good aspects but something else was there, something painful. She seemed to be more on the docile side and it made me c
I put the papers back in the envelope and put them in the bottom drawer of my desk. I stood up and walked out to the kitchen where Adara stood in front of the kettle. She was just standing there and I wanted to wrap myself around her.“You should hire Norah,” I said to her and she nodded. “To live in, so that you’re not alone with them at night.” I couldn’t give her a better explanation than that. She turned around and looked at me.“Where are you going?” she asked me. She had been crying again, lately it seemed to be all she was doing. I was the cause of all her pain, all her inner turmoil and I needed to stop hurting her.“To the hotel,” I said and went upstairs. I was busy packing when she stood at the door but didn’t come in.“She looked like Sarah, didn’t she?” she asked me and I looked at her. “Madison.”“Yes,” I said and continued packing. When she’d walked into that drawing room, time had stood still and it felt like I’d been dreaming. Even her voice had sounded like Sarah’s v
I kept my phone turned off and if James or Malachi phoned me, they would think Adara and I were still busy sorting through our problems. I doubted that they would call, they wanted us to work our problems out too much.“Good morning,” a young girl greeted me as I walked into the dining room and I sat down at a table. “Good morning,” I said and ordered breakfast and coffee. It was going to be a long day and I had no idea what was waiting for me. I ate breakfast and I asked for a large orange juice I could take with me.“I hope you’re here on holiday,” Bryan said as he sat down in the chair at the other end of the table.“Bryan. Why am I not even surprised?” I said as I smiled at him and we shook hands. The waitress brought two more coffees to the table as I glanced at Bryan who had to have ordered them.“How did you find me?” I asked him.“Our amulets are still linked and you brought your cloak,” he said with a smile.“Like I told you, I never leave home without it.” He chuckled as I
We stayed in the restaurant all through the lunch rush hour, talking about life and Bryan had only shook his head at me when I told him what I’d done with Adara. He told me to my face that I was an idiot and then laughed at me.“I should confess something to you, Kiran,” Bryan said as he looked at me.“What?” I asked him because the look on his face was serious.“I sent Norah to you, for protection.” he looked at me, uncertainty in his eyes.“A human for protection?” I laughed at him as he frowned at me.“Norah’s my sister,” he said and I coughed as I choked on the beer I had just swallowed from.“How did she get through my circle?” I asked him.“I thought you knew,” Bryan said to me.“Knew what?” I asked him.“The circle broke the night you died. When you enter any part of Helheim, you die and Death decides if you come back or not. It depends on the strength of your character, the purity and the desire to live,” Bryan said to me.“I didn’t know that I had died, so every time I use th
“I would appreciate it if you could at least put your own cup away, I’m not your maid,” Adara said to me irritably as I came down the hall from the study to the kitchen. “Yeah, I was up early, sorry,” I said and smiled at her.“And not walk around half naked,” she added irritably.“Sorry,” I said to her again but she didn’t acknowledge me. I sat down at the counter where she stood on the other side looking at her laptop. She still had to feel at least something if it bothered her to see me with no shirt on. I kept on looking at her until she looked up and sighed.“I’m sorry,” I said to her. Her eyes never made contact with mine and I might as well have been invisible.She closed her laptop and looked at me briefly, then she turned around and walked to her car. I sighed. Progress was slow but I smiled, today she had looked at me, perhaps in a week she’d start talking to me.We kept up this cat and mouse game for the next two weeks until she had to talk to me. We had just finished dinn
I sat looking at James for a few moments before I answered him. He was important to me but with an Alpha Beta relationship it was like a slap in the face and me saying that I didn’t trust his abilities to have my back.“I know but I could never do that to you. Don’t you see? I love you like a brother and you just started your own family. How could I in good conscience take you away from that?” I asked him and he nodded his head in understanding.“Okay, I get that part and thank you for that, because I actually do want to live long enough to see them grow up and get married and all that stuff that I didn’t have with Garrick,” he said to me. “Why didn’t you tell Malachi at least, he’s your dad, Kiran, there’s nothing he wouldn’t do for you,” he added.“Exactly, the last time he took a bullet for me in the neck, a bullet meant to kill me and he took it,” I said to him.“Isn’t that his choice to make?” James asked me as he emptied his glass and refilled it.“No, I won’t let anyone choose
Adara returned home just before dinner, much later than she normally did and I wondered if it was to avoid me or because of her plus one. It hurt to think of that plus one but it was my own fault. I had pushed her away, again and again.I was an idiot, but I had set out to do one thing and I had done it. I wasn’t sorry that I’d lied about going to Florida. Vincent had been my problem, not theirs, and I’d rather be damned than endanger her.She hadn’t talked to me when she got home and we all sat at the table in the kitchen eating dinner. It seemed to be the new routine for the twins. They ate dinner with us at the table, Norah feeding Saga and Adara feeding Kai while they ate in between. I sat at the head of the table, in my own seclusion as they sat at the other end, away from me.“Thanks Norah, I’ll be up just now to put Kai to sleep, you can take Saga tonight,” Adara said to her with a smile as Norah took both babies up to their room. She turned to look at me and her smile disappea
Malachi found Kiran in his study, sitting in his chair, looking out through the window. He turned around when Malachi closed the door behind him and he sighed. Kiran looked exhausted, still a little pale and so sad that some of his anger dissipated.“I made a choice, Dad,” Kiran said.“Yes, Kiran. It was a choice you made and now you have to live with the consequences of your choices,” Malachi said.“Just let it all out, Dad,” Kiran said.“You lied to me. You went off on your own to kill Vincent! What if something had gone wrong? You just decide to do these things and you come home and you die while I stand there listening to your heart stop!” Malachi’s voice had grown louder as he spoke.“I’m sorry.”“Sorry isn’t good enough! You can’t just rush off whenever you feel like it! What if you hadn’t come back?” Malachi’s hands gripped the visitor seat in front of him.Kiran stood up as anger burned in his own eyes. “But I did come back! I killed him and it’s over now!”“This time, yes, wh
Malachi was quiet as he drove back to Jessica’s house. He slammed his hand against the steering wheel as anger started building up in him. They were in the dark garage, still sitting in the car and he could feel Jessica’s gaze on him. His anger was directed at Kiran, at his recklessness and the fear that had gripped him, thinking that he was losing him.Her emotions were all over the place, as was his. He was frustrated with Kiran. He loved him most in this world but Kiran was also infuriating and he struggled to deal with it, mainly because he kept placing himself in danger and the thought of losing him was one Malachi wasn’t ready to face.“He only did what he thought was right,” Jessica said softly.“Don’t try and justify his actions to me,” Malachi said angrily. He didn’t like the anger in his voice but he had to let it out somehow.“I’m not. I’m just telling you how it is,” she said as they both got out of the car and Malachi slammed the side door shut behind him.“It’s not just
It felt like another eternity before I came back to my senses and grabbed my chest. There was no wound, no blood and I could feel my heart still beating. Anger spread through my veins and I glared at Death as I got to my feet once again.“I didn’t kill him with magic!” I screamed and he wagged his finger at me as he smiled.“Oh, but you did, Kiran, his heart was still beating when you set it alight!” He laughed as he looked at me and the realization registered in my eyes that he wasn’t lying. He alternated between letting me burn and leaving me alone to recover from the pain deep inside to ripping my chest open, over and over again.I couldn’t take much more of this and I wanted it to end. He finally came back and watched me as I lay on the ground, breathing hard as I stopped burning. My mind was playing tricks on me, making me hear Adara’s voice, feeling her anguish but that couldn’t be right. I was in the realm of death and she wasn’t.“We should really stop meeting like this,” he s
I looked around at the now familiar darkness around me. Death would appear soon with the witch that I had burned. I would have to endure the pain of her soul burning and bargain with Death to give me life. I sighed. The last time he had me here for two days though it had felt like an eternity. I wasn’t looking forward to the soul burning part, it was a pain I couldn’t describe even if I wanted to.“Kiran, what a lovely surprise!” Death said as he appeared and walked closer to me.“I’m sure,” I said to him and crossed my arms over my chest.Death laughed at me. “You might have me believe that you want to die.”“I don’t want to die,” I said to him. I was sure that mere words wouldn’t convince him but with Death you could never be sure. The man was a bastard.“You keep on coming back so frequently that I might have to disagree with you,” he looked at me quizzically. “Sit.” A chair appeared and I sat down. It wasn’t like I had much of a choice and not pissing him off right off the bat see
“That spell only took him to his knees, he killed Vincent after that using more magic to pin him down, and then he… then he…” Bryan said.“Then he what?” Malachi shouted as Bryan kept looking down. Malachi didn’t like the fact that Bryan looked afraid. Malachi had never thought he would see the man afraid of anything, but he was now. “He ripped Vincent’s chest open with his hands and ripped his heart out, he burned his heart, smiling as he watched it burn,” Bryan said finally and Malachi looked shocked.“Kiran’s not sadistic,” he said as he stared at Bryan. There had to be some mistake. This was not his son. “He was, Malachi. He was different, magic is changing him and if he doesn’t stop using this kind of magic, he’ll kill himself. You only get so many chances in Helheim,” Bryan said and Malachi glared at him.“What are you talking about? Is he dying?” Malachi asked him, his hands shaking. He turned to look at Jessica but she lowered her gaze to the floor. She wasn’t going to be th
I could feel my body shifting towards the darkness. I was exhausted and strangely enough, also hungry. I couldn’t eat though. Vincent’s blood filled my nostrils and I kept swallowing down my own bile.It was an odd cycle to be caught in. Never before had I experienced it like I did now. It was like something else had a hold of my soul, tearing, pulling, and pushing at the same time. Everything felt fuzzy.Bryan kept forcing me to drink water to keep myself hydrated. My mind felt alert but my body was threatening to give in. I was convinced it was the magic doing this to me. I could vaguely hear Death in the back of my mind and I groaned.Bryan kept me awake and talking for nine hours straight until we landed in Anchorage. I handed him my keys. I was in no condition to drive. I made it to the car and got in the passenger seat and struggled with the safety belt. I was sweating and shivering as Bryan drove out of the airport towards Seward.I felt my eyes close involuntarily and Bryan sh