Chapter 43 - Sky High

A week ago I was afraid of heights

I was afraid to show my feelings 

I was afraid to be alone. 

Today here I am 

I'm going round and round on a Ferris wheel and I'm not afraid. I can see the whole city from up here. 

I decided to share my feelings with Oliver and leave everything on the table. I'm hoping he will see this as me being brave and he'll fall in love with me again. 

With the being alone part, I'm still afraid. I don't know how to move in this time of singleness. I'm terribly afraid of what this means for me. I came here alone, and my friends don't want to hang out with me anymore, I could look through my phone and find a guy who's willing to be my rebound but I can't. 

I had a conversation with my mother the other day and she challenged me to stay single. 

"Marlene baby, sometimes after a very bad breakup. She started. I knew by the first breath she took that