This is how quickly I proceed. I've just finished dinner with Kent at a diner. He has a surprise in store for me, though I'm unaware of what it is. I managed to wear the clothes I purchased earlier today, and I enjoyed a meal that required no utensils. It was fantastic. The past few weeks with Dane were a nightmare and a deception. The day I spent with Kent showed me that I could experience deeper emotions than I had imagined. It revealed that we truly had something special, while my relationship with Dane had been nothing but a distraction. With Dane, I never felt like myself, but with Kent, I felt authentic. Kent treated me to dinner and accompanied me back to the subway station afterward. He's had a serious, contemplative look on his face since he went shopping earlier this afternoon. I hope my purchases haven't upset him. "Are you okay?" I inquire in a hushed voice as the train approaches. He immediately snaps out of his thoughts, and his face brightens. "Yeah, why do you ask
"I'll always remember seeing it live. It was my favorite thing we've done here, and Kent arranged it. She organized it for me and was kind all day. He was truthful with me, we became closer, and we spent the entire day together. Once this weekend was over, it would devastate me. I was wrapped in a soft hotel towel after showering. I didn't bring any of my clothes in, but Kent is in the other room, responding to emails, and the bedroom door is closed. I step out of the bathroom, feeling clean, with my wet, wavy hair clinging to my back. On my way to my suitcase, I pause to look at the bag I purchased today. I take out my bra and one pair of underwear. Both were black, and the underwear looked like three shoelaces holding a lacey triangle together. The bra was made of the same see-through black lace. I think, "Why not try them on? I still have another pair of underwear to wear tomorrow with my dress." I remove all the tags and put on the thin underwear. I raise my eyebrows, but they
I feel him grab my hips and pull me closer. I chuckle, turn the camera to him, kiss his cheek, and savor his smile. As he quickly kisses me, I stop the video on his phone and toss it on the coffee table. He looks so happy. "I'm going to replay that video over and over," he mumbles between kisses, nudging my nose with his. I giggle and nod. "Would you like me to put you to bed?" Every time he whispers, my stomach flutters. "Okay," I whisper back. He grins, sits up, and puts his hands on my thighs, as if he's about to lift me. But he pauses when he realizes his shirt has ridden up. "Don't tell me..." I gasp as I feel his fingertips glide over my exposed skin, not touching anything until they reach the top of my underwear. Then he backs away, shaking his head. "You've got to be kidding, Juls." "What?" I ask, and he huffs and quickly pulls his shirt over my body, revealing the lingerie and leaving me almost naked. Realizing the cups of my bra are see-through, I instinctively cover them
"Juls." I hear a distant voice. "Juls, wake up. We're here." I blink my eyes open when my shoulder is shaken and see Kent's blurry figure sitting beside me in the car. "What?" I ask, stretching my arms, and he gives me a smirk. "We've arrived, dear. Get up and stretch your legs." He sighs, and I nod, then lean over to open the town car door. I step out with my backpack onto a driveway, and my jaw nearly drops. I'm standing in front of what appears to be a Downton Abbey set. The house sits on a sprawling lot, grand, with full columns and steps leading up to the front door. "You okay?" Kent asks, as he retrieves my suitcase and rolls it alongside his. "You live here with your family?" I'm astonished, and he simply nods, clearing his throat. "Here?" "Yes, this way," he repeats, and I take a deep breath and start to feel anxious. "I have no idea how to handle this. I didn't grow up like this," I admit softly. My house only had two floors, and I'm not accustomed to such luxury. "All
After our meal, he leads me upstairs. We walk through the hallways but don't enter any of the rooms. He takes me to a door on its own, clearly leading to a large room. When he opens the door, my eyes widen. I was correct; there's a large bed, a wall covered in trophies and awards, a gaming system that would put any teenager's setup to shame, and a spacious sitting area with a couch and two armchairs. "My room," he says, placing his hands on his hips, and I clear my throat. "What are you going to do with all this space? Run laps?" I tease him, and he laughs, lifting me up and carrying me inside. I laugh and wrap my arms around the back of his neck. "That kind of thing," he jests. "This isn't actually my bedroom. When I was going to school in the city, I lived in an apartment. When my parents moved here permanently, I just stored all my stuff in this room." "I really, really wish I had this," I sigh as he helps me stand back up. "You know this is bigger than our hotel room and maybe
The rest of our afternoon in bed goes really well. He shares a bit about his childhood and proudly shows me his trophies and awards, which weren't all for football. Some were for academics, while others were for sports. He always went above and beyond. He leaves me alone in the bathroom to get ready. I put in effort with my hair and makeup but didn't want to look too overdone. I was already nervous about the last thing with Kent. I wanted to stay true to myself. The bathroom was more my style than the hotel, with a large tub and a separate shower, giving off a farmhouse feel. When I'm ready, I step outside to meet Kent, who's impeccably dressed. He looks sharp and dapper in his tuxedo, which fits him perfectly. "You look gorgeous," he compliments me, and I grin. He's almost ready, just needing to change, so he waits for me. "Thanks, honey, but that's your story," I tease, and he laughs, crossing his arms. "Go get dressed." I smile and walk into the closet to change. Being a walk-i
"Hi," Kent said, looking really uncomfortable. "And this must be Juls," he grinned, extending his hand for a shake, and I shook it. His firm handshake suggested he did that a lot. He was nice but quite intimidating. He clearly ran things from top to bottom. "Pleased to meet you," I replied. "Well, Astrid has been talking my ear off about my son's girlfriend," he smiled, and I nodded. "I'm glad you could join us." "I'm glad too." "Son, I had something to talk to you about if you don't mind me taking him, Juls," his father said, and I nodded politely. "Sure, I'll see you later," I whispered, and Kent sighed, looking reluctant to leave. He kissed my cheek and followed his dad through the kitchen. A sinking feeling rushed over me when I realized I was alone. "Come with me," his mother insisted, placing her hands on my shoulders and guiding me out of the kitchen. "You have a beautiful home," I told her, and she smiled. "It's my pride and joy, well, after my family, of course," she
Dinner without him was awful. I felt isolated and puzzled about the food, with no one to assist me. Being not much of a social person, unfamiliar gatherings weren't my strong suit. Those girls from earlier were mean; they kept asking where Kent had gone. They threw questions at me about things I'd never experienced, making me feel like a loser in front of others. His mom looked anxious, as if she might be the reason he'd vanished. His dad appeared unfazed, which made me uncomfortable. I eventually left when the evening became unbearable. After feeling sad and alone, I trudged back upstairs, feeling overweight and unattractive in my dress. He had promised he wouldn't leave me alone, that he'd be there the whole time and that he cared. It seemed like he had lied to me. I removed my clothes, heels, tape, and makeup, tied my hair back, and turned on the TV to drown out the noise. I climbed under the covers in my underwear, not bothering to put anything else on because I knew he would
After 2 years... Kent "Today has to be perfect." I've been super busy preparing for this day for the last few weeks. It has to happen tonight, or she'll suspect something's up. Juls is getting her master's degree today, and I've never been prouder. She's incredibly smart, always reading or researching. That pile of library books in our office never seems to shrink. She's applied to Ph.D. programs all over, but I think she'll stay at Brown. I'm okay with that because I don't want anything to change about our lives. Well, except for one thing that I hope to change today. I finished my MBA a few months ago and started working full-time downtown. I'm in marketing for now but aiming for investment banking and trust. I know my path, and with time and connections, I hope to take care of us. Juls keeps saying she'll stay in school because she doesn't know what else to do, but I think it's the other way around. School and academia bring out her best. Her eyes light up when she learns some
"We're almost there," Kent insists, turning on his car's signal. I feel like we're in the middle of nowhere, and we've been driving for over an hour. Kent refused to tell me our destination because, as he put it, "I would just g****e where we're going, and then it wouldn't be a surprise anymore!" The weather was gradually getting less cold, not warm yet but no longer snowing or freezing. I was on my last spring break, trying to finish my thesis and schoolwork. We recently received information about our upcoming graduation. In about a month and a half, we would be finishing our undergrad degrees. It was still surreal to me, moving from starting a university degree to finishing it. Kent had been discussing plans for the summer, including hiking trips, which I pretended not to dread. I wasn't much of a hiker, but I was willing to do it with him. We signed our lease for next year, securing that cute little apartment on the other side of campus. The thought of moving in with him excite
"I got my email." Even though Doctor Binkley said I have a spot, I'm still nervous to open it. Maybe I should've waited to open it when I'm alone, but I can't wait. I'm opening it on my way out of lecture. I open the email, quickly reading the first few lines. But at the top, there's a big box that says 'congratulations' and 'welcome!' My heart immediately slows down, and I feel relieved, clutching my phone to my chest. It's official; I'm staying at Brown next year. That means I'll be with my family, my school, and, of course, Kent. We can start our life together, still have our friends and continue studying, but we'll be together. I remember how tough that month at Northwestern was, how much I missed him, and how I felt like I had no support. I need to text my parents and tell them the news. They've been anxiously waiting to hear what I'd do about my living situation next year. But I'll do it later. Right now, I just want to go home and be with someone I love. I pull out my phone
"I hate school sometimes." Yes, I like researching and finding answers to questions no one's ever thought of before, and I like my degree, but the coursework sucks. I'm sick of reading pages and pages of scholarly articles and books and writing a new paper every other week. My honors project is draining every ounce of energy from me, and I was starting to worry if it was even worth it anymore. I hadn't heard about Brown's Master's program yet, and that's the whole reason for this extra burden. Today was Tuesday, one of my busier days. I only had class today until noon, and then I usually spent the rest of the day grinding out work. Today I had to meet with Doctor Binkley and discuss my work. It was something we did monthly to make sure I felt like I was always on the right track. Kent had a break after his class at one-thirty, and we were planning to meet up and study together until his next class at four. Then I was planning to go home and take it easy. I take the elevator up to
I wake up in the middle of a large bed with Kent beside me. We were completely tangled in bedsheets, just beside each other in a beautiful room. I sigh, feeling my body ache and my head pound, but it's bearable. I shuffle over slightly, laying my head on his chest and snuggling back into his side. That seems to get his attention. He moves under me and groans slightly, eyelids fluttering. I feel his lips press a simple kiss to my temple, and I smile. "Hey, Juls," he mumbles. "Hi," I whisper back, watching his eyes open slowly. He grins at me easily, running a hand through my hair. "How do you feel?" he asks, and I shrug. "I have a headache and I'm tired, but I'm okay," I sigh, tracing my fingertips down the center of his chest. "I had a lot of fun last night." "Good," he whispers, putting his hand over mine on his chest. "I know how hard you've been working and all the crap we've been dealing with." His voice is thick with sleep, deep and raspy. "It was nice to have a day that wa
"It's been an amazing night and an unbelievable birthday. I'm pleasantly tipsy, happy, aware, and buzzing," I express. It looks like all three of our friends have scored phone numbers tonight, giving Kent and me some alone time. I notice the place clearing out, and I realize it's probably time to head home. The bar is closing in about thirty minutes, and it's close to three in the morning. "Want to go somewhere else?" Abby asks as we wait for our jackets. I sigh and shake my head. I'm ready to devour some greasy food, drink water, and snuggle into bed with Kent. We've teased about getting intimate, but with all our roommates around, it's not a possibility. I've let go of that idea and just want a relaxed and easy night. "I'm good," I sigh, and she nods with a simple shrug. "Thanks a lot for everything; this night was so, so fun!" "I'm thrilled you enjoyed it!" She insists, giving me a hug, and I grin. Kent retrieves our coats, and I sigh, not looking forward to facing the cold a
It was nice to feel noticed by him, nice to know that he always seemed to care about what I was up to. I'd never felt attractive before I started dating Kent. We all round up the last of our coats and shoes while the Uber's on its way. I get my coat on, and I feel Kent slide his hand along the small of my back. I gasp a bit quietly and look up, seeing his cocky grin. "You look nice," he whispers, and I chuckle, feeling his fingertips slide around the edge of my waistband. Soon we're all piling into an Uber, and I hear Abby chatting up the driver in the front seat. I'll always be envious of her confidence and how she talks to people like she's known them forever. We grab a quick dinner at a pizza place around the corner. Everyone pushed that we should go somewhere nicer, but I didn't want to. I just wanted to go out and have fun with my friends. I hadn't gone out in a long time, not really since before Christmas, and I'd spent way too much time feeling lonely, buried in work and ove
"Did you want to stay longer?" Kent asks as we step into his car, and I smile, closing the door and putting my seatbelt on. "No, we've been there for hours," I mumble, safely tucking my birthday card into my coat's inner pocket. "If we stay longer, we're staying for dinner." Time with my family was amazing, it meant the world to me, and I was thankful I had it so close to my birthday. "Your parents are really cool," he admits, turning on the car and shifting it into drive. "No, they really aren't," I snort. "Did you miss the part where mom pulled out my baby album and sang my favorite lullaby? To all of us?" I ask, and he chuckles. "Or my dad talking about his Master's thesis? His theoretical chemistry Master's thesis?" "You know what I mean," he defends. "They're...people. Like real, normal, kind people who care about everyone." "I guess they have that going for them, huh?" I laugh, and he smiles. "I can't believe that check, that's not like them. They don't just hand out money
We head inside, and I take a deep breath, walking into our house. My family's house always makes me feel happy, like I'm somewhere safe and full of love. Mom's burning some cinnamon candle, and I can hear noise from the kitchen. "What's that smell?" Kent asks, and I laugh. "Mom loves scented candles, it's probably some clearance one that she picked up from somewhere," I explain, unsure where the nearly offensive candle was. Kent hated strong scents; he claimed they gave him headaches. "Sorry." "It's okay, just... don't go burning anything like that at our place," he says, and I chuckle, reaching for his hand. "Hello?" I call, bringing Kent to the kitchen, and mom gasps, hopping up from the stove and running over. "Juls," she whispers, squeezing the life out of me. "I'm so glad you could come." "Me too, I missed you," I whisper, and she pulls back, rubbing my arms in that aggressive mom-like way. "And I missed you, oh! You're so beautiful and smart-" "Okay, mom," I mumble, and s