“What are you thinking right now?” Oliver asks looking at me. I sigh and he smiles. He doesn’t want to know what I’m thinking right now. I don’t want to know what I’m thinking and I’m the one having the thoughts.
We’re finally done eating and sitting a little too comfortably on the mattress. He’s sitting so close to me his feet are touching mine. I can feel every inch of his skin on my thigh and let me just say that I am not having pure thoughts. The air up here has gotten a little colder but I feel hotter than I have ever been. My whole body is heating up.
I keep trying to move away from him but he keeps coming closer. If I move another inch I’ll end up on the concrete. I guess he wants to be near me, I don’t mind having him this close but I’m afraid of what might just happen if he gets even closer.
Kelly’s words rush into my head at that thought. I need to maintain the di
“I don’t know Kelly, we had an amazing time. I can’t believe how much fun we had.” I say and Kelly smiles looking at me. We have a free period and we decided to spend the next hour in the school garden. I feel like sitting in the cool breeze and smelling the roses. The garden is like my place of Zen now, I come here a lot.“Did you really? I know you were nervous about the date.” She says looking at me as we walk into the garden. I smile at how serene it is here. It’s silent and comfortable; I always find it odd that no one comes here to chill. This place is amazing there should be more students lazing around here.But it’s empty most of the time, you might find the odd person here or there but today is one of those days no one came to enjoy it’s beauty.“I was nervous, I thought we would fight and have a terrible time.” I say frowning. “But he was just so calm, present and fun. I don&
Text conversation between Ryo and Oliver Come outside for a minute Patient O I look at my phone screen and smile. I get out of bed so fast my brain shakes in my brain. “Whoa!” I say stopping in my tracks. My heart is beating over time and I have to brace on my bed to stop from falling. I need to slow down. I can’t let this boy drive me crazy like this. I saw his text and didn’t even think twice. Here he is making me act like some love sick puppy. I want to take things slow with him but he has so much pull over me I can’t help it. “What’s wrong?” My mother asks from the hallway. I didn’t think she would hear me. “Nothing.” I say standing up right. She pokes her head through the door with a look of concern on her face. “That didn’t sound like nothing.” She says and she raises her brows at me in question. “It’s nothing big I just got up too
“There he is.” My brother Felix exclaims excitedly as I walk through the kitchen backdoor. “I haven’t seen you in a minute. It’s weird because we live in the same house.” He adds opening his arms wide, asking for a hug. I look at him sideways because that’s very weird of him to want to hug me. I can’t remember the last time he and I embraced like that.He’s standing at the stove looking at me like he doesn’t recognize me. It hasn’t really been that long has it? I close the door and walk to the stove. I’m sure I have a stunned look on my face too. I don’t know how to take this behavior. I would ask but I don’t want to make it even more awkward than it already is.“I know you’re barely home these days.” I say going in for a hug. We embrace each other awkwardly. But neither of us pulls away, I don’t know what this is but I’ll go with it.“It
It’s been 24 hours since Oliver showed up at my house and I’m still thinking about him. I saw him at school today but I stayed far away from him. We were doing that awkward thing where we don’t know what to say to each other.I know I should be in the moment, pay attention to Trevor who is sitting in front of me smiling happily. He surprised me with an after school coffee date, I appreciate him being spontaneous and all but Oliver is running circles in my brain. I can’t stop thinking about what he said.I can’t believe he’s jealous of me and Trevor. I never thought him capable of jealousy. I thought his heart was made of steal and black coal. I didn’t imagine he had normal, human emotions. Okay I’m being dramatic but you know what I mean. I didn’t think he thought of me that way.His reaction to me dating other people makes me curious, I wonder if Trevor feels the same way. I want to ask him but I don&r
“You never told me how the dinner with mom went.” I say turning onto my back so I can get more comfortable. I look up at my ceiling listen to Oliver breathing slowly on the other end of the receiver. We’ve been on the phone for the last half an hour. It seems we can talk to each other better when we’re not face to face.“It went alright. They want to meet you.” He says and I choke on my spit and start coughing. Who says something so serious so casually? Meeting someone’s parents is a big deal, he knows how I feel about this.“Are you okay?” I hear him say after a series of agonizing coughs. A lot of spit went down the wrong pipe. I wipe tears from my face and sit up. This boy is trying to be the end of me.“No I’m not okay. How can you say something like that without warning?” I say when my throat finally clears up. I almost died from my own saliva.&ldq
“You’re okay?” Ryo asks glancing at me from the driver’s. She looks so content holding that steering wheel. I can tell she loves doing these random trips. She looks so happy right now, I wish I felt the same way. I smile at her but I can feel my face fighting me. I don’t like this at all. I don’t like not having control.“Yeah. I’m okay.” I say stopping my body from moving uncomfortably in my seat. I’m lying with my mouth but my body is telling the truth. We’ve been on the road for about an hour now and I haven’t been able to calm down. I keep stopping myself from checking the GPS. I have this constant feeling of wanting to know. I want to know everything.I want to know where in the hell we’re headed. The fact that I’m not driving is not helping at all. Ryo is a great driver and I feel safe. I’m just not used to being the one in control. I hate that
“So you’re really doing this huh?” Marlene says coming to stand closely behind me. I can feel her leg touch mine and it everything in me not to move. I look at her over my shoulder and smile. “You must be desperate to get some. You look pathetic you know, following that girl around.” She says and I laugh. I look at the line in front of me and sigh. I guess I’m going to have to live through this tedious conversation.I’m in line to buy the most amazing fries in my city. I would leave her here and not have to suffer through this but I really want those fries.“What are you talking about?” I say turning around to look at her properly.“I’m talking about you and that girl.” She says looking up at me. She smiles batting her eyes at me. I stare at her waiting for the usual excitement when she looks at me like that to kick in but there’s nothing.“W
“Have you talked to you her?” Jameson asks staring at me. I place the fries on a table in front of him and shake my head. I just said I don’t know if I should call Ryo right now. I’m not brave enough to deal with her anger. I can’t imagine what she has to say after seeing me with Marlene. That was huge fuck up, why did I let her touch me like that?“I just said…” I say and he shakes his head too.“Well, you should text her or something. You can’t let this whole thing simmer. The longer you delay the more time you give her to think.” She says reaching for the fries. I watch him enjoy every bite, wishing I had the same excitement. I was looking forward to eating these but I’m not so excited anymore.“I’ll talk to her, I’m just thinking.” I say and he frowns.“Was it really that bad?” Jameson asks after a beat.“It was that
As I head back to my room, the cozy feeling from the movie night fades, replaced by a growing sense of dread. I know Savannah won't let this slide. I try to shake off the anxiety, reminding myself that it's not a crime to talk to someone, but deep down, I know this will be more complicated than that.When I reach my dorm room, I take a deep breath, preparing for the confrontation I know is coming. Just as I turn the doorknob, I hear the unmistakable click of heels behind me. I turn slowly to see Savannah, her arms crossed and her expression as icy as ever."Marlene," she says, her voice dripping with false sweetness. "Do you have a minute?"I nod, feeling my heart rate quicken. "Sure, Savannah. What's up?"She steps closer, invading my personal space. "What do you think you’re doing with Adrian?" Her tone is low, but the threat is clear.I take a step back, trying to create some distance. "We were just watching the movie. It’s not a big deal.""Not a big deal?" Savannah repeats, her e
It's movie night and every student in the dorms is summoned to come and watch. I would rather be sleeping right now but the headmistress made it clear that we have to be here. The common room is buzzing with excitement. The lights are dimmed, and the scent of popcorn fills the air. Students are chattering as they find seats, some on the couches, others on the floor, creating a cozy, makeshift theater.I choose a quiet corner, my back against the wall and a thick blanket draped over my shoulders. I prefer this spot for its unobtrusiveness, allowing me to watch without being the center of attention. As the opening credits roll, I relaxed slightly, hoping to blend into the background.But my hopes are dashed when Adrian walks in, his presence immediately drawing the attention of the room. He scans the area, his eyes quickly finding me. With a confident stride, he makes his way towards me, carrying a bag of popcorn and two sodas."Mind if I join you?" he asks,
The first week at St. Hilda’s passes in a blur of classes and unfamiliar faces. I keep my head down, focusing on my studies and staying out of trouble. Despite Adrian’s unexpected attention, I’ve managed to remain invisible, just the way I planned.It’s Friday afternoon, and I’m sitting under a tree in the courtyard, reading a book for my literature class. The sun filters through the leaves, creating shadows on the ground. I’m finally starting to
My parents dropped me off at the school dorms a day ago and I've been layng low since. The girl's accomodations is about 5 km away from the main campus and today is the first day I''m seeing it and the other day students.The bus ride to the new boarding school feels like a journey to another planet. Trees blur past the window, the landscape changing from unfamiliar streets to unknown territories. The thought of starting over terrifies me, and I try to suppr
The sun filters through the café windows, casting a warm glow over the bustling breakfast crowd. The aroma of freshly brewed coffee and baked pastries fills the air as Oliver and I walk in, hand in hand. We spot Jameson and Kelly at a cozy corner booth, already settled with cups of steaming coffee and plates of pancakes."Look who finally decided to show up!" Jameson calls out, a wide grin spreading across his face as he waves us over.Oliver laughs, sliding into the booth next to him. "Good morning to you too, Jameson. Ready to celebrate?"Kelly pushes a plate of assorted pastries toward us, her smile warm. "Absolutely. Congratulations on the A in your English assignment. You guys really earned it.""Thanks, Kelly," I say, taking a croissant. "It feels good to see our hard work pay off."We dive into breakfast, laughter and chatter filling the air. It's moments like these that remind me of the importance of friendship, of having people who cheer for your successes and stand by you th
"Forever," I murmur, my lips still tingling from our kiss. Oliver pulls back slightly, his eyes searching mine with an intensity that makes my heart skip a beat. We both laugh, a mixture of relief and joy filling the small space of his car."I have another question," Oliver says, his voice softer now. He glances at his phone, then back at me. "What’s your biggest dream?"I pause, letting the weight of his question settle in. The sunset paints his face in warm hues, making his eyes sparkle. "My biggest dream?" I echo, pondering. "I think it’s to travel the world. To see places I’ve only read about, experience different cultures, and find inspiration in the beauty of our planet. And…" I hesitate, then smile. "To do it with you."Oliver’s face lights up, and he takes my hand, squeezing it gently. "I love that. I want that too." He looks out at the lake, then back at me. "Imagine us, years from now, looking back on this moment. Knowing we had the courage to dream big and chase those dream
"That went well," Oliver says sitting next to me in the driver's seat of his car. I nod looking at the amazing view in front of us. We found a new spot to chill and have our epic question dates. And today is a very special one. "I should say, I think she loves you more than me." He says and I laugh shaking my head disagreeing with him.She was nice to me but she will never feel that way about me."I'm glad you agreed to meet her." He says smiling at me happily."I'm honoured to have met your mother. She's incredibly kind and she's beautiful" I say and he nods in agreement."So, he says taking out his phone." He has this cheesy smile on his face. "I put together a list of questions for us." He says and I get excited. I really missed spending time with him. We had a great thing and all of the fighting and backstabbing had ruined it.But being here with him, the stupid grin on his face beaming back at me. It all
"I'm so happy to meet you." Oliver's mother says getting up to hug me. I take in her beauty, poise and style as we embrace. She looks incredible. so well put together. I don't know if I can stop staring at her. I realize I have to eventually so it doesn't turn into anything weird. I don't want her to think I'm crazy"I'm happy to meet you too," I say finally finding my voice. I'm still nervous but a little at ease because of how sweet she is. She hugs Oliver and then we sit down."I've heard wonderful things about you." She says looking at me with a huge smile on her face. I look at her with such awe. I don't think I've seen her smile before and it's incredible how much her face changes."I hope I can live up to them," I say and she chuckles a little."Oh, no. There's nothing to live up to. You're perfect." She says and I smile not really sure what to say. "So, how are you?" She asks genuinely
"Do you think this is a good idea?" I ask Oliver when he opens the car door for me. I stare into his eyes hoping he changes his mind. I know I agreed to this but now that we're here I'm not so sure. "Yes, it's a very good idea." He says offering me his hand. "Don't freak out. It's going to be great." Oliver says when he sees my face."What if she doesn't like me?" I ask closing the door. We start walking and my legs feel like jelly below me. "What if I say the wrong thing?" I say and he smiles looking back at me. "You can never say the wrong thing." He says and I groan in frustration. I'm freaking out here and he's not taking me seriously. I don't think I'm ready to meet his family, let alone his mom. I've never met a boyfriend's mom. I was never in a serious relationship where it got to this point. What am I doing here? I don't belong here. "That's a lie. I put my foot in my mouth all the time. And I don't know if I can find the right words when I'm this nervous." I say trying to