I sat looking at James for a few moments before I answered him. He was important to me but with an Alpha Beta relationship it was like a slap in the face and me saying that I didn’t trust his abilities to have my back.“I know but I could never do that to you. Don’t you see? I love you like a brother and you just started your own family. How could I in good conscience take you away from that?” I asked him and he nodded his head in understanding.“Okay, I get that part and thank you for that, because I actually do want to live long enough to see them grow up and get married and all that stuff that I didn’t have with Garrick,” he said to me. “Why didn’t you tell Malachi at least, he’s your dad, Kiran, there’s nothing he wouldn’t do for you,” he added.“Exactly, the last time he took a bullet for me in the neck, a bullet meant to kill me and he took it,” I said to him.“Isn’t that his choice to make?” James asked me as he emptied his glass and refilled it.“No, I won’t let anyone choose
“I would appreciate it if you could at least put your own cup away, I’m not your maid,” Adara said to me irritably as I came down the hall from the study to the kitchen. “Yeah, I was up early, sorry,” I said and smiled at her.“And not walk around half naked,” she added irritably.“Sorry,” I said to her again but she didn’t acknowledge me. I sat down at the counter where she stood on the other side looking at her laptop. She still had to feel at least something if it bothered her to see me with no shirt on. I kept on looking at her until she looked up and sighed.“I’m sorry,” I said to her. Her eyes never made contact with mine and I might as well have been invisible.She closed her laptop and looked at me briefly, then she turned around and walked to her car. I sighed. Progress was slow but I smiled, today she had looked at me, perhaps in a week she’d start talking to me.We kept up this cat and mouse game for the next two weeks until she had to talk to me. We had just finished dinn
I walked up the dirt road and took my shirt off to wipe the sweat from my face and I saw the car parked in the driveway. I stood looking at the rental and tried to decipher what type of man rented a flashy convertible. I tucked the end of my shirt into my waistband and walked inside, Adara’s plus one was here. I took a deep breath. I didn’t know how I was going to walk into my own house and face this other man, a man that probably already had feelings for my wife. ‘Be calm, don’t be yourself,’ I said to myself as I entered the kitchen.I stopped in my tracks and almost laughed out loud. I could hear them talking in the kitchen. Adara’s plus one was Caitlyn. I knew what I was about to do wouldn’t win me any points with Adara, but I couldn’t help it. I walked to the fridge and took out a bottle of water.I could feel them looking at me as I stood there and emptied the bottle and threw it in the trash. Adara would be annoyed because I didn’t have a shirt on and Caitlyn, well, Caitlyn w
“He’s in a good mood,” Caitlyn said as she looked around the office. I almost snorted out loud but composed my features in time. James was an asshole for letting me suffer through this alone. Some Beta he was.“How can I help you ladies?” I looked quizzically at Adara and she shrugged. She wanted to be in my office as much as I wanted to be back in the realm of death. She obviously hadn’t told Caitlyn about the problems we’d been having and I would use that to my advantage.“We thought we’d take you to lunch,” Adara said and I sat back and smiled. “But if you’re too busy we understand,” she added quickly.“I’m never too busy for you,” I said and looked Adara in the eye.I smiled at her as Caitlyn got that “aww” look on her face and I knew if she could, she would roll her eyes at me, probably strangle me. I stood up from behind my desk and grabbed my phone. I opened the door for them and led them to the elevators.“You should invite James to join us,” Adara said and I smiled. There was
Jessica clasped her hands together on the table, her eyes twinkled for just a second as she took a sip of her drink before locking her gaze on Caitlyn once more. Malachi had a smile he was trying to hide and I knew it was coming.“Well, aren’t your legs just like a McDonald’s,” Jessica said as she stared at Caitlyn.I choked on my drink from laughing and trying to swallow at the same time as James laid his head down on his arms and laughed. Adara nudged me in the ribs and it was the first time she’d touched me in weeks. That one touch gave me hope, even though I was laughing obscenely loudly.“What?” Caitlyn asked, frowning in her confusion. “Is that a fat joke?”James laughed louder and I couldn’t control myself anymore either. Jessica’s face remained impassive as she looked at Caitlyn. I could see Malachi was fighting the urge to laugh as well.“I can’t decide which one you’d like to jump first though,” Jessica said and Caitlyn blushed.James’s face was red and he pulled on my sleev
After lunch, Malachi drove back to Jessica’s office to drop her off at work. He parked in the parking lot and turned towards Jessica. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”“I won’t be the one in white,” she said and Malachi smiled.“I don’t care.” Jessica leaned forward and kissed him. “I love you, Jess.”“I love you too, old guy.” With that Jessica got out of the car and didn’t look back once as she crossed the street and disappeared inside her office.Malachi drove to his own office and finished up with the last of his cases before the wedding and then he’d be on honeymoon with Jessica for four weeks and he’d given Lynne off for those four weeks as well. For the first time in twenty odd years, Malachi’s office would be closed for business.“Yes,” Malachi said at the knock on his door.The door opened and Lynne walked inside. “Mr Sinclair?”“Yes, Lynne?”“I wanted to say congratulations for tomorrow,” she said and placed a wrapped box on Malachi’s desk.“Thank you, Lynne, but this really wasn’t n
It was 3 a.m. and I couldn’t sleep, I had been rolling around in my bed all night. I had left Adara and Caitlyn in the living room where they’d been talking. Adara was a little bit nicer to me with Caitlyn in the house and I wondered how long that would last once she left again.I got up and went downstairs and put the kettle on for coffee. I took my coffee to the study and put the laptop on. I opened my email and I started typing. It sounded cliché as I reread it but that was the truth.“Adara,I could say I’m sorry a thousand times and still it wouldn’t be enough to undo the hurt I caused you. To say that I regret it would probably be a good place to start, but there are some of my choices that I don’t regret. I regret lying to you and hurting you, but I truly believed at the time that I was doing the right thing for everyone.I needed to know that he wouldn’t come after you or the kids, because you are my weakness and I could put my emotions off and be able to live without you, but
“Do you want me to climb on your back?” he asked me and I nodded my head. He pulled at my fur as he struggled to climb on but he managed and I stood up. ‘Where are your parents, kid?’ I wondered to myself as I started walking slowly forward.“My name’s Aaron and I’m going to call you Rex!” he said and I shook my head.“What about Super Wolf?” he asked me and again I shook my head as we walked through the forest. I was heading towards the lagoon where I heard distant music.“Okay, how about Chief because you’re really big and you’re a hero!” he said and I thought, ‘what the hell’, so I nodded and he hugged me from behind around my neck. I walked around the cabins that were situated just beyond the Second Lake and kept walking.He was telling me about his dog, whose name was Rex, and his school, his friends and how a wolf was now his favourite animal. I kept walking and I saw the distant flashing lights, red and blue. I felt relieved that maybe they realized he was missing and they were
Adara sat in the study and looked at Kiran’s laptop. It was four weeks later and she hadn’t had the heart to go into his study before now. She opened the laptop and the screen came alive. She looked at the numerous folders on the screen and started to cry.That day had been the absolute worst day in her life, by far. She felt helpless and so alone, although the house was never empty. Malachi and Jessica had basically moved into his old bedroom.James was there every day and she could see that it was taking its toll on him, between his twins, the hotel, and their house, he was overdoing it. She would have to ask Malachi to speak to him and tell him to stop coming over.Kiran had closed Karani’s chest that afternoon before he went to the clearing and Jessica had tried to open it, but it wouldn’t budge. She finally admitted defeat and told Adara that only Kiran could open it. She had hoped to find something in there to explain what had happened to him.She started going through his folde
Some days Death showed me my children, other days he let me burn for hours on end. On rare occasions I was with Adara or Malachi or James. He wanted me to witness their grief and their pain and feel it deep in my soul. It was the worst punishment I’d ever suffered through.He took such pleasure in my pain that I stopped reacting to whatever they felt and turned my emotions off. He let me burn extra-long when I did that and I don’t know what hurt more, their pain or mine. I felt numb to it all, even their emotions because I was beginning to feel like I had when I’d taken Malachi’s pain, before going to Wolf Peak. I felt weak.Finally one day he let me sit down and said we should talk, man to man, and I laughed at him. I had clearly lost my mind and I had no idea how long I’d been there with him because there was no measure of time. There was only pain.“You’re not a man,” I said to him and he looked hurt.“Don’t be so mean, here I can be whatever I want,” he said and I just looked at h
“Adara,” I said as I felt the darkness surrounding me.I opened my eyes and I saw Death sitting in his armchair. I was back in Helheim. I knew it was coming. I had tried to hold out as long as possible and not to use death magic, but in the end I had no choice, it was me or her. My choices hadn’t been black and white, they’d been riddled with fear and the unknown, but that was only half true. Not all of it was unknown, I’d known I would end up here again. I had made peace with it.Death sat patiently tapping his fingers against the leather of the chair. He smiled when he saw my eyes open and stood up. He was dressed in a black suit with a red handkerchief folded into his breast pocket. If this had been anyone other than Death, I would have said he looked sharp.“Oh Kiran, back again so soon,” he said to me and I stood up.“I tried, believe me, this is not where I want to be. But it was a choice between me and my family and her, I chose them,” I said to him and he stopped inches from m
She grabbed her head in pain and sank to the ground. Instantly the other witches joined and chanted with her. The pain in her head lessened as they all attacked me at once. They were very powerful together and their voices became one.I could feel my grip lessening and I left her mind. I concentrated instead on myself, on Saga, on Kai and I saw the Norns again. I had done everything they had asked, and Kai and Saga were safe at last.There was no greater gift than love and I had paid their price. I hadn’t known what that price would be in the beginning, but Death had given it away. “What is the ultimate sacrifice?”Me. I was the sacrifice, my life for their lives. I had entered this clearing knowing that I would die today and I had made my peace, to die for my children and my family. That was my sacrifice.I ignored the Norns watching me and I was back on Wolf Peak, taking the energy from all the wolves who had died there. They offered it to me freely and I focused on the twelve witch
When the first blossoms appear in the forest, that’s when they’ll come for me. It would be a Tuesday and I knew they would surround me in the clearing, the place I held dear and where I had dominated my magic.They would try to draw my magic and my life force from me and take it for themselves as revenge for Dezrael. They felt cheated by me and their anger was guiding them now, guiding them to me.‘We are stronger together in number.’ Those were Adara’s words to me once. I knew this to be the truth, but I still didn’t want any of them involved. Nobody else should die because of me.Christian’s death was the ultimate loss, and it nearly broke all of us. That was the one pain that took me back to that place on Wolf Peak where the emotions engulfed me and slowly choked the life out of me.I sensed my time was running out and that they would soon be here. I had spoken to Malachi, James, Carl, and Frank numerous times. We had gone over the plan so many times that it was embedded into our v
“I could try to exclude Carl and Frank but they’ll just interfere with my plans and therefore I’ll ask if you are willing to stand with me,” I looked at them. They both smiled and fist bumped each other.“You know our answer, Kiran, we’re with you,” Carl said and Frank agreed. You couldn’t separate those two even if you tried.“James, I want to exclude you as well,” I said to him and he turned to me.“I go where you go, you’ve excluded me too many times before but this time I refuse,” he said to me and I nodded.I knew it was useless to try and change his mind. Even Shoran had told James that he needed to be with me and I didn’t understand why she had said that. Their twins were still babies and James was a good father and he could lead the pack if something ever happened to me.“Malachi,” I said and looked at him and he stood up.“Don’t even try it. You’re my son, you should know better,” he said to me as Carl and Frank laughed.I laid out the plan to them, but only the plan at the d
James and I stood outside the den as the members arrived and their moods were relaxed. I felt bad that I was about to ruin it, but being a good Alpha meant you admitted when you were wrong, when you needed help. Most importantly, it meant you were honest with your pack, no matter what.Richard was the last member to arrive and I smiled when he bowed his head at me and nodded at James. I turned around and walked inside and the rest of the pack started taking their seats. I waited until everyone had found a seat.“Welcome members,” I said and hit the wolf gavel on the table. I stood in front of the table and James stood next to me with his arms folded across his chest. I leaned back on the table and took a deep breath.“Tonight we have two things to discuss, I won’t be calling for a vote on either subject. The decisions are final and I won’t answer any questions about vetoing the vote system,” I said to them and I saw Richard look at Malachi.“Firstly, it is with sadness that I announce
Everyone was quiet for a long time. Jessica looked worried and that made me worry. Adara looked afraid, James too. Malachi, though, he looked determined and I knew what he was thinking.“What’s your plan?” Malachi asked me and I smiled at him.“Dad ...”“I know you have a plan and don’t even think of telling us to back off and that you don’t want us involved,” he said to me.“He’s right, Kiran. You’re going to need all the help you can get, you can’t take on a whole coven by yourself,” Jessica said.“Don’t you have a coven or something,” James asked her.“Dude, seriously, don’t you know anything? A witch can’t be in a coven if she’s married to a wolf, so no, I don’t have a coven anymore,” Jessica said to him.“But you had all those witches at your wedding,” he said to her and she laughed.“Dude, I still have friends,” she said. “But friends are just friends, I can’t ask them to help here.”“Why not?” Adara asked her and I smiled at her. None of them would understand it. This wasn’t so
As Sunday lunch turned into late afternoon, we all sat in the living room. Adara, Shoran and Norah were upstairs with the kids, bathing and getting them ready to go to sleep. It was a peaceful evening with my family. Things had started to click into place for me. The dreams, Death’s message and everything else made sense now. I wanted to spend as much time with my family as I could.“Are you guys moving to Montana now?” James asked Malachi suddenly and I laughed.“Are we?” Jessica asked him, looking very worried.“Just think about it, we could buy a ranch with horses and cattle, you can have chickens and a vegetable garden, and bake bread every day,” Malachi said seriously and looked at her. I couldn’t control it anymore and burst out laughing. The look on Jessica’s face said it all.“That’s really mean, bake bread every day, like seriously, dude, I love you but there’s no chance,” Jessica said to him. Malachi laughed as he looked at me.“But Jess, just think about it. You could wake