Chapter Four

Connor POV

Its and hour drive back to the penthouse and I'm not sure how to file away that interaction with her. I guess more of a blundering in the dark kind of thing, here I thought Rebecca missed me after spending most of the days since Dorians passing together weather she was sane mind at the time is debatable, but even I had hoped maybe she just wanted to be around me. But what she wanted from me was to to be rid of us. seems I'm only needed for two things money and sex. Both I enjoy but to have the realization come crashing down on me that my life work is boiled down to two things is just a blow to my ego. It actually angers me. I grip the steering wheel until it feels like my knuckles are about to rip out of my flesh.

"She is sad idiot" Fenris growls lower than normal

what were you sleeping? Fossil I sneer

"actually if you must know I was trying to figure out what is wrong with Bec" he says calmer than I feel

"Oh? you were? see anything I didn't?" knowing full well he was damn near present for the entire time. Watching, waiting, Hunting

"Yes, she wants us" he preens

"Goddess be damn really that's all you picked up off her, you horny wolf!"

"I'm no WOLF!"

"If you didn't think I couldn't smell her slight arousal, or hear her heart beat pick up and pulse quicken your loosing it in your old age!" she's human so most of my powers work better on her than other beings so of course my senses were tuned in on her, I can almost hear her thoughts if I tired hard enough honestly.

"so now what?" Fenris asks taping his claws in a rhythmic pattern

"what do you mean?" I lift my eyebrow at him

"Claim, Mark, Mate duh?"

I'm honestly shocked at him when he says it, he has never asked or showed an interest in anyone just content with waiting for his mate to come padding threw our lives

"what if mate is Bec?" he asks

I know what he means and its not possible, not for us

"there's no way the Moon Goddess would pair us with a human, that's a cruel joke"

"Fate is cruel"

"we would kill her, she not strong enough to handle you" I tell him honestly

Fenris whimpers at my words, true or not I know I struck a nerve

he recedes into the darkness again leaving me with my thoughts

I didn't get but 20 minutes from the Starbucks and I shot Natalie a text to have her order dinner for Rebecca and have it sent to her house later, enough for a few people incase she had family over still. I know she didn't eat while I was there and I wasn't sure when she ate last and I couldn't just let her neglect herself.

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Pulling into the parking garage it was like I was on auto pilot, I don't understand where these emotions are coming from with Fenris. He usually laid back and hanging on by a string ready to snap at a breeze blowing to strong

I walk up to the elevator pressing the button for my floor when the ding happens I don't look up still lost in thought when I don't notice the elevator isn't empty I step in just to be hit with a failure scent and I hear a heart beat quicken. Fenris is fully alert and presses on the veil pushing me into the box further

"Laura" I breathe out

"hey baby miss me?" she beams up at me only to met with my cold stare

"what are you doing here?" I ask her as emotionless as possible

"I figured I come visit since you wont take any of my calls, I though well that just cant be it" she smirks at me

Fenris pushes to the front eyes flickering, my skin sprouting fur I do everything I can to keep him back but its no use I'm thrown to the back of my mind into the darkness forced to watch as Fenris grabs Laura by the jaw and presses my body against her while he kisses her with such heat it makes my stomach turn, I'm nauseated my stomach its churning like I've just swallowed gallons of wolfsbane. Agony is all I feel as if my insides are being set on fire, my chest is being crushed until my lungs feel as if they are going to burst like balloons, my skin burning as if being peeled from my body, my muscles are numb tingling like a million needles pushing threw until I'm in the fetal position in my own mind curled up trying to stop the pain washing over me.

Hours the pain stayed, Only once it stopped do I know Fenris is done violating my body with hers, I was so ill I couldn't even look out of my own eyes. It was so dark back here. I welcomed the cold, allowing it to calm my nerves that seem to have been sliced by my own claws while nothing is sharp enough to kill me I know this pain couldn't be physical. I turn laying on my back like a starfish as the darkness under me feels cool like water as I lay looking up at pitch blackness, Fenris must be sleeping refusing to give me control which also I am okay with. Its exhausting being in control all the time, living in the city needing to always be here is exhausting. I never get to let Fenris take control unless I want half the city population to decrease.

Not like shifters I cant just sneak threw the city looking like an oversized dog that escaped the Zoo, no Fenris is a 15ft beast standing on his hind legs, he is the first wolf created by Loki himself, a child of the trickster and son of giants. While he looks like a wolf on all fours he is larger than a bear but being a god he is able to control his form in such a way its almost terrifying, nothing as big as him should be able to exist but yet here he is, my other half of my soul.

The Alpha of Alphas a God king there is no titled higher than ours, our strength and powers seem to be limitless, Moon Goddess be damned she paired us together and for some 1000 years it has worked and we have coexisted just fine, so I suppose she knew what she was doing. Except she had deprived us of the one thing biologically we crave and seek out, the other half to our darkness.

As I lay in the back of my mind I can hear Fenris surroundings and know Laura is awake. I can’t believe he let her stay the night. I reach for control back as I push past the veil that separates us just as Laura comes through the doorframe.

"Hey Handsome" her words slip out in a sultry tone

" Hey yourself" I stretch upright and turn away from her looking out at the skyline when I see the sun rising.

“Fuck” I groan out loud scrubbing a hand over my face

"yeah I knew I should have woke you last night, but we are just so good together" she hummed seductively

“It will never happen again Laura I mean it. There is no WE there never was this pity fuck” I point between us “you think your worth means nothing. Do not come back here again if you do I WILL kill you" I stalk over to where she is standing looming over her I notice she’s unfazed by my presence of intimidation

I guess that should be expected she is okay with sleeping with a 15ft beast.

"We are one in the same Idiot, when she sees me I project you" he bellows manically from the back of my mind like he is in another room.

I clench my jaw feeling my teeth grind together from seething in rage. Of course he would use projection of fucking course! Not only can he shift into a full wolf form he can shift into a Lycan form, since we are the Primordial Wolf son of Loki our abilities are endless. At times its infuriating mainly when I’m on the receiving end.

I grab her arm and grip her up from where she is standing and throw her towards the door as she hits it with a thud I be fan whipping her things within my reach at her

"GET THE FUCK OUT BITCH! YOUR A DISGUSTING WASTE OF AIR!!"

I'm snarling my chest heaving and I feel my claws have slipped out I smell her pungent blood and observe she is clutching her arm as scrambles with one hand to grab her things I threw at her while screaming. I was done with Fenris and his disgusting disregard for me and what I want, only taking taking taking. I am Done. Do you hear me?!

Laura picks up her things becoming a blubbering mess as the door opens I hear Leo

"Ms. Paulson you must leave now, let me escort you out"

"Leo! can you please talk some sense into him! He cant be serious he just cant!

I hear the door shut, and click Leo making sure if she decided to have a death wish I wouldn't have her blood on my hands, Thank The Gods

I walk over to the bathroom after turning on the shower I stand at the sink brushing my teeth until the steam covers the mirror. Unable to see my reflection clear I finish and put my toothbrush back. I walk into the shower the searing hot water sprays over my face I let it burn me because nothing tops the feeling of last night. I don’t remember when my body started rejecting my carnal urges but I can only sum it up to who ever I fuck that’s not my mate will make me feel like I am dying. Drinking hasn’t even been able to numb it, Fenris has never forced us while I was sober because he knows the pain it puts me threw but I think he was trying to punish me last night

What makes you think that? he spits like venom as I feel him creep towards the front stalking threw the veil slow like the shadows he lives in

"Maybe because you fucked Laura? knowing full well it damn near kills me when your fucking some woman!"

for there to be pain we would have had to have met our mate Connor he says inquisitively

"we both know what a mate pull is supposed to feel like" I close my eyes knowing I'm right and he is saying it to get into my head

No Connor, I am already in your head why would I pretend and lie? what do I gain? he tilts his head

"You know as well as I do if we would have met our mate, she would never have left our sight" I huff

we are the same Idiot! I made you a god Connor! untouchable remember? and you think I would be so low as ignore a fated mate pull?!

Fenris growls so deep I can feel it rattle my chest

It always circled back to we are one, I could never argue with him when he threw it in my face, we are not separate but the same person. I could feel his blood run threw me, I wasn't just a vessel for him but a form of his he was forced to let me have most of the control. I guess being the son of the Trickster wasn't so fun after all. I try not to ponder so much about the gods, it only leads to a huge migraine and Fenris able to force control easier and right now gods only know what he would be up to.

I keep my eyes closed letting the water hit my back as I scrub my body clean from the filthy touch of Laura

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Having showered and dressed now ready for the day I should have had yesterday, I called Romero to formally apologize for missing our meeting only to be told by his assistant that he had been up to no good yesterday and left a reschedule day with my assistant Natalie, which was odd since she always leaves me detailed messages about missed meetings or rescheduled ones. Acting like it slipped my mind I ended my call with his assistant on a good note without apologizing like a idiot.

Dialing Natalie I'm furious by the time she answers but she sounds off. She apologizes, I brush it off not giving her more chances to say those damn words. An apology only works when it has meaning and hers never do, more of a fill in for loss for words from her, so meek and small almost afraid of her own shadow.

I am the shadows she has every right to be scared

I shake the dark images Fenris is giving me as I feel him laying in a pounce position rumbling our chest. He was always watching. Always hunting.

I hung up with Natalie only to get another call from and unknown number

Unknown Number

I click it to voicemail not caring to answer it

Unknown Number

again? Fenris growls now sensing something is up, he may be ancient but his sense of things have never been wrong, I guess a perk of being a god.

again I send it voicemail and set my phone down on the glass table in the center of my sunken living room and walk to the window.

Usually my days are more eventful but since Dorian's death all the supernatural beings in the city have been laying low, they know his death wasn't an accident no matter how much the media tried to shove it down their throats, only the humans would believe something like that. His Talisman being cracked was a clear sign it was no mere mortal accident, this was the doing of something bigger much bigger. But what was in our city that was more powerful than a God? Someone knew he was suppressing his wolf with his moonstone ring and knew to hit his talisman with enough magic to break it so his wolfs powers weren't accessible. Because that's how it works our moonstone ring locks up our wolf including their powers, but only our personal ring can bind us its a physical connection to them.The talisman gives us all those powers back but without the risk of our wolf coming forward. Without the talisman though we are basically mortal until the ring is removed and our wolf wakes up.

The time it takes for them to wake is enough for normal fatal wounds to kill us weather it be a stab wound or car crash. Even with their blood running threw our veins making us a type of demi god. Our loophole which was why I never wore the ring much. They need us as much as we need them to survive. Dorian knew all of this so to risk suppressing his abilities carelessly like that makes me believe it was someone who knows the loophole or it was another God.

Fenris rumbles in my chest still sitting in his pounce position listening to me and interjecting his own emotions and thoughts.

Dorian dyeing meant his soul and Sköll's were sent back to the Moon Goddess realm for her to decide what to do with, although I doubt she will be recycling him back down. Something was different now almost as if the balance was off. One of our own was targeted and stuck down as if he was a simple fly buzzing around that did not sit right with me, or Fenris. Nikolai should have felt something which is why it surprised me that I haven't herd from him i know he felt the moment Dorian took his last breath. We all did.

We were all connected but not in the same way like shifters are. I was tasks as a favor by the first Moon Goddess to pick the original Alphas for each of the packs, and their blood carries on small remnants of my power super healing, speed, strength etc. I even gave some bloodlines special abilities that only the 12th heir in each pack gets to be “blessed” with she takes all the credit though. None the less it was interesting at first seeing how they grew and changed each generation of alphas becoming stronger than the last one. Since I am the the first Wolf created that makes Dorian and Nikolai the first children so each pack belongs to us, each Alpha connected to me, each member of his or her pack unknowingly also belonging to me.

But as far as a “pack” there were no bounds with me. It has always been just us, Hati and Sköll. We picked up others along the way like Leo, Geri and Freki those last two were bound to me by Odin another condition to Fenris being able to walk among men again. Leo was loyal to me because he was the first 12th son who’s powers unknowingly caused his pack to be targeted and wiped out, he was the only one left. When I found him he was in rough shape.

Fenrir messed up 1000 years ago, and since then punishments coming every so often thanks to Odin, and my father since he cant seem to keep his humor to himself. Freja has never been able to forgive us. Neither has Tyr which we cant blame him, he did know the risk of making a deal with Fenrir when they decided to try and bind him. For reasons unknown, Odin decided to let him go, but the condition of him being able to live among humans was to be bound again but this time by humanity. They wanted to test weather or not that was what made humans so special. That's how I came to be. But Fenrir asked me to call him Fenris, in hopes a new name will help reshape his mind as well.

"Starving" Fenris low growls

"yeah we should probably eat something" I look down at my watch checking the time

"Or someone he snickers" I shake my head at him

"You know as well as I do now is not the time, If I let you out and you decide to wreak havoc on the city not even the wards could erase the damage you will cause"

a louder growl comes from him before I feel him walk back into the dark

I grab my keys off the hook by the door and head to the elevator down to the car park, we need to get out for a little while.

I text to Natalie to reschedule all meetings for the next week and to only contact me for emergency's.

I know exactly where my feet are taking me

Druid's Glen? Fenris perks up so excited I feel him push against my chest

I hum to him in agreement