After sitting for a while, and her cutting words, I decided to continue walking. Aria had apparently lost any filter for her words while in the deep slumber she had been within for the past weeks, saying some blunt things without even meaning to. But, I was doing my best to not allow them to affect me too much. However, it was proving somewhat harder than I expected, when the sweet voice saying them was the same voice that had once told me how much she had loved me...The sun was still shining gloriously upon the gardens of the pack, and Aria was still basking in its heat as we moved. My feet moved almost automatically as we walked along the paths of the gardens, Aria admiring each and every delicate flower we passed. Commentating on the color, or informing me of the type of flower it was. I was clueless. Gardening was not my strong point, and likely never would be.Had she recalled any of her time with me, she would know that I killed all the plants she had bought for
I had been enjoying Rocco's company, as much as it shocked me to admit it. It had turned out we could have a laugh, and chat quite amicably. But, once more, a silence had descended upon us. A silence that made me wish to be anywhere but here. Neither one of us seeming to know for the best what to say now, and for no real reason as to why. So, we now walked in that awkward silence after passing a house I had soon realized was his.I had been enjoying the little tour of pack, and Rocco had seemed to be enjoying showing me around too. Until he had pointed out this house. Then his whole demeanor appeared to change as I smiled politely and asked if it was his home. It made no sense to me that that could offend him, it seemed like a genuine enough question, but somehow it seemed to have caused an unease between the two of us, bringing into question why Rocco had even wanted to show me the house in the first place.Had he brought me here because he wanted to
He left me in my room. Rocco returned me to my bed, and walked away. Like he could not wait to get away from me. I have not seen him since. He meant the words he had said. And I cannot help but wonder if, or when, I will see the Beta again. His kindness and intense gaze was gone... and as uncomfortable as it made me feel on so many occasions, it was missed.I was angry with him for deserting me, yet a part of me wonders if this was my own fault. But, my own mind does not feel like my own right now, and I do not even know how I am meant to be feeling. I struggle to process the things that we said. The things I said... I would like to think I did not hurt his feelings. Or if I did, that he was strong enough to deal with that. He was a strong man, wasn't he?My heart tightens at the thought of him not being okay, but I find myself pushing it to one side. His well-being is not my business. This man is all but a stranger to me. A stranger that seems to like to get very involved in my busin
The wolf stepped up from the space by my side. His sad eyes drifted over me as he did, before turning away. Was he about to walk away from me too? Had I not just told him how lonely I was? Did that not tell him that I needed him? Needed his company?Yet he continued to walk. His soft feet were padding along the forest floor as my eyes filled with tears. Before he suddenly turned, and began that now familiar process of shifting. The transition of his body from his sleek and strong wolf form into his toned human form. His fur receded from his body as his bones realigned. Such a strange sight to see, but one that no longer bothered me. I expected to wake up now, like I usually did by this point. I never saw my werewolf in his human form. My dream is always finished by now, but tonight, for some reason, it continued.Had my plea hit a nerve? Was he about to allow me to see him? Allow me to meet his human form? Excitement rushed through my body at the very
The moon goddess? She had said the moon goddess, I am sure of that. I think I have heard of her. I probed my mind for answers. No, I am sure I had… I think I had read of her… my mind tried hard to grasp at where I had heard of the name but frustratingly came back with nothing. Maybe I did not know who she was after all. Maybe looking at her, and how beautiful she was, I wanted to believe I had heard of her. Believe that I knew her...So, I found myself looking back towards the woman by my side. The woman, who was almost angelic in her appearance, yet was telling me she was a goddess… Did goddesses even exist? I looked into her almost hypnotic eyes. Could she be telling me the truth? Was there such a thing as a moon goddess? And why would she be talking to me? Slowly, I began to shake my head in response to her question. No, I had not heard of the moon goddess.A sad expression passed briefly over her beautiful face, as if she felt disappointment that there was not a greater knowledge
There was a glow coming through the thin curtains at my room window. They did little to shield me from the sunshine that was evidently shining outside. The sunshine instantly made me think back to my walk outside to bask in the sun with the Beta... my heart ached at the words he had said. That he planned to stay away. There would likely be no more visits out to the gardens whilst I remained in the hospital. This room would remain a prison cell... I sighed, rolling myself over in the bed with a sigh, trying to block the sun out.I found myself staring blankly at the wall, knowing that there was no hope of further sleep now. I had tossed, and I had turned throughout the night. Sleep seemed to struggle to find me. But visions of a vivid dream played through my mind. Had I been imagining it? Was I losing my mind? I had begun to wonder if that is what they wanted for me through them keeping me so isolated in this small and lonely room… were they slowly succeeding? Was I beginning to imagi
I had been busy in the office all morning, having thankfully managed to avoid both of my parents by an early rising this morning, and grabbing breakfast in the packhouse dining room. The downside to that meant so many pack members decided to see this as an opportunity to make conversation with me, all seeming to want updates on my mate. Especially after many had seen us spending time yesterday. To them, that was a sign of positivity. A sign she was on the mend and that all was good. They wanted an update on their Beta mate...In truth, being faced with so many questions and no real answers as of yet was probably harder than it would have been to deal with my parents. Maybe staying at home for breakfast was the better option after all, because right now it hurt not to be able to answer my pack. And to see them so happy and excited about the prospect that my mate was healing… little did they know she had never felt further from me.It had not taken long until my mind could take no more
I had stepped from the shower, warm and refreshed once again. And in some new pajamas. My hair was braided by the lovely nurse who seemed to enjoy her time with me, and was frequently offering to sit with me to brush my hair, or simply sit and keep me company. It was something I think I may be more willing to accept in the future…“Ah, you look so much better, dear.” She smiled at me from the side of my bed as I sat myself down upon it, finding myself tired after the shower. I was finding that standing did seem to take it out of me more than I expected, so after a shower I often needed to rest, as ridiculous as that may seem.“Just tired now.” I smiled in response.“Aww, you always are, right?” she tickled at my toes. “If I could lend you my wolf I would. Give you a little boost.” She winked at me, and I found myself chuckling.“I could sure do with a boost. Maybe she could mak
I walked out of the hospital from my visit with Aria with the biggest smile. My visit was likely to be the best one yet…“Good day, Beta?” the doctor’s voice took me by surprise, as I stepped from the hospital steps, causing me to turn to look back at him. "I would say from that smile it has been."I felt a small frown forming upon my lips. What business was it of his? But I found myself nodding. “I think it went well.”He smiled, though this time it appeared to be a genuine smile, not the phony smile I felt doctors so often did out of sympathy. “Well, I have to say, you both seemed quite contented when I came to do my checks earlier, and you were both asleep. I imagine it will have done you both good to be close to one another again.”I found my eyes searching the face of the doctor in front of me, wondering where he found the cheek to be bringing up something so private... all the while, a niggling thought in the back of my mind... So someone had seen us… just the way Aria had fear
I was still coming to terms with what had just occurred. I mean, the Beta had fallen asleep by my side! Not just fallen asleep there, but seemed comfortable there! And, the more I consider this, the more I believe this was not accidental. I think he may have chosen to lie by my side. I felt him place his hand over mine... it felt oddly wrong, yet strangely right... I heard the contented sigh slipping from his lips as he slipped into slumber... it was a choice he had made, I am certain of it. The second most important man within the pack I was currently captive in had chosen to sleep by my side. And, the thing was, I did not seem to mind it.I should have hated it. I know I should, but for the strangest of reasons, I could not bring myself to. I had made a fuss, of course, I had. I felt I should, at least to his face, so he thought that I was worried about what others would think. So he believed I did not think it was right. So he was questioning if he had overstepped a mark, because
My mind was drifting. I was holding Aria as we laid upon her bed. My hands snaked over the perfect curves of her hips, as I gazed into those beautiful eyes of hers. Her eyelashes fluttered seductively, while she reached up to play with my hair just the way I loved, which sent goosebumps tingling across my body, before she gripped my hair tightly. I watched her tease at her lips with the tip of her tongue, making my whole body react, as she continued to grip tightly at my hair, suddenly using it to pull me close to her and find my lips with hers.A kiss I had been waiting a lifetime for. Or that is what it felt like. Did she know that seeing her had felt like torture when I could not kiss her? But Aria's lips found mine with a hunger that took me by surprise as I felt her hands still tangled within my hair, causing me to jerk my head back... I woke with a start, and realized it had all been nothing but a dream. A fucking dream... but it told me where I was wi
We had sat enjoying our coffees with the sun shining in the window for quite some time, and there was a lightness within my heart that I did not want to let go. Aria felt close to me again. Maybe not the way in which she always had, but she was closer than she had been in a long time.And now she was so close I did not want to let her go. I was sure I saw a sparkle in her eyes as she laughed. A sparkle I had missed. We were connecting again, I was certain of it. And it was making me reluctant to leave. Not that she once asked me to.The conversation flowed freely and easily, and Aria appeared to be appreciating my company, and it was the greatest feeling after weeks of heaviness looming over me. She seemed almost different, and it filled me with hope she was progressing within her recovery.“How is the Luna doing?” she asked me with concern.“Growing grumpier by the day.” I joked, causing Aria to look at me with shock, and I grinned. Obviously, she had not expected that response, and
I sat on the seat by the window, gazing out over the gardens awaiting Rocco’s return. This tended to be my favorite place to sit now, but in this instance I was on edge as I wanted Rocco back here with me. I had no clue how he knew my favorite drink. He did not even need to ask...I remember the first time I tried it as a teenage girl… it had been so good… out with my Grandma, on one of our many girly shopping days, when we stopped into a new coffee shop and my Grandma suggested I try it… oddly, it had been one of her favorites, alongside tea. And the moment I had tried that first sip, I knew that wold be my favorite drink... I never had plain coffee again when out.I sighed heavily at the memory. I did miss her. My Grandma. I wonder how long she had been gone. They said she was gone, didn’t they? I don’t know. I don’t know anything anymore. Everything felt so blurred. But, I felt a heavy sense of loss. Loss I did not want to feel, when the door to my room opened once more, and the l
I had to dismiss Aria talking about the way she felt. It hurt too much. The pain upon hearing her explain the fear she felt made me relive every moment of those early days. The hell when she had woken up and had no clue where she was or who we were. I had hoped for her to need me... want me to be there for her, but there had been nothing but fear. And now to hear how it had felt to her, only made it harder. I did not need to hear it in more detail. So, instead, I told Aria I knew. And she had agreed. Now we found one another in the empty room. Our eyes locked once again. Her eyes are ones I would never tire of looking into…And, as I looked into those beautiful eyes, I felt a heavy sigh slip from my lips, unable to help but note how Aria’s brows raised a little, likely wondering what was wrong. I did not want her worrying about me, or thinking anything was wrong. “So, have you eaten?” I asked, and she nodded earnestly.“The nurse brought my breakfast in.” she explained, and I nodded i
The way Rocco winked at me made my belly flutter a little unexpectedly. So I found myself smiling across at him. Momentarily, I had forgotten what it was I had wanted to tell him. But as I looked across him, simply looking at him, studying the chiseled jawline of his face, I felt his eyes upon mine, and as I moved my eyes to meet his, he chuckled lightly.“Was that a no?” he questioned, and I looked at him blankly.“ A no to what?”Rocco chuckled loudly. “Aww, Tesoro, you are funny.” He reached for my hand, and squeezed it gently, before sitting back again, like he was second guessing his actions. “You said you wanted to talk. I asked if you were going to tell me what about. So, I am asking again, what it was about. Did I miss something exciting while locked away in my office?” and I could tell with his words he was teasing me. Making light of the fact I had not been paying attention, while at the same time being desperately curious about what I wanted to speak with him about...I nod
Aria is there. So close. In front of me. And her scent is taking over my senses. My mind is in a spin. It is taking all my strength to stop myself placing my lips on hers... kiss her the in the way I have so desperately missed. Maybe to find the mark I created to make her my own... In truth, I am not sure what happened. We were talking one second, laughing even, and the next, her face was resting within the palm of my hand, our eyes locked… my heart was racing at an unnatural speed. The warmth of contentment rushed over me as for a moment I felt her return to me. I knew this would not last, as she still had no clue who I was to her, nor her to me, but at that moment, I was looking into the heart of my mate. The one I loved, and she was allowing me to…I traced the soft skin of her face with my thumb, and I saw a slight shiver of her body under my touch and I could not help but wonder if she was responding to our matebond. Does she feel the effects? Each time we touch the tingles, the
I had stepped from the shower, warm and refreshed once again. And in some new pajamas. My hair was braided by the lovely nurse who seemed to enjoy her time with me, and was frequently offering to sit with me to brush my hair, or simply sit and keep me company. It was something I think I may be more willing to accept in the future…“Ah, you look so much better, dear.” She smiled at me from the side of my bed as I sat myself down upon it, finding myself tired after the shower. I was finding that standing did seem to take it out of me more than I expected, so after a shower I often needed to rest, as ridiculous as that may seem.“Just tired now.” I smiled in response.“Aww, you always are, right?” she tickled at my toes. “If I could lend you my wolf I would. Give you a little boost.” She winked at me, and I found myself chuckling.“I could sure do with a boost. Maybe she could mak