I lay there in nothing but darkness. Muffled sounds surrounded me. A pain ran through my body that I could not describe nor explain. I was desperate to call out to my parents for help, but I feared my voice would not work. I was unsure how long I had laid here like this… sure I had flitted in and out of this state numerous times… the weight of my eyelids was too much to bear. Unable to open them to see where I was... or to see why I was so sleepy. Everything seemed so confusing... too much.
Yet there was a niggling in my mind each time it felt like I had come to. A niggling that would not go away. Like something had sparked within my mind... and something seemed so odd. Had I fallen in my room? Perhaps when I was dancing? Could that be it? I sure did like to dance around my room when my music was playing… forever being told by my parents to turn the music down… maybe I had slipped? My room was forever cluttered. Hit my head even? Would that leave me here feeling like this?
My mind felt like it was swimming... such a strange sensation, yet one I felt unable to control. Had I fallen? But would my parents not have heard me fall if they could hear even the slightest curse word in some of the riskier songs I had taken to listening to lately?
I listened carefully… no. There was no music. Maybe the song had come to an end? When I listened now, there were just those same muffled noises I had heard before. Muffled voices, but what they were saying I did not know... they sounded so close, yet strangely so far away... as I drifted back into the pitch blackness of sleep…
A large clatter from around me, made me jerk, but my eyelids once more were heavy… I fluttered them hard, desperately trying to pry them open. Did my eyes stop working? I need to try to see where the source of the noise came from. Who was in my room? No. Why were there people in my room? I was sure I could hear voices here again…
My body ached like nothing I had ever experienced before. Parts of my body I did not know could hurt throbbed in discomfort. Was it normal to hurt this much? I don't think I could say when I didn't even know what had happened to me. I mean, what happened to me? Had someone hurt me?
Finally, with some strain, I lifted one eyelid, only for the slight vision I had provided myself to be flooded with a bright, unnatural light… the light so bright it hurt my eyes... tempting me to close my eyes tightly closed again.
“Doctor!” a voice bellowed from somewhere at the side of me. “She is awake!” the voice made me tremble with shock. Doctor? Was I in a hospital? The question was there once again... just what had happened to me? And where were my parents?
I struggled to bring my other eyelid open too, both feeling like weights upon my eyes, but somehow I managed, and now I found myself battling to focus my eyes upon the source of the noise. And, I found him... there was a tall, dark-haired man in front of me. Piercing blue eyes, staring intently towards me… a look of relief upon his face… was he the doctor? A doctor would make sense. I was in a hospital after all...
“Oh, Aria… baby, you are okay!” he exclaimed, moving toward me, causing my entire body to freeze in shock. Who was he calling baby? I was Aria… I know that, but did he have the wrong Aria? Because I did not know him… I knew that much. And right about now I felt far from okay.
My eyes darted anxiously around the room, and as they adjusted to the horrendously bright medical lights within the private room I was enclosed within, I desperately searched for a sight of my parents. I had so many questions to ask, but the tightness in my throat and the sharp pain I was feeling there meant I did not trust my ability to talk right now. Who knew how long I had been asleep... I mean I wasn't even sure I could still talk...
But I knew I needed my parents here to help. They would help me communicate. They would ensure I had all I needed. Surely, if I was injured they would be here with me, wouldn’t they? They would be here by my side waiting for me to recover, right?
But with every sweep of the room with my eyes, as the man in front of me looked at me with concern, I could see no sight of my parents. Where had they gone? Maybe they had gone for a coffee? They did like a coffee… of course! I told myself. If they had been waiting with me for a long time they would need coffee, right?
“Aria?” the man perched himself upon the edge of my hospital bed, reaching forward, and gently stroking my face… once more my entire body froze under his touch… this felt all too familiar… his voice filled with affection, and it was like he felt entitled to touch me… how dare he?! “I can’t tell you how worried I have been baby.” He whispered moving closer to me, his eyes full of a look that terrified me.
“Help!!!” I screamed, my whole body trembling as my voice broke under the pressure of trying to scream after not speaking for as long as I may have been unconscious. “Help me! I want my parents. Please…”
The door of the room flew open for a number of nurses and a doctor came rushing in, as the man upon my bed moved away from me, seeming to collapse to the floor as he did, tears within his eyes and his head within his hands…
I now lay staring at the roof. The starch whiteness of the room is everything you would expect of a hospital, and I feel myself struggling to stay focused. The doctor is checking me over, and he has been for some time now. I am sure he is speaking to me, but the words he says I am struggling to focus upon... my mind seems to wander, or my eyes feel so heavy... could they have drugged me? Was that why I slept? My mind feels so full of thoughts... ideas... but they seem all in a jumble, and nothing appears to make sense.
I stare at the roof again, while the doctor's voice continues to drone in the back of my mind, truly unsure now if he is talking to me or the others in the room. There were others there when I last looked... and I looked many times. But still there was no sign of my parents. Why had the doctor not called them to let them know I had woken? Is that not what a doctor would do when a family member has woken up after a long illness or injury? I am sure my parents would want to see me... my mind flickered again... just how far did they go for that coffee? I knew they wouldn’t leave me…
My parents may not be here, but that same man remained… the man with the piercing blue eyes was still here. Watching. Waiting. But silently now. But I knew he was watching me all the same, from across the room this time. I think my screaming scared him...
But it did not stop him watching over me. His eyes appeared to darken every now and again, but I don’t know if that was just my tired eyes, or maybe even the lighting in the room… but his intense gaze terrified me. He looked angry... possessive even, yet I had no idea why. This was a man I did not even know.
The door of the room flung open once more, with some force this time. A tall, chocolatey-skinned man with an air of confidence strode in, his eyes falling upon the scary man, before looking at me. A gentle smile appeared. “Aww, sweetheart, I am so glad you have woken up, you gave us a scare.” He seemed to know me too. What was it with these people?
Yet as I looked into those warm brown eyes of his, I saw nothing. No recognition of this man whatsoever. I felt the same as I looked across each person who had walked through the door to see me so far. Were they simply pretending to know me? Was I being held prisoner? Had I been kidnapped? Is that why my parents were nowhere to be seen? My mind whirred with the possibilities, while still trying to adjust to being awake again. But then, would a kidnapper call me sweetheart? I tried to reason with myself.
My mind seemed to be spinning, and I still felt so tired. Was my own mind playing tricks upon me?
“So doc, how is she doing?” the smiling man asked. He seemed genuinely friendly and kind. Would such a man kidnap me? I did not know.
“Alpha Micah, she is doing okay. Her stats are where we’d want them to be. I think we will have to monitor her for a few days, potentially more. Certainly need to do some more tests when she feels up to it. I am more concerned about her lack of response to you all.”
The doctor seemed to be muttering. What had he called him? Alpha Micah? Micah… do I know that name? The name did not ring a bell. Much as his face had not... I was sure I did not know the man showing concern for me.
Hmm... Alpha? I knew what an Alpha was though … we had grown up in a small little village in the countryside on the outskirts of a large forest. My grandmother had a cabin there that we spent a lot of time in during my childhood. Many days during the holidays we would spend with her, loving our time in the freedom of the forest... Grandma by our side... so many happy memories...and seeing wolves was commonplace…
And, part of those memories that I remember are tales my Grandma told us of these wolves. I would sit for hours listening to her tales. It seemed my grandmother had become more than a little friendly with a few of them. And they were a little more than wolves too.
She told us many tales of her friends. And I used to love hearing about them, thinking it was perhaps her wild imagination, or the loneliness and isolation living out in the forest brought to her, but I knew that an Alpha was the leader of a pack… but now my mind took me down another route... had I been kidnapped by a werewolf pack? Surely not…
A deep cough sounded by my side, breaking my thoughts. And the dark, warm eyes of the Alpha were smiling upon me. “Rocco, why are you not here talking to her? Trying to help her feel better?” The man I now knew was called Alpha Micah demanded to the man with the piercing blue eyes, who now stood at the foot of my bed.
“She screamed when I came near her. Begged for her parents, Mic, what was I meant to do? She needs to heal.” His voice sounded less calm now than it did when he spoke to me earlier. He sounded almost broken, and I had no clue why. This man was a stranger to me, so why was me needing my parents to come and take me home going to hurt him?
Micah turned to look at me again but this time the smile was gone, before looking towards the man with blue eyes, the man who was unable to take those eyes away from me, the man I now knew was called Rocco, and shook his head. “She is awake. That is amazing in itself. You have been here every one of those 71 days, brother, waiting, hoping, praying. And it worked, for she woke up. So why give up now?”
71 days?! I had been here 71 days?! Unconscious for 71 days?! What had happened to me to cause that? Why were my parents not sitting here by my side? Holding my hand, the way you see parents and family do… no something wasn’t adding up to me. Not when it seemed this man, this complete stranger, had been apparently sitting by my side each day, according to his friend… I assume they were friends… he called him brother, but they did not look like brothers…
“You did not see the fear in her eyes, Mic.” His voice shook as he spoke, and I could hear the pain… why was he hurting? He was not the one stuck in a bed in a hospital he did not know, surrounded by people acting like they knew her…
The pain in my head was pounding once more. The confusion was becoming too much... and a heaviness building within my eyelids as they began to flicker. Whatever was being said around me became muffled once more… I hope they did not plan to hurt me… these men that seemed to have me here trapped against my will. As soon as I was able, I would need to find a way out. I needed to get home…
71 days earlier than current day ... The sounds of screams are deafening as they echo throughout my pack. This was any pack member’s worst nightmare. Especially a senior member, such as a Beta like myself. A rogue attack was never a good thing, but this one, well, it seemed strategic and well-developed; and that worried me. This did not seem like a normal rogue attack, and this type was becoming more frequent.“Back up needed at the north border!” Micah, our pack Alpha, and my closest friend called to me over the developing battlefield that only hours ago had been our peaceful pack. The pack that we loved so much, now stood in all but ruins around us... unprepared, and unexpected... I feared for the safety of our pack members.I nodded in response. ‘I will shift and head that way.’ I mindlinked in reply. The sooner I could get there with back up the better. We needed to get the influx of fighters invading our land cut off and dealt with as swiftly as we could before any further dama
71 days earlier than current day continued... The closer Ciro got to the main area of our pack buildings, the stronger the scent of blood became. Had we underestimated the rogues? It truly looked like we had been overrun. Bodies laid strewn on the floor… tears filled my eyes at the sight of familiar faces of pack members… some dead… some injured… but still there was no sight of my mate… this attack had become everything we had hoped it would not, and in such a short space of time.Ciro was becoming unsettled. Almost irate now, I could sense it through the bond I shared with my wolf, and it made me wonder if he could sense her near…But while his head darted side to side, I needed to arrange help for the injured. I was still in the role of Beta as well as broken mate. There were injured and dead rogues among the bodies too, that needed dealing with. Of that I was sure… but still, there appeared to be no more fighting in this area. I could only hope that was a good sign for us right n
I think I am awake. But my eyes are closed. That state between awake and asleep, maybe? But, I am aware of the fact I am lying in the bed again. Could I go anywhere else? The pains in my body are beyond uncomfortable… and my eyelids feel heavy again… had they drugged me? No… I just feel tired. So, so, tired. Wait… I was sure somebody was talking…A deep voice was talking, but to who I did not know. Was it someone in my room? On the TV? Whoever, or whatever it was, seemed to be well into their conversation. “The doctor said to give you time, Bella, but it becomes hard when time seems to be all you have had. So much time seems to be drifting by and nothing seems to change. And I swear that the time is slowly killing me. And I fear it is killing you. They say time is a healer, but are you healing? Nobody seems to be able to answer that...”Who was that? And who was he calling Bella? I knew the nickname was one of affection… one my father so often used for my mother. I wanted to open my e
69 days earlier than current day. I desperately sat here hour by hour, hoping that it would be the day my sweet girl would awake and look to me with that beautiful smile of hers and tell me that everything was going to be okay. But, all the doctors could offer me when I questioned this, was, “Give her time.” I would give my mate all the time she needed. I would do anything to have her back, of course I would. But, just how much time was she going to need?I could not help but question if these doctors knew if my mate was okay or not. Or if they would be able to tell me. But the thing was, I needed to know. I needed my mate back. My wolf needed her back. Her. Not just this sleeping form beside us, offering us some semblance of reassurance that she still clung to life. No matter how I wanted to look at this, that was not Aria. And Ciro did not feel like it was either.For my wolf, he was craving his mate. And simply being by her side was no longer enough. He felt like he was beginning
Current day I awoke to a gentle pressure upon my head, making my heart race, and my body freeze in terror. Then I became aware of someone gently stroking my hair. The way my Mama used to do when I was a little girl… as she told me bedtime stories as she would so often stroke my long blond hair… something that so frequently would send me to sleep… was my Mum here? Had she finally come to help me?I felt hope building within my stomach. My eyes instantly opening, only to be met with the big blue eyes of the man that had been by my side since the moment I had awoken. My heart fell. Where was my Mum? Had she not been here with me? Was she not the one stroking my hair the way she did? Or was that purely my imagination?“Aria?” his voice seemed a little hoarse today. Not as smooth in the least. He cleared his throat a little, as he stood from the edge of my bed. “How are you feeling?”I found my eyes darting over him. Taking in every detail of this man in front of me. Tall. Tanned skin,
Current day Time felt frozen. His words continued to echo within my mind. Rocco had told me my parents had died. But a new thought developed alongside these words... did this mean he killed them? I felt a tear sliding down my cheek, and soon he was sitting alongside me on the bed, reaching out to wipe it away. I could see the anguish upon his face as he saw me cry. He did not like to see me in pain, it would seem. But while he wiped a tear away, more would come... attempting to wipe away each tear that followed. But they came too fast. Too often…I could not shake the thought that this man had played a part in the disappearance of my parents... the death of them that he spoke of. I most certainly did not want this monster to touch me… I began to thrash at his hands. Yet he continued to reach for me. Going from trying to wipe my tears away, to trying to pull me close to him.“No!” I sobbed. “No!” I slapped at his hands as he tried to embrace me.I could hear him sobbing now. “Aria, p
Morning had come around sooner than I had expected, despite barely sleeping in the uncomfortable hospital seat. Every noise that Aria made had me sitting up to check that she was okay, yet she had seemingly slept soundly. As soon as the clock upon the wall had reached a reasonable hour I had showered in the small washroom next to Aria’s room, and freshened myself up like I did most days. I think I have returned home only a number of times since the incident now, and that had been simply to bring clothes, or deal with things that were urgent. All of my duties as Beta were falling to the wayside right now, but thankfully, I had an understanding of Alpha and friend.My mind was upon bringing my mate back, and that had been all. Completing any duties would be an impossibility. I feared what was happening with my mate, and I needed to be close to her. In the time since the attack, our pack had begun to slowly return to itself. Any evidence of an attack was now gone. Or physically at least.
The blue-eyed Beta is here again. Or I assume he is the Beta. I am sure I have heard them refer to him as Beta… but irrelevant of that, he is in my room once again. In fact, I am beginning to wonder if he ever leaves. He seems to be here when I fall asleep, and he is here when I wake again. Watching me. Trying to make conversation with me. Acting like we are some sort of friends. Why, I have yet to work out. But he is here. And his eyes appear to struggle to tear themselves away from me.I don’t think my brain feels capable of working that sort of thing out right about now. He acts so peculiar, and I have never met a man quite like him, that I can remember... the way he acts confuses me... My whole body aches, and my brain just feels kind of fuzzy… slower than it ever did before. I had to hit my head. But the doctor hasn’t told me I did. Although I don’t think the doctor has told me much at all… something about memory… but I think they have to be wrong, I can remember just fine. Other
Ciro whimpered heavily in my mind at the sight of our mate in the arms of our friend, but I don’t think it was because of the fact she was being held by another man. A man that by all accounts would be considered stronger and more powerful than me, it was the way she had looked at us. The way her eyes lit up when they met mine…But, I knew I did not have time for emotion right now. Aria needed to know we were here for her. “Tesoro, are you okay?” I reached for her, but those beautiful eyes flickered closed once more, as Micah rushed her away from the car, just as a rush of heat englufed us. Flames were taking over the car, and we had done exactly the right thing in following my gut and getting Aria out when we did. A moment longer and it would have been too late. The thought does not bear worth thinking about...That heat from the increasing fire behind us was radiating across our bodies, so we moved faster. Micah using all her had to increase the speed with which he was moving, know
My eyes are darting over the damage to the car. This is not how I had wanted to find my mate. I had wanted to find her well. Be able to convince her to return with me. Tell her what a fool I had been. Knowing that in spite of everything she had fallen for me again meant the world to me. We had found one another once and fallen for one another, and in a cruel twist of fate, she had forgotten me, and fallen for me all over again... I had been blessed, not just once but twice. I could not let my girl die.I looked to Micah. His eyes were doing the exact same thing as mine. I could see the concern across the face of my friend, as his dark eyes took in the damage to the car. There has certainly been some sort of impact to it. Aria had to have been thrown around inside of her car. My heart ached at the thought that my mate may well be injured further... but I noticed my friend's eyes are currently lingering on that leaking fuel. The thing that is concerning me the most right now…‘We need t
Ciro ran. Faster than I think I have felt my wolf run before. His feet pounding along the floor of the packlands until we had crossed the borders onto the lands beyond. Micah’s wolf, Zane, had wasted no time in shifting and running alongside me. But I was paying little attention to the wolf by our side. My focus was through the eyes of my wolf. Looking for the car accident that my Alpha had mentioned.The car accident that my mate may well be laying in…The thought that Aria could be laying injured in a car somewhere tore at my heart strings. Knowing that she had been fleeing me when that had potentially happened made it even worse. This was not how my life was meant to go. Never how I envisioned meeting my fated mate would be. It had been enough of a shock to disover she was a human. But, I had thought I was strong enough to protect her. A matebond is everything to a wolf; and I truly thought ours would be. Evidently, I was wrong. I had
I stood from the bed, needing some space, but Micah blocked my way. “You think I am going to allow you to get away with this? Abandoning your fated when she needs you the most? That is not what we do, Rocco and you know it is not.” he demanded. “You know this is not the way to do this, Rocco. Yes, this has got tough, but as her mate you deal with the tough as well as the good. That is part of being a mate.”I shook my head at my Alpha, not willing to get into a grand debate over it all. This was not his choice anyway. My mind was made up. Aria had evidently made her choice the moment she wrote that letter. She had been planning to find a way to escape. She had made the decision in her mind that all of this was some sort of game. I don’t think there would ever be a way for her to trust me. I had known deep down all along, I would never gain my Aria back. The one I had fallen for was gone to me. The one in front of me all these we
I picked the second piece of paper up, and began to read. My heart aching at the thought my mate had been developing feelings for me once again and I had been oblivious to it, despite it being what I had hoped for all along. Or I had simply been too scared to notice…Well, you did not come back to me. I waited all day, and a great portion of the night in the hope you would come to see me. Not just upon one day, but many. Yet on each and every single one of those days, as my hope slipped away, all I received was a brief moment when you came in to place a coffee upon my table, before making some fandangle excuse before rushing off again. Anyone would think you did not want to be around me Rocco. And I have still to understand why - believe me I have tried. My heart dropped at her words. I imagined her sittng in her room trying to understand what was happening. Why I had been avoiding contact with her. I had stayed away, not because I did not want to be around her, but because I was wo
I looked to the nurse with confusion. “Letters?” I asked, and she smiled at me, all fear that had been displayed upon her face moments ago now gone, as she nodded at me.“Yes, Beta. I have not looked at them, but she must have been thinking of you to be writing to you these last few days. I think she missed your visits.” She suggested, and my heart twisted at her words. My rushed calls had been causing her pain? I know the reason behind my swift visits to the hospital was more to avoid my discomfort but I believed it would help Aria too. I thought she would appreciate the space. The awkward tension between us…“Do you think so?” I asked quietly, and the nurse smiled again.“I think the fact she was asking for paper each day to write to you says a lot, do you not, Beta?” she said, offering me the letters again. I tentatively took them, before sitting myself upon the edge of Aria’s bed, my heart inexplicably pounding as I looked down to the papers within my hands. “I will leave you in p
I paced the corridors of the hospital. Mindlink after mindlink being sent to as many people as I could think of to assist in my hunt for Aria. I needed as many of the senior people within pack, past and present to know she was missing. They needed to begin a hunt for her. My mate had been safe whilst we knew where she was. She had been safe within our care. Now, we did not know where she was. She was still healing. I needed to know she would be okay...I needed to know where Aria was. None of this made sense. My mind was spinning with the possibilities of where my mate could have gone. She had been mere steps away. Uable to walk at speed. I did not understand how she had got away from me. I cursed myself for even talking to those doctors now. I should have gone after her. I should never have given her the time she needed to calm down. Giving her space had been the thing that may have lost me my mate...There was no plan to my search. It was a franctic dash back and forth down as many
I had my outburst and I walked away. Admittedly, not all that fast, but I did my best to storm away. I half expected Rocco to rush after me, but instead I heard muffled voices behind me, making me assume he and the medical staff were discussing things… or more specifically, me. I had most definitely given them plenty to talk about.But, I had no intention of turning back. I kept walking, the pain in my legs still there, but not quite as bad as it had been, which I have to say was a relief. Each step I made I expected Rocco to appear, but he never did, and as I reached the bottom of the corridor, where it veered off into two directions, I was surprised to say the least. I had most certainly exected him to be here by now, it would not have taken him much to catch up with me.I turned to the right, opting for that corridor because it was the emptier of the two, hoping there may be an empty room I may walk past that I would be able to hide in for a time, until I was
It felt like the world had stood still. Hearing her yell like that had been a shock. Aria had broken down, not only telling me how she felt, but all those involved in her care. It was truly heartbreaking to hear what she was going through. And, everything she said was right, we did not know what it was like, because we were not the ones experiencing it. And, the thing was, I doubted even if we did, would it be the same for us. This was something unique, and none of us knew the best way to help Aria. We had tried, and it seemed we had failed. Miserably. Never had it occurred to me that was how she was feeling. And I was supposed to be able to pick up on her feelings. I felt like a failure.Some of her thoughts made sense, but others, I do not think I could have ever have thought of. And it broke my heart she had gone through them alone. Never speaking out until now. Until she felt pushed into a corner. I fear because she was scared about coming to live with m