Chapter 4
Alexis
I don't know what it is about hospitals that wear me out to the point of hitting lights out. It's not the horrible food that they give me or the sometimes friendly staff the med's are a given , however my energy takes a dip when I come back home from the hospital. Maybe I didn't protect myself properly energy shielding wise or perhaps I'm too sensitive and with the ocean nearby and a full moon that has already risen I'm twice as sensitive as before. I was just happy to be out of the hospital. Bryan had texted me asking; if I was fine and if I needed more time off to recover from the fall , I told him I was fine and that I wanted to come back to work. He replied with a smiley face and a heart emoji saying; I should get well soon and he can't wait to see me . The office was not the same without me.
My body started switching on and I felt better than I did the day before . Aaron's beach house was humungous ,the bed I was sleeping in was huge . I all of the sudden felt like a princess waiting for my servants to appear at any moment offering me breakfast in bed . I stopped daydreaming when I looked across and saw Aaron fast asleep next to me and the digital clock on the wall reminding me that it was five in the morning . My bags were at the far end of the room and the bathroom was a safe distance away . As soon as I got cleaned up and changed into a pair of dark blue jeans and grey hoody, I grabbed my phone and made my way downstairs to what I assumed was the kitchen. I was really hungry so I made breakfast there were no ingredients for a proper English breakfast , so I made a South African breakfast minus the bacon ,and oh I also made blue berry pancakes and syrup on the side with strawberries . If this PA gig doesn't work , I think I'll take up being a chef . I've known how to cook since I was a kid why not use my skills . As soon as I was done cleaning up while I was eating I felt my phone vibrated and picked it up .
" Bryan?"
" Hey Ali where on earth are you? I went to the hotel to surprise you but they said you checked out ."
" I am at a beach house Mr Brooks offered to take care of me while I recover . I was in the hospital. "
"I'm on my way to the beach house Ali. Aaron didn't touch you inappropriately did he?"
I flashed back to the week and couple of days and the two maybe three times Aaron kissed me . Just thinking about him made me week at the knees if not uncomfortably soaked or suffering from a minor case of blue bean. I like Aaron ... I am in trouble.
" No Bryan he has been the perfect gentleman . "
I could hear a bit of rattling on the other end and I knew he was in his car on the way .
" You sound tired,"
" I am okay Bryan."
" It hasn't been the same without you. I lost it at the temp because she messed up my appointments ."
" Bryan I was a temp before you decided to hire me. I messed up more than once but you gave me a shot. "
"She tried to make moves on me as in give me head in the office. I don't know who the heck told her that she needs to stoop so low to get ahead. I reported what happened to Human Resources on the same day."
" Wow that's hectic . What happened to Mia ? "
" Well she likes Aaron but he broke up with her after she was mean to her son. It wasn't the only incident . "
" I can imagine what David went through, Mia wasn't nice to me either when you were dating . She went as far as racially abusing me and insulting my intelligence. "
" I'm sorry about that . You are my favorite girl."
" You are the best boss ever."
" Ha ha flattery."
" It works all the time with you."
I all of the sudden had a feeling that I wasn't alone . I was a guest after all so I was expecting anything. I had made breakfast and it was already seven in the morning . I knew who was watching me because he always had an energy about him. I turned around only to lay eyes on a beautiful beast . I hadn't seen it before but now I did .He was; tall , dark ,deliciously handsome , muscular and easy on the eye .I think I was actually right he was a replica of Orion the Greek god . I snapped out of my moment of awe and admiration when Bryan continued to talk. My throat was already dry and I was already suffering from a mild case of blue bean. I was sitting on one of the kitchen bar chairs , and without hesitation I crossed my legs and looked outside the window at the ocean.
" You're lucky Aaron was around ."
"I'm thankful. I have to go ."
" See you in a bit."
"cool beans."
As soon as I hung up another call came through and it was the last person I needed a call from. I looked up and Aaron was helping himself to the breakfast I made , with a cup of coffee in one hand. I still felt like he was hovering but I answered the call. My throat was dry and my voce went all raspy .
" Hey Tommy."
" Hey Ali are you good ?"
" I'm okay thanks T."
"You sound tired did I catch you at a bad time?"
I was about to answer when I heard something bang on the table and Aaron charging towards me from the kitchen Island .
" Yes can I call you back ?"
" okay angel ."
By the time II put my phone down Aaron was sitting on the chair next to me . He proceeded to turn my chair around to face him and I looked at him impassively . I didn't know what to say but he was looking at me clearly angry.
" Good morning Aaron ."
"It was good until I woke up and found you talking to Tommy. "
I took a deep breath and loc
ked eyes with him.
" I made all three of you breakfast to say ; thank you..."
I still had my legs crossed and my tummy started to rumble.
" Much appreciated. Who were you talking with before Tom?"
" Bryan. He is on his way . why aren't you wearing any shirt ?"
Oh no why did I ask such a stupid question he probably thinks I'm weird. Aaron placed his hand on my cheek and it felt damp. Indicating either a panic attack or anxiety .
" I woke up and you weren't there . I panicked. I looked for you and when I found you ... I .... I "
I locked eyes with Aaron again and they reflected sadness . He stood up and I stood up and looked at him. Without hesitation I gave him a hug . He felt slick with what I suspected was his own sweat. I leaned into his neck and he smelt musky. He leaned into me and hugged me tighter.
" I'm sorry Aaron. I am so sorry."
He leaned back to look at me as if he was dreaming. I now remembered who Aaron was... he has gone through hell and waking up without me when he went to sleep with me must have triggered something , he hasn't opened up to me.
" Lexi ... I like you a lot and I don't know what Si did but he should have never let you go. Please reconsider just being in a relationship with me. "
I placed my hands on his wrists and shook my head. I was analyzing everything that had happened. I wanted to take the leap but I couldn't.
" I don't want anything to do with you if you are going to compare me to someone who's gone . I like you too yes but; you need to heal and let go of Laura properly. "
I stood on my toes and gave him a kiss on his cheek . I took my phone and ran back upstairs into Aarons bedroom ; I was headed to the bathroom when I was stopped by Aarons frame stalking towards me . I walked into the vanity room and closed the door hoping he will get the hint that he wasn't going to feature in my future but on the other hand I wanted him so bad. It felt as if something was drawing me to him and I couldn't repel against the pull . I sat on the bench taking deep breaths to calm down because ; I was turned on and afraid at the same time . A moment later I heard the door close and lock. I looked up and I saw Aaron.
" Lexi ."
"Aaron ."
I looked down on the carpet not wanting to meet his eyes because they would make me weak at the knees . I saw him for who he was not what he was. He was a broken man in pain. Pain I somehow understood and remedy. Why did he pick me?
" Alexis look at me ..."
"No."
"fine."
Aaron continued to walk towards me until he made it to the bench . He sat next to me and lifted my chin up to look at him. His eyes gave him away and I knew in my heart that I was in way too deep. Before I could open my mouth to protest he kissed me gently and I kissed him back . I didn't want to stop and I gave him back as much as he took . Before I knew it my clothes were on the floor and I had my legs wrapped around his waist. I could feel his hard on . He was as turned on as I was. When I pulled back for air Aaron kissed me harder with more hunger and intent to finish what he started . I wanted him as badly as he wanted me but it was too soon . My body was doing the opposite of what my head was saying .
" Aaron no we can't ."
Aaron pinned me against the wall held on my thighs and reluctantly pulled away.
" We can baby. I know you feel what I feel and it scares you. I chose you regardless. I was crazy enough to stalk you . I know Bryan would flip because you're like his baby sister but once I claim you ; you are mine for keeps. Will you be my girl?"
Before I could answer we both heard a knock on the door .
" Daddy; open up . We need to talk ."
I took a deep breath and went all quiet. Aaron nuzzled my neck and slowly placed me down .
" Dave just give me a couple of minutes buddy. Breakfast is ready . Alexis made all of us breakfast..."
" where is she ?"
" She's lost somewhere in the house as soon as I find her we'll come join you okay bud."
" cool."
As soon as I heard the main bedroom door close I started getting dressed .My hair was messy and I felt bad for what almost happened . As soon as my head peaked out my hoody ; Aaron kissed me again and looked at me with affection and love in his eyes.
" That was too close. "
" This conversation isn't over ."
" Why stalk me when you could have come to me and asked me."
" I love to hover. It's much more fun "
" Hmm. I will wait for you outside, go take a shower ."
" I took one last night ."
"Go ... "
I pointed to the raindrop shower.
" Bossy ... I like that ."
"I'll keep that in mind ."
" I messed up your hair ."
" I know I'll fix it. Now get your sexy ass in the shower ."
" Pity you can't join me."
I walked to the door and unlocked it . I smiled at Aaron and he smiled back. The difference about his smile and many other smiles I received before was that his smile reached his eyes. I walked out and closed the door. My ballerina bun was messed up so I redid my hair only this time I did a coiled bun. I remembered the reason I wanted to go home earlier. I wanted to change my weave and go natural . My hair was chocolate brown. By the time I was finished Aaron was done and he was wearing his white long sleeve polo cotton golf shirt with dark blue jeans. His hair was unruly and wild and his floppy curls framed his face perfectly. We both took a moment to drink each other in and acknowledge what had happened. I was about to speak when Dave opened the door looking worried.
" Dad you're really acting weird . If I didn't know better I'd say; you are making up Alexis . Uncle Bryan is downstairs with Aunty Mary. When she shows up I will tell her about the goofy smile that spreads on your face when you talk about her."
Aaron laughed and David gave him a confused look .
"Buggy say Hi to Lexi ."
I looked at a mini replica of Aaron and smiled .I waved at him and he smiled and waved back at me.
" Good morning Alexis ."
I walked to where he was and stretched out my hand .
" Morning David it's a pleasure to meet you. "
Instead of getting a handshake I unexpectedly got a hug.
I looked at Aaron all confused and he cracked a smile.
" I remember you . You helped me the other day."
When David pulled back he smiled at me and then his father and spoke;
" Breakfast time Dave lets go now before it gets too cold ."
" Yes dad."
I followed both of them downstairs and when we made it downstairs I was met by a worried Bryan who stopped his conversation with a female version of Aaron to come give me a hug . I hugged him back and he kissed my forehead and he looked at me .
" Ali you scared me."
"Ryan I'm okay..." We were interrupted by Aaron when he cleared his throat.
" Breakfast is getting cold."
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AaronWhen Bryan told me that he had a new assistant; I laughed at him and asked him if he was planning on keeping her ,and he said yes . when I met Alexis the first time she was too busy to notice me . I had the feeling that she was avoiding me but I was wrong. This morning when I woke up I thought she ran away. Truth be told I don't want to lose her. I want her to feature in my future and I will do whatever it takes to make sure that happens. She is shy . I ran after her after we had a dispute; we ended up kissing and I almost took her right then and there in my vanity room but I was stopped .When we made it downstairs Mary and Bryan were waiting for us and once we took our seats I made sure I sat next to Alexis . Bryan was way too touchy feely , with good reason we almost lost a girl we both care about Mary was still giving off iffy vibes which unsettled me." Mary meet Lexi ."Alexis waved and Mary just cut her eyes at her and gave her a snarky
AlexisI seriously don't know what it is about Aaron; even when I push him away he keeps on coming back I have ran away from him , shut him out , almost made love with him , pushed him back and shut him out again , only for him to come back to me .He really wants to be with me regardless of my stance. Maybe I have nurtured my fear of getting hurt for far too long. I uncrossed my legs and knelt down so that I was facing him."I guess I don't know you that well but; my heart somehow knows you and my gut is telling me to give you a fair shot. "" Thank you Lexi.""For what Aaron?"" Giving me a shot..."" I will try and open up too it's only fair."" Fair enough ."I sat on the couch and Aaron followed but I could see he was uncomfortable" bed?""I like the way you think. "" Hmm . Not what you are thinking . You look uncomfortable ." I am. "I climbed on the b
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Alexis🚨🚨smut content warning. Moderate 🚨"Dad... please don't be mad."I looked up and I saw Aaron. He had grown a beard and his eyes reflected pain and hurt. An indication something was wrong. Dave stood up and looked at him pleadingly and he nodded"I'm not mad my boy. I need to talk to Lexi alone; Uncle Gavin and Aunty Tina are waiting for you at the restaurant ."David gave Aaron a hug and he hugged him back kissing the top of his head."I love you dad."" I love you too Dave. We will talk later okay?""Yes sir."When they broke their embrace; David smiled, waved goodbye to me and I waved back . My feet were still in the water, reason being it was quiet hot and the cold water was helping. As soon as we were left alone I felt a tad bit scared with good reason, because Aaron sat next to me and said nothing for the first couple of minutes. He was uncomfortably silent, and I knew I w
AaronI cannot believe what just happened . I seriously can't ...When I drove up with Dave this afternoon ; I tried to ask him what was wrong and if there was anything I could do ?. He shook his head and kept quiet. When we pulled up at the estate at three in the afternoon, he dropped his bags in the hotel room we were booked in and ran out . I knew he wouldn't be far but I had installed a tracker in his phone without his knowledge so when I located him I followed the trail to the lake on the other side of the estate . I thought he would be alone but he wasn't .He was talking with Lexi and she was listening . I wanted to ask him about his bruises but he shut me out . He showed his scars to Lexi because he trusts her . He didn't open up to anyone and he hasn't until I saw him crying and I made a few calls to the school... it turns out he was being bullied and taunted. A video of him when the explosion happened had gone
AlexisTrauma has a way of coming back to haunt you when you're unaware. Post traumatic stress may be the cause; but getting over something that altered how you live,doesn't happen overnight.No amount amount of pills, alcohol, distractions or episodes of anger outbursts can be enough. The fruit of my trauma is; my inability to stay stable, trust anyone, go into shell shock, and above all the most viable evidence of my audeal is the post traumatic stress and scars .Any banging sound , scenes of violence, unexpected surprise greetings , sudden shocks, knocks you off kilter.For someone who doesn't understand ; they may think you are troubled , have issues , or my favorite term she's weird.Fact is that I am not weird. I have visible and invisible scars that are trying to heal. The most noticeable ones are the laceration stitches that are on my tummy . The scars se
AaronWe all have walls that we put up. Some are so high that it takes forever to break down. Some walls are made of ; glass , metal bricks , or the hardest one of them all titanium.I fell for an amazing woman in a short space of time... over a period of time to come think of it, and I love her unconditionally.David also clicked with her which is a surprise because he never liked any woman I introduced to him; he was just always angry too when I was with Mia , and when I caught her physically and verbally abusing him I called it a day on a year long relationship. My boy has been through a lot and I know he's keeping something from me. He opened up to Lexi and Caleb...I wonder what I'm doing wrong that they are both doing right. Caleb has told me about Lexi's dad and how he almost killed her unintentionally. I asked her yesterday what really happened and she told me that her dad came back home one day after a night out wi
Chapter 51AaronBalance is the most fundamental aspect of life. whether you want to admit it or not every action or event ;evokes some sort of balance. At a point where I thought everything was coming together again, everything started falling apart. I knew my son was angry when he found his mothers pictures in a box of things I kept of Lara. I was going to give it to him on his birthday , but he found it when he was looking for something . The first question he asked was ; why did Alexis have similar features to his mother. I told him ; it was a coincidence. He snapped out of the blue and told me I was lying, he said; you are a sick selfish human being. I sat him down after his rant and I told him everything with regards to what happened when he was five years old. I also told him that I fought hard to get him back , and that I was sorry . We were still on moody terms with each other. He was moody and irritable if not mean to me until the accident happe
AlexisI am not afraid of dreaming. I am afraid of staying awake and not allowing myself to dream big enough and believe that I can do ,and be anything I want. Even a super shero. I am also not afraid of waking up and dealing with the fact that I have an unfinished life, that I still want to live and make the most out of it…When you are living you constantly ask yourself if you are doing enough? When you are going you ask yourself if you did all you wanted and was it enough. When you’re gone what you never did is done and in between those three steps; your whole life flashes before your eyes.When I rolled down the stairs; I was afraid . I was afraid that I had failed my unborn baby by not keeping him safe, afraid that my relationship with David was never going to be the same , and more than that I was afraid that I had robbed my brother of becoming an uncle and Aaron becoming a father again.
AaronIn a split second everything can change.After leaving Alexis alone to prepare lunch , because Mary was held hostage by her crazy roommate who injured herself . I made the necessary arrangements to bring my sister home and hire in a caregiver to make sure she was stable .I dropped her off at the pent house and told her I would see her tomorrow. On my way back Lexi called me and I told her I was on the way. I had taken a short cut to get to the Estate because I was worried about David.He was behaving strangely this morning before he went to hang out with Angelo. Cleo had also called me to ask if everything was okay with both Dave and me. Truth be told we were not okay. He was mad at me because I apparently do not consider his feelings. When I asked him if he missed Alexis he didn't answer me he just went to the games room ,and to top it all off he locked the door so that I couldn
AlexisWe only appreciate something after it has been taken away from us. We are often told to be thankful for every little thing, and I always say; being thankful should be habitual.Sometimes we don’t know how good we have it until something happens, and your world is turned upside down. I have a theory . “Tragedy” has a way of bringing things into focus. The process is there for a reason and however long it takes; you will learn the lessons that help you either elevate your levels of perception and trust your sixth sense, or open up a door to more questions that lead you to the right answers, and hopefully you can find a way out of the maze you have been trying to navigate. We are here on purpose. Sticking to the task at hand is a given, the only time we falter is when we focus on other peoples blessings instead of ours. Success comes in different phases and forms. Learn to wait your turn and trust in God&r
AaronAlexis is really unpredictable. Her unpredictability can be both exciting and unsettling at times, but it makes sense at the end of the day.When I entered the house Alexis was walking around barefoot in my kitchen looking serious. She got the hint earlier that I wanted her in our home. When she recognized my presence ; she smiled and blew a kiss at me , and for a moment my heart skipped a beat and fell in love again. It was already mid afternoon and I hadn’t eaten so; so I headed to the kitchen to go make lunch for us both.I didn’t have much in the fridge but I had enough to whip up a meal. Usually I would ask Dave what he wanted , and he would order it in. I cooked for him every now and then but, I could tell she missed Lexi as much as I did. She planned meals and she made sure we all ate as a family with Mary included. She took a seat on the comfy stools in front of the counter and loo
AlexisThe toughest conversations are the ones we’ve never had with our heart. Conversations with heart are always honest; pure, real and non pretentious. It is a non judgmental zone where you can bare all without any fear… The heart always knows the truth no matter what condition it is in; your heart will always lead you to the right answer . Your heart will always lead you home.I have had moments when I’ve doubted the very love I believed in.The day Simon Nathan broke my heart was one of them, the other was the day I lost Ben, and now… Now it’s whether or not I love Aaron. For the longest of times I have struggled with letting anyone in or talk about how I really felt about a situation. When I got together with Aaron over the time we were together, I had lost a part of myself. In my head I foolishly believed that true I had to sacrifice a part of myself to be with him. Tr
AaronThree weeks laterMary relapsed again. I blame myself for that happening. Ever since the shooting I have been recovering very well and I am healing.Christmas was different this year though. Mary was okay until she lost it at Cleo for no apparent reason. Sarah was also shocked and as I suspected she gave Lexi hell in Cape Town. Lexi had been away and I hadn’t seen her in a long time a month to be exact and May went as far as blocking her on all accounts. Carl and the Perelli bunch joined us for the Christmas lunch.Alexis was six months pregnant and what hurt the most was missing out on a lot of things. The shooting wasn’t her fault .When I called CT he told me; She was out and she didn’t want to talk to me about anything. I knew that he bought a house just down the road and I had the innate feeling that Lexi was around. Our connection was and is always strong .
44AlexisFeelsFear is the enemy of courage. Courage is what we have, when we look fear in the face and tell it to go to hell and stay there because life is calling. When life calls we answer ; however when life happens we react. How we react can determine the outcome of the situation. Given what was 'going on I couldn’t lose it and become a drama queen. Drama has its benefits when you want to make a statement ,and when you do make the statement make sure you don’t trip and fall on your face… it happens to the best of us when we least expect. Courage and kindness are not really rare traits. They are embedded in us ; we just need to flick the switch. What courage does is give us the power to overcome and with that comes understanding. Through understanding you learn to see a situation for what it is and take a gentle approach in helping someone. Kindness has never lost a battle or war. Coupled with hum
AlexisMan downIt happened so fast. It happened so fast that; I didn’t have time to recognize that I was caught in a cross fire between the guys that Carlo and Aaron were shooting at. All I saw was smoke and Carl swearing. It wasn’t until I heard a loud thud on the floor that my heart stopped. Security had come through and a couple of other guys who had the same ring as Carlo . As soon as the smoke cleared Carl bent down to pick me up and give me a hug.“ Hey honey are you okay?”I nodded and looked for Aaron.“Aaron Carl where is Aaron?”I pulled back and looked at the kitchen island . I couldn’t see him .“Aaron!”Carl let go of me and ran to where Aaron was. My heart was already beating fast but it broke when I saw Aaron lying on the floor with a