I didn't know what to make of it; I didn't know what to make of anything other than the fact that It was gone. but How? and When? My heart was pounding in my chest. What next? What would happen now? Lola thought I was sleep acting and forced me back to sleep right after that but I couldn't sleep back. Heck, I couldn't do anything other than overanalyze the entire situation. I was trembling. I turned my back from her and pretended to be asleep, but my mind was wide awake and buzzing with ideas. How did he take it? How did he enter the dorm yet again, and what was his deal really? I was ready to face him and ask all these questions that were killing me. How could he enter the room without any of us knowing? How could he place and take letters at will? How did he save me that day? I was relieved to be somewhere close to getting answers but also scared of what would happen from there. I prepared myself, though, on Thursday, I woke up ready for the meeting, but no one showed up and no
I couldn't breathe. I was so sure that the world stopped moving, It seemed like everything had paused and all that was unfolding here was this moment in front of us and I couldn't place my hands on how fast things went. It was bizarre. This was the meeting, this was it. My heart was thundering and my breathing almost ceased. What did he mean by coming for me? What exactly did he mean by that and Why did a part of me want it? Why did I find myself nodding after he asked if I was ready? What did my nodding mean? Why did the thoughts of Mac completely elude me while he was in my presence? Why did I find it hard to breathe around him? What were these feelings and reactions? Why did he take off swiftly after my response? Why did a part of me miss him immediately after he vanished? Once again, all I had were questions, questions, questions, it was infuriating, and it made me frustrated. I didn't even have any means of contacting him again. What the hell? I know that I should have at lea
Test week was fast approaching and it took everything in me to not faint at that realization, After the whole events with the multiple men in my life what I needed right now was to concentrate on school work but I seemed to remember that a tad bit late. The days had passed in a blur and this was the second dramaless week in my life in a very long time, that is if you are leaving out the frenzy of preparing for tests, then Yes, it was fairly less hectic than other ones. Lola and I wafted through our busy schedules without seeing so much of each other. I missed her. Over the months our bond grew and strengthened and I couldn't wait for things to be a bit calmer so that I could have more time for her excess talking and wild tendencies. I was going home briefly for a two weeks break after all the tests, maybe that was the only reason I was able to drown out the thoughts of Mac because I hoped to at least see him when I got home (even when I didn't know how) and gauge how badly I had dam
I was waiting for the cab that would drive me back while hugging Lola for the seventh time in the lapse of an hour. Finally, we were done with tests and had a little break so I was going home, I had tried on some tests and done poorly on some but I was optimistic about most of them, and most of all, I was excited to leave for home. Distance does make the heart fonder. The journey was short, but I slept all through, one moment I was leaning my head against the window frame, and the next moment I had zoned off into the sweet arms of sleep. It was Amanda’s shriek that woke me up and for the first few moments after I heard her scream, I wondered if Lola had followed me back but I knew I was wrong and I laughed softly when the brown hair of Amands engulfed me in a hug. “ You're suffocating me” I managed to say, truthfully she was, she had climbed on top of me where I sat in the back seat and was now holding me in a deadly grip. When did she get so touchy? She pushed back a little and
Mac’s family was having a party, they had invited us and somehow this news excited my sisters way more than it excited me. They chatted about how grand it would be and I couldn't blame them for wanting something exciting and out of the norm. They spoke about beautiful I would look and how Mac wouldn't be able control himself and his sight from me and I knew the possibility of that happening eas next to none. I thought if they knew how we left things off the last time we saw, if he had his way, he would probably be demenading for my head right now. Amanda and I shared knowing looks when they said he must have missed me while I was away but even that look meant nothing. We were in different head spaces. I was still in paradise according to Amanda, she didn't know how badly that one date had caused my roommate pain. Speaking of which my roommate as as drama queen that she was had not stopped blowing up my phone with text messages ever since we got here, It was amusing. When I told her
The day of the ball arrived quickly. Time has a penchant for appearing quicker for things you look forward to. I was nothing more than a ball of nerves as my sisters flurried around the room in their dresses admiring it's fitting on their bodies, touching up their faces and getting themselves ready. And there I was, unsteady and unsure about how all this would turn out, unable to breathe and think straight. I stared at my reflection in the mirror, the pink floral material cast a faint glow on my ivory skin, the style they chose was a bit scandalous, the upper part clung to my small frame and the top dipped a little, not enough to expose a handful of my breats but enough to tease a little, and reveal my clevage. The bodice was decorated with pearls, it took me forever to achieve that one and the finished exquisite look showed it was worth it. The flay cascaded down my slender curves a little more than necessary, swaying gently and gripping across my skin just like that of my sister
My heart had not stopped pounding since I read the message, My sisters had clapped and laughed all in joy for me, erasing the tension of earlier when he didn't pick up my call. but they knew nothing of the weariness spreading through my bones. Amidst it, a small flutter was growing in my chest, and I tried my best to kill it. I knew how this ended, It only had one way of ending, so why did I hope for something different? I took calming breaths as our vehicle rounded the driveway, and one by one, my sisters got down into the arms of love and paired up with their mates who were already waiting. When my legs hit the ground, I shook a little, maybe from the cold weather, or maybe it was the nerves; I could still feel my heart pounding in my ears. I took a cautious step and greeted the mates of my sisters as they led them inside. I walked to the front of the building where Mac had claimed he would be, and there he was. Just as he said. I was breathless as I stared at him, my legs feeling
I ignored the laughter and found my way into the seat at the table he had left me. "Would you get your ass up?' Someone hissed, I turned to look at the person who was speaking. It was a red-haired woman or girl; I couldn't classify her according to her age because f the heavy makeup on her face. She looked somewhere in between too pretty and fake, Her harsh tone caused me to flinch as I stood up, looking around to see everyone standing and waiting patiently. "Thanks," I murmured, more out of courtesy than anything else. I heard her hiss. I didn't realize that we were all waiting for Mac to sit down until I was hushed to stand up; apparently, all the high Alphas had to be seated before we, the subjects, could sit. How barbaric I tried not to think about that fact too much and not dwell on my thoughts about it too much. How was that still valid in such a world and such a century? I felt the burn of judgemental stares from people seated around us. It wasn't my fault that I had no i