I lay there in nothing but darkness. Muffled sounds surrounded me. A pain ran through my body that I could not describe nor explain. I was desperate to call out to my parents for help, but I feared my voice would not work. I was unsure how long I had laid here like this… sure I had flitted in and out of this state numerous times… the weight of my eyelids was too much to bear. Unable to open them to see where I was... or to see why I was so sleepy. Everything seemed so confusing... too much.
Yet there was a niggling in my mind each time it felt like I had come to. A niggling that would not go away. Like something had sparked within my mind... and something seemed so odd. Had I fallen in my room? Perhaps when I was dancing? Could that be it? I sure did like to dance around my room when my music was playing… forever being told by my parents to turn the music down… maybe I had slipped? My room was forever cluttered. Hit my head even? Would that leave me here feeling like this?
My mind felt like it was swimming... such a strange sensation, yet one I felt unable to control. Had I fallen? But would my parents not have heard me fall if they could hear even the slightest curse word in some of the riskier songs I had taken to listening to lately?
I listened carefully… no. There was no music. Maybe the song had come to an end? When I listened now, there were just those same muffled noises I had heard before. Muffled voices, but what they were saying I did not know... they sounded so close, yet strangely so far away... as I drifted back into the pitch blackness of sleep…
A large clatter from around me, made me jerk, but my eyelids once more were heavy… I fluttered them hard, desperately trying to pry them open. Did my eyes stop working? I need to try to see where the source of the noise came from. Who was in my room? No. Why were there people in my room? I was sure I could hear voices here again…
My body ached like nothing I had ever experienced before. Parts of my body I did not know could hurt throbbed in discomfort. Was it normal to hurt this much? I don't think I could say when I didn't even know what had happened to me. I mean, what happened to me? Had someone hurt me?
Finally, with some strain, I lifted one eyelid, only for the slight vision I had provided myself to be flooded with a bright, unnatural light… the light so bright it hurt my eyes... tempting me to close my eyes tightly closed again.
“Doctor!” a voice bellowed from somewhere at the side of me. “She is awake!” the voice made me tremble with shock. Doctor? Was I in a hospital? The question was there once again... just what had happened to me? And where were my parents?
I struggled to bring my other eyelid open too, both feeling like weights upon my eyes, but somehow I managed, and now I found myself battling to focus my eyes upon the source of the noise. And, I found him... there was a tall, dark-haired man in front of me. Piercing blue eyes, staring intently towards me… a look of relief upon his face… was he the doctor? A doctor would make sense. I was in a hospital after all...
“Oh, Aria… baby, you are okay!” he exclaimed, moving toward me, causing my entire body to freeze in shock. Who was he calling baby? I was Aria… I know that, but did he have the wrong Aria? Because I did not know him… I knew that much. And right about now I felt far from okay.
My eyes darted anxiously around the room, and as they adjusted to the horrendously bright medical lights within the private room I was enclosed within, I desperately searched for a sight of my parents. I had so many questions to ask, but the tightness in my throat and the sharp pain I was feeling there meant I did not trust my ability to talk right now. Who knew how long I had been asleep... I mean I wasn't even sure I could still talk...
But I knew I needed my parents here to help. They would help me communicate. They would ensure I had all I needed. Surely, if I was injured they would be here with me, wouldn’t they? They would be here by my side waiting for me to recover, right?
But with every sweep of the room with my eyes, as the man in front of me looked at me with concern, I could see no sight of my parents. Where had they gone? Maybe they had gone for a coffee? They did like a coffee… of course! I told myself. If they had been waiting with me for a long time they would need coffee, right?
“Aria?” the man perched himself upon the edge of my hospital bed, reaching forward, and gently stroking my face… once more my entire body froze under his touch… this felt all too familiar… his voice filled with affection, and it was like he felt entitled to touch me… how dare he?! “I can’t tell you how worried I have been baby.” He whispered moving closer to me, his eyes full of a look that terrified me.
“Help!!!” I screamed, my whole body trembling as my voice broke under the pressure of trying to scream after not speaking for as long as I may have been unconscious. “Help me! I want my parents. Please…”
The door of the room flew open for a number of nurses and a doctor came rushing in, as the man upon my bed moved away from me, seeming to collapse to the floor as he did, tears within his eyes and his head within his hands…
I now lay staring at the roof. The starch whiteness of the room is everything you would expect of a hospital, and I feel myself struggling to stay focused. The doctor is checking me over, and he has been for some time now. I am sure he is speaking to me, but the words he says I am struggling to focus upon... my mind seems to wander, or my eyes feel so heavy... could they have drugged me? Was that why I slept? My mind feels so full of thoughts... ideas... but they seem all in a jumble, and nothing appears to make sense.
I stare at the roof again, while the doctor's voice continues to drone in the back of my mind, truly unsure now if he is talking to me or the others in the room. There were others there when I last looked... and I looked many times. But still there was no sign of my parents. Why had the doctor not called them to let them know I had woken? Is that not what a doctor would do when a family member has woken up after a long illness or injury? I am sure my parents would want to see me... my mind flickered again... just how far did they go for that coffee? I knew they wouldn’t leave me…
My parents may not be here, but that same man remained… the man with the piercing blue eyes was still here. Watching. Waiting. But silently now. But I knew he was watching me all the same, from across the room this time. I think my screaming scared him...
But it did not stop him watching over me. His eyes appeared to darken every now and again, but I don’t know if that was just my tired eyes, or maybe even the lighting in the room… but his intense gaze terrified me. He looked angry... possessive even, yet I had no idea why. This was a man I did not even know.
The door of the room flung open once more, with some force this time. A tall, chocolatey-skinned man with an air of confidence strode in, his eyes falling upon the scary man, before looking at me. A gentle smile appeared. “Aww, sweetheart, I am so glad you have woken up, you gave us a scare.” He seemed to know me too. What was it with these people?
Yet as I looked into those warm brown eyes of his, I saw nothing. No recognition of this man whatsoever. I felt the same as I looked across each person who had walked through the door to see me so far. Were they simply pretending to know me? Was I being held prisoner? Had I been kidnapped? Is that why my parents were nowhere to be seen? My mind whirred with the possibilities, while still trying to adjust to being awake again. But then, would a kidnapper call me sweetheart? I tried to reason with myself.
My mind seemed to be spinning, and I still felt so tired. Was my own mind playing tricks upon me?
“So doc, how is she doing?” the smiling man asked. He seemed genuinely friendly and kind. Would such a man kidnap me? I did not know.
“Alpha Micah, she is doing okay. Her stats are where we’d want them to be. I think we will have to monitor her for a few days, potentially more. Certainly need to do some more tests when she feels up to it. I am more concerned about her lack of response to you all.”
The doctor seemed to be muttering. What had he called him? Alpha Micah? Micah… do I know that name? The name did not ring a bell. Much as his face had not... I was sure I did not know the man showing concern for me.
Hmm... Alpha? I knew what an Alpha was though … we had grown up in a small little village in the countryside on the outskirts of a large forest. My grandmother had a cabin there that we spent a lot of time in during my childhood. Many days during the holidays we would spend with her, loving our time in the freedom of the forest... Grandma by our side... so many happy memories...and seeing wolves was commonplace…
And, part of those memories that I remember are tales my Grandma told us of these wolves. I would sit for hours listening to her tales. It seemed my grandmother had become more than a little friendly with a few of them. And they were a little more than wolves too.
She told us many tales of her friends. And I used to love hearing about them, thinking it was perhaps her wild imagination, or the loneliness and isolation living out in the forest brought to her, but I knew that an Alpha was the leader of a pack… but now my mind took me down another route... had I been kidnapped by a werewolf pack? Surely not…
A deep cough sounded by my side, breaking my thoughts. And the dark, warm eyes of the Alpha were smiling upon me. “Rocco, why are you not here talking to her? Trying to help her feel better?” The man I now knew was called Alpha Micah demanded to the man with the piercing blue eyes, who now stood at the foot of my bed.
“She screamed when I came near her. Begged for her parents, Mic, what was I meant to do? She needs to heal.” His voice sounded less calm now than it did when he spoke to me earlier. He sounded almost broken, and I had no clue why. This man was a stranger to me, so why was me needing my parents to come and take me home going to hurt him?
Micah turned to look at me again but this time the smile was gone, before looking towards the man with blue eyes, the man who was unable to take those eyes away from me, the man I now knew was called Rocco, and shook his head. “She is awake. That is amazing in itself. You have been here every one of those 71 days, brother, waiting, hoping, praying. And it worked, for she woke up. So why give up now?”
71 days?! I had been here 71 days?! Unconscious for 71 days?! What had happened to me to cause that? Why were my parents not sitting here by my side? Holding my hand, the way you see parents and family do… no something wasn’t adding up to me. Not when it seemed this man, this complete stranger, had been apparently sitting by my side each day, according to his friend… I assume they were friends… he called him brother, but they did not look like brothers…
“You did not see the fear in her eyes, Mic.” His voice shook as he spoke, and I could hear the pain… why was he hurting? He was not the one stuck in a bed in a hospital he did not know, surrounded by people acting like they knew her…
The pain in my head was pounding once more. The confusion was becoming too much... and a heaviness building within my eyelids as they began to flicker. Whatever was being said around me became muffled once more… I hope they did not plan to hurt me… these men that seemed to have me here trapped against my will. As soon as I was able, I would need to find a way out. I needed to get home…
71 days earlier than current day ... The sounds of screams are deafening as they echo throughout my pack. This was any pack member’s worst nightmare. Especially a senior member, such as a Beta like myself. A rogue attack was never a good thing, but this one, well, it seemed strategic and well-developed; and that worried me. This did not seem like a normal rogue attack, and this type was becoming more frequent.“Back up needed at the north border!” Micah, our pack Alpha, and my closest friend called to me over the developing battlefield that only hours ago had been our peaceful pack. The pack that we loved so much, now stood in all but ruins around us... unprepared, and unexpected... I feared for the safety of our pack members.I nodded in response. ‘I will shift and head that way.’ I mindlinked in reply. The sooner I could get there with back up the better. We needed to get the influx of fighters invading our land cut off and dealt with as swiftly as we could before any further dama
71 days earlier than current day continued... The closer Ciro got to the main area of our pack buildings, the stronger the scent of blood became. Had we underestimated the rogues? It truly looked like we had been overrun. Bodies laid strewn on the floor… tears filled my eyes at the sight of familiar faces of pack members… some dead… some injured… but still there was no sight of my mate… this attack had become everything we had hoped it would not, and in such a short space of time.Ciro was becoming unsettled. Almost irate now, I could sense it through the bond I shared with my wolf, and it made me wonder if he could sense her near…But while his head darted side to side, I needed to arrange help for the injured. I was still in the role of Beta as well as broken mate. There were injured and dead rogues among the bodies too, that needed dealing with. Of that I was sure… but still, there appeared to be no more fighting in this area. I could only hope that was a good sign for us right n
I think I am awake. But my eyes are closed. That state between awake and asleep, maybe? But, I am aware of the fact I am lying in the bed again. Could I go anywhere else? The pains in my body are beyond uncomfortable… and my eyelids feel heavy again… had they drugged me? No… I just feel tired. So, so, tired. Wait… I was sure somebody was talking…A deep voice was talking, but to who I did not know. Was it someone in my room? On the TV? Whoever, or whatever it was, seemed to be well into their conversation. “The doctor said to give you time, Bella, but it becomes hard when time seems to be all you have had. So much time seems to be drifting by and nothing seems to change. And I swear that the time is slowly killing me. And I fear it is killing you. They say time is a healer, but are you healing? Nobody seems to be able to answer that...”Who was that? And who was he calling Bella? I knew the nickname was one of affection… one my father so often used for my mother. I wanted to open my e
69 days earlier than current day. I desperately sat here hour by hour, hoping that it would be the day my sweet girl would awake and look to me with that beautiful smile of hers and tell me that everything was going to be okay. But, all the doctors could offer me when I questioned this, was, “Give her time.” I would give my mate all the time she needed. I would do anything to have her back, of course I would. But, just how much time was she going to need?I could not help but question if these doctors knew if my mate was okay or not. Or if they would be able to tell me. But the thing was, I needed to know. I needed my mate back. My wolf needed her back. Her. Not just this sleeping form beside us, offering us some semblance of reassurance that she still clung to life. No matter how I wanted to look at this, that was not Aria. And Ciro did not feel like it was either.For my wolf, he was craving his mate. And simply being by her side was no longer enough. He felt like he was beginning
Current day I awoke to a gentle pressure upon my head, making my heart race, and my body freeze in terror. Then I became aware of someone gently stroking my hair. The way my Mama used to do when I was a little girl… as she told me bedtime stories as she would so often stroke my long blond hair… something that so frequently would send me to sleep… was my Mum here? Had she finally come to help me?I felt hope building within my stomach. My eyes instantly opening, only to be met with the big blue eyes of the man that had been by my side since the moment I had awoken. My heart fell. Where was my Mum? Had she not been here with me? Was she not the one stroking my hair the way she did? Or was that purely my imagination?“Aria?” his voice seemed a little hoarse today. Not as smooth in the least. He cleared his throat a little, as he stood from the edge of my bed. “How are you feeling?”I found my eyes darting over him. Taking in every detail of this man in front of me. Tall. Tanned skin,
Current day Time felt frozen. His words continued to echo within my mind. Rocco had told me my parents had died. But a new thought developed alongside these words... did this mean he killed them? I felt a tear sliding down my cheek, and soon he was sitting alongside me on the bed, reaching out to wipe it away. I could see the anguish upon his face as he saw me cry. He did not like to see me in pain, it would seem. But while he wiped a tear away, more would come... attempting to wipe away each tear that followed. But they came too fast. Too often…I could not shake the thought that this man had played a part in the disappearance of my parents... the death of them that he spoke of. I most certainly did not want this monster to touch me… I began to thrash at his hands. Yet he continued to reach for me. Going from trying to wipe my tears away, to trying to pull me close to him.“No!” I sobbed. “No!” I slapped at his hands as he tried to embrace me.I could hear him sobbing now. “Aria, p
Morning had come around sooner than I had expected, despite barely sleeping in the uncomfortable hospital seat. Every noise that Aria made had me sitting up to check that she was okay, yet she had seemingly slept soundly. As soon as the clock upon the wall had reached a reasonable hour I had showered in the small washroom next to Aria’s room, and freshened myself up like I did most days. I think I have returned home only a number of times since the incident now, and that had been simply to bring clothes, or deal with things that were urgent. All of my duties as Beta were falling to the wayside right now, but thankfully, I had an understanding of Alpha and friend.My mind was upon bringing my mate back, and that had been all. Completing any duties would be an impossibility. I feared what was happening with my mate, and I needed to be close to her. In the time since the attack, our pack had begun to slowly return to itself. Any evidence of an attack was now gone. Or physically at least.
The blue-eyed Beta is here again. Or I assume he is the Beta. I am sure I have heard them refer to him as Beta… but irrelevant of that, he is in my room once again. In fact, I am beginning to wonder if he ever leaves. He seems to be here when I fall asleep, and he is here when I wake again. Watching me. Trying to make conversation with me. Acting like we are some sort of friends. Why, I have yet to work out. But he is here. And his eyes appear to struggle to tear themselves away from me.I don’t think my brain feels capable of working that sort of thing out right about now. He acts so peculiar, and I have never met a man quite like him, that I can remember... the way he acts confuses me... My whole body aches, and my brain just feels kind of fuzzy… slower than it ever did before. I had to hit my head. But the doctor hasn’t told me I did. Although I don’t think the doctor has told me much at all… something about memory… but I think they have to be wrong, I can remember just fine. Other
My mind was drifting. I was holding Aria as we laid upon her bed. My hands snaked over the perfect curves of her hips, as I gazed into those beautiful eyes of hers. Her eyelashes fluttered seductively, while she reached up to play with my hair just the way I loved, which sent goosebumps tingling across my body, before she gripped my hair tightly. I watched her tease at her lips with the tip of her tongue, making my whole body react, as she continued to grip tightly at my hair, suddenly using it to pull me close to her and find my lips with hers.A kiss I had been waiting a lifetime for. Or that is what it felt like. Did she know that seeing her had felt like torture when I could not kiss her? But Aria's lips found mine with a hunger that took me by surprise as I felt her hands still tangled within my hair, causing me to jerk my head back... I woke with a start, and realized it had all been nothing but a dream. A fucking dream... but it told me where I was wi
We had sat enjoying our coffees with the sun shining in the window for quite some time, and there was a lightness within my heart that I did not want to let go. Aria felt close to me again. Maybe not the way in which she always had, but she was closer than she had been in a long time.And now she was so close I did not want to let her go. I was sure I saw a sparkle in her eyes as she laughed. A sparkle I had missed. We were connecting again, I was certain of it. And it was making me reluctant to leave. Not that she once asked me to.The conversation flowed freely and easily, and Aria appeared to be appreciating my company, and it was the greatest feeling after weeks of heaviness looming over me. She seemed almost different, and it filled me with hope she was progressing within her recovery.“How is the Luna doing?” she asked me with concern.“Growing grumpier by the day.” I joked, causing Aria to look at me with shock, and I grinned. Obviously, she had not expected that response, and
I sat on the seat by the window, gazing out over the gardens awaiting Rocco’s return. This tended to be my favorite place to sit now, but in this instance I was on edge as I wanted Rocco back here with me. I had no clue how he knew my favorite drink. He did not even need to ask...I remember the first time I tried it as a teenage girl… it had been so good… out with my Grandma, on one of our many girly shopping days, when we stopped into a new coffee shop and my Grandma suggested I try it… oddly, it had been one of her favorites, alongside tea. And the moment I had tried that first sip, I knew that wold be my favorite drink... I never had plain coffee again when out.I sighed heavily at the memory. I did miss her. My Grandma. I wonder how long she had been gone. They said she was gone, didn’t they? I don’t know. I don’t know anything anymore. Everything felt so blurred. But, I felt a heavy sense of loss. Loss I did not want to feel, when the door to my room opened once more, and the l
I had to dismiss Aria talking about the way she felt. It hurt too much. The pain upon hearing her explain the fear she felt made me relive every moment of those early days. The hell when she had woken up and had no clue where she was or who we were. I had hoped for her to need me... want me to be there for her, but there had been nothing but fear. And now to hear how it had felt to her, only made it harder. I did not need to hear it in more detail. So, instead, I told Aria I knew. And she had agreed. Now we found one another in the empty room. Our eyes locked once again. Her eyes are ones I would never tire of looking into…And, as I looked into those beautiful eyes, I felt a heavy sigh slip from my lips, unable to help but note how Aria’s brows raised a little, likely wondering what was wrong. I did not want her worrying about me, or thinking anything was wrong. “So, have you eaten?” I asked, and she nodded earnestly.“The nurse brought my breakfast in.” she explained, and I nodded i
The way Rocco winked at me made my belly flutter a little unexpectedly. So I found myself smiling across at him. Momentarily, I had forgotten what it was I had wanted to tell him. But as I looked across him, simply looking at him, studying the chiseled jawline of his face, I felt his eyes upon mine, and as I moved my eyes to meet his, he chuckled lightly.“Was that a no?” he questioned, and I looked at him blankly.“ A no to what?”Rocco chuckled loudly. “Aww, Tesoro, you are funny.” He reached for my hand, and squeezed it gently, before sitting back again, like he was second guessing his actions. “You said you wanted to talk. I asked if you were going to tell me what about. So, I am asking again, what it was about. Did I miss something exciting while locked away in my office?” and I could tell with his words he was teasing me. Making light of the fact I had not been paying attention, while at the same time being desperately curious about what I wanted to speak with him about...I nod
Aria is there. So close. In front of me. And her scent is taking over my senses. My mind is in a spin. It is taking all my strength to stop myself placing my lips on hers... kiss her the in the way I have so desperately missed. Maybe to find the mark I created to make her my own... In truth, I am not sure what happened. We were talking one second, laughing even, and the next, her face was resting within the palm of my hand, our eyes locked… my heart was racing at an unnatural speed. The warmth of contentment rushed over me as for a moment I felt her return to me. I knew this would not last, as she still had no clue who I was to her, nor her to me, but at that moment, I was looking into the heart of my mate. The one I loved, and she was allowing me to…I traced the soft skin of her face with my thumb, and I saw a slight shiver of her body under my touch and I could not help but wonder if she was responding to our matebond. Does she feel the effects? Each time we touch the tingles, the
I had stepped from the shower, warm and refreshed once again. And in some new pajamas. My hair was braided by the lovely nurse who seemed to enjoy her time with me, and was frequently offering to sit with me to brush my hair, or simply sit and keep me company. It was something I think I may be more willing to accept in the future…“Ah, you look so much better, dear.” She smiled at me from the side of my bed as I sat myself down upon it, finding myself tired after the shower. I was finding that standing did seem to take it out of me more than I expected, so after a shower I often needed to rest, as ridiculous as that may seem.“Just tired now.” I smiled in response.“Aww, you always are, right?” she tickled at my toes. “If I could lend you my wolf I would. Give you a little boost.” She winked at me, and I found myself chuckling.“I could sure do with a boost. Maybe she could mak
I had been busy in the office all morning, having thankfully managed to avoid both of my parents by an early rising this morning, and grabbing breakfast in the packhouse dining room. The downside to that meant so many pack members decided to see this as an opportunity to make conversation with me, all seeming to want updates on my mate. Especially after many had seen us spending time yesterday. To them, that was a sign of positivity. A sign she was on the mend and that all was good. They wanted an update on their Beta mate...In truth, being faced with so many questions and no real answers as of yet was probably harder than it would have been to deal with my parents. Maybe staying at home for breakfast was the better option after all, because right now it hurt not to be able to answer my pack. And to see them so happy and excited about the prospect that my mate was healing… little did they know she had never felt further from me.It had not taken long until my mind could take no more
There was a glow coming through the thin curtains at my room window. They did little to shield me from the sunshine that was evidently shining outside. The sunshine instantly made me think back to my walk outside to bask in the sun with the Beta... my heart ached at the words he had said. That he planned to stay away. There would likely be no more visits out to the gardens whilst I remained in the hospital. This room would remain a prison cell... I sighed, rolling myself over in the bed with a sigh, trying to block the sun out.I found myself staring blankly at the wall, knowing that there was no hope of further sleep now. I had tossed, and I had turned throughout the night. Sleep seemed to struggle to find me. But visions of a vivid dream played through my mind. Had I been imagining it? Was I losing my mind? I had begun to wonder if that is what they wanted for me through them keeping me so isolated in this small and lonely room… were they slowly succeeding? Was I beginning to imagi