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Fated to love you 94: A steamy affair with..... Mac?
My heart sank as I watched his retreating figure, he didn't respond, and his silence sliced through me in ways I never expected before. It was not that I expected him to, but a part of me hoped he would, and remembering how his features were so badly contorted that I could immediately feel all the anger and pain he felt made my eyes leak the more. But why would he even feel pain? I wiped my cheeks furiously, my eyes wouldn't stop leaking, and somehow, I felt more broken than I had in a while. He was not supposed to have this kind of effect on me, yet he did. And it was both confusing and tiring all at once. The strangeness of our relationship was something I could not explain, something I doubted anyone would understand unless they felt the pull I felt toward him. I suddenly wished to be anywhere but here. Why did Mac bring me here anyway? I closed my eye and allowed the cool night breeze to still my heart and bring my overflowing emotions together, The party was still going on.
Last Updated : 2023-06-02Fated to love you 95: The better kisser.
Mac was kissing me. For a few minutes, it sounded made up, like something I could only imagine but never fully live, And it was hot and sweet and nothing like I ever imagined. Who knew all his hostility could amount to this? I had never for once imagined that things would come to this, no matter how much I wanted it. And yet, it was here, and it was happening somehow. He inserted his tongue gently into my mouth and sucked my lower lip deeply. I stifled a moan. Was any of this real? Was Mac really kissing me? The chorus of desire that was stirred in my belly was not enough evidence to show how real this was; neither were the goosebumps that colored my arms or the fact that my entire body was burning with desire, and it was driving me crazy. I hugged him so tightly because I wanted him to be everywhere and without any space between us at all. Who would have thought? And yet it was happening right now and in front of at least a hundred people. The thought sent me reeling from him in
Last Updated : 2023-06-03Fated to love you 96: Living a lie
The next morning came like a fresh dose of reality reminding me of all the mistakes I made previously. Or could I really count it as a mistake? I didn't know. I mean, it was a kiss between me and my mate. As if she somehow knew, Amanda pestered me for details of what occurred the night before but I couldn't bring myself to answer the question because I was also asking the same. No matter how badly I wanted to do that. Because what was that all about? Why did Mac change into a different person overnight? Did things really work that way? I couldn't wait for school to begin so I could move away from here to clear my head. Because things were rapidly going down the hill, or maybe I was speaking less of it. Things had already gone down the hill. By the time a new week rolled in, I wanted nothing more than to go to school and speak to Lola. Who knew I would miss her as much as I did I couldn't help but admit that I needed her chatty words and perspective right now, or else I would lose m
Last Updated : 2023-06-04Fated to love you 97: Speak of the Devil
By the time the school resumption rolled in, I was elated to explore and indulge in the change it would offer at the moment. Other than Mac’s excessive gestures, on the other hand, I had heard nothing from Lucas and I was trying not to think too much of it. One of the reasons for that was because of late I had been having the nagging feeling that if I didn't do anything to show Mac that I could be useful, he might go back to being the mean and unfeeling person I knew him as.And as cruel and foolish as this might sound, I couldn't afford to do that. I had gotten too used to this newfound softness that going back to the cold wild would break me beyond my ability to heal. or at least it was what I thought.Coupled with the fact that things were getting more serious with us by the day, the kiss had gone far and wild to the extent that Father had heard of it which was both mortifying and calming because at least in my defense he is my mate so we did nothing wrong but then it had given ev
Last Updated : 2023-06-05Fated to love you 98: It's your choice to make.
In a flash, Lola was over at my side and crushing me with her feeble weight while I laughed it off and hugged her back.I did miss her, and I wanted nothing more than for us to resume our cycle and actually give each other all the tea on what happened during the break. On my part there were things I was dying to tell her, things that included Mac's sudden change of attitude. "You must have been so anxious, getting here so early" Lola glanced at the wristwatch on her hand, then offered me a small smile. She knew me too much. "Only anxious to see you," I teased. Then I went over to help her lift her things into the room. "I see you've learned my way of expression" She grinned and threw her bag at me. I dodged it and laughed "One can only live with you for so long until they adopt all your habits." Only Lola would come back with several bags of clothes and yet take an hour every morning to find something suitable for the day. The girl was the most unique person I'd met. After we bo
Last Updated : 2023-06-06Fated to love you 99: Or was there?
The message came in just as I unlocked my phone. I stared at it in unbelief. It read 'what time are you free tommorow?'I gasped.The fact that he wanted to see me despite everything I thought showed me that once again Lola was right about everything... Well almost everything. But other than that, I couldn't shake off the fact that I thought he knew my schedule and this was merely formality. I was almost so certain of it. "Was that a message from him? What does it say?" Lola rushed over at once and had a gigantic smile on her face the moment she read the same words that I did.We had no lectures tommorow because it was resumption week and that meant that people would resume almost every single day of the week so lectures officially began next week. I was free the whole day. But did I really want to tell him that? The thought of spending the entire day with him or around his confines made me jittery in a way that felt wrong. And I wasn't sure of my confidence in myself to keep mys
Last Updated : 2023-06-07Fated to love you 100: A ploy of deceit and Shadows.
Lola noticed the shift in my mood immediately. From the look of things, it seemed Charles did too because the moment I looked away he reached for my hand but on reflex I deflected it. My thoughts were swirling around in a confused motion and I couldn't decide what to believe or what not to believe. Maybe I was simply overthinking but it was crazy to think of what was happening. Was it even possible? A fresh string of rage hit me once more. Did he really fool me by keeping me for so long in the dark?Would Lucas do this to me? Was I nothing but a plaything to them? someone they could conveniently deceive and go Scott-free?I took another step back and placed my hands on my head in pretense."Um, you know what? You guys can go ahead without me, I suddenly developed a splitting headache and it hurts like hell to move" I lied. "Are you okay?" Lola piped, her concern shining through her voice and her scrunched-up face so much that I felt instantly guilty for lying to her and making her w
Last Updated : 2023-06-08Fated to love you 101: A shocking secret.
I didn't know who ended the call but at the moment I couldn't bring myself to care at all. Tears flowed from my eyes on their own accord and it didn't give me a reason to know if they were worth it or if they were not.It hurt that my one friend other than Lola was nothing but a bodyguard all along. Showing up at the most random places and acting like our meeting was purely coincidental. It stung like hell. But looking at it in hindsight I could see how perfectly orchestrated the whole thing was, even though at the moment I had written it off as nothing but a mere coincidence, Was anything even real? The night we met, he said he had been out and running too, but was that the truth? How many of our encounters have been premeditated and planned but painted to me as a coincidence which I happily bought into?My heart stung at the thought. Once more, ir suddenly made so much sense why I was paired with Lucas for the Alumni event. Because of what I knew now, I also knew that it really was
Last Updated : 2023-06-09
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Fated to love you 154: I was always yours.
After the very intense and romantic dinner, which mainly consisted of Lucas staring at me with his electric blue orbs and me trying not to puke everything that had entered my belly due to the intensity in his eyes, he led us quietly back into the room where I perched awkwardly at the edge of the bed. "Where is everyone?" I whispered. I couldn't help but note the differences between his and Mac's houses. No pack members were sprawling around here, and no slaves or workers were moving to do his bidding. I was curious: was this how he lived as an Alpha?"I dismissed them," Lucas replied, dispersing the chaos in my mind. That made sense, I thought. Lucas continued to stare at me with something like longing in his eyes, and I had no idea what to do. He had said nothing would happen tonight, so why did he stare at me like that?As if sensing my thoughts, his long fingers wrapped around my jaw smoothly. " Don't think too much, just stay here with me." "What attracted you to me?" I whisper
Fated to love you 153: Glitters and Magic
"Oh, my goodness! I've told you, Amanda, I'm not going for something extra and shiny; I want something simple and nice!" She smirked as she handed me yet another one of her extravagant dresses. "You mean something cute and sexy?" My face went up in flames. "Oh my god! Amanda! For the hundredth time, we are not doing anything tonight!" "Oh yeah, and that's why you are spending the night with him?" "Urghhhh," I whinnied, covering my face with my hands at her absolute morbidity. It was practically impossible to win with this girl. In her most innocent voice, she added, "Well, since you claim it is nothing sensual, then you probably wouldn't want to wear a dress like this." She held up a red dress, and I lost my breath. "That's it," I whispered, and with one final squeal, I ran into the bathroom to get changed. At exactly seven pm, the doorbell rang, and Amanda ran excitedly to open it while I finished up my outfit. Spritzing perfume and taking deep breaths. I walked out to
Fated to love you 152: You are spending the night with me.
Two weeks later, there was no word from Lucas. If I had not seen the weary news and heard the whispered rumors I would have been scared, but now I was more upset than anything. His plans were already in motion. It was one downfall to the other of the Ashen subsidiaries, and the tabloid made sure everyone knew. Between clans, they could tell that things were looking bad for the Ashens. Even though they played all the cards they had, Lucas was smarter, strategically utilizing all his inside men to break down the very foundation of their business. Father kept us updated as he continued working there, despite the fresh rage I had seen in his eyes after that discussion and the hunger for revenge for Mom. He kept us updated on the incessant fights that kept happening while also trying to gather some men who were formally of our pack before they became slaves as a means of survival. I sighed for the fifth time, watching as the red mother broadcaster spoke about an outbreak of fire in the
Fated to love you 151: It all comes together.
When I got in, Father pulled me into a big, tight hug that left me both shocked and in awe, and I went to bed tipsy with happiness and the euphoria of everything that had happened. Finally, it felt like everything was all coming together, so for that night, I swallowed the questions I had for Father and basked in the sheer joy in the air, falling asleep with a huge smile on my face and a weight lifted from my chest. Soon, very soon, we will all witness the heavy downfall of Mac and the entire Ashen family. ****** The smell of pancakes and bacon that wafted through the air the next morning told me of my sister's arrival. Father must have called them over last night, and that could only mean that we were having a family meeting. I jumped down from the bed, excited to see them and eat delicious food after such a long time. "Fiona darling," Giselle's slender arms wrapped around me as I stepped into the kitchen, looking as ivory and as beautiful as ever with that flowery scent that ma
Fated to love you 150: It is settled now baby.
The ride home was silent and filled with the many words and thoughts running through our minds. I finally had enough time to process everything Lucas told me, which was a lot. The plan was for him to drop me off, but I knew I was going to tell my family the truth about everything that occurred many years ago and find out why Father hid so many things from me. Even if Lucas was fine with being the bad guy and being blamed for things he had no hand in, I wasn't okay with it, and I needed to get it out.I glanced at the brooding man on the wheel. Ever since we managed to pry ourselves apart and his almost confession, he had been unusually quiet and even more brooding, like he was lost in thought in a space of his own, and I had no idea how to reach him. "What's going on?" I asked, turning to face him and taking him in more; we had spent the past days together, yet he still looked handsome in a new way. I still couldn't get over how handsome he was. I didn't think it would ever be somet
Fated to love you 149: You would be the end of me.
Somehow the kiss transcended from my little kiss as Lucas took control, fighting with every urge in his body against his wold from ripping my clothes and taking me, and I could feel it in every strain as he deepened the kiss, picking me up from the floor, I wrapped my legs instinctively around his waist as I went in for more, grabbing a handful of his shirt. The desire I felt eroded my senses, but I knew it was nothing compared to the one a person with full access to his alpha wolf felt; all I got from my wolf was an intense need and constant purring, which rang out as moans as Lucas raked his hands hastily from my back to my waist repeatedly.Carefully and still deep in the kiss, he led me back into the room till I was dropped softly against the soft sheets and towered by him. My heart seized as I stared at his almost black-blue eyes now, electricity running up and down his blue orbs and desire fueling them so passionately I felt dizzy for a second. My own need propelled me to wrap m
Fated to love you 148: A kiss to save.
"No," Lucas thundered, taking my soft fists in his large ones. I expected this, so I didn't budge. I added calmly, "I wasn't asking for your permission, Lucas. I was simply letting you know I am all in on this." "I don't want to drag you down this path. The Ashens are ruthless and very crafty. You are not ready, and I would hate for any harm to come to you on my account." "You think I don't know they are ruthless? Do you think I have no idea how crafty they can be when I have been a victim myself? I am well aware, and it is my knowledge that fuels my anger." I paused, inhaling deeply. "I, too, have been offended, and I am itching for my revenge, So train me or protect me. Whatever makes you feel better, but know that I will not sit and watch idly, and I will make Mac pay whether or not you let me in on this. I will beat him at his own game," I fought. He stared at me warily for a while before heaving a breath and nodding. "I will not put you in harm's way, but I will train you we
Fated to love you 147: Bring hell to the Ashen Clan
Lucas didn't come in for at least twenty minutes, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stop thinking about the big bulge in his pants when he walked out of the room. I had felt it earlier when I laid down, and now it has become the most fascinating and most terrifying thing to me, but I just couldn't breathe my head to kick out the thought.I lay beneath the duvet, covering my red-coated face and my swollen lips from the past few minutes, my heart was still racing as though I had just run a marathon, and particles of the lightheadedness I felt when Lucas was kissing me still remained. I missed him immediately when he left, as he walked out of the door, as soon as his hands left my body. I came to the slow realization that my feelings for Lucas were rapidly changing into something big and beyond my control it was only a matter of time before they blew up in my face. The air in the room still smelled like him, like wood and soap and masculine sweat and for a second I imagined hi
Fated to love you 145: "For you I can be gentle"
Lucas caught up with me in no time, but I refused to give in when his large arms encircled me again. I thrashed against his body and bumped into trees hoping to scratch and loosen his death grip on me. "I'm sorry, Fiona, But listen, Hear me out first," He said, not sounding a minute breathless or like someone carrying a thrashing girl. "No, let me go!" I thrashed and kicked around the open air "You're only going to hurt yourself, Fiona," Lucas growled. " Stay put and listen to what I have to say for your own sake." "No, you listen to me, Let. Me. Go." I protested. Lucas sighed and wrapped his hand even firmer around my torso. "Why do you choose the wrong times to be stubborn and throw a tantrum? Do you have any idea how difficult it has been for me to watch you fawn over someone as horrible as Mactervish?" He scoffed, then continued in a ludicrous manner, "Or should I speak about how worried I have been every second that you have spent with him? dined with him, sat with him, a
