I have an ally, I believe. The Luna of the pack seemed so friendly, and she appeared to agree to help me… she had sat with me for quite a while. We chatted, and there was a warmth to her that I cannot describe. It was almost like I felt able to trust her. Trust is a strange thing, and I know currently it is not something I am able to give out easily, so that would be difficult to say. But, she felt almost trustworthy. And, she seemed to listen when I asked her to help. She looked like she cared.I had to cling to that hope, because without her, I fear I may be forever stuck here. Stuck in a place I did not want to be, in a place I did not belong, surrounded by people I did not know. That was not a future that filled me with hope, I have to say. I once again sat within my chair, having taken a shower. Though rather than sitting and staring out of the window like I had previously I had found myself sitting and looking at the beautiful flowers on the table next to my bed. I still did no
I called her Tesoro without even thinking. It slipped out, and the look within her eyes as she looked toward me was one filled with uncertainty. She knew what that word meant, but I would expect her to, her parents had used it too, and she seemed to have no problem recalling that far back…“Aria, do you want a drink?” I added quickly to try to cover up my error. But the way her eyes looked at me told me there was no way to cover it up. She had heard me.She slowly shook her head. Maybe me visiting her had been a bad idea. But, hearing her plans to flee had brought me rushing back here. Like a moth to a flame, I was drawn back to her. I knew I needed to come and see if she was okay. I needed to find a way to make her see that she was safe here within our pack. She may not recognize this place as her home at the moment, but it was the only home she had now. I needed to find a way to bring back some sliver of her memory… anythin
There remained an uncomfortable silence in the room since we had discussed her wanting to leave. I was struggling to know what to say to her. Never had I found it difficult to talk with my mate, so why was this happening now? I feared I was not the only one feeling uncomfortable, because from where I was sitting upon Aria’s bed, I could see the tension within her body. She did not feel at ease the way I hoped she would with me near. This was not the way things were supposed to be with your mate by your side.The plans I had created during my many late night talks with my father to woo and win my mate over seemed nothing but a pathetic dream right now. In her company, I felt like a failure. Like she resented my presence. And that put me on edge, and created an uncertainty within me that made me unsure of how to act. This was never how it had been at the start. When I met Aria those first few times, everything came so naturally...Even in my wolf form, the interact
Beta Rocco had offered to take me outside. Out of the same four walls I had been locked inside for far too long, and I could not wait. Sadly, it seemed I was not deemed strong enough to walk, so I would have to accept his assistance and go in a wheelchair. A wheelchair he had gone to get for me, one he had helped me into as I stumbled while trying to sit myself down. The warmth of his touch took me by surprise. The freedom of his movement seemed so natural as he reached out to touch me, but yet his touch seemed so foreign. So wrong...But, I chose not to focus on the many fears I was holding, and instead look toward the thing I wanted most... the time outside. The closest to freedom I would be getting anytime soon. And, as Beta Rocco now pushed me slowly down the hospital corridor, I could not wait to be out in the sunshine he had promised. I had seen a light in his eyes the moment I became excited about his suggestion. He seemed far too eager to please, and it was quite bizarre for a
Seeing Aria relax into the chair as we walked out into the sunshine made me aware of just how much this was the right thing to have done. The beautiful smile upon her face as she tilted her face up to the sunshine warmed my heart. I wanted so desperately to gently kiss her cheek the way I used to. To stroke my hand upon her cheek, and then move it on up into her hair… the way she used to love... the way that so often would lead to a kiss, as we looked into one another's eyes... but instead I simply observed her. Knowing that at this moment in time, she is no longer mine to touch.I smiled tenderly as I watched her turn her head, here and there… taking in every little thing. Her eyes darting back and forth, not knowing where to look next... like it is all new to her, despite the fact we have spent many an hour out here in the past. Yet the expression upon her face tells me that none of it is familiar to Aria. But I know I should not be surprised. Her eyes light up as she watches birds
I saw the pain in the man’s eyes as he sat himself down on the bench next to me. Maybe I had said too much. He has been kind enough to bring me from the hospital today… maybe I should try a little to be kinder. What was that thing my grandmother used to say to me? Kindness costs you nothing? Something like that...No, I don’t think I would ever understand the reasons for him sitting my bed day after day since I had been brought into the godforsaken hospital, but, I would try my hardest to act like I was grateful. Because, it seemed, that me saying he did not have to had hurt his feelings. How can someone so big and so strong be wounded by words so easily? This man by my side was somewhat of a mystery to me, I have to admit.“There is barely a cloud in the sky today.” I said, trying to change the subject, and as I spoke, I turned my head up slightly to look toward the beautiful blue sky.Next to me, Rocco did the same thing. “Hmm, I guess. I do think it was forecast for a hot week.” I b
After sitting for a while, and her cutting words, I decided to continue walking. Aria had apparently lost any filter for her words while in the deep slumber she had been within for the past weeks, saying some blunt things without even meaning to. But, I was doing my best to not allow them to affect me too much. However, it was proving somewhat harder than I expected, when the sweet voice saying them was the same voice that had once told me how much she had loved me...The sun was still shining gloriously upon the gardens of the pack, and Aria was still basking in its heat as we moved. My feet moved almost automatically as we walked along the paths of the gardens, Aria admiring each and every delicate flower we passed. Commentating on the color, or informing me of the type of flower it was. I was clueless. Gardening was not my strong point, and likely never would be.Had she recalled any of her time with me, she would know that I killed all the plants she had bought for
I had been enjoying Rocco's company, as much as it shocked me to admit it. It had turned out we could have a laugh, and chat quite amicably. But, once more, a silence had descended upon us. A silence that made me wish to be anywhere but here. Neither one of us seeming to know for the best what to say now, and for no real reason as to why. So, we now walked in that awkward silence after passing a house I had soon realized was his.I had been enjoying the little tour of pack, and Rocco had seemed to be enjoying showing me around too. Until he had pointed out this house. Then his whole demeanor appeared to change as I smiled politely and asked if it was his home. It made no sense to me that that could offend him, it seemed like a genuine enough question, but somehow it seemed to have caused an unease between the two of us, bringing into question why Rocco had even wanted to show me the house in the first place.Had he brought me here because he wanted to
1 YEAR LATERI poured myself a coffee, dressed ready for the day. I hated wearing my formal clothes, but today was a day for a pack celebration, so it was required. I knew once out there I would enjoy every moment.“Bella, you want a coffee?” I called upstairs, knowing Aria would be almost ready. She had been almost ready when I left her a few minutes earlier.“Please, baby.” She yelled back, as I heard her approaching the staircase.The last year had been nothing but perfect. My mate was back. In every way. She had returned to our home as soon as the doctors had given her the all clear, and we had begun afresh. I had wanted to not waste another moment of my time with the beautiful woman I had been blessed with as a fated mate. The fact I had nearly lost her, not once, but twice, only made that even more present within my mind.I returned to my role as Beta once more, working hard alongside Micah to track down punishment for
I had been poked and prodded beyond belief. Laying there while doctors and nurses examined me time and time again. Asked me so many questions to the point my head was hurting. When all I wanted was to be with Rocco. But, everytime I thought they were close to being done, they would need to do yet another test. A scan. An x-ray… one thing, then another. I was sick of the sight of them.All the while my head was buzzing with the events of today. Or what I was able to remember. The rest was simply what people had been telling me. My life of late seemed to have been a black-hole of lost moments. My mind having not been my own for quite some time. All because of rogues attacking a pack I had come to see as my safe haven. Not that I would ever see the pack as anything else. Rogue attacks were sadly a park of living within a werewolf pack, and I knew that. I had accepted all the things that came with being part of a pack when I became Rocco's mate.I knew that the Alpha here, and my mate, as
Today had not been the day I had hoped for. And it was not a day I wanted to go through again. I felt like my insides had been pulled out. I felt like I was falling apart, piece by piece. But, I knew I needed to stay strong. This was not about me any more. This was about Aria. There was definitely flickers of her there. The old Aria. I was clinging to the hope she was back... call me crazy, but I think she was, and Micah felt it too.Perhaps the knock to the head when she crashed had done something? I didn't know, I wasn't a doctor. Her loss of memory had made no sense to me even when they had explained it... But, I knew she was in the right place now for getting fixed. The doctors would know what to do. And, the second we had walked through the doors of the hospital, the doctors were rushing to see to her. Desperate to help her knowing what had happened.Aria had been rushed away from me and the doctors would not let me back in her room. I was pacing the corridor desp
We drove into the pack, my heart pounding as the silence in the car seemed to be defeaning me. Micah and Rocco were sharing knowing glances that I think they thought I wasn’t aware of, and no doubt mindlinking too. I did not know what they were thinking, nor what they may be saying to one another, but I was clearly not aware of everything, and I did not like it.This was not what I wanted. They were hiding things from me, and that hurt. They were meant to be people I could trust. But, I think what hurt more was learning I had been planning to run from the man that meant the world to me. Meeting Rocco had turned my life around. Or meeting Ciro, I should say, seeing as it was him I had met first. And learning the reason that weird little wolf would keep returning to the cabin was because of me… because I was meant to be a part of his life. Chosen just for him. And, him for me, it seemed.I had read of fated mates because of being intrigued by werewolves when my Grandma talked of them. I
With Aria in my arms we climbed into the car. Her confused expression had not altered as I adjusted the belt around her. Confusion. Fear. Uncertainty. I saw tears filling those beautiful eyes of hers, and I hated myself for being the cause of them, but I had told myself I was not going to hide things from her anymore. We had done that once, and it had not gone well. She deserved to know the truth.‘Roc, what did you say?’ Micah’s voice is urgent as he mindlinks. 'She looks terrified.'Well, he wasn't wrong. I glanced across at my friend and Alpha, as I sit next to my mate. ‘I told her the truth. She did not know why she was out there, so I told her she was leaving me.’ I explained matter of factly through our mindlink so that Aria would not hear. The situation was already spiralling, I don't think I wanted it to become any worse...Micah’s eyes widened. ‘But she seemed to know who we all were, dude. I think she was okay again.’ He suggested, and I think he may be right. That same thou
I woke up, my whole body aching. Wondering why the hell I was laying on the grass at the side of a road. A road the more I tried to look around me looked like the North Road outside of the pack. Why would I be here? A felt a sharp stinging to the base of my neck was irritating me, but then, the whole of my body was irritating me in one way or another right now. I had clearly been injured, I just did not know how...My eyes flickered between open and closed, trying to adjust to the light, and I could see the concerned eyes of my husband and mate, Rocco looking down at me. His icy-blue eyes darting over me... the eyes I adored so much... eyes that had drawn me in the first time I had seen them; and eyes that were always able to win me over... he looked worried right now though. What had happened?“What happened baby?” I whispered, hoping he may be able to give me the answers I was looking for. But my words caused his brows to furrow as I continue. “I ache all over!” I informed him, in
Ciro whimpered heavily in my mind at the sight of our mate in the arms of our friend, but I don’t think it was because of the fact she was being held by another man. A man that by all accounts would be considered stronger and more powerful than me, it was the way she had looked at us. The way her eyes lit up when they met mine…But, I knew I did not have time for emotion right now. Aria needed to know we were here for her. “Tesoro, are you okay?” I reached for her, but those beautiful eyes flickered closed once more, as Micah rushed her away from the car, just as a rush of heat englufed us. Flames were taking over the car, and we had done exactly the right thing in following my gut and getting Aria out when we did. A moment longer and it would have been too late. The thought does not bear worth thinking about...That heat from the increasing fire behind us was radiating across our bodies, so we moved faster. Micah using all her had to increase the speed with which he was moving, know
My eyes are darting over the damage to the car. This is not how I had wanted to find my mate. I had wanted to find her well. Be able to convince her to return with me. Tell her what a fool I had been. Knowing that in spite of everything she had fallen for me again meant the world to me. We had found one another once and fallen for one another, and in a cruel twist of fate, she had forgotten me, and fallen for me all over again... I had been blessed, not just once but twice. I could not let my girl die.I looked to Micah. His eyes were doing the exact same thing as mine. I could see the concern across the face of my friend, as his dark eyes took in the damage to the car. There has certainly been some sort of impact to it. Aria had to have been thrown around inside of her car. My heart ached at the thought that my mate may well be injured further... but I noticed my friend's eyes are currently lingering on that leaking fuel. The thing that is concerning me the most right now…‘We need t
Ciro ran. Faster than I think I have felt my wolf run before. His feet pounding along the floor of the packlands until we had crossed the borders onto the lands beyond. Micah’s wolf, Zane, had wasted no time in shifting and running alongside me. But I was paying little attention to the wolf by our side. My focus was through the eyes of my wolf. Looking for the car accident that my Alpha had mentioned.The car accident that my mate may well be laying in…The thought that Aria could be laying injured in a car somewhere tore at my heart strings. Knowing that she had been fleeing me when that had potentially happened made it even worse. This was not how my life was meant to go. Never how I envisioned meeting my fated mate would be. It had been enough of a shock to disover she was a human. But, I had thought I was strong enough to protect her. A matebond is everything to a wolf; and I truly thought ours would be. Evidently, I was wrong. I had