LOOK AT ME 4
He put up a good fight, that much I’d admit. He meant the no he said and was going to stand on business, but even he couldn’t stand the questioning gazes from the nuns, all except my great aunt, and he finally caved. And three days later, I had moved in and was settled. I saw it for the first time when I moved in, a one bedroom, I had neighbours who also rented from Father Aryan. “Are you sure you like the place? I’m certain there are others more suited to your taste.” He sounded desperate as he tried to get me away from his place. I nodded enthusiastically, I didn’t like the place at all. “I love it. I can tell nausea green is your favourite colour.” He sighed,“Why are you doing this? You clearly hate the house. You can rent somewhere else.” I cross my arms around my chest. His eyes are drawn to my chest, I see his tongue dart out and wets his lips for a second before he reminds himself who he is supposed to be and looks up, there is a triumphant smirk on my face. “I asked around and this was the only recommendation, surely you have a good reason to fight this.” He takes a step back as if just then realizing how close we were. “Well it costs eight hundred dollars per month, so you can..”“Should I wire it to you? I don’t have that much cash.” Something flashes in his eyes, it looked familiar, but it was gone before I could discern what it was. “You.. you are willing to pay that much for this?”I nod. Again, he licks his lips and this time not because of my breasts, he was doing the math in his head. “Wire.”I nod and pull out my phone, by the time I was done with the transfer, he was looking at me with head cocked to the side, as if seeing me through a different light. He had rushed back with an excuse I couldn't catch. At the end, the only thing absolutely wrong with the house was the fact that it couldn't lock from inside, the bolts were broken and the latches caught, it could only be locked from outside, I keep forgetting to get it fixed. And in the three days I have lived here, I haven’t seen a glimpse of him, being preoccupied with cleaning and refurbishing. I even set up my work area to look similar to the one back home. My phone ringing nearly gave me a heart attack. Nobody called me. “Who is this?” I ask as I swipe the unknown number’s call.“Ferocious, is that how you handle all of life's problems? Throwing yourself head first?” I recognise Danny's low voice and sigh.“How did you get my number?” “I’m sure what you want to ask is if your landlord has the number as well.” “I forgot to ask, does he even live around here?”She snorts, it’s even worse when it’s plastered to your face. “Of course not. You are renting his own house.” I blink in surprise as I look around the place with the new information in mind. This was where he used to live. “I take it he stays at the church now?” I say with a sigh, this was what I should have asked before moving in. “Yeah.”“Then how does living here help me?”“You are living where he used to live. You could find something of importance and get him to come get it. Do I have to think for you?” The gears in my head start spinning and a half baked idea start to form. “This phone call wasn’t a waste of time. Do you have his phone number?” “You don’t have it?”I asked for it and he pretended not to have heard. “Again, this phone call wasn’t a waste of time.” I say as a text of his number comes in. “Wait, I called for something else. Let me be your roommate.” This time I snort.“Never.” I disconnect the call with that. Now, time to search the house for what he must have left behind, doesn’t matter what it is. Half hour later, I come up short, his old cupboards were empty, only old takeout menus filled the kitchen cabinets. Priests really do own nothing. Aha! The light keeps going off and coming on at random times, this was a good reason to call your landlord. “Blessings, Father Aryan Geller speaking.” His smooth voice comes through the speaker once it connects. The sound send pleasant shocks down my back and all over my body. “How is it that even your lame greeting makes me want to rip my clothes off?” “Melanie??” He sounds severely shocked.I liked the way my name rolled off his tongue. My nipples like it too, seeing as they pressed against my large shirt. “How soon can you get here?”“What??”“I need you.”The line goes quiet for a while. “To check something. The lights are faulty.”He groans, “Call a handyman or something.” “I don’t know anyone, I only know my landlord, do you want me letting a strange man into my house? and isn’t it your responsibility to see to it that I’m not uncomfortable?” We didn’t sign any papers that stated any responsibility. How am I even allowed to be an adult if I can’t remember to sign papers? “The number of the handyman I trust is in the cabinet. And I’m out of town. Please don’t call this number again.” He disconnects with that. Well, wasn’t that disappointing? What do I do now that hearing his voice got me wet, hot and bothered? I set up my camera and lights and dressed in my work outfit, for today, a maid outfit, with the skirt stopping just below my bum, my breasts spilling out from the front of the top and my full face mask in place. Obviously you don’t start with just spreading your legs open in front of the camera, the viewers just started to join in. Sitting on the bed with my thighs in display, I start to move slowly, working my hand on my thighs, switching over to my fantasies. It was Father Aryan’s hand that slowly moved up my thigh. His hand dipping in between my thighs. I let out a whimper.His hand traced an invisible zig zag line inside of my thighs, stopping short of my core. He cupped me in his palm and I groaned in pleasure.I peeled my eyes open a bit to see that the number of viewers were teetering on almost twenty million. My eyes bulged, I hadn’t gotten up to that much viewers before. I squint as I try to read a comment.It said, “Holy shit! Sluttyforyou had THAT priest in her video!” I scan the room, searching for the priest and turn towards the door to my room, it was ajar. What? I am pretty sure I shut it. I bolt out of the room, to find Father Aryan in my living room. He was trying to leave. “Father Aryan..”He turned to face me, his filled with desire and guilt. “The door was opened and..” he swallowed.“I wondered where you got that much money. You work with LonelyFans ?” I frowned.“You know LonelyFans , Father Geller. And LonelyFans isn’t known to the public. If you weren’t on it you wouldn’t know LonelyFans...” My eyes widen as I watch guilt sprinkle across his expression. “Are you.. are you on LonelyFans Father Aryan?”LOOK AT ME 5 I take a non threatening step towards him, and because he is a guilty person, he does what guilty people usually do, he shrinks into himself. “Again, how do you know about LonelyFans?” “Why haven’t you gotten the locks changed yet? Anybody could have walked in.” Changing the subject, another sign of guilt, he doesn’t want to say, I just have to let him be, for now. “And none of them would have walked straight into a single woman's bedroom.” He had the caught in a headlights look. “I called your name severally, and I heard.. I heard sounds..” My brows crinkle in thought, he heard my moans, my brows fly into my hair in realization. “You thought I was banging the handyman?!” He turned slightly red as I was right on the mark. “I thought I made it clear enough that it is you I wanted. You don’t have to be jealous.” He clears his throat nosily and takes a step backwards. “I’ll go check the lights..” “Yeah, you do that.” I follow him as he locates the sw
LOOK AT ME 6 I am a liar, an unapologetic one, and quite frankly it’s his fault for believing me, I was definitely going to use the information to my advantage. So when I show up for one of the bi weekly services, a huge grin on my face, he looks ready to excuse himself from my presence. “What did you do to him?” Danny asks, saddling up to me.“Nothing yet.” And for once that is true, I have done nothing yet. Although my plans for him are deliciously evil. “You and I ought to discuss after this.” I shrug, my eyes on my prey. In his cassock he looked even more sexy, I can see why my viewer count jumped so much, he was absolutely good looking. He moved behind a dark curtain and disappeared from view, letting Father Bernard continue alone. “Where did he go?”“To pray for the people.”“But the people are right here.”Danny snorts, “It’s just a thing.”I haven’t been to a church since I was little, that was the last time great aunt Cheryl came to visit, and it was the
LOOK AT ME 7The door swung open and I automatically fall to my knees, dragging my shawl back and wrapping it tightly around me, he rises to his feet, his palms pressed together as a sign of prayer. I smile to myself but keep my eyes shut. “...Amen.” He says audibly.That was my cue to rise to my feet, he gives me an outstretched hand to help me up, I make sure to look into his brown orbs as the sparks of electricity flew from our skin contact. With the way he avoided my eyes, I’d say he felt the same. “Father Aryan, I’m sorry for distracting your prayer session.” I turn towards the nun i heard of but never seen, Danny's foster mother and the last five nuns in this town, Veronica. Aryan gives her an easy smile and walks to her, he bends her eye level as she sat on the wheelchair. “You came at the right time, it has just ended. I’ll take it from here Danny.” He says exchanging spots with Danny who had wheeled her in. “Now I’m worried my mom will never be okay seeing as
LOOK AT ME 8“That isn’t right..” i mutter to myself, this was the exact thing i have been saying for longer than I’d expect. I said it when Danny sprung up on me at the mart when I finally did my grocery shopping. She had asked me again if she could move in and be my roommate. “That isn’t right..” I had said when she used the ‘I helped you get Father Aryan card.’“I don’t have him yet. Even if I did, it’s a one bedroom, no space for you.” I plugged in my headphones to drown her voice as I finished everything and went home. “That isn’t right.” Was also something I said when I realized I had no car and the small town barely had any cabs running around, I needed to get myself a car. The latest one was said purely because my viewer count dropped. It was hovering somewhere above the twenty million, and then for the past three days it’s been pummelling fast. I thought it was a glitch, but every time I went live, it would start with twelve million and end with eight thousand or
LOOK AT ME 9“That is exactly what you get for trying to sleep with a priest. I cannot believe he did that though, he seemed interested enough.”I lean forward, desperate to not be alone in that train of thought,“Right? I definitely felt the heat between us, he didn’t even tell my aunt what he knows about me.”She eyed me suspiciously over the rim of her cup. “What does he know about you?”A sigh escapes my lips and I look away from her to the window of the only decent coffee shop around here, Danny insisted we meet at my place but I wasn’t going to let her in, considering what she wants. “Never mind that, what do you guys do for fun around here? I have been here, what? Two weeks? I haven’t seen much of the town or much of the people in the town.”Danny snorts, “There’s nothing much to do here, and everyone either moved out as fast as they could or end up taking care of their parents.” “Like you.”She nods in acknowledgement, then her eyes sparkle with life.“I have an i
LOOK AT ME 10“Here I thought I was going to be the best friend you would be taking to church.” Danny says when I tell her of my plans to use Chris in making Aryan jealous enough to sleep with me. I was slightly buzzed from the alcohol and panting, I had just taken a break from dancing with Chris, and he went in search of water for me as I was dehydrated. Watching Danny now, I kind of feel bad for her, as long as I have seen her, I haven’t seen her with anyone else asides her mom, Mabel and I.“Who did you piss off to get on everyone’s bad side?”She sighs and puts down her cup,“My mom was—well, she still is overprotective of me, I never got to hang out with kids my age much, one day I snuck out to a party and she found out, it wasn’t pretty, she stormed in, made a scene, telling them that I was Jesus baby and called the cops on them, they made sure I wasn’t invited to any of the parties afterward and the Jesus baby thing stuck forever.” She winces at the end of her explanati
I land with a bouncing thud, smacking my head against the wooden bed frame.“Ow!” I immediately cry, bringing my hand to my head, searching for a bump or blood, one of which i was certain was going to be there, but my hands come away clean and its too soon to notice a bump anyway, doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt though, it hurt like hell. But it also brought a lot of things into focus for me, like the fact that I wasn’t in a dream, or in one of my numerous fantasies, this was reality and Father Aryan was standing at the foot of my bed, in all his full cassocked glory, an unreadable expression on his face. “Father Aryan? What are you doing here? You finally used that key I gave you.” The alcohol was wearing off, same as the shock of him being in my room. If this was right, then it meant that he carried me, I was pressed against his chest. My eyes land on the said chest, it stirred memories of being close to it, the corner of my lower lip snuck in between my teeth, wondering if I co
That caught my attention, but I hear the sound of the door shut behind him silences me, and my viewers had started to tune in, making it difficult for me to chase after him, besides, I was still feeling the effects of him talking to me like that. I had to make it worth it. I hear him talking to someone, probably Mrs. Hudson, and I tune out the words and focus on his voice, the low, gravelly feel of it, before shutting my eyes, I allow myself to imagine what it must feel like when closely pressed against his chest. A moan slips out of my lips at the thought. My hips move, sliding down lower on my bed, so that the camera had a better view of my core, spreading my legs open and using my fingers to open and close the crack of my pussy lips to my viewing audience, I do a few more poses similar to this before leaving everything else in the hands of my fantasy, quite literally. His hands were a bit rough, unlike what you would expect from a priest, as he caressed my inner thighs, hi
Our lips meet in a slow, tantalizing kiss, his cold plump lips against my own moved as I tilt my head as he cupped the back of my head, the kiss was my answer, and the response to my answer, I felt everything he felt in that moment, and I could not help but smile against his lips. When we finally pull apart, we stare into each other’s eyes, the feelings we had for each other forming a safety bubble around us. He smiles,tucking a lock of hair behind my ear, I smile shyly against the back of his hand. “Wait, this was not what I signed up for.” Evan groaned from where he had started to get comfortable.I groan, covering my eyes with my palm, his flaccid dick in his hand was not what I wanted to see. “Go somewhere else, can’t you see a sweet moment is happening right now?”Evan complained as he tucked himself back into his pants, grunting as he did,“There is good news for you Evan, and you too.” Aryan tells us, and taps me lightly on the nose when he does.I turn to face him again, my
Exactly a week after I opened the can of worms, and thwarted his father’s plans, Aryan finally cracked a smile. It was like the burden of the world finally lifted from my shoulders, I was sure tears stained the corners of my eyes after I saw that. The first few days after he found out, he found the lawyer himself, made sure to hear it from the lawyer himself, I made sure to go with him, and when he let out another strangled cry, and a hoarse sardonic laugh, I watched all of it, my heart breaking for the man in front of me. “I should have known he would do this, I should have expected it, he played me for a fool.” he whispered harshly.“But now you know, you don’t lose any more, if you quit now, you have nothing to owe the man, and you win.” I tell him every time, he would nod but with the far away look in his eyes, I knew he wasn’t listening to me. He did not eat the first day, he only went to bed in the hotel I booked for both of us, he would not return to the apartment the churc
“What kind of nonsense...?” Evan could not complete his statement, he was rifling through the papers Mr Kitler had handed him, his eyes growing wider with shock with each sentence he read, I knew it had to be bad if Evan reacted like that. Mr Kitler scoffed,“That wacko hated his son. I cannot wait to be done with it.” Were his parting words, he took the money Evan paid with him, not even turning back once before slipping into the crowd. Danny and I almost trip over ourselves rushing towards the table where Evan sat alone, deep lines digging into his forehead as he went through the sheets of paper. “Son of a bitch.” he cussed under his breath,I swallow, my worry doubling until it was the size of a horse, galloping around my chest, “Is it that bad?”“Very bad, all of the wealth he seemed to have, all of it were loans of some sort, he just went around accumulating them, and left them all to him.” there was visible anger in his posture, but he was not as angry as I was. How dare he?
“Why aren’t you going after him? I already did the hard part.” Evan asked when I collapsed into his sofa, right after we found him.I chew on my lips, thoughts rushing through my mind at the speed of light, each one too pointing in the same direction, he was going to up and leave me again, right where I stood after going to find him. I always knew he was materialistic, I just had to find a way to beat his father’s properties, without that, he was going to continually slip from my grasp. “Help me one more time Evan, help me find his father’s lawyer, and his father’s will, it doesn’t matter what you have to do to find it, just do.” Evan stared at me for a long time, as if trying to decode the hidden meaning in what I just asked of him, and when he found that I was serious, he nods once and goes to press certain keys on the keypad in front of him. My eyes strayed to the blinking red dot that was his location. I will come to you, in the meantime, just be safe and wait for me.“What do
“Most precious Melanie,I wish I knew how to start a letter, I almost didn’t, and that is ironic considering I write for a living. Anyway, I am sorry to have done this to you, unfortunately, being in your presence makes me forget all of the terrible things my father did to me, I want to forgive him and move on when I am with you, forget being a priest and be fully and utterly yours, but how can I? He deserves to roll in his grave forever when he sees me using his hard earned wealth, I cannot have him laughing at me forever. With that, I am deeply sorry about that, I am deeply sorry to have done this to you, it is shitty and I cannot wrap my head around it, but I ask that you forget this shitty person and move on with your life. Whilst I am certain that there is nobody else who can match your crazy, I am certain that there is a better man for you out there, Victor loves you a whole lot, you should give him a chance. I am afraid I cannot take the car with me, I love it with all of my
That must have been the best sleep of my life since I did not even stir when he pulled away from me. It was not until I was awake, that was when I realized the other side of the bed was empty. “Aryan?” I call out sweetly, imagining he was outside the bedroom door making breakfast for me.Oh, how lucky I was, the man I loved, loved me, I could not help the giggles that spilled out of me, the leg flapping too, it was almost embarrassing, but who cares? We did not even sleep together but it was very possibly the best sleep I ever had. I pat down my hair, combing out the knots with my fingers as I try to look presentable for him, using my phone as my mirror, I find crusted saliva at the corner of my mouth, cussing, I rush to the the bathroom to wash my face. It was only when I get out that I realize, the house was too quiet, there would have been pots and pans clanking together if he was making me breakfast like I thought. Checking the time on my phone, I find it was few minutes past
“You lied to me? Why?” My voice was oddly calm when I find him in his office.I drove here like a crazy person, praying and wishing with all of my heart that he was not in the office as they had said, I prayed that they were the ones lied to, or lying, I did not want to be lied to, especially not by him. “You did it all the time, lying I mean.”“You were the one person I consistently told the truth, I did not lie to you, so answer me damn it! Why did you lie to me? Why did you say you were out of town?” He sighed before getting out of his seat,“Let us not do this in here, follow me.” he tells me as he led the way to his apartment, I follow him, silently fuming, at him and at myself, since my heart was still swooning at the sight of him. “I think we should stop doing this.” he tells me when we get to the safety of his home.I stare at him with confusion as memories of what happened between us the last time I was here threatened to over shadow what was going on in the present. “W
“You are positively glowing.” Danny compliments when I open the door for her on Sunday morning. “Must be from all of that orgasm.” she tells herself as she stepped into the house.“You sound cranky, possibly because of the lack of orgasms?” I tell her, sipping my mango juice. She narrowed her eyes at me before sighing, “I had too much to drink and Rita spent the entire night holding my hair out of her toilet bowl, to say I would never show my face around her anymore is an understatement.” she cried.I wince, feeling sorry for Rita, and being grateful that I was not in Rita’s shoes. Now that I think about it, I sniff the air, and there was a lingering smell of booze coming from her, she must have been drunk, drunk. “I was luckier, since I had no chance of sleeping, until I snuck out early this morning. And do you know what he told me? He said I should not bother coming to work today, and I could spend the entire day in bed. Isn’t he the sweetest?” I sigh wistfully. “Please, do rub
“I want to leave now.” was all he said, but it had me moving, I was out of the door and in my car before I knew what was happening, Tim chuckled when he saw us moving out of the door together, he shook his head and promised he was going to lock up. Driving never felt so nerve wrecking, he said nothing and I say nothing as well, nothing I say right now would be appropriate, I mean, what do you say after that? “My apartment.” he says,I murmur an agreement but disappointment pools in my gut, I had imagined he wanted to go to my place, who was I kidding? He didn’t love me, I was obviously in over my head. “Why aren’t you coming out?” he asks, breaking my internal monologue, when I look up, he was standing outside my door, the door he had already opened whilst I was drowning inside my head. “Oh, I didn’t... Bernard is back..”“It is late, he should be asleep by now, besides, he has no right to say anything about it.” he says with his hand outstretched for me to take. Gingerly, I reac