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Chapter 37
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Alexis
Letting go hurts; but it's necessary. I have something I call the quad-factor . Balance has always been important to me and with my moon rising being a cardinal sign with scales; fairness in all things is mandatory. Even though I feel my way through life because my sun sign is also a cardinal water sign there is a point where you have to let go, no matter how hard it hurts you will feel better once you let go completely.
The quad-factor is what I call; body, mind , heart, and soul balance. Your body has a way of releasing what it doesn't need , so does your heart, mind and soul. I remember falling Ill one day after work ; because I didn't take time to rest , I was constantly in stress mode, and I couldn't switch off. When I arrived home out of the blue I started running a fever . Simon Nathan had prepared dinner for us and he was concerned . I could've blamed the weather but it was winter. The house had under floor heati
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