Two days later.
I walked in a quiet small town. A place with a cold breeze and lots of trees along its main streets. The residents seemed quite friendly. Following the address written on the cover letter, I arrived at a clinic that looked more like a two-story private house. Several patients were seen queuing inside. Long story short, I met the clinic owner named Claire, her full name being Claire de Violeta. She welcomed me warmly into her office, which smelled of medications, of course, after I explained the purpose and goal of my visit.
"Who asked you to write Alex's biography?" asked the mid-forties woman. Her eyes looked black and clear. Her physique was not too small, nor too big. However, something about her and the look in her eyes made her seem strong yet gentle. From my experience, only mature individuals who have been through life's rough waves emit such strength. They have extraordinary resilience and give a calming feeling to those around them.
"I don't know," I said honestly while handing over the documents I had. "I received these letters and also received full payment."
Claire took them with curiosity and began reading. Whether it was just my feeling or it actually happened, her eyes looked moist and her lips trembled after reading. She took a deep breath trying to calm herself.
"Follow me," she said, standing up and leading me out of the office room. We walked through a long hallway towards a row of rooms with a medicinal scent. Suddenly, she stopped at a beautiful carved brown wooden door. She paused for quite, taking a deep breath, while looking at the door and then slowly opened it with a special key, inviting me into a private workspace with a distinctive scent. The aroma of sandalwood.
"This is Alex's workspace."
I looked at rows of bookshelves, a large wooden desk, a plush-looking sofa, a wheelchair, and a window facing a small garden that let the sunlight flood the room.
"What a beautiful workspace," I replied unconsciously.
"You can use this room to finish his biography, and I believe he kept his diary here," Claire whispered.
"His diary? Really?" I asked excitedly. That would make my job of creating his biography much easier.
"I'm not sure, I've never looked for it," Claire looked around the room with a meaningful gaze. Suddenly, her strong demeanor seemed fragile and lonely. "I've kept this room the same as it was twenty years ago."
Tears slowly flowed down her cheeks.
"I'm sorry," Claire wiped her tears. "There are too many memories in this place. I can't stay here too long. All these things always remind me of him."
I nodded, and Claire took out a key to hand it to me, "Take this key, you can use this room anytime. I will inform the nurse to allow you in whenever you want." She looked at me closely before adding, "He has given me too much and I have given him too little. Come to me anytime if you need help."
I watched her leave, and suddenly from behind her, she looked very fragile.
***
Jackson Bolton and Michael Prama. Two prominent businessmen who have built a world-class international company. Their company operates in various chemical products such as bath soap, cleaning liquids, food, beverages, cosmetics, and many others. Their company has been listed among the top 100 giant multinational companies.
I didn't expect that with just a phone call to make an appointment, they would agree to meet me at their office. No long appointment queues and not even an introduction from insiders. Jackson and Michael, both in their sixties with gray hair, met me, looking friendly. They took turns reading the letter I received.
"Do you know who wrote this anonymous letter?" I asked as politely as possible, curious about the author. I had met Michael Lee, the company's financial director under Jackson and Michael. The man didn't say anything about the check given to me except, 'orders from the boss.' Alex has passed away, so it couldn't be him who wrote the letter. Unless Alex didn't really die but went into hiding. A writer's wild imagination. The most likely possibility is that someone wants Alex's biography book.
But who?
They just looked at each other and then smiled. Michael handed the letter back to me. "Just tell us what you need. We are ready to help you create Alex's biography book." Michael avoided giving a direct answer; it seems he knows who the writer is. Just like Claire.
They clearly know who the writer is, maybe one of them.
"Just a few questions about Alex's life. I hope I won't take up too much of your time," I said, feeling hesitant. After all, they are two prominent international businessmen, and surely their schedule is quite busy.
"He's back," Jackson whispered so softly, leaning back on the plush sofa, his eyes staring into the distance. Michael stood up to fetch a bottle of wine with three small glasses from his luxurious drink cabinet. I declined the drink as I was still working, and I never handle alcohol well. Michael's wrinkled hand poured wine for himself and Jackson. The aroma that emanated from the bottle was so enticing, making me regret refusing it.
"I don't mind having a little of that drink," I said unconsciously.
Michael looked understanding and poured it into my cup. The same hand then raised his glass in front of me, "Don't hesitate to ask us anything. For Alex, I'm even willing to give all employees a day off and stop all company activities in every country for a day."
Jackson smiled and raised the same cup in front of Michael, "Does that mean you're not brave enough to stop it for two days?"
Michael laughed heartily, "For Alex, we'll do anything."
Jackson laughed, raised his drink, and clinked his glass with Michael's, "For Alex."
I saw their eyes glistening.
I spent three days in the capital city interviewing both of them and a week in the place where Alex was born and raised. After that, I decided to return to the small town where Claire was.
The reason being that Alex's presence was more palpable in that small town. In places like Alex's parents' house, his schools and universities, and his workplace, Alex seemed to isolate himself and limit social interactions. He lived just to pass through them without leaving any trace or shadow, not many people remembered him in those places. If they did, they only knew Alex as a quiet person with two disabled feet who often belittled himself.
They only remembered him physically. However, in that small town, his emotional existence and presence were clear, especially around Claire. He stepped out of the shell he always wore and showed himself.
In that small town, I stayed in one of its inns for several months, trying to gather information about Alex from Claire and the people around where he used to be. Several times, I worked in Alex's office, which Claire has been cleaning regularly for decades.
At the end of my search, I found out that Alex was a professor in the field of chemistry, a lecturer at the small town university, a writer, a chemistry expert, and someone who had made a name for himself in the world through over a hundred of his new chemical product discoveries using a pseudonym.
However, my instinct as a writer told me that something was missing from all of this. Like a puzzle game, there were some missing pieces from its board. There was something hidden by Alex, and I was intrigued to try to find it.
I tried to check all of Alex's legacy books to find his diary or personal notes. Three days later, after going through all of his books, I found nothing. The only place I hadn't checked was a locked drawer in his desk.
Claire didn't have the key. Which meant whatever was inside had been there for years. Remembering a small old key that was sent with the package, I took it out and tried my luck. The key smoothly entered the hole, with a slow twist, I heard a 'click' sound, and the drawer opened.
My heart raced with joy; inside were four books. I took one and looked inside. Clearly, it was a handwritten diary. Next, I read and studied all four diaries. Only then did I understand who instructed me to write Alex's biography. And the real purpose of this book was to be made with secrecy about the names of places and notes for the authenticity of the biography.
Because this book was not meant to record Alex's achievements and success in the world, although he achieved remarkable feats for someone with both feet disabled since childhood. This book I'm making will only record about him, his life, and his life journey as a human being. Recording weaknesses, mistakes, and black marks he made against those around him to achieve everything he built around Claire.
This book will tell the story of Alex and Claire and the things he kept secret until his death. Because this book contains a personal request from its requester to someone he deeply loved. However, it was something he could never possess.
Around 1980A girl dressed modestly looked nervous as she walked past several male and female students, entering a prestigious university where she pursued a nursing degree. A year ago, she wouldn't have imagined being able to continue her education at a university given her family's economic situation. Especially at one of the prestigious universities with tuition fees that made her heart ache."My mother will kill me if she finds out," she whispered softly.The only thing that kept her going through high school was attending a public school with very low fees. The money to pay for her school fees came from the leftovers of her part-time job after deducting her family's living expenses.Four months ago, a representative from a university visited her school and offered scholarships for one semester to a few outstanding students. The university only offered scholarships for the nursing department, as it was a newly opened department. Somehow, she became one of the three recipients chos
"She's always alone. She says she's waiting for the right time to go home. She never stays with anyone. Always alone.""On a late night like this? Did the girl mention her reason?" Alex muttered to himself again. What kind of parents let their daughter wander around until late at night? Ahh... parents these days, I just don't understand.The Captain shrugged as he opened the car door for Alex, "I don't know. Maybe there's an issue at her home. When the time comes, she always walks home alone.""Is her home nearby?" Alex got into his car in the passenger seat, leaving his wheelchair outside."It's about six kilometers from here. At least half an hour to an hour's walk," the Captain folded Alex's wheelchair and lifted it. He walked to the back of the car to put the wheelchair in the trunk and then moved to the driver's seat."Why doesn't she take public transportation?""Maybe it's a money issue," the Captain explained lightly as he started the car's engine. He quickly pulled the car ou
The first commercial product created by Alex was a type of floor and bathroom cleaner. His product cleaned faster and better than other cleaning products sold in stores. Praised by his mother and family, Alex became too excited and made many bottles of cleaning products, so his mother had to tell Jackson and Lily to bottle the liquids and distribute them for free to the neighbours. This was just to get rid of the strong-smelling liquids.The product instantly became famous as the Bolton Family Floor Cleaner. Lily received candies and cakes every time she distributed the product, and Jackson, along with Michael, started quietly collecting money for every repeat request for their cleaning liquid.Since then, Alex began creating various other products and never forgot to add other ingredients he believed would improve his products. He called it improvisation. Alex made cleaning liquids, shampoo, bath soap, and other products. Some products completely failed and had to be dumped into a sp
The first commercial product created by Alex was a type of floor and bathroom cleaner. His product cleaned faster and better than other cleaning products sold in stores.Praised by his mother and family, Alex became too excited and made many bottles of cleaning products, so his mother had to tell Jackson and Lily to bottle the liquids and distribute them for free to the neighbours. This was just to get rid of the strong-smelling liquids.The product instantly became famous as the Bolton Family Floor Cleaner. Lily received candies and cakes every time she distributed the product, and Jackson, along with Michael, started quietly collecting money for every repeat request for their cleaning liquid.Since then, Alex began creating various other products and never forgot to add other ingredients he believed would improve his products. He called it improvisation.Alex made cleaning liquids, shampoo, bath soap, and other products. Some products completely failed and had to be dumped into a sp
Claire tried to concentrate her vision on a reading book under the dim light of the garden lamp.She stared at the hanging lamps above the dimly lit corridor of the west wing, some of which were broken or never turned on for cost-saving purposes. It would have been better for her not to be in this place.The main building in the middle or the east wing should have been her best options. However, the main building always had a lot of people passing through.She never liked crowds. As for the east wing, it required a small fee to enter the cafeteria there. Thinking back and forth, she decided that the quiet west wing was the most suitable place for her, despite being a bit dark.At nine o'clock in the evening, she began to pack all her books into a cloth bag and started walking out of the university into the deserted streets.Some public transport vehicles passed by, and she could only watch them go. It had been a long time since she could enjoy that luxury.Every coin she saved for tra
The university became the only place for her to be alone.There, she could also study and work on her assignments, which was much more comforting than at home. Tonight, Claire found something that caught her attention in the west wing corridor.Among the dark hallway and the rarely opened room doors, her eyes spotted a new announcement paper stuck on the big wooden door of a room in the west wing."Old LibraryOpen 17:00 – 22:00"Claire stared at the announcement paper for a long time and tried to read the writing inside it once again.She knew the university library was located in the main building and always closed at 17:00. How could there be two libraries in one university?Curiously, Claire pushed the heavy door in front of her.Bright light immediately flooded in, and she entered a large room with neatly lined wooden tables. At the back of the room, there were tightly packed bookshelves leaving very little space.A fat old woman sat at the reception desk near the entrance.The w
That evening, the rain was pouring heavily outside the library.The air felt very cold outside, Claire felt so hungry and found it difficult to leave the warm library room just to enter the cold hallway to eat a small piece of her leftover lunch burger.Her eyes were fixed on Alex, who was busy working on sheets of paper on the table.Summoning her courage, she quietly took out a worn plastic package containing a cold, slightly crushed burger from her bag. Claire always took her lunch burger and cut it in half. One half for lunch and one half for dinner. She brought the food under the table.With her eyes still on Alex, her other hand slowly unwrapped the paper and plastic wrapping very slowly to avoid making any loud noise.She was sure the professor wouldn't notice her. Her heart was pounding, her stomach growling, and her mouth watering.She quickly raised her hand and slightly lowered her head to take a bite of the burger. Her eyes glanced at Alex, who still didn't notice her, an
Claire glanced at the table where Alex had been sitting earlier, noticing a neatly wrapped burger package and then looking at Alex, who had just walked out of the library door."Isn't the trash bin right next to the entrance and exit? Why ask for my help?"***That night, Alex couldn't sleep peacefully and half-cursed his own foolishness. Unfortunately, his realization came too late, very, very late.The next day, Alex arrived early to meet the library guard, Captain's wife named Dyah. He wanted to know if Claire had taken it or thrown it away.Dyah looked at Alex's arrival and before the professor could ask, "She threw it away."Alex was surprised. "What?""She took it and immediately threw it away as you instructed."Alex felt disappointed and started to move to leave the library. However, he paused for a moment and turned back to look at Dyah, "How did you know?""That you wanted to feed her?" Dyah looked at Alex understandingly. "She's been getting thinner lately. I've been worrie
That morning I received a phone call. The loud ringtone voice woke me up."Hello?" I answered, picking up my cellphone."It's Claire," came the voice on the other end of the phone. "I've read the book you left behind.""Really?" I asked as I sat up in bed. "Did you like it?""I'm afraid you forgot to include something," Claire said with a slightly choked voice, sounding like she was holding back tears. "Would you come to my place to finalize it?"I glanced at the clock, still showing eight in the morning."Okay," I replied. "I can catch the 11 o'clock flight.""I'll be waiting for you here." Claire hung up the phone.Around three in the afternoon, I arrived at Claire's clinic with Chrisna in a rental car. The nurses who knew me let us find Claire's office on our own. I let Chrisna explore the beautiful garden at the clinic as Claire seemed to want to talk privately."Are you looking for me?" I asked as I saw Claire. I could see her eyes were swollen, and she seemed to be carrying a he
In the final meeting with Claire, I asked her, "Is there any meaning behind Alex taking off the engagement ring?" Claire shook her head and looked sad. I wasn't sure if Claire didn't want to answer or didn't want to think about it. But finally, she whispered softly with wet eyes and trembling lips, "Maybe he hates me," Claire replied softly. "Because I didn't come back to him immediately. I was the one who left him alone and let him die. If I had married him, he wouldn't have died."Claire's tears flowed more heavily, "I've helped so many people, why can't I help the one who helped me so much. The most precious person to me." Claire's sadness was evident in her tone.I could only stay silent and sigh. Perhaps only Alex knows why he took off the ring.Could Alex be angry and hate her in his final moments?"Weren't you married after that?"Claire tried to stop her tears and forced a gentle smile on me, "From the start, love was never in my favor. Besides, I'm too busy with all this and
In the fourth year of Claire's departure, Alex's life felt increasingly burdensome and torturous. His weight had significantly decreased compared to four years ago. He smiled less often and was more engrossed in all his work. Some people said Alex had become more easily angered, and even Jackson and Michael couldn't persuade him to come out of his hiding place. In his spare time, Alex continuously reread Claire's letters multiple times. He always tried to convince himself that after Claire had satisfied her wanderlust, they would soon live together and have many children. Children who would run in their house's yard...Tears streamed down Alex's face. He truly wanted to see Claire return as soon as possible and be with her. Only one year remained from their agreement. After that, Claire would never leave him again. Alex often wanted to write a letter asking Claire to return immediately. However, he quickly abandoned the idea.That morning, two soldiers knocked on Alex's door in unifor
Jean looked confused."Claire is currently sure about marrying me. But sometimes I see her sitting with eyes staring into the distance. As if she wants to spread her wings and fly high, trying to reach something greater than her current life," Alex added. "I know her, and I know she has a dream inside her that she's reluctant to share with me and everyone else.""A dream?"Alex sighed. "I'm not so sure, maybe her desire to see the wider world and seek meaning in her own life. I want the Doctor's help.""What's that?" Jean asked, guessing if Alex would ask her to advise Claire."I want the Doctor to invite her as a volunteer nurse to see the world. In return, I'll make an annual donation to the Doctor."Jean became more confused, "Don't you want to marry her?""Indeed, my desire to marry her is very strong. But my biggest wish has always been for her to be happy. I want to fulfill her dreams." Alex's eyes looked moist. "She is everything to me.""I'm not sure about that," Jean replied,
Alex closed his eyes and sighed, "Go to France." The words that came out of his mouth ultimately pierced his own heart, causing immense pain.Claire looked at Alex with a hurt feeling, "But what about us? What about our marriage? What about my feelings?""You don't love me. You're just too afraid of losing a place to return to. Besides, going to France and working won't take this place away from you," Alex said. "Claire... This is your home and will always be your place to return. Nothing will change."Claire wiped her tears, "What about our wedding invitations that have been sent out?""I'll take care of it." Alex's hand took the wedding documents and crumpled them into a ball of paper before throwing them into the trash, "From the beginning, all of this was too fast and rushed. You haven't even seen the world when I forced you to marry me. I asked you to marry me because I was too afraid of losing you. I knew someday you would soon leave this place, especially after you graduate and
Alex has been sitting in his office since early morning. It's rare for him to get lost in deep and prolonged thoughts that end up with a resolution that's entirely disadvantageous. Usually, no matter how bad the situation he faces, he should still get something beneficial, even if it's just a little.Even in the worst investments, he would at least try to exit with half of the invested capital. He wouldn't be so reckless as to come out empty-handed and suffer huge losses. Alex finally let out a long sigh.There's always a first time for everything.Claire knocked on his open door, "Alex, do you have a moment? There's something I want to discuss."Alex silently stared at Claire for a long time, before finally saying, "Sit down, I've been waiting for you since earlier.""Really?" Claire entered and sat on a chair in front of Alex's desk.Alex sighed again and interlocked his fingers on the table, leaning back on the chair, "Claire, sometimes it feels scary when I can understand you as i
About twenty-four years ago, Jean had just become a volunteer doctor in that town. One night, she was suddenly awakened by a nurse to go immediately to a red-light district. The area looked rundown with houses built of wood, tripleks, cardboard, and old corrugated iron scattered without order. Jean thought she would treat someone injured, sick, or anything until she saw a pregnant woman about to give birth. She was truly surprised because until that moment, she had never assisted in childbirth."I can't..."The nurse, named Margie, looked at the doctor with a slightly patronizing look and said, "Doctor, there's always a first time for everything."Jean reluctantly suppressed her reluctance and proceeded with the delivery process. She was completely at a loss when the pregnant woman started screaming hysterically and the baby's head was about to appear.Nevertheless, Margie continued to provide support in limited Indonesian, using only a few words. "Push, push, push..."Jean tried to h
After that day, Alex and Claire were hardly ever apart. It was easy for anyone to see that they had a special relationship. Alex and Claire didn't hide their relationship. A few weeks later, Alex experienced many new things.For the first time in his life, Alex could sleep leaning on a woman's thigh. And for the first time as well, Alex let someone touch his small feet.For Claire, the happiness felt so sweet and enjoyable. For the first time in her life, she was sure there was someone who truly loved her and made her feel meaningful. For the first time as well, she truly felt at peace with her life.On top of a hill, a pair of human beings could be seen sleeping in the afternoon on a mat facing the sky. Their hands were clasped, and their faces looked peaceful and happy. A disabled man and a young girl."Will you marry me?" Alex asked Claire one day while she was in the kitchen."Clangg...!" The empty pan in Claire's hand fell and made a loud noise."Sorry," Claire quickly said, bend
"Who is it for?" Keaton asked."I'm planning to move. Please help me find a place.""Alright, I'll provide the information as soon as possible."Alex hung up the phone and sank into his thoughts. He wouldn't be able to give Claire complete freedom if he wasn't far from her. It would be better if he found a new place and let Claire stay here. Maybe over time, he could forget about Claire and accept if she's with someone else.For now, I still love her too much.That night, Claire went to a party, leaving Alex in his office. Alex secretly watched Claire leave through the window. Feeling helpless and resigned. He was the one who started this, distancing himself from Claire, and he had to accept the consequences.Several hours later as the night grew late, the sound of a car stopping in front of the house could be heard, followed shortly by the sound of the front door being slammed very loudly. The sound startled Alex, who had been staring at his work papers. The same papers that had been