Fenris POVConnor is right. We have a mate, But if he is forcing us to go away I cannot leave her here wondering why we abandoned her. Connor is only looking out for us this I know, I may be a beast but I am also capable of much more than Connor gives me credit. We wouldn't have survived this long had it not been for Connor, But I also know Rebecca White has a hold on me in ways I never thought possible. Its so hard to not be selfish about this, I owe it to him not to be. I have forced him to endure a lot of terrible shit and he's only asking me this one thing and its to walk away from Bec so we can have our mate. "Red" My voice came out gravelly and despondent "Fenris?” Her voice was breathy and faint I grumbled knowing apologizing was difficult in general for me, but I also didn’t want to scare her since I was in full control of Connors body only the red of my iris giving away my presence "Please forgive me little one but I have no choice"Bec was able to sit completely up right
Connor POVFenris was able to keep my pushed out until we made it back to the Penthouse. Angry? Pissed? irritate? I don't think there is a word for how I'm feeling. He locked me away like I was the animal! I don't even know what he did, let alone if the damn place is still standing."What have you done Fenris?! WHAT HAPPENED WITH BEC!""I said goodbye to her. Alone""WHY?!""Because she deserved it, she deserved to know we are leaving ""WE!? you mean your not going to fight me on this?""We are home are we not?""You used me while I was back there, Why?""I needed to make sure I didn't hurt her body""Why would you need me for that?""Your self control, I had to use it""How did she-""She will be fine" He cut me off and I could tell he wanted to leave it at that"She's physically fine though right Fen?" I could feel his pain, my own emotions mirroring his"Yes" that was all he said before he locked himself away, its the first time he put up his own block. I didn't know he could even
Bec POVI don't know how many days I've been in bed since Connor left. My body felt depleted after coming off the Aconite Leland injected me with. But most importantly I felt deep sadness, I was completely alone again. Why did everyone have to leave me? First my father then Dorian they didn’t get a choice in the matter unfortunately their abrupt absences from my life were permanent but Connor? He had a choice and he chose to leave. His choice to leave tore at a part of my being that confused the hell out of me and had me not only questioning everything between us over the last month or so but also my entire marriage. Of course I enjoyed being around my husband, But the way I felt around Connor it was like he slowly woke up apart of myself I didn't know was there. I felt different, and I was exhausted because of it. It was obvious I held some kind of emotional feelings for him. We had grown close since Dorian passed, Or so I thought. He wanted to leave because I would
I finished packing up my old room and gathered a few bags and took them down the stairs. I told Kris she could have everything in my bedroom in exchange for her favor. Once I got to the bottom of the stairs I took my bags to the foyer so I could get them all to my car without my mother trying to stop me. I had an inkling she wasn't done. Before I could make my way back to the kitchen to tell mom I was leaving she was behind me with a plate of cookies covered in plastic film and two take away containers of what I didn’t know.My arms stayed by my side as I eyed her wearily."Peace offerings? I made up some of the leftovers for you and Leo.." She held out her offerings to me. For the sake of not picking a fight I took them"Thank you mom, I appreciate it. I'm sure Leo will too""I hope so. Do you need any help getting your things?""No you don't need to help me its okay some are kinda heavy""KRIS!” I called out behind her"She left.." worry in moms tone ma
I knew the drive home would be long with the storm that came in. It took over an hour to get back to the vineyard and Leo followed safely behind me. I still didn't now how this arrangement was supposed to work. The cottage only had one bedroom how was he supposed to keep guard the entire time? How much sleep do werewolves need? and not to mention how often do they need to let their wolf out? I don't even know what to call it. Transforming? shapeshifting? We pulled into the parking lot and made our way to the white gate I used my key card this time to raise the bar so we could enter. The drive way wound is an S shape all the way to the the gravel clearing that made getting in and out easy. The sun was still in the sky but I was already ready to clock out for the day. We parked and I grabbed the duffels I had in my trunk and headed inside to my room. I dug around and found some loose fitting shorts and my house slippers, I changed quickly in the bathroom. I didn't feel like unpacking t
I blink rapidly whipping my head in Leo's direction, he had a firm grip on the glass that was just in my hand but he didn't hold it for more than a few seconds before he hissed. The glass dropped to the ground shattering into a million pieces steam rolled off of the ground from where the liquid had ended up. Leo was looking at his hand and as I jumped to my feet I could see his fingers were bright red. Had I not been consumed by the rage caused by our game of questions and other peoples actions I would have cared more that he was injured. He looked back at me his eyes were wide as he took a step back from me where I was now standing. The glass crunching under the rubber of my slippers didn't stop me from moving forward to him ready to push this mountain of a man on his ass "WHAT IN THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM!" I poked my finger into his chest making him back off the cement pad. His hands were raised up in defense and I could see his hand was fine now "I-I-" He stammered but I gave him
The tray in my hand felt like it weighed 100 pounds as I watched the double doors flutter back and forth making the seal between it rub gently from the force of the noise on the other side. Mike who had been behind me didn't stop walking towards the doors despite the horrendous sound that was coming from behind them.He put his shoulder threw them while I half expected to hear him yell or scream in panic, I herd him laugh instead. My feet moved without my approval to the doors still holding the tray in my hands, I was ready to use it to protect myself if I had to. Once I pushed threw those doors to see what made Mike break out into laughter I blew out the breath I had been holding"You old man are a menace, I should have known" Leo was glaring at Mike threw gritted teeth fist clenched apparently Leo doesn't like to be embarrassed, who knew.Mike sat the trays in the warmers and closed the lids back down on each of them before turning to take the tray form my hands, my eyes were still s
I knew having Leo on my side was the best option but I still didn’t know how much I could tell him that would stay between us, I wanted to trust him I really did but besides Krishna I’ve never had someone I could trust whole heartedly I found myself constantly torn between spilling my guts to him or keeping my lips sealed. I don't know why I'm so damn worried about the possibility of Leo being forthcoming to Connor with the information I was about to tell him of Kris and I’s gift unfortunately no matter how drawn I’ve become towards him since Dorian passed I was also giving heed to some information I acquired while eavesdropping. I’ve recently discovered Dorian had a flair for smoke and mirrors causing me to spend far to much time in my head attempting to figure out what was true vs what was a lie. So up until now I never gave much thought to a phone call I over herd him having on one of the few nights he was home since his phone was on silent I never herd it ring but I felt hi
There was no right way of doing things when it came to Nikolai so when I found him he was quite literally on the edge of a cliff. As I approached him I could quickly tell by his ridged posture he had no intentions of walking back to the castle with me so we could properly clear the air.“Don’t Connor I don’t want to hear excuses” he calmly yelled threw the wind and over the torrent of crashing waves down below“I will go with you back to America not because I forgive him, her or you..” He left the reason why hanging between us. He didn’t have to say it out loud I already knew why he was coming back, Dorian would have done the same for him. He turned his head to look at me from our side by side position“I will need a few weeks before we can leave”Before I could ask him what he meant he lunged forward into the sea below us. He wouldn’t die from any of the injuries he was going to sustain and as much as I wanted to use magic to retrieve him I knew he would just do it again given the ch
Releasing them after the forced shift, I catch him as Nik's own voice continued his internal screams"Kill me Connor!!! Just end it all I can’t live like this anymore!!!!” His pleas are frantic, as I hold him his entire body convulses with the emotional turmoil.“I don’t want to live anymore!!! I don’t want to see another sun to rise!! 800 years is long enough!” He continued to sob threw his yelling of obscenity’s begging me to end him, attempting to provoke Fenris saying anything to call him out, but we refused to engage his requests. I know how he is feeling all too well, we both felt the same wanting to rip ourselves apart just to feel anything after his life bond snapped, the numbness he has been pushing away will help him get through this but first he has to feel. We will help him get through this.“Let it in Nik it’s the only way we will get threw”“He won’t come back if I do”“He’s not coming back, he’s dead Nik” saying the words was like rubbing course salt in an open wound bu
Connor POVThe night after he left 1 month from presentI materialized in the stone archway to Nikolai’s castle in Strömstad Sweden, one of many castles the three of us owned threw out Nordic Europe. I didn’t make an attempt to reach out to Nik prior to my arrival I figured he would sense my magic once we were near, giving him no way to run since neither of my sons had magic quite like mine. Nikolai couldn’t run away anymore I was prepared for the backlash from him for choosing to support Dorian in his “traitorous” life. The lines blur heavily between Fenris, and I most supernatural beings have extended lives whereas we are immortal living now for over 1,000 years I think it would be unnatural if we didn’t mirror one another in some kind of way other than physically when we shift. Nikolai and Hati always struggled being bonded. I’d dare go as far as saying he is very much like Fenris where Sköll was like me the human part it was a risk Fenris didn’t consider when he decided to procrea
I looked down at Bec one more time as I followed Leo out to the hallway, unsure of the time we didn’t linger outside her door we walked outside and headed to where Leo was staying. Once we got inside his room, he confirmed what I already had been thinking“I don’t know how much Bec knows about Dorians death, but she was the one who was told about it being a murder” his hands were in his pockets as he sauntered over to one of the chairs, I remained leaning on one of my shoulders next to the front door after processing what Leo just said though I wished I had been seatedI was wrong, so wrong no wonder she is hostile not only did he mess her up in the head their entire marriage, but he couldn’t even give her peace after he died.“Who is sick in the head enough to tell her that?”“It being her truth to tell I can only say it was a Demon. Asmodeus has been confronted, so he is involved and now sometime in august the 7 will also be here since they hold information Connor wants”“Has he gon
Theodeus POVI couldn’t let her go alone to her office, Ares wouldn’t quit whining once he seen how upset she was so I relented and we went after her. The initial shock I had seeing a burn caused by her bare hands paled in comparison to the pure static electricity radiating around her as she stormed off, it was as if she was leaving a trail in her wake. I couldn’t fathom the way she was feeling right now since nobody has filled her in on a damn thing, she says she’s not a shifter but humans do not get hot enough to burn anything let alone hot enough to cause permanent damage to a shifters skin. It made no sense to me why it happened but yet it did and instead of being able to help her figure out this world she has unknowingly been living in for the last 10 years, now I want to help her figure out what she is. I know it sounds like I’m being selfish but there’s nothing selfish about needing to be near her, Ares told me she was different the moment he herd her voice on the phone. Ever s
“Go a ways back? You mean like when you were kids?” I asked Theo “Something like that” Leo chimed in darkly Both of their facial expressions gave nothing away as to why they clearly didn’t like one another, but Theo’s eyes glittered in the dimly lit area the three of us stood in. I couldn’t be sure but his eyes seemed to hint at something but as quick as the emotions came they were gone“Your not gonna tell me right now are you?” I looked between Leo and Theo inquisitively Leo looked on at Theo in askance as I waited for them to clarify“No Doll, right now is not the time for that story” Theo grabbed my hand in his pulling my gaze from Leo who was now walking into the woods“Get her back inside” he instructed“Oh and Theodeus, don’t get to comfortable here” Leo shifted back into his huge silver wolf barreling off threw the trees out of sight“Still as welcoming as a cactus I see” he chuckled dryly shaking his head“Not usually, I’ve never seen Leo treat anyone in a way they didn’t des
All I knew for certain was one of them was my friend and I couldn’t just leave him to get killed. I could still hear thuds and growls as I slowly stepped over broken tree limbs trying to keep myself hidden so I could have the upper hand of a surprise attack. I didn’t hear anymore thuds or sounds of them attacking each other as I came up to were I seen both of them moving slowly circling one another. Neither one looked like they were ready to back down any time soon teeth were still bared and low rumbling could still faintly be herd from both massive wolves. I took another step while crouched down but snapping branches under my feet gave me away.SHITBoth wolves heads snapped in my direction two sets of glowing eyes were now fixed on me watching as I stood up straight. It was the black wolf that made a move in my direction. It’s silver eyes looked like moonlight so bright and clear as it’s posture softened no longer could I see it’s teeth but I could hear and see it’s breath in the ai
laying on my futon couch scrolling on my phone it’s been over an hour since Theo walked me the rest of the way to my office and since then my mind has been replaying our passionate encounter, I was swept literally off my feet by him but I couldn’t wrap my head around as to what to do now. After going in circles in my mind I eventually got restless and decided to do something I haven’t done since I was in high school. Getting up from where I was laying I dug threw my bags and found a sports bra along with a pair of black tight leggings slipping them on and my sweater I tied my bright colored Nike trainers on and slipped out of my office and down the hallway to the door to the back portion of the property.I was severely out of shape but I figured jogging was like riding a bike you never forget right? I knew going outside in the middle of the night was probably not the best idea but Leo being my local werewolf bodyguard meant he was probably out there and with that fact I couldn't think
“This seat taken?” He motioned to it with a drink in his hand“Nope” I made sure to pop the P as he sat down in the large wooden chair that he filled with his massive frame. I watched him with hooded eyes as the shadows from the fire danced around us. I greedily ran my eyes over his form. I watched in fascination as his thigh muscles rippled with every slight movement under the jeans he was wearing. His upper half was covered in a hoodie that fit his bulky form deliciously. I knew from seeing him earlier that the dark cotton material was hiding all the mouthwatering dips and curves of muscle his t-shirts did a wonderful job of highlighting, he was perfect I really meant it when I said he was built like a God. Unsure as to why he was here in front of me I broke the silence first“What are you doing here still?” Not that I mind too much but nonetheless I was curious“Does it bother you I am here?” He hummed his question not looking at me but at the fire“Why do you care what bothers me?