Ryo is not better than me.
I am the ioriginal IT Girl. She's just a shy forgatable nobody.
She is not pretier than me
I am the girl who's style other girls copy. I am the one with over 10 000 followers on Instagram. I'm the girl everyone is excited to see show up at the school formal.
And she is definetely not smarter than me.
"I mean she has better grades than me but she doesn't have street smarts." I say to the silence in my car as I drive home. The realization that hit me in the bathroom stall ealier fueling my soul.
I am the one boys lust after.
I am going to make that meek little girl break up with Oliver. She's not going to know what hit her when I'm done with her. I am going to make her life such a living hell she's going to beg me to take him back.
"I just have to play my cards right." I say smilling, I finally feel like myself again. I
The next morningThe moment I open my eyes and Oliver pops into my mind. I feel energized. I have to believe that my plan is going to work. The love I have for him has to pull us through here.I reach out for my phone and open Oliver and I's text threads. I scroll through and see all of our conversations. There was so much love between us, we used to text everyday all day.He used to love updating me on his day every second. We had a stoy book love, we took care of each other. We were giddy and in love.It went bad in the end but it was beautiful in the beginning. The more I think about it, the more my heart breaks. I don't know how we let this go so bad. I know I contributed to the relationship ending but I feel like we quit too quickly.I sit up on the bed and start my text to Oliver. I am taking a leap of faith here. This has to work.Hey
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I say looking at Jameson staring at me. When I asked him to hang out I wasn't thinking of this. We haven't hung out just the two of us in a long time. I was thinking we would meet up, play a few games and have a relaxed drama free morning. I didn't want to talk about my ex. But that's all he's done since he got here. We haven't even played one board game. He just had to tell me about how freaked out he is. Marlene is making him miss sleep again. Well it's not like that but it is. I stare at him for a second wishing we were not havng this conversation. Our life is consumed by relationships and girlfriend drama lately. It's like my relationship with Ryo and everything that comes with it has taken over our entire existence. "I don't think you're hearing me." He says and I sigh. "I have a bad feeling about Marlene. You need to watch out for her." He says looking at me intently. "I feel like we've had this exact conversation before or I cou
"You look like you're deep in thought" Marlene says behind me. I look up and see a few people looking at us. We're in the library and she's talking pretty loudly. I convince myself that th's why they are staring at ud right now. I don't want to give the other thought any space right now.I turn around to look at her and she's smiling. I respond with half a smile and she winks at me. I raise my brows in surprise and she waves her hand at me."Are you okay?" She asks whispering, she sits in the chair next to me. I look around us again and people are still staring at us."I'm alright." I say pushing my chair .ack. I create space between us. She's leaning into my face and I don't feel comfortable ."Is that all I'm gonna get from you. two word sentences? Or three letters." She says looking at me for a second and then she looks away."I...uhm" I start to say and she sighs."Nevermind you don't have to exp
The sun is bright in the sky. The blue sky is spread to as far as the eye can seen. I set a up blanket for us in my parent's backyard. I was supposed to plan some grand date and go all out but I thought this would be so much more Ryo's speed.The plum tree is in full bloom, the pink flowers are so bright. Their beauty is breathtaking and I knew she would love it. I love it too. I've seen these flowers so many times and they never inspired this type of emotions in me before. Suddenly I appreciate everything a little bit more. And I can attribute this new found appreciation to the beautiful being next to me. It's like she transferred her love for nature to me.Ryo has become the light and color in my life. Her influence is beautiful.She's lying on her side serene as ever. It always boggles my mind how she can be so gorgeous doing absolutely nothing. She chose to wear a yellow floral flowy dress today. She looks like she stepped out of thos
A week ago I was afraid of heightsI was afraid to show my feelingsI was afraid to be alone.Today here I amI'm going round and round on a Ferris wheel and I'm not afraid. I can see the whole city from up here.I decided to share my feelings with Oliver and leave everything on the table. I'm hoping he will see this as me being brave and he'll fall in love with me again.With the being alone part, I'm still afraid. I don't know how to move in this time of singleness. I'm terribly afraid of what this means for me. I came here alone, and my friends don't want to hang out with me anymore, I could look through my phone and find a guy who's willing to be my rebound but I can't.I had a conversation with my mother the other day and she challenged me to stay single."Marlene baby, sometimes after a very bad breakup. She started. I knew by the first breath she took that
My mother loves carnivals. She loves getting on all of the rides. So when the carnival came to town I had to take her out. We deserve a mother-daughter date. I've been spending so much time with Oliver, I wanted to make time for her. I'm glad we came, it's a great night to get on the Ferris wheel and watch the city light up at night. And she's excited too. I'm waiting for her to come back from the bathroom so we can get on our next ride. We are going to get our money's worth tonight. We are not leaving here until we get on every ride. "Hi," Someone says behind me. My first thought is to not turn around, I'm so used to being ignored that I always think no one ever wants to talk to me. Especially in a public place like this. That said I turn around anyway. I'm curious to find out who the person is talking to. "Oh shit," I say when my eyes collide with Marlene. She's the last person I thought would be behind me right now.
How was the carnival?Patient OFive minutes later there's no reply. That's very unlike Ry. She normally replies to my texts immediately. I stare at my phone screen wondering what's going on. I open the text thread and I can see that she saw my message but she hadn't replied.I guess you're tired from all of the activityWe'll talk tomorrowI love youPatient O
10 am the next morningIt's been 7 hours since Ry and I last texted. I tried calling her multiple times multiple times but she didn't answer. I haven't left my room since. I'm frozen, I can't move. I need her to talk to me. I can't believe this is happening right now.Everything was going amazing. I hate it when we fight.I especially hate it when she gives me the silent treatment.I didn't get a wink of sleep. I really should have listened to Jameson. He warned me and I didn't take him seriously. I was so happy with Ryo that I didn't think this would happen.We were in a very good place yesterday and now we're here. I feel like I went to work and
As I head back to my room, the cozy feeling from the movie night fades, replaced by a growing sense of dread. I know Savannah won't let this slide. I try to shake off the anxiety, reminding myself that it's not a crime to talk to someone, but deep down, I know this will be more complicated than that.When I reach my dorm room, I take a deep breath, preparing for the confrontation I know is coming. Just as I turn the doorknob, I hear the unmistakable click of heels behind me. I turn slowly to see Savannah, her arms crossed and her expression as icy as ever."Marlene," she says, her voice dripping with false sweetness. "Do you have a minute?"I nod, feeling my heart rate quicken. "Sure, Savannah. What's up?"She steps closer, invading my personal space. "What do you think you’re doing with Adrian?" Her tone is low, but the threat is clear.I take a step back, trying to create some distance. "We were just watching the movie. It’s not a big deal.""Not a big deal?" Savannah repeats, her e
It's movie night and every student in the dorms is summoned to come and watch. I would rather be sleeping right now but the headmistress made it clear that we have to be here. The common room is buzzing with excitement. The lights are dimmed, and the scent of popcorn fills the air. Students are chattering as they find seats, some on the couches, others on the floor, creating a cozy, makeshift theater.I choose a quiet corner, my back against the wall and a thick blanket draped over my shoulders. I prefer this spot for its unobtrusiveness, allowing me to watch without being the center of attention. As the opening credits roll, I relaxed slightly, hoping to blend into the background.But my hopes are dashed when Adrian walks in, his presence immediately drawing the attention of the room. He scans the area, his eyes quickly finding me. With a confident stride, he makes his way towards me, carrying a bag of popcorn and two sodas."Mind if I join you?" he asks,
The first week at St. Hilda’s passes in a blur of classes and unfamiliar faces. I keep my head down, focusing on my studies and staying out of trouble. Despite Adrian’s unexpected attention, I’ve managed to remain invisible, just the way I planned.It’s Friday afternoon, and I’m sitting under a tree in the courtyard, reading a book for my literature class. The sun filters through the leaves, creating shadows on the ground. I’m finally starting to
My parents dropped me off at the school dorms a day ago and I've been layng low since. The girl's accomodations is about 5 km away from the main campus and today is the first day I''m seeing it and the other day students.The bus ride to the new boarding school feels like a journey to another planet. Trees blur past the window, the landscape changing from unfamiliar streets to unknown territories. The thought of starting over terrifies me, and I try to suppr
The sun filters through the café windows, casting a warm glow over the bustling breakfast crowd. The aroma of freshly brewed coffee and baked pastries fills the air as Oliver and I walk in, hand in hand. We spot Jameson and Kelly at a cozy corner booth, already settled with cups of steaming coffee and plates of pancakes."Look who finally decided to show up!" Jameson calls out, a wide grin spreading across his face as he waves us over.Oliver laughs, sliding into the booth next to him. "Good morning to you too, Jameson. Ready to celebrate?"Kelly pushes a plate of assorted pastries toward us, her smile warm. "Absolutely. Congratulations on the A in your English assignment. You guys really earned it.""Thanks, Kelly," I say, taking a croissant. "It feels good to see our hard work pay off."We dive into breakfast, laughter and chatter filling the air. It's moments like these that remind me of the importance of friendship, of having people who cheer for your successes and stand by you th
"Forever," I murmur, my lips still tingling from our kiss. Oliver pulls back slightly, his eyes searching mine with an intensity that makes my heart skip a beat. We both laugh, a mixture of relief and joy filling the small space of his car."I have another question," Oliver says, his voice softer now. He glances at his phone, then back at me. "What’s your biggest dream?"I pause, letting the weight of his question settle in. The sunset paints his face in warm hues, making his eyes sparkle. "My biggest dream?" I echo, pondering. "I think it’s to travel the world. To see places I’ve only read about, experience different cultures, and find inspiration in the beauty of our planet. And…" I hesitate, then smile. "To do it with you."Oliver’s face lights up, and he takes my hand, squeezing it gently. "I love that. I want that too." He looks out at the lake, then back at me. "Imagine us, years from now, looking back on this moment. Knowing we had the courage to dream big and chase those dream
"That went well," Oliver says sitting next to me in the driver's seat of his car. I nod looking at the amazing view in front of us. We found a new spot to chill and have our epic question dates. And today is a very special one. "I should say, I think she loves you more than me." He says and I laugh shaking my head disagreeing with him.She was nice to me but she will never feel that way about me."I'm glad you agreed to meet her." He says smiling at me happily."I'm honoured to have met your mother. She's incredibly kind and she's beautiful" I say and he nods in agreement."So, he says taking out his phone." He has this cheesy smile on his face. "I put together a list of questions for us." He says and I get excited. I really missed spending time with him. We had a great thing and all of the fighting and backstabbing had ruined it.But being here with him, the stupid grin on his face beaming back at me. It all
"I'm so happy to meet you." Oliver's mother says getting up to hug me. I take in her beauty, poise and style as we embrace. She looks incredible. so well put together. I don't know if I can stop staring at her. I realize I have to eventually so it doesn't turn into anything weird. I don't want her to think I'm crazy"I'm happy to meet you too," I say finally finding my voice. I'm still nervous but a little at ease because of how sweet she is. She hugs Oliver and then we sit down."I've heard wonderful things about you." She says looking at me with a huge smile on her face. I look at her with such awe. I don't think I've seen her smile before and it's incredible how much her face changes."I hope I can live up to them," I say and she chuckles a little."Oh, no. There's nothing to live up to. You're perfect." She says and I smile not really sure what to say. "So, how are you?" She asks genuinely
"Do you think this is a good idea?" I ask Oliver when he opens the car door for me. I stare into his eyes hoping he changes his mind. I know I agreed to this but now that we're here I'm not so sure. "Yes, it's a very good idea." He says offering me his hand. "Don't freak out. It's going to be great." Oliver says when he sees my face."What if she doesn't like me?" I ask closing the door. We start walking and my legs feel like jelly below me. "What if I say the wrong thing?" I say and he smiles looking back at me. "You can never say the wrong thing." He says and I groan in frustration. I'm freaking out here and he's not taking me seriously. I don't think I'm ready to meet his family, let alone his mom. I've never met a boyfriend's mom. I was never in a serious relationship where it got to this point. What am I doing here? I don't belong here. "That's a lie. I put my foot in my mouth all the time. And I don't know if I can find the right words when I'm this nervous." I say trying to