I sat in the kitchen for hours, playing our conversation over and over in my head. She was going through something and for the first time, she didn’t want to share her concerns with me. It was my own fault though and I wanted to be mad at her. I wanted to share her concerns but she was right, it wasn’t my business anymore, except that it was, it always would be.I loved her more than I loved myself, everything about her that pissed me off now were things I loved about her. Frustration was getting the better of me because patience was not a virtue I had. I wanted Vincent dead but he was stubbornly staying away.Upstairs, I stopped in front of the nursery and checked on Kai and Saga. They always seemed so at peace when they were asleep, that also calmed me. I breathed in their baby scent and headed to my own bedroom to sleep.I woke up with a start, my heart beating wildly and I tasted bile in my mouth. I ran to the bathroom and threw up as everything came up. The last time this had hap
I could feel her withdrawing. Her aura was stronger but we’d still lost a child the previous night. It didn’t matter how far along she’d been, she’d still been pregnant and I’d still been blind to it. I should’ve noticed sooner that she wasn’t okay and done something about it.“Adara,” I said but she kept walking out of the room.I had done it, I had broken her. She had said that last part with no emotion. She had tried and I had kicked her down every time. She was finally defeated and had given in. I didn’t want her to feel like this, I didn’t want to feel like this.I went downstairs where she was busy getting bottles ready for the twins, and making coffee. I went to stand behind her and she moved away from me. I pulled her back towards me and I hugged her. She started crying again. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry for hurting you,” I said as her shoulders shook against me.“Then why are you? You wouldn’t have done what you did last night if you felt nothing,” she said as she looked at me. I l
Two weeks went by and Adara contacted references on the applicants’ resumes and made notes as she spoke to former employers. She threw out more than she kept and we were left with three. She’d done it all on her own, never once asking for my help or opinion.“Do you want to be here when I interview the nannies?” Adara asked me one morning as I came downstairs, ready to go to work. It was the first time in nine days that she’d spoken to me. I had just gotten used to her silence.“I said you could choose the nanny,” I said to her as I took my keys from the bowl. I could taste her disappointment in the air around me and I turned to look at her.“Oh wow, if that’s how interested you are…” she said and broke off mid-sentence.“Adara, do you want me to be here or not?” I asked her. I wanted her to need me, just once.“Whatever, the interviews start at three, be here, don’t be here, you’ll do whatever you want anyway,” she said and walked away from me. She didn’t seem to miss me at all and I
James didn’t blink and I sighed. I took a deep breath because he was going to have some choice words for me after I told him everything.“Okay. It’s just a matter of time before Vincent makes his move. He messed up everything I had built up with her in one message, then had me arrested, then that bogus tribunal where we all almost died. If she’s not in my life, he won’t focus on her and he won’t hurt her,” I said to James.“I get where you’re coming from, but did you tell her that so that she at least knows it’s not her that you hate, because she thinks you despise her.”I shook my head. “I don’t despise her.”“She tried to give it time, kept doing everything for you, being there, hoping you’d see the light and forgive her,” James said.“She’s stopped doing anything for me,” I said and he smiled again.“Yeah, that one’s on me. I told her to stop being nice to you because you’re being an asshole and now you tell me that you’re not even mad at her? How are you going to make it right wit
I parked my car in the garage and with a sigh headed inside the house. Adara planned to hold the interviews in the drawing room that she’d redecorated. It felt almost like a lifetime ago but I could still smell James and Shoran’s blood in that room.It held so many memories and even with the new flooring, furniture and bureaus in there, I couldn’t seem not to remember what had happened in there. I’d never forget that image of them both, covered in blood, lying on the floor.I walked into the room and Adara looked up briefly. Vases with fresh flowers now adorned side tables and I could see that she’d put effort into the room. Despite the room’s history, it looked inviting.“I didn’t think you would come,” she said to me.“Well, here I am,” I said and then I regretted it. It sounded very uncaring.She only nodded and walked back to the kitchen and I heard the doorbell. The first woman was here. I turned my emotions back on so I could really get a feel for these women that would look aft
“Hi, please sit down,” I said as I walked to where Adara sat on the couch and sat down next to her.“This is Madison and this is my husband, Kiran,” Adara introduced us. The girl was shy and barely looked at me, younger than us and she had probably just finished school.“Please tell us more about yourself,” Adara said to her. She wasn’t friendly but not rude either, just sort of neutral.“I’m busy doing my degree in child psychology and I really love children. I think children should learn as they play, different types of stimulation for different age brackets are very important. They should know they’re special and loved…” She continued talking but I wasn’t listening anymore.Her aura was very peculiar, this girl was shy but not by nature, she seemed confident enough when talking about what she wanted from life and her eyes lit up when she talked about children, all good aspects but something else was there, something painful. She seemed to be more on the docile side and it made me c
I put the papers back in the envelope and put them in the bottom drawer of my desk. I stood up and walked out to the kitchen where Adara stood in front of the kettle. She was just standing there and I wanted to wrap myself around her.“You should hire Norah,” I said to her and she nodded. “To live in, so that you’re not alone with them at night.” I couldn’t give her a better explanation than that. She turned around and looked at me.“Where are you going?” she asked me. She had been crying again, lately it seemed to be all she was doing. I was the cause of all her pain, all her inner turmoil and I needed to stop hurting her.“To the hotel,” I said and went upstairs. I was busy packing when she stood at the door but didn’t come in.“She looked like Sarah, didn’t she?” she asked me and I looked at her. “Madison.”“Yes,” I said and continued packing. When she’d walked into that drawing room, time had stood still and it felt like I’d been dreaming. Even her voice had sounded like Sarah’s v
I kept my phone turned off and if James or Malachi phoned me, they would think Adara and I were still busy sorting through our problems. I doubted that they would call, they wanted us to work our problems out too much.“Good morning,” a young girl greeted me as I walked into the dining room and I sat down at a table. “Good morning,” I said and ordered breakfast and coffee. It was going to be a long day and I had no idea what was waiting for me. I ate breakfast and I asked for a large orange juice I could take with me.“I hope you’re here on holiday,” Bryan said as he sat down in the chair at the other end of the table.“Bryan. Why am I not even surprised?” I said as I smiled at him and we shook hands. The waitress brought two more coffees to the table as I glanced at Bryan who had to have ordered them.“How did you find me?” I asked him.“Our amulets are still linked and you brought your cloak,” he said with a smile.“Like I told you, I never leave home without it.” He chuckled as I
An hour later I said goodbye to Malachi and Jessica as the room began to empty and people started leaving. Adara had left a while ago with a giggling, tipsy Caitlyn in tow.“You’re not mad at me?” I asked Malachi and he smiled.“That was different somehow, you looked in control of it,” he said to me as we hugged.I walked into the night air to my car. I drove home slower than I normally would and pulled into the garage. The house was quiet and dark and I went upstairs. I stopped in front of Adara’s door and sighed, it was closed.I opened my door and she was there, sleeping where she always slept in our bed. I took off my jacket and shirt, kicked off my shoes and then my pants. I sat down on the bed and took my socks off and I climbed into bed slowly as I moved closer and lay behind her.She took my hand and I put my arm around her. “I don’t want a divorce,” she said softly and I hugged her closer.“Neither do I.”“I didn’t realize it fully before tonight,” she said.“What made you ch
Malachi and Jessica made their way to the dance floor as they danced together. I gave it two minutes and then stood up. This was where I gave my blessing by cutting in and dancing with the new bride. Malachi had done this at my wedding and it felt odd that I now had to do it at his.I tapped him on the shoulder and Jessica looked at me. “Seriously,” she said to me as I started to dance with her as Malachi watched.“Get used to it Jessica, this is wolf tradition, the Alpha always cuts in. It shows the pack that you’ve been accepted by me and that you have my blessing. Without it the pack won’t accept you, even married to Malachi,” I said to her and she looked at me, narrowing her eyes.“Don’t,” I said to her and we started laughing. “Welcome to the family, Jess, keep him on his toes.” Jessica’s smile was one of pure happiness.“Oh I intend to,” she said. “Do you want me to tie Lauren up and put her in the closet?” I huffed out a laugh.“It’s okay, I’m pretty sure she’ll stay away from
Malachi and Jessica walked around the corner and I was speechless. She was absolutely beautiful. “Wow Jess, you look perfect.”She rolled her eyes at me but smiled. “Dude, I know, but thanks, you don’t look so bad yourself.” I laughed and hugged Malachi tightly as he slapped me on the back. I signaled for the music to begin as I turned towards the door.Lauren took my arm as the music began and she leaned in close against me. I pushed her away by slightly lifting my elbow so she couldn’t walk that close to me. I felt Adara watching me as I walked up the steps with her and walked across the raised dais and took my position on the other side.Jessica and Malachi started walking down the aisle holding hands when Jessica suddenly stopped. “Screw it,” she said and kicked her shoes off. She left them in the aisle and saw Carl looking at them.“Hey Susan!” she said loudly as his face turned red and continued barefoot until they stood in front of Richard who was officiating the wedding. You c
I headed downstairs again with plenty of time to spare and walked down the hallway towards where James and Shoran were standing by the doors that led to the conference room we were using for the ceremony.Jessica had kept it simple but beautiful. The tables stood on either side of the make-shift aisle and we had erected a small stage for the ceremony with about five steps leading up to it. Her colors were emerald green and silver. They blended together well and I could see Jessica in every choice she’d made. The whole setting suited Malachi as well and I knew they would make it forever.Shoran bowed her head at me, but her eyes were angry when I finally reached them. I hadn’t missed it and inwardly I smiled. Shoran was loyal and I would never call her out for it. Adara was her best friend.“Shoran,” I said as I nodded my head at her and James laughed.“Stop it, he’s trying,” he said to her. She opened her mouth to say something but then closed it again.“No, say what you want to say,”
I parked in my spot in the hotel parking lot and looked at all the cars that had already filled it. A lot of Jessica’s guests were booking in that morning, and the reception area was bustling with people. I walked over to James as he greeted guests with a smile and directed them where to go.“Malachi said he wants to see you as soon as you arrive,” James said to me. He had a clipboard in his hands and I could see that most of the guests had already arrived. We were at full capacity that weekend.“Good morning to you too. I see we’re starting the day off right,” I said with a smile.“Oh yeah, it’s just awesome.” James grinned and I left him to carry on. Malachi wanted to see me and I wondered briefly if something had happened. Everything was done, the guests were there, the food was there, the flowers and cake had arrived, everything had gone off without a hitch.I took the elevator up to my office, feeling better than I had a week earlier. Adara had spoken to me, she’d touched me and
“Do you want me to climb on your back?” he asked me and I nodded my head. He pulled at my fur as he struggled to climb on but he managed and I stood up. ‘Where are your parents, kid?’ I wondered to myself as I started walking slowly forward.“My name’s Aaron and I’m going to call you Rex!” he said and I shook my head.“What about Super Wolf?” he asked me and again I shook my head as we walked through the forest. I was heading towards the lagoon where I heard distant music.“Okay, how about Chief because you’re really big and you’re a hero!” he said and I thought, ‘what the hell’, so I nodded and he hugged me from behind around my neck. I walked around the cabins that were situated just beyond the Second Lake and kept walking.He was telling me about his dog, whose name was Rex, and his school, his friends and how a wolf was now his favourite animal. I kept walking and I saw the distant flashing lights, red and blue. I felt relieved that maybe they realized he was missing and they were
It was 3 a.m. and I couldn’t sleep, I had been rolling around in my bed all night. I had left Adara and Caitlyn in the living room where they’d been talking. Adara was a little bit nicer to me with Caitlyn in the house and I wondered how long that would last once she left again.I got up and went downstairs and put the kettle on for coffee. I took my coffee to the study and put the laptop on. I opened my email and I started typing. It sounded cliché as I reread it but that was the truth.“Adara,I could say I’m sorry a thousand times and still it wouldn’t be enough to undo the hurt I caused you. To say that I regret it would probably be a good place to start, but there are some of my choices that I don’t regret. I regret lying to you and hurting you, but I truly believed at the time that I was doing the right thing for everyone.I needed to know that he wouldn’t come after you or the kids, because you are my weakness and I could put my emotions off and be able to live without you, but
After lunch, Malachi drove back to Jessica’s office to drop her off at work. He parked in the parking lot and turned towards Jessica. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”“I won’t be the one in white,” she said and Malachi smiled.“I don’t care.” Jessica leaned forward and kissed him. “I love you, Jess.”“I love you too, old guy.” With that Jessica got out of the car and didn’t look back once as she crossed the street and disappeared inside her office.Malachi drove to his own office and finished up with the last of his cases before the wedding and then he’d be on honeymoon with Jessica for four weeks and he’d given Lynne off for those four weeks as well. For the first time in twenty odd years, Malachi’s office would be closed for business.“Yes,” Malachi said at the knock on his door.The door opened and Lynne walked inside. “Mr Sinclair?”“Yes, Lynne?”“I wanted to say congratulations for tomorrow,” she said and placed a wrapped box on Malachi’s desk.“Thank you, Lynne, but this really wasn’t n
Jessica clasped her hands together on the table, her eyes twinkled for just a second as she took a sip of her drink before locking her gaze on Caitlyn once more. Malachi had a smile he was trying to hide and I knew it was coming.“Well, aren’t your legs just like a McDonald’s,” Jessica said as she stared at Caitlyn.I choked on my drink from laughing and trying to swallow at the same time as James laid his head down on his arms and laughed. Adara nudged me in the ribs and it was the first time she’d touched me in weeks. That one touch gave me hope, even though I was laughing obscenely loudly.“What?” Caitlyn asked, frowning in her confusion. “Is that a fat joke?”James laughed louder and I couldn’t control myself anymore either. Jessica’s face remained impassive as she looked at Caitlyn. I could see Malachi was fighting the urge to laugh as well.“I can’t decide which one you’d like to jump first though,” Jessica said and Caitlyn blushed.James’s face was red and he pulled on my sleev