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Chapter 69

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NIKOLAI

I TOOK A sharp breath, the kind that burned in my chest.

Claude’s body was stretched out underneath me, all lean muscle and bruised beauty. I rolled to the side, pulling the sheets over us, and his eyes followed me—hand landing on my chest like he thought I would run.

I wasn’t.

I would never.

“Can I mark you?” he asked again, voice rough, voice so fucking soft.

He asked it like a man offering forever. Like he didn’t know I’d already sold my soul to make sure no one ever touched him again—he was mine, and mine alone.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and reached for his hand on my chest, lacing our fingers together and kissing the back of his knuckles.

“You sure?” I murmured, my voice heavier than I meant it to be.

“Yes.”

No hesitation.

Fuck.

I closed my eyes for a second. He deserved to know. Even if I didn’t want him to. Even if he left this bed and I spent the rest of my fucking life chasing him down, begging for his forgiveness—I couldn’t keep this from him.

So I said it.

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Annie McConnell
need more. more than 1 or 2 chapters at a time. please
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spice1982
honestly I don't think he should let her go
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Strawberryboss
You left me hanging again, need more please, I know Claude just wants to save his pack but she’s evil
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