Chapter 2: All the memories

!Warning – Sexual content present in this chapter!

Clark P.O.V

I stood on the balcony, sipping on some vodka and staring out over Rowan’s packlands. A lot was going through my mind. I stared into the direction where my pack used to be. I wondered if the packhouse was just now an empty shell on it’s own or did the rogues inhabit it? If I was going to stay here, I should probably go and get some of my things. I stared down at the glass in my hand, I cant even remember glass number what this was, but I knew that half the bottle was already emptied by me in the past two hours I would guess.

Nothing as liquid encouragement to help me get over my fears. I placed the glass down on the table outside, rubbing my eyes, trying to get more clarity, I walked inside my suite and ready to get out. I opened the door and nearly fell back as I walked into a hard rock wall of muscles. I looked up from the ground and saw Rowan standing there, arms crossed, and a smirk plastered on his face. Great … this jackass.

“Going somewhere” Rowan asked as he leaned against the wall. I just scoffed. “Like I have to ask your permission to do that” I retorted. Something about him made me go crazy. Rowan just laughed before walking in, closing the door and helping me up. He still had a strong hold on my arm as our faces were merely inches away from one another. “I can smell the alcohol on you. Leaving here, now, in the state that you are will be a bad call in judgement” Rowan whispered in my ear. Damn … this was torture and I could hear my wolf whine inside of me. “Well … the real question is … is it me or you who stinks of alcohol? Because … I can smell the whiskey on your tongue” I said back, nervously swallowing the lump in my throat.

Rowan just chuckled, sending a deep rumble through his chest. I could feel his warmth as he still had a hold on my arm. “You drive me crazy” he softly said as he leaned in, seemingly wanting to kiss me, but something was holding me back. “Then what are you going to do about it?” I softly said, anticipation running through me. I moved my face closer to his and stared up at him. It was like everything was moving in slow motion. “Fuck this” Rowan said.

All of a sudden, Rowan brought his hands up and cupped my face and pulled me in for a searing kiss. He pushed us back, making my back hit the wall. I hissed at the impact, giving Rowan the chance to move those beautiful lips from my lips to my jaw, to my neck where my marking spot was. I moaned at the sensation that was pooling through me.

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I shot up straight, realizing that I was naked, I quickly pulled the blanket up to try and cover my body. I looked over to my left and sure enough, Rowan was there, still fast asleep. No! No! No! It wasn’t supposed to happen, not like this. I quickly tried to get up but the blunt pain soon made me sit down. That was when it me.

- Flashback -

“Come on Clark, tell me what you want” Rowan huskily said as he had his fingers hooked in my panties. He was making it so hard to think straight. He was making everything melt down inside of me. “I … ugh … I want you!” I finally managed to say as Rowan started kissing my neck again, making me putty in his hands.

“Your wish is my command” he said as he quickly pulled down my panties, making me stand there in front of him in my naked glory. I nervously stared back at him as I saw the hunger in his eyes, he was ready to take me to cloud nine in so many different ways that I was unsure if I would be able to handle it.

In a swift move, Rowan had me lying down on my back on the bed. I stared back at him with worried eyes, not sure of what to anticipate. Before I could say anything, Rowan plunged two fingers inside of me and I could see he was pleased to find out that I was already wet. I moaned, my back arched as the pure pleasure started to seep through me.

“Hmmm … I’ve been dreaming about hearing those moans ever since I first laid eyes on you” Rowan said. I wasn’t hearing what he was saying, but I was sure feeling it.

- End of Flashback -

I looked over my shoulder and saw that he was still fast asleep. I slowly stood up and walked to the bathroom, slowly and quiet pulled the door closed behind me. I sat down on the edge of the bathtub. I felt so sore down there, and it was clear that the alcohol numbed most of the pain last night. I just shook my head, I knew that if this worked, then I would have pulled off the long term promise that our packs made. Although, it wasn’t supposed to happen last night, not like that.

I opened the faucet of the bath tub and poured in some bubbles. Internally, I hoped that this would at least help to ease my muscles. I was thankful that every inch of this room was sound proof. I didn’t want to wake Rowan and face him. Afterall, this my first time having sex. Obviously, I have done some things before but never have I thought to go as far as we did last night. I always wanted to save myself for my mate.

I got into the tub and closed the faucet. I moaned as the hot water penetrated all my muscles just in the right spots. I closed my eyes and arched my head back, allowing myself to relax.

- Flashback -

“I don’t have a condom with me” Rowan said, looking at me, trying to figure out if that would be a problem for me or now. I just shook my head. Nothing mattered to me at the moment. Rowan smiled before I slowly started to feel the tearing pain inside of me. He was huge! I closed my eyes shut, nothing like a big dick to sober me up from all the alcohol. “Keep your eyes focussed on mine, the pain will soon fade” Rowan said in a soothing tone. I wasn’t used to this side of him. I slowly opened my eyes and looked up. I stared deep into his eyes. Rowan nodded, seemingly asking me if he could go on. I slowly nodded my head as he started going in and out.

Eventually after what felt like a while, most of the pain and discomfort started to subside and all I felt was the pleasure in the wake of the pain. I moaned at the sensation that was going through me. “Goddess, you are so tight!” Rowan groaned. I could tell he was enjoying this as well as he started to moan and quickened his face.

Rowan quickly withdrew and before I could even ask or say anything, he had me flipped over and made me lie on my stomach. He lifted my hips, pulling my behind in the air. Again, he entered me in one swift moment, making my head fall back with the sensation that was running through me. He kept at it, going in and out. He slowly wrapped his one hand around my neck, making the scene even more heated than it already was.

“Ahh!” I moaned as an orgasm hit me in full motion. I was trembling from the inside out. I could tell that he was close as well as his hips practically slammed into me. He was chasing his orgasm. A loud growl escaped his mouth and I could feel him cum inside of me. It lasted a few seconds before he finally withdrew and fell down on the bed right next to me.

“Holy shit” was the last thing I managed to mumble before sleep consumed me.

- End of flashback -

“Fancy a party” Rowan said, bringing me out of my flashbacks. Shit, I didn’t even hear him come in. I opened my eyes and looked at him. I was unsure of what to say. Did I need to say thank you for the sex? All I managed to mumble was: “Sure”

Rowan smiled pleasingly as he got into the bath tub behind me. He put his hands on my shoulders and slowly lowered me against his back. I could feel his hard member press against my back and I couldn’t help but feel even more aroused than I already was.

“I can smell how turned on you are right now, you know?” Rowan said as he placed a soft kiss on my shoulder. I nervously swallowed the lump in my throat. Would we have to go at it again?

Rowan just laughed, clearly sensing my nervousness. “Don’t worry, I won’t take you right now. Afterall, I can imagine that you might be quite sore right now. But, I need to know one thing first” Rowan said, sliding his finger tips up and down my arms, making me feel relaxed. I just nodded my head, waiting for him to ask me what he wanted to know.

“Did you really just have sex with me because my mother wanted you to?” Rowan asked. I sat up straight and looked over my shoulder. How did he know about this? I stared back at him in pure shock. “I did hear you and my mother talking about it. Plus, she urged me to do the same. All in the name of the future of the pack” Rowan said rolling his eyes. Wait … so did he do this because of a promise as well? I just sat there in silence, not knowing what to say.

“Very well then … seeing as the situation is what it is at the moment. Then it is settled. You will stay here, under safe guard until we find out if you are pregnant and then we take it from there” Rowan said as he abruptly stood up and left me there. I just stared at his retreating back, unsure of what to think about the entire situation. He was clearly back to being a total jackass.