Chapter three

Shawn's POV 

It's been a week since Abbigail and I both confessed our feelings for each other. It's also been as long since the nightmares have returned each night. I had thoughts of calling her, but didn't want to disturb her sleep. I called my sister and my parents, but none of them were able to help me calm down so I could sleep, not like Abbigail. 

I was sitting in my bed, rocking myself unable to calm down from my nightmare and no one is answering their phone. I really don't want to bother Abbigail, but I'm scared to sleep. I pick up my phone and it was nearly two in the morning. 

I end up caving, needing to feel her in my arms and call her. To my surprise she answers on the second ring. "Shawn? Are you having trouble sleeping," she asks with concern in a tired whisper. 

"I haven't really slept all week and no one else can calm me down like you do. I really don't want to bother you, but I need you," I choke in broken sobs. "No one else is picking up and I'm scared."

"Come over," she says in a soothing whisper. "Don't be afraid to wake me Shawn."

Just hearing her voice was soothing and I was able to calm down some. "Will you stay on the phone with me, please," I ask in a calming whisper. 

"Of course, you already sound a little calmer," she says with relief.

I let her do most of the talking so I could keep calm while I drove. I concentrated on my breathing and her voice. Before I knew it I was both calm and pulling in her driveway. I hung up my phone as she opened the front door and I walk in her arms.

I drop my bag of clothes inside the door and hold onto her for a minute. I breathe in her lingering rose perfume and feel myself relax the rest of the way. She rubs at my back and I lift her up to wrap around my waist. 

She switches to run her hands in my hair and I let out a calming sigh. She gives my forehead a kiss and I head for her bedroom. She starts kissing my neck before I reach her room and I gasp a moan.

I lay her in bed, climbing between her legs and kiss her passionately. It was a good distraction from my nightmares and I needed it, the distraction. She was tugging at my shirt, trying to pull it over my head and I help her. Her shirt was quick to follow. 

Her hands roam my chest, massaging my breasts and I moan. "Are you okay to do this right now," she asks with concern, caressing my face.

"Please, I need a distraction from these nightmares," I choke in a scared whisper. "I haven't felt this calm since the last time we shared a bed to sleep."

She pushes me on my back, straddling my legs. I erect against her and she gasps, biting her bottom lip. She reaches over in her nightstand and pulls a condom from the drawer. She grinds her hips down against my erection and we both moan.

"Abbigail," I plead in a whisper, flexing my hips up against her. 

She places her finger to my lips, rising to her knees as she removes her panties and unties my pajama bottoms. I help her remove my pants and boxers. She runs her hands up my legs until she's gently grasping my erection. 

She opens the condom and tries to roll it over me. I help her get it over the tip and she rolls it down teasingly slow, before massaging my balls. My breaths quicken and she moves to lower herself onto my hard shaft.  She slowly lowers until she's sitting flesh against flesh.

She rolls her hips and it allows me to enter her deep, hitting all of her sensitive spots. Soon her hips are moving fast and hard. Her moans drown out mine sinking her nails into my stomach.

It didn't take long for us to reach climax and she collapses on top of me, body convulsing from her orgasm. Both of us were out of breath, laying in a tangled mess of limbs. 

"Let's take a bath," she says in a breathy tone. 

"Okay," I say catching my breath. She gets off my lap and I notice the condom is broken. "Abbigail, are you on any birth control?"

"No, why? You sound nervous," she says with concern.

"Our condom broke and I came hard," I say quietly afraid of how she's going to react. 

She was sitting on the bed with her back to me and she was quiet. I was scared of what to do, but knew I wanted to be there for her. I move to sit next to her and silent tears rolled down her cheeks. "Are you going to run if...," she starts to ask in a choked whisper and I took her in my arms.

"I'm not going anywhere Abbigail, not even when you push me away," I say in a soothing tone and she holds onto me. "I'm sorry. "

She laughs in her sobs and says, "I had a part in this too. I just wasn't ready for this if it happens, but I'm happy to go through it if it's with you."

I wipe her eyes and kiss her forehead. "I meant what I said. I'm not going anywhere," I say softly and she lets out a calming breath. "You still wish to take a bath?"

She nods against my shoulder and we walk to her bathroom. I run the water while she zones out, arms hugging her stomach protectively.  I step behind her, rubbing her shoulders and she lets out a relaxed sigh. I slide my hands down to caress her stomach and she leans against my chest. 

I kiss her cheek and she places her hands over mine. "I don't have a spare room," she says quietly in a distant tone.

"I do. I have two guest rooms. If you do get pregnant we could make one a nursery," I say softly, kissing her temple and turning off the water. We climb in the tub and she sits against my front. She replaces my hands on her stomach and I say, "Whatever you decide, I'm with you."

"Time will tell," she says softly and kisses my cheek. "Let's not think about it right now, please?"

"I can't smell your perfume in my pillows anymore, it was helping me fall asleep. The nightmares weren't too bad the first two nights because I could still smell your lingering perfume," I choke quietly.  "I really missed how you traced over my scar until I fell asleep, how safe I felt with you laying in my arms and how relieved I was able to sleep without a single nightmare."

"I missed you too," she chokes quietly. "Your scent is gone from your shirt and I miss it. I've been wanting to call you, but didn't want to disturb you if you'd been able to sleep. I was about to call you tonight, but you called first."

We both laugh through our tears. "Let's alternate between each others places for a while and if I do end up pregnant I'll move in with you," she says and turns her head back towards me and I kiss her as my response. "We can also leave clothes at each other's house until we decide to move in together."

"I love the idea. I brought some clothes and a work uniform. I have a shift at eight in the morning," I say in a tired whisper. 

"We should get you to bed so you can get some sleep," she says softly, standing up to climb out of the tub.

She slips, but I was quick to catch her. She grabs hold of my upper arms, our faces close together and her breaths hitch. Her lips brush mine and her breaths grew heavy. "I'll text my captain, I toured with his daughter. He knows about my troubles with sleep. I'd rather be with you," I whisper against her lips. 

She nods, pressing her lips against mine in a slow passionate kiss. "I can't get enough of you," she whispers against my lips. "Shawn, I-I'm in love with you."

Abbigail

I just confessed that I'm in love with Shawn and I wish I could see her reaction because she hasn't responded and a few minutes have passed and we were in my room getting dressed. I couldn't take it anymore and reach to feel where she is so I could feel her face. 

When I find her, she was sitting on the floor by my dresser. I sit next to her and feel for her face. Fresh tears fell down her cheeks and I was confused why she was crying. I wipe her eyes and she leans her cheek into my hand.

"I'm in love with you too," she chokes in a whisper. She takes in a shaky breath and says, "The reason no one was picking up when I called them tonight is because they were at the hospital. My grandmother passed away after a massive heart attack."

"Oh, baby I'm so sorry," I say in sympathy, taking her in my arms. "I thought I scared you off."

That earned me a light giggle from her, but she was right back to crying. I get us moved to the bed and have her lay on my chest so I can run my fingers through her hair. It wasn't long before I heard her even breaths that I knew she was asleep.

My phone was ringing, but I didn't know who it was. All my contacts have their own ringtone. The person calling me had my default ringtone. Thinking it could be Shawn's family looking for her after she just told me about her grandmother passing, I answer it. "Hello," I say quietly to not wake Shawn.

"Abbigail," her sister, Annie asks in a choked whisper. "We're at Shawn's. Is she with you?"

"I just got her to sleep. She knows about your grandmother, but that was after she came over because she couldn't sleep with the nightmares."

"Thank God," she chokes with relief. "She was really close with our grandmother."

I give her my address and tell her my spare house key was in a frog's mouth outside the door. I continue playing my fingers in Shawn's hair and soon I can hear two people enter my bedroom.

"Annie," I ask quietly. 

"Yes and our mother. Dad is waiting in the living room," she says in a choked whisper. "We already got a hold of her captain."

"I don't have a spare room, but you're welcome to my pull out couch. My chair reclines into a bed too. It's where my family sleep when they stay the night," I offer quietly. "It's late and you're welcome to sleep here."

"Thank you," Mrs. Andersen chokes quietly. "Please, call me Joyce."

"Can I talk to you again, in private?"

I needed someone in her family I know I can trust to talk about what happened tonight. I hear someone leave and my door close. Joyce's familiar perfume fills my nose as she sits down next to me. I took a deep breath and let it out. "There's a chance I could end up pregnant. She needed a distraction from the nightmares and our condom broke," I choke quietly. "We already talked about it, but I really needed to tell someone else I trust and keep it secret until we know for sure."

"Are you going to keep it if you do end up pregnant," she asks in a choked whisper taking my hand.

"At first I wasn't sure, but now I am. I want to keep it. Shawn already said she was with me, whatever I decided. The way she comfort me helped me decide," I choke with a smile. 

"I'll help you in the upcoming weeks, monitor for any signs of pregnancy. When was your last cycle," she asks softly and sounded distracted. 

"I'm due to get it next week," I say quietly and run my free hand in Shawn's hair. 

"She looks peaceful," Joyce says in a soothing whisper. "She really didn't want to bother you with her nightmares."

"I told her tonight she could. I honestly haven't been able to sleep since I met her. She's all I can think about," I say quietly, nuzzling my face in her hair, breathing in her lingering scent of vanilla and lavender. "I love this smell, it's so soothing and relaxing."

I feel a kiss on my forehead as I start to fall asleep with my face burrowed in Shawn's hair. I feel as she pulls me closer and wrap my arms around her. "Mom," Shawn asks in a sleepy tone. "What are you doing here?"

"Abbigail invited us," she says quietly as I stir closer to Shawn. "She was telling me about what happened tonight."

"Will you help keep an eye on her while I'm working, please," she says quietly with concern. "She was a little upset when I told her about the condom breaking."

"I told her I would," she says quietly, tucking hair from my face. "She's asleep."

 

Waking up the next morning and I could feel Shawn still laying on my chest. Her even breaths told me she was asleep so I decide not to move and let her sleep. I hear someone enter the room and jump at Shawn's voice. "Five more minutes, Abbigail is still sleeping. "

"She's awake now," Joyce says with a giggle. "You scared her, I don't think she realized you were awake."

I feel as Shawn props up and gives me a kiss. "Did you sleep okay," I ask caressing her face. 

"Always, when it's with you," she says quietly giving me another kiss. 

"How do you feel this morning Abbigail," Joyce asks softly as I feel her sit next to me.

"Normal. How are you guys holding up considering last night?"

"Better now that we both have a distraction," Joyce chokes quietly, but I could hear the relief in her voice. "My mother was looking forward to meeting you this weekend. Shawn was going to ask you over for dinner today."

"Can I come to the funeral? I'd like to pay my respect for not getting the chance to meet her," I say in sympathy and I feel as Shawn pulls me into a tight embrace. 

"We'd love if you came," Joyce chokes with relief. 

Shawn brings her hand to caress my stomach and sweeps her thumb. I place my hand on hers and give her a kiss. "I asked your mom to help keep this a secret until we know for sure," I say softly and press my forehead to hers. "I told her last night that if I do end up pregnant, I want to keep the baby."

I bring my hands to her face to feel her reaction and felt as a big smile spread across her lips. I feel her mother take us both in a hug and felt relieved to know I was supported with my decision. "Come, breakfast should be ready," Joyce says kissing my cheek. "I need to make sure you're healthy for my potential grandchild."